Chapter three

"Where's Olivia?" Elliot asked at the crime seen as he looked to Munch and Fin.

"She said she would take a few days off, she was feeling sick," Munch said to him as they looked around the abandoned alley.

"Oh," Elliot simply answered as he wondered if she was really feeling sick or she just didn't know how to face him and he once again hated himself for leaving her there.

Again he found himself in front on her door as he looked down at the floor and knocked listening to what was happening inside the apartment.

Olivia walked to the door as she reminded herself to check the peep hole before opening the door and when she did she instantly felt sick, she wanted to leave him standing there. She just didn't want him inside her apartment accusing her of things so she sat down in front of the door and lay her head against it closing her eyes and listening.

Elliot heard her do so, so he in turn sat up against the door and lay his head back just slightly to touch the wooden door "So we've come to this have we Liv?" he asked her softly wanting to know how they could have been such close friends and have it all fall from under them in the space of a night.

"Yeah," she replied softly.

"I'm really sorry Liv," he truthfully told her, he laid his arms on his knees and moves his head off the door to wrench down and look at the carpet.

"Me too," she says to him as she felt tiers bubble up in her closed eyes.

"It's not your fault Liv."

"You can't remember… I said yes," she said to him as she cried silently.

"Said yes to what Liv?" he enquired to her as he closely listened for an answer.

"That night you asked me and I said yes," she said as she now cried uncontrollably.

"What did I ask you Liv?" he asked as he begun to feel really confused, there could be a number of things he could have asked her but he didn't believe they would make her cry like she was at that moment. He wanted so badly to be in the apartment with her so he could comfort her and wipe her tiers away.

"I don't want to tell you," she said as she had trouble speaking through her rapid inhaling.

"Liv let me in," he said to her as he stood.

"No."

"Liv… please let me in," he said to her calmly as he just wanted to wrap his arms around her.

"No," she said as she abruptly stood, ran to her bedroom slamming the door and left him standing there.

Half an hour later when Olivia was sure he had left she lay in her bed as she quickly reached for her off duty weapon when she heard someone moving in her apartment. She stood as she pointed her fire arm ahead and walked out of her bedroom in the dark looking around her apartment with known precision. She quickly found the culprit as she told them to put there hand up, the shadow did so as she quickly walked to the light switch and turned the light on to see who it was in her apartment.

"Liv I'm sorry I just wanted to talk to you," Elliot said as he still had his hands in the air.

"What the hell, how'd you get in here?" she asked pointing her gun to him.

"Through the fire escape now can you put the gun down?"

"The safety's on anyway," she said as she put it down on the counter.

"I won't leave until you answer my questions," he said to her sharing eye contact.

"What does it matter anyway Elliot you were drunk," she said to him as she knew what he would ask her and wondered if her bedroom had a lock on it.

"I mustn't have been drunk enough not to ask," he said to her as he stepped closer to her from across the room.

"It wasn't just what you asked, it's what you said," she replied to him as she avoided his eyes.

"Tell me Liv," he said stepping closer and closer to her.

"Will you leave after I tell you?" she asked his as he was now only half a metre from her.

"If that's what you want Liv," he said looking down at her.

She felt so small compared to him, so weak and she just didn't want to be like that. She wanted to be strong but she just couldn't in his presents "You said…" she trailed off as she just couldn't say it with him staring down at her "Can you turn around?" she asked him as he then became very confused.

"I asked you to turn around?"

"No I just can't say it with you looking at me," she said to him as he thought and then turned away from her.

"You said that… that," she tried but failed again too say it as she just couldn't come up with the words.

"Yeah Liv," he said staring at something across the room.

"That-," she didn't get to say it when he cut in.

"I love you."

"Exactly," she said through new tiers "Then you asked me and… and I said yes," she told him as it felt like she was being stabbed to tell him something he didn't remember.

"Do you love me?"

"Yes, I said yes," she replied to him as she only realized what he had been saying to her when he turned around and looked down at her.

"Can you leave now?" she asked him as once again she couldn't look into his eyes, she couldn't face that truth that soon enough he would leave her here all alone.

"I would Liv if that was what you wanted," he said looking down at her with new found clarity.

"It is what I want."

"No it's not," he said as he softly took her chin in his hand and made her face him, she looked into his eyes as she had cried away her tiers but not the pain "You want me to kiss you," he said to her as just a second passed before he stooped his head to her own and softly lay his lips upon hers.