I quickly heave myself out of bed and get dressed. I need to take my mind off of this nightmare. Today's gonna be a good day. I can't stop thinking about it, though. It's literally my worst fear. Having it be revealed that that's how Kaoru really feels about me. Like I'm frozen trash, not worth his company.

Mr. Puffin mumbles in his sleep. He isn't going to be happy with me. Today I leave for a little trip with Kaoru, just me and him. I invited him a week ago, just before the nightmares started. We were getting coffee when I bodly stepped up and asked him to join me on a vacation to Lukas's beach house in Norway. Yeah, it'll be pretty cold, but the view is spectacular, and a tad romantic. Another thing I must be sure not to tell Kaoru to avoid him teasing me.

Kaoru cheerily responded "Sounds like fun!" My spirit lifted and almost took me with his as I smiled my little shy smile.

"Great! The plan is to leave next Saturday and stay for four to five days. Is that alright?" His brother Yao likes to keep him around too, and I know he gets busy.

"Hell yes!" Kaoru was beaming. "Anything to get away from Mr. TMI." We tapped our paper coffee cups together in celebration.

"Oh and don't worry about Mr. Puffin. He'll be staying home." I added in. Mr. Puffin is a pretty rude bird, especially to Kaoru since he and I are so close.

I dress in a green tee that has a circular symbol on it with a phrase in Icelandic that means "Have more fun than fear." The phrase is why I like it; it's interesting and different. I put on some black jeans, my black sneakers and a grey jacket over my tee shirt and leave it unzipped. I smooth out my somewhat messy hair and depart to the bottom half of my home, which is actually Lukas's house.

Lukas, my older and extremely protective brother, refused to let me move out and live alone. His reasons were something along the line of "It's too dangerous and I don't want you sleeping with people!" To which Mathias responded with a smirk "Hypocrite." I shudder just thinking about it, because Mathias lives with us too, since he and Lukas are together. And every week or so, the two remaining nordics, Tino and Berwald, come to visit with their ebay-adopted kid Peter. I could barely convince Lukas to let it be just me and Kaoru. Otherwise, the whole family would've come, and that would be horrible.