Sherlock… you machine!
The same voice resonates in his head. Only, he hears himself screaming it at his friend. Only he still knows everything that happened, knows why it's there: He screams it at himself because of the guilt. The guilt that he let his friend fall, that he literally let him down. He always blamed himself for his friend's death, only now… he isn't dead. He's lying next to him in a hospital bed. He's real.
And he tried to kill himself. Again.
He'd shot himself in the chest, but hadn't hit any vital organs, like a miracle: his miracle. After almost bleeding to death, he was found and quickly brought into the hospital where they found out who he was and quickly called him.
Since then some time had passed. He simply sits there, awaiting the awakening of the great detective, eager to hear his explanation to what exactly happened three years ago.
"Wake up…." He whispers, stroking the pale hand of the unconscious body beside him. He sighs, still staring at the face he didn't think he'd ever see again, just wondering what could've drove him to trying to take his own life, not just once but twice.
Sherlock… you machine!
Oh. Maybe that.
Had his words really gotten to him? And if so, why did he then remain 'dead' and attempt it again so much later? Maybe Sherlock was better off without him…
Sherlock… you machine!
The voice repeats louder, reminding him again of what a horrible thing he said the last time they were face to face. But then he realizes. He can apologize, and everything can go back to normal, and for the first time since the fall, the voice in John's head stops. For a moment he's relieved but then he just wishes for one of Sherlock's deductions to break the silence again.
The only thing he can hear right now is Sherlock's barely audible breathing, his own unsteady, iregular huffs and the slight beeping of the machine taking his pulse.
"Wake up, now. Please…" He says, desperate to hear his voice again.
A/N: Yeah so there isn't much story in this, sorry! It was just a bit to clarify what happened in the last chapter, though I really didn't that much XD Anyways, hope you enjoy!