Disclaimer: I tried, I really really tried, but Kishimoto Mashi REFUSED to let me own Kakashi (wahh)…oh and Naruto too heh!
A/N: A million-and-one apologises are needed you guys, SUPER SORRY for not updating sooner! Even though exams were over a week before anticipated, school never stopped being a bother. But at long last a mini vacation has swept up and as such I'm making up for lost time. I hope before I jump into my final exams next month that I can get another chp out after this one…I cross my fingers. MILLIONS OF THANK YOU'S go out to all those that reviewed, alerted and favourited either my story or me, or simply hit my page lol your support ROCKS XD
So before I begin I just wanted to say inspiration for this particular chp came in its highest form from a certain individual who refers to me as his tenshi-kun (angel) when I must say he himself is godsent. I couldn't have written this chp this passionately without the affection you have given me koichi-kun, so this one goes out to you!
Warning: This chp contains a lemon, but for the reading pleasure of those non-lemon readers I have placed a mini warning label before the lemon beings and at its end so you can read on without fear. I hope this doesn't spoil it for you my lemon readers but I just wanted to give everyone a fair chance at reading my work. Thanks again for your support ;)
Chapter 3: That's Amore
A month has passed since I made that self proclamation about not giving up on loving Sakura that night. And somehow within those four weeks that iron will I had faded in the wind as I saw her slowly but surely distance herself from me in order to become closer to the Uchiha. And before you knew it her fairytale had come true and those of many were crushed; she and Sasuke were at last an item. I'd be lying if I didn't say I wanted to beat the daylights out of the punk that stole her from me, but then again she was never mine to rightfully claim. Here comes the kamis again conspiring against our love as usual, or maybe life was just being a bitch. But through it all her happiness was always the most important thing to me, so if it comes from the Uchiha then so be it.
Our park tradition never ceased, but with the newfound responsibility that only relationships can bring our visits were often cut short or re-scheduled to accommodate the many dates the clan reviver had to offer.
"So he's taking me to dinner tonight again. I swear he's trying to stuff me or something, and each time it's a newer and fancier place than the last. I constantly tell him he's spoiling me, but then he just looks into my eyes and says 'it's never enough, nothing is more valuable than me'. Wow, he really knows how to charm a girl ne?" she giggles wistfully as she recalls her moments with Sasuke to me. You'd think a topic like that would piss the hell out of me, but it doesn't because when I see how truly content she is with her life with him I can't help but share in her jolly. My heart still yearns for her, but I've learned that life tends to give you what you need, not what you want. And right now I can't help but feel maybe Sasuke was a better choice for her; he'd help her grow in ways my ancient ass probably couldn't, and he does seem to love her endlessly.
"Is something wrong Kakashi?" she asks me, that reminiscent glow still evident amongst her concern for my well being. I'm sure she's questioning that pensive look I'm sure my face is wearing about now as she always does after she's spoken and realises my mind has wandered off.
"No, I'm just glad to hear how much in love you are. You deserve all the happiness in the world Sakura, let no one tell you otherwise." She smiles her approval at my statement, but beneath the cherry persona I know she's hiding something. I've gotten to know her long enough to spot that microscopic tremor in the corners of her mouth when something's bothering her, however minor the detail may be.
"I think it's my turn to ask what's wrong Sakura, and before you answer be sure not to lie, because I'll know." I can see my question has caught her by surprise, but she shows no sign of trying to hide the fact that I'm right as she takes a deep breath before she begins.
"I wish I could say it was nothing, but it has grown into something over the past couple of days. And what you said just now…" Her voice slightly trails away to a whisper as I see her try to contain the pain of whatever was hurting her so. I just had to know now if the bastard was doing something to harm her emotionally and especially physically.
"How do you know when you're in love Kakashi?" she finally says as she desperately searches my face hoping to find an answer. Now I'm the one thrown off guard, but I can tell whatever it is she has to tell me that's bothering her, this needs answering first.
"Well, um, it's kind of hard to describe. Love is a very complicated emotion. It's definitely one of those things that when it happens to you, then you'll understand its meaning. It's like…" Damn it I'm stammering like an idiot as I try to provide an explanation, but as I look into those beryl pools I find myself drowning in their innocence and by some works of the kamis words are pouring out of my mouth, taken directly from my heart.
"When you love someone, that person's well being is the only thing that matters in the world to you. Any hurt they may ever feel in their life you want to make it yours so that they'd never have to know the meaning of pain. You thrive on their happiness and make it your life source. They're always number one in your mind, and in your heart, and whether you're with that person or not you're willing to die for them, protect and shield them from harms way be it physical or emotional. You're dedication to something has never been as great as it has been to eternally loving this person. The simplest of things they do make your heart sing; you could never find someone as amazing as they are, and every minute spent with them is a minute treasured for life." I hadn't known my hand was trailing the contours of her face until I felt hers pressed against mine as it rested on her cheek.
"Domo arigato Kakashi," she replied, her voice hardly above a whisper as she removed my hand and allowed a rogue tear to fall from her glassy eyes.
"Sakura…" I softly call out to her as I captured the saline droplet with my finger.
"I'm okay. I think I'm going for a walk now, care to join me?" she asks with an effervescent smile, a genuine attempt at restoring the jovial mood we were formerly in.
"Why not" and we rise to take our stroll, basking in the warmth only a glorious evening such as this could bring. During our journey we encountered a snow cone vendor so I decided to treat my cherry blossom to some sweet ice, anything to brighten her mood. Her question still stirred in my mind and I knew there was more to it, more which I'd hope to uncover before the day was over. We made a stop at a playground and by the look on her face someone was eager to relive her childhood moments.
"C'mon, tell me you don't miss these days?" she playfully asks as she hops aboard a seat and begins to swing.
"I'd be lying if I said I didn't, but I think the sight of a grown man swinging like a little girl is best suited for someone with no shame, like Gai," I reply as I opt for the monkey bars instead.
"Don't be surprised if one day your 'greatest rival' challenges you to a swinging contest," she says after a hearty laugh. "Come on Kakashi, we're bonding here. We all know you can swing across those bars upsided-down and blindfolded all with one arm, so why not give yourself a challenge huh? C'mon, you're seat's waiting." That lively mood of hers was slowly coming back, and whatever pride I had at embarrassing myself in front of the kiddies was lost as I took my place on the swing next to hers.
"The things I do for you Sakura."
"You act as if you're not enjoying yourself," she laughs as she swings higher, prompting me to go further than her. I take up her challenge and soon we're almost over the bars themselves, that is until I hear a something snap and before I know it my ass is making the best of friends with the dirt below. Ouch.
"Are you…are you okay?" Sakura manages to say amongst her hysterical cries of hilarity at my graceful fall. Can't blame her for laughing, for I too found myself in a stitch at my absurdity. She had hopped off almost immediately to come to my aid, helping me up and seating us on a solid bench guaranteed to hold my weight.
"Gomen nasai, I should've never let you join me had I known it wouldn't hold you," she says as she examines a minor scratch on my hand.
"Nah, it's okay. I should've known better than to think a child's play thing would sustain a man like me," I reply shrugging off the incident as I tried to repair a damaged ego.
"If I hadn't challenged you, you wouldn't have done it. We're both at fault, agree?"
"Agree." That instinctive radiance that can only be described as Sakura had returned, causing me to briefly query my next choice words. I didn't want to lose the moment, but I had questions and she had all the answers.
"Why did you ask me that question back at the park?" Her eyes flickered just a bit as expected, but instead of a round about response she gave it to me straight.
"You said you were happy that I had found love. I've been wondering that same thing for a while now. I care about Sasuke-kun, I really do, but where I thought I had loved him, I just…after your explanation I don't know anymore. I'm not saying I'm taking your word as bias, but that's exactly how I envisioned how I'd feel when I'm with that special one."
She takes a quick breath and stares dreamily at the crimson sky before she continues. "He asked me if I loved him once, and like I good girlfriend I said yes. I hadn't known how much more he loved me than I loved him, that is, until he asked me to consummate our love for each other."
Wait, what? That little fuck, how dare he! They've only been together for what, a month, and already he can't wait to get inside her panties? C'mon Hatake take a breath here, she doesn't need to see how upset you are. Besides she's a woman now, very much capable of making such a decision on her own. Still…
"Sakura, making love isn't necessarily a way to prove your love to someone. It's the greatest form of showing how much you truly care for the person and them for you, no strings attached, but at the same time it isn't the only way of showing affection."
"I know, that's why I didn't do it. I told him I cared about him but I wanted to be one hundred percent sure that I was ready before we took that serious step within our relationship. Truth is I'd hoped my first time would be with the one I love, but I can't tell him that now can I?"
As egotistical as it may sound, I honestly couldn't be happier to hear her say that, not because it meant that I still had a fighting chance at her heart, but because it showed the level of integrity she carried as a young woman. I couldn't be prouder.
"It's getting late Sakura, you should head home now," I say closing off the topic of her love life.
"Yeah, I guess I should. I'll see you next week then."
"Next week? But aren't you free this Friday?"
"Alas I'm not. Ino worked a double for me last week, so I'm taking her shift this round. Kakashi…thank you for being a friend for me today. I really needed to sort this out and though you didn't really do much, you've helped in so many ways you can't even imagine" and she gives me her warmest of smiles as I sense the extent of her gratitude.
"I'm always here for you Sakura, even if it is just to listen. Ja ne," I reply as I flash her my famous eye-crease smile and allow her to make her departure. Soon after I take my leave, taking in the sunset as I make my way home, thinking of her all the while.
I plop myself onto my bed and decide to pick up the latest copy of Icha Icha that ingenious sannin has released hoping to clear my mind of the girl so vehemently plaguing it. But it was a wasted attempt as I kept envisioning myself as the male character eager to win the heart of the young woman he is so desperately in love with, a girl innocent but far from naïve, compassionate yet strong in her own way, a girl very much like Sakura. The love scene written later on didn't help my mental depiction either as most recently in my dreams have I placed us in such a setting. As I told her earlier making love is meant for showing the person you love just how much you care about them, but I also stand by my word where I said it isn't the only way. She has kept her innocence for a reason and that's something I dare not take advantage of regardless if by some miracle she loves me back. It's a serious step within a relationship, and if I get a chance to share that with her I want her, no, our first time to be as magical as it possibly can.
So I take a breath and try to calm my 'friend' as I place the paperback book back onto its rightful place on the adjacent pillow and try to get some rest. I won't be seeing her for a while, but as the saying goes 'time makes the heart grow stronger', or something of the sort. How about 'out of sight, but never out of mind'…yeah, that sounds more like it.
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The week was moving painstakingly slow; only two days had passed yet it felt like four! Usually I stock up my week with missions, excepting Monday and Friday of course, just so I can occupy my mind with something other than her adorable laughs or those mesmerizing eyes. But as lady luck would have it peace was looming the lands for a change and as such only D-rank missions remained, obviously meant for the newly appointed genin. Which reminds me…
"Kakashi-sensei, stop day-dreaming and teach us something already!!" Again, lady luck worked her charm into my life and bestowed upon me a new team of rookies to train, who begrudgingly happened to be Konohamaru, Moegi and Udon. Great, another Naru-Saku-Sasu to deal with, but regardless of their similar traits to my special team they're unique in their own way. Hate to admit it out loud, but I've taken a true liking to my latest bundle of joy.
"Yare, all done I see?" Of course baka, they're practically battered. Konohamaru needs to tone down his attacks just a notch; they're powerful, but carelessly done. Moegi is living proof to that. "If that's the case then we can call it a day. It's getting late anyhow."
"Um, excuse me Kakashi-sensei, but Moegi-chan doesn't look to well," Udon says as he addresses the poor girl's limping hand. It could just be a sprain, but I didn't want to take the chance.
"Let me see." Examining it up close I see that it's worse off than I thought. Don't know how but the girl fractured her arm, and pretty bad too, but she held up as many tears as possible I'm both surprised and proud of her show in strength. So much like her…
"Alright, we'll have to carry Moegi to the hospital to let them check it out. From my experience with injuries, it looks to be fractured so we'll have to do something about it now before it worsens. If my diagnosis is correct, there will be no practice tomorrow then. We work as a team, and as such if one goes down we all go down. Boys, I ask that you check up on her as regularly as you can because the longer she stays weak, the less practice we get done."
"Hai sensei," they nod in acknowledgement as we make our way to the local hospital. Now, being with a jounin medic by now I must have learnt something medicinal from her, and it's true I could've healed Moegi on the spot if I wanted too, but like I said I didn't want to take risks with my team. Plus, a trip to the hospital meant a welcome excuse to see my favourite pink haired cherry blossom in action.
"Kakashi-sensei, what are you doing here?" her young blonde counterpart asks me as we enter the white halls of the waiting room. "Oh, what's happened here?"
"It was an accident, I swear!" Konohamaru jumps before I could get a word in.
"Well at least we know who the culprit is. It looks fractured, but I could be wrong," I say as I hand the young girl to Ino.
"Nope, you're right. It is fractured, but I'll do some scans just to see the extent of the damage. Come with me" and Moegi extends her undamaged hand for Ino to lead them to the required room.
"Um Ino, by chance is Sakura here?" I find myself asking before they leave. She seems unfazed by my sudden question, but if you know Ino there's definitely something stirring in that mind of hers right about now.
"She left a half an hour ago. I think she and Sasuke have a date tonight, don't quite know though. Why do you ask?" she says with that twinkle in her eye that meant one thing: she's just found herself some potentially good gossip.
"No reason. Can't I check up on my past pupils now?" I reply ever so charmingly.
"Don't see you checking up on Naruto and Sasuke."
"Firstly, when Naruto isn't busy training or 'researching' with Jiraiya, his time is devoted to the Hyuuga heiress. And as for Sasuke…you really think he'd want to spend time with someone other than Sakura, with respect to me? I'm just damned she actually checks up on my old ass ever so often, which is more concern than I can say for the boys. So I say I owe it to her."
"Touché," she sings back at me before continuing her attendance to Moegi.
"You boys think you can wait till they're finished or would you rather I stay?"
"Don't baby us Kaka-sensei, we're more than capable of taking care of our team mate!" Konohamaru defiantly says.
"As well as you are damaging them." I see the look of remorse on his face and I can't help but feel sorry for the poor kid. "Listen, accidents happen. Just be careful next time, okay?" I say ruffling a couple of chocolate locks between my fingers.
"You got it sensei!" Satisfied that they'll keep to their word, I leave them be and head off to pay a certain jounin medic a well deserved visit.
After our talk Monday I couldn't help but feel the need to tell her how I felt. Kami I love her so much, and I couldn't bear to see her stay one second longer in that loveless relationship. I'd never know if she feels the same way as I do, or would even accept the fact that I care about her past a friendship level until I say something. I'm halfway up the stairs of her apartment, butterflies dancing feverishly around my stomach. Inevitably I find myself with second thoughts; should I really destroy this for her for my own selfish needs? And what about Sasuke, for crying out loud he's your ex-pupil too! You're at the door Hatake, it's now or never. So what are you going to do now?
"Oh hi Kakashi, I didn't expect to see you—"
My body had moved on automatic, responding as it should to its surroundings. So when greeted with a doorbell, instinct will tell you to ring it regardless what confusing thoughts are swimming in your head. When instinct gets ruled out though, and the brain is no longer functioning as normally as it would, the only organ left capable of controlling your body is your heart. And so, I followed it.
Within seconds of my ringing her apartment she had opened the door, expecting a visitor, but clearly it wasn't me. Her eyes showed that slight confusion, yet there was a welcomed warmth at my presence evident in them as she gazed into my brown one, invitation enough for me to do as I did. With one fluid motion I had gently pushed us inside the room, slipped down my mask and pulled her towards me, capturing her open mouth within mine for the sweetest of kisses. The delicacy of those pillow-soft lips felt more divine than in my dreams as my hungry ones gently roamed them, not yet probing for complete entry. I poured my soul into that one kiss, hoping that when it ended she'd understand its meaning.
She hadn't completely opened into my gesture. Then again it wasn't something expected for one, and secondly it was a bit out of character on my behalf where our status stood as companions. There was no rejection on her end, yet no acceptance, leaving me speechless at my actions when I finally broke our moment for air and for a response.
She simply stood there, eyes half-hooded but clearly distant as she looked at me, maskless and vulnerable on all levels of the word. The few seconds that loomed from after our kiss felt endless as I eagerly awaited some sort of response from her, be it physical or verbal, and for once in this copy-nin's life he felt rather pathetic and clueless at what to do next. But I didn't have to wait long as I saw her move past me entirely and head towards the open door. That was my cue; I was no longer welcome in her house, but I couldn't leave her without a final say in my defence. The last thing I'd want to do is put a sour taste in her mouth where I was concerned.
"Sakura, listen…I'm sorry for what I did. I honestly don't know what came over me, it's just…" The closing of the door silenced me immediately. I still had my back towards her, not until she turned me around and pulled me towards her for kiss more passionate than I could imagine. My initial shock at her actions stopped my mouth from engulfing hers for a few seconds until I felt her tongue gently tease my bottom lip begging to explore more. I complied with her wishes and deepened the kiss, tasting and committing to memory every inch of her sweet cavern. I heard her moan when my fingers began caressing her face as it made its way into meshes of pink silk. No dream could ever compare to the depth of emotion and passion brought forth by this kiss, I never wanted it to end. But that damn conscience of mine kept nagging me to end it and ask her if this is what she truly wanted to be doing. It had a point though; the last thing I wanted out of this moment was for her to regret it after.
"Sakura, please stop," I manage to say before she pulls my mouth hungrily back onto hers. I knew lust was the driving force behind the her actions now, so now more than ever I had to assert myself and ensure this is what she wants.
"Sakura, stop" and I push her slightly away from me, holding her firmly by the shoulders. Those beryl orbs were glazed as she stared back at me, flustered and hungry for more. I'd never seen such a fire from her before, and as arousing as it was it scared me a bit to think she'd lost all logical thinking and was just going with the flow.
"What's the matter Kakashi, did I do something wrong?" she asks sheepishly in that innocent voice of hers. Kami why'd I have to be such a perv? I mentally shake myself free from my personal cloud of lust before I respond.
"Why are you doing this, Sakura? Why haven't you slapped me or even questioned my actions against you? I just kissed you…for kami sake I, your sensei, practically tongue-raped you just now and you say nothing?"
"Ex-sensei," she reminds me with a seductive flare to her voice now and she huddles herself into the warmth of my chest. "The reason I didn't give a negative response is because I've waited so long for you to do that." I felt my breath hitch in my throat briefly upon hearing those words, but I needed to hear it all to be sure this wasn't some sick joke the gods were playing with me again.
"I've actually felt this way about you for quite a while now Kakashi, but I was too afraid to say something. I'd always thought you'd never stop seeing me as that boy-struck girl you taught ages ago, so I suppressed my feelings…until now that is. I told you I didn't love Sasuke, but I never told you why. It's because my heart belongs to you and only you Kakashi. I'd half-hoped that when Sasuke and I got together maybe the childhood love I felt for him would resurface and I'd be able to get over you. But I haven't Kakashi, and I don't want to."
She's gripping slightly onto my jounin vest, trying her utmost hardest to stifle tears I know are going to spill over in a while. The irony of the situation was sadistic in its own way; I never wanted her to feel pain yet I was the greatest cause all along. I'm holding her closer to me now giving her tears permission to flow, for this would be the last day they ever do.
"Kakashi when you told me what it felt like to be in love, it was as though you stole the words right out of my mouth. I didn't know I could feel so strongly about someone, but I have."
"Every word I said that day I meant it for you, my cherry blossom. I've evaluated this situation so many times in my head before and tried to come up with reasons why I shouldn't feel this way about you, but I've come up empty every time." I tilted her chin upwards to face me dead in the eyes as I finished my declaration. "I love you Haruno Sakura, and I want to continue loving you for as long as I possible can."
Like magnets our mouths were inevitably drawn to each other for that moment as a flood of emotions swept up through our systems and made itself known in another zealous kiss. Her arms had found themselves around my neck again pulling me closer to her to intensify it, but that feeling of lust from before was lost as I felt her heart pour its all into the motion of our mouths, as did mine. The greedy side of me was leaving her mouth anxious to taste more of me as I took to her neck, feeling her hands tug on a couple of my silver locks as my tongue and teeth nipped and teased all the right spots, careful not to leave any markings. Her moans became a sweet song of satisfaction meant only for my ears as I continued my never-ending torment of her milky neck; I never knew skin could taste this good.
Her hands are moving now from my head to the buttons of my jacket, which set off a minor alarm in my head. I was prepared to confess my love for her, not to let things get as far as they were now. I have to stop it before we get out of hand.
"Sakura, please don't. I don't want you to do something you'd regret later on," I gravely say as I try to pry her fingers from my buttons.
"Believe me when I say I won't. I saved myself for you Kakashi; I want you to be my first, and if the kamis are nice maybe my only. You said it yourself making love is the greatest way a person can show their love for another, so let me show you how much I love you Hatake Kakashi," she tells me as her mouth greets mine for another hungry tongue wrestle. My acceptance of her decision may seem like sick reason to screw her blind to the average man, but you don't know her like I do. With that kiss all feelings of doubt I had about stopping her from making "the biggest mistake of her life" dissipated as I realised we'd far from repent this after.
She's carrying us to the bedroom now, which I'd half expected to see covered in pink frill this and pink fluff that. I guess I didn't know her as well as I thought. The walls had a rich creamy undertone, complimented nicely by soft-pink curtains which, by the way, was the only pink item in the room other than her quilt. Her collection of stuffed toys was shelved neatly on a bookshelf, a silent souvenir of her youth. But at the same time the head protector worn by a stuffed bunny as well as the several kunai and shuriken lain next to it was quick to remind you this kunoichi was a force to be reckoned with.
I scoop her up bridal style and lay her on the bed ever so gently, and as I do so my exposed eye catches a glimpse of the photographs on her nightstand. There's that picture of the best damn team ever made, but standing in the foreground is a picture of a happy couple eating mochi, clearly enjoying whatever time they were having when the moment was captured. My heart felt a pang of guilt at doing this to Sasuke, knowing well that he may care for her as deeply as I do.
"Don't feel bad about it, please don't. I was going to break it off with him anyhow when I see him tonight," she assures me as she notices my drop in mood, resting a comforting hand in the cup of my face. "And don't worry about protection either; that you'll have to thank him for actually, it was his idea" and she goes into one of the nightstand draws and lightly shakes a packet of contraceptive pills. If I wasn't grateful that this moment wasn't about to be hindered I'd have killed the little fuck when next I saw him, but I wasn't about to let my feelings for Sasuke get in the way of my loving Sakura.
LEMON BEINGS
I continue my ministrations from before, this time painfully slow as I wanted to feel her every response to the touch of my skin against hers. As my mouth is ravishing her neck my fingers begin tackling the obstruction known as a zipper, again taking my time as my hand is moving down its path, letting one finger trail down the newly exposed flesh. I can feel her slightly shudder beneath my fingertips, just as I'd hoped. I want her to enjoy this to the fullest as much as I am; if she only knew how much my pleasing her is turning the hell on inside of me. I hear a small 'click' as the zipper becomes undone and so I gently pave a way through her top in search of her breasts only to be met with another barrier: her bra. If I wasn't adept enough to take the damn thing off in no time I'd be extremely frustrated with all these obstacles right about now. I never knew clothes could be such a bother; my pants at the moment will tell you so.
At last my eyes have found the beloved prize it's been eager to seek, those lush supple breasts of hers. I feel my primal urges begin to take control of my actions but not before I can stop them. I meant it when I said this moment is going to be as special for her as it is for me, so I push my needs aside and focus my attention on loving her body as it ought to be loved. She's flushing at my staring of her half-naked body right about now, her age inscribed in the puppy-dog face she's wearing.
"There's nothing to be ashamed of Sakura, they're beautiful," I assure her as I give a small chuckle at her embarrassment and gently kiss her forehead, travelling that kiss down the length of her neck, settling in the valley between her bosom. My fingers are making circles around the area, reducing it in size as I approach a hardening nipple. Gently pinching the mound between my thumb and index finger I erect it even further, taking much delight in her hitched breathing. I did say I was a greedy man, and right now my mouth felt my hands were getting more action that it ought to, so like the gluttonous creature it is it captured the nub within its grasp, feeling her body stiffen and hearing a short cry of ecstasy as it wetness took over. My tongue lavished the small nipple, reducing it to nothing but soft pink flesh beneath its touch. Her husky prompts of 'more' didn't help its ravenous nature as it continued its small torture of her breast, whilst my idle hand was giving the other just as much attention as the first.
"Oh Kakashi, just make love to me now," she cried out in between insatiable groans of pleasure.
"Not yet," I thickly reply as I finish the rest of her undressing, again taking some time to marvel at the beauty before me. She looked immaculate, an outer depiction of the angel that lay inside her. I felt helpless to such divine beauty, so I did the only thing that I could at that point; I worshipped that glorious body…with my mouth of course.
I plant butterfly kisses along the inner walls of her thighs, feeling them close in just a bit to my touch. As I climb higher to my final destination I can sense the liquid heat emitted from her womanhood, its passion almost volcanic. Her breath is trembling as it tries to pronounce my name, and soon enough she won't have much of a voice when we're through. As my tongue crashes onto the sweet flesh between her thighs I feel a clump of my hair being pulled followed by the immediate surrounding of my head with her legs, urging me to touch more. I'm not one to argue so I comply with her bodily needs, sucking gently as I feel it swell beneath my tongue, applying a bit more pressure each time her hoarse voice begs me for more. I can feel her wetness now, an indication that she's more than ready to have me, but I wait until I feel that first surge of climax overwhelm her before I proceed with my own undressing.
As I hurriedly remove my articles of clothing I simply watch her on the bed, cheeks rosy as ever, legs lying slightly sprawled apart, and eyes dilated with immense pleasure.
"Kakashi…" she manages to say as I hover over her for the finale of our lovemaking.
"Hai my Sakura-chan?"
"I love you" and a small tear streaks down her face as she tenderly caresses my face, bringing my mouth onto hers for a final time.
"I promise I'll be gentle. It'll hurt for a while, so anytime you feel the pain just let me know, okay?" She nods in apprehension as I place my member by her entrance, slowly inserting myself as I give her walls time to adjust to the foreign entity. Her eyes are sealed shut but she seems okay as she nods for me to go further. Again, I take my time knowing well the pain she's fighting to show, so I comfort her with soft kisses along her forehead and neck, anywhere so long as it took her mind off the pain. At last I reached the barrier that represented the last of her innocence.
"Now this is going to hurt, so please bear it for the while. It'll be over soon, I promise," I whisper in her ear as I make a final thrust, deep and hard so that it'll be over within that moment.
"Agh!" she agonises as I feel her nails dig deep into my back, and my heart weeps as I watch the small river of tears flow from her cheeks onto mine.
"Gomen nasai, oh I'm so sorry Sakura-chan," I repent nuzzling into her neck as I allow her to alleviate her pain on my back.
"It's…it's okay Kakashi. I…I don't…please don't stop…" she implores as she absently rubs the area her nails recently massacred. I retreat slightly for the while as I assess the damage. Her innocence was lost with that thrust, and all that was left was for pleasure to take its place.
I begin a slow pace, again allowing her body to adjust to the new feeling. Soon we had found a steady rhythm, her thighs enclosed around my waist urging the pace to quicken as ripples of pleasure began seeping into her system. Her throaty moans carried less hurt than when I first entered so I took the opportunity to go a bit deeper with my new speed, feeling her legs buckle around my waist harder with each thrust. Her cries intensified as soon she was singing my name like a mantra; I knew she was coming close to the point of no return as I too felt the waves of ecstasy swim through me and into her. Her breath was laboured against the crook of my neck, her body thrashing about in its fixed position demanding to be released of its sexual torment. I grab her legs to press closer around my hips as I make a final plunge, her screams a sign of her release, and the wetness of our legs a sign of mine.
END OF LEMON ;)
We lay there in our fixed positions for a while, she tracing the contours of my muscular abdomen with her fingers, I spooning her neck taking into account the sweet scent that only sweat and good sex could bring.
"You're more handsome than I imagined," she tells me as she lovingly taps the tip of my nose. It is only with that gesture that I realise I'm completely naked, head to toe. Even my head protector was flung somewhere on the floor. No one, not even Kurenai, has ever seen me this exposed, and shockingly enough I was okay with Sakura being the one to see all of me, as I had of her.
"I guess we were both virgins in a sense. This is my first time being so vulnerable to someone other than myself, so consider yourself lucky," I joke with her as we shared a brief peck on the lips.
"I did, the minute you told me you loved me." That quick peck earlier quickly intensified as she wrapped her arms around me and rolled till she lay on top of me.
"Your heart Kakashi, it's racing like crazy. Did I do that?" she asks down into my chest as she places delicate kisses around that toned exterior.
"It not only races Sakura, it beats only for you," I reply as I return her gestures onto her forehead.
"You know, I read on someone's memorial stone once, 'tried everything twice, loved it both times'," she purrs into my ear with a mischievously sexy smirk.
"Really? Are you trying to incite something?" I tease back with an impish grin of my own.
"Maybe," she says seductively before we begin another round of our sweet lovemaking.
Half an hour later I find myself still naked in her bed with her asleep, cradled in my arms. I never wanted to leave, but I knew I had overdone my stay here. Within an hour's time a certain Uchiha would be here to pick her up for their date.
"C'mon Sakura, wake up koichi. I have to leave now," I murmur in her ear, slightly nibbling on her earlobe.
"You're such a tease Kakashi," she mumbles, sleep still overwhelming her.
"I know. But I have to go now, and you have to get ready for your date with Sasuke."
"Sigh, you're right. Oh Kakashi I never want you to leave my bed like this again, but I know after tonight you wouldn't have to." We share the last kiss of the evening before I hustle to put on my clothes and make my exit. I'm halfway out her door when she pulls me back in, apparently not satisfied with the kiss we shared in her bedroom as this one was much more fierce, which I didn't mind of course. After a handful of signals I trade her warm and loving apartment for my cold, lonely one. But then I remember her last words, 'after tonight you wouldn't have to'…just the thought of being in her arms again, just holding onto her like that is enough to last me through the night till I see her again. Cloud nine ain't got nothing on how I'm feeling right about now, but at the back of my mind I can't help but feel things are just too good to be true.
I pray to the kamis that I'm wrong.
Author's note: wow, that was an intense chp, and it gave so much trouble to write! You wouldn't believe the amt of times I was burdened with writer's block, esp where it concerned the lemon. I'm still super nervous as to how it turned out; I've never written a lemon like this before for one, and two it was done in a first person's present tense perspective…A MALE perspective on top of that. Sry that I'm not as skilled as my muse ShipperTrish to tackle lemon after lemon, but I hope it was good nonetheless. So only you guys out there can tell me if I kept true to the characters and how it played out by sending me some R&R love lol! Thanks again for your support otherwise, see u next chp ;)