The Dream Of Sorrows

~ Chapter Eight ~

Many A Time Passing , Without..

Contrived With Inconsistent Fluctuations

By Inuyashas Youkai

Once it was to end the streams of sorrows burdened between them from the orbs posessors whom shared the plight of a missing piece taken from them with their mates long departure away from them. Although , following through the motions in clearing a spot uncluttered by the debris of war , both the hanyou Inuyasha , as well as his brother's mate Rin settled themselves upon comfortable spots on the floor across from each other , and spoke of what each other knew to pass the time . As it was spoken both gained quite a bit as to what occurred in the pair's recollections , and even though it was often found to conflict with the words each one had told it seemed rather better than the alternative , to allow the suffocating , numbing quiet to swallow them whole.

Rin began with the acknowledgement when long ago , as both herself , and that of his brother had taken over for his watch so long ago , but since then he had became missing once coming to his demon form taken over , dashing of to somewhere unknown , and from that moment to everyone but him time had passed on without him , as he had accidentally dozed off within the tree he was settled upon, not long ago . The young woman , dressed in a familar kimono borrowing the designs that he'd last saw his brother's attire splayed about , eventually found some old papers , pictures, letters, and scrolls. Within the bundle that she found , hidden in the mess thrown to the floor , blowing in random directions around the lower levels of the castle during their task of making a space for them to move.

The pictures oddly were of both time's where the hanyou was indeed missing from her side as none of the photographs had anything of him inside, then others stranger still had ones while most could be recalled within the hanyou's memories , but some while his form was shown plain as day , but the event itself that it familiarly happened in his memories wasn't known. Although, the sight of seeing her even yet within a stilled capture was a glimpse that made his heart thud painfully within his chest with longing for her return, but it was also so good to hear that she with the others from what the photgraphs posed for him to assume , that they were still alive, especially her. To him for now , it was all that mattered.

The old papers, scrolls , and letters discovered , only told of the proof of what stood against him in not knowing the explanations as to why it was that the hanyou himself didn't know of the events , and it was like for a time he was oblivious once more, similar to the time in the beginning when he was sealed in stillness against that of a damn tree , but what bothered him the most was that his other half was separated from him , his Kagome was for a time alone when he had every intention to never leave her side. Although , aside from this feeling nagging inside him to go search for her, afraid that she was in danger without him, his brother's mate came with something to distract him from that notion , as the presence of another bundle strung together by a black leather cord met his eyes, joining the words of concern that if whatever separated them prior so long ago , could in fact threaten the same to come to pass .

As the hanyou looked at the delicately wrapped , small pile of letters seemingly written to him, as his name was written at the top , and joining the scrawled devotions in greeting , then always ended with the sentiment of love , or longing , even with the statement that he was missed , often times than not tied soon after with that of her name . Whilst started to read the first one , Inuyasha began to feel tremors of the structure the two were now in , ensuing to shake slightly, and only just getting past the words opening the conversation that he with everything in him desired to have with her in person; to hear her voice , feel her nestled within his arms , experience her loving touch , then to bestow the adoration upon her that he felt even now without her near, but it was when coming to the words penned with the wispy strokes that was simply Kagome , that with everything else it was tearing him further apart with the fact , something wasn't right.

Dearest Inuyasha ,

Where did you go , when I woke up only to find you standing outside my window with eyes bleeding crimson , as it would seem that something happened to encouraged the beast within you to emerge, then running away , maybe to protect me, or to follow what had you disappear from my side even if only a friend, and for that I am sorry that I wasn't with you to help prevent it , as now I am without you .Alone .

Even though every time that I see you now , I know that you are still somewhere inside fighting to come back , at least I hope you are, but it would seem that when you look at me as of recent that it would be my luck that you don't even know who I am anymore. Have I truly lost you , please don't let it be so , because I miss you ..

Oh , and by the way your brother whom desperately needs Miroku's wind tunnel to yank whatever that he has gotten wedged up his ass , tells me that it was you who brought me back , with his assistance , but I am confused slightly as to why , and what exactly is a mate ? I don't know what's happening , but what I do know is that I don't like it , something wrong, and Inuyasha , I'am scared .. I think more than I've been with all the battles we have faced together , even the few times with Naraku , and even the couple spars against each other resulting in the s word. Maybe cause all those other times , I still had you by my side , and I by yours , even with the reminders that you will one day have to leave mine to follow Kikyo , but it can't happen this way, not like this.

Though I'd have to say that I am sorry for every time that I used the damn thing , its one of my deepest regrets for you truly didn't deserve it , I should've found another way, but maybe it was the reason that fate found a way in having it destroyed , and while I know its true , tho ever since I can't feel you as I used too. The warmth I used to feel , knowing that we were still connected in some way when you wore it , while it was slightly forced , but now that it is no longer , the comfort of knowing what I had ,went with the knowledge of the kotodama's definite end.

Damn gotta go , duty calls ..

Love Always ,

Kagome

TBC...