The sound of sirens filled my ears.
Earlier when i saw Pauline i screamed which caused Patricia to come, when she saw her, she called 911.
Now the cops were there. One came over to me and started asking simple questions. Questions like my relationship with Pauline and etc. Then came the big question.
"Did she self harm at all?"
Thats when I snapped. "I-I can't do this. I got my phone and ran. Into the darkness that had fallen around.
Once I got lost I called the only person I could. Deucalion.
The dialtone went on forever. Then he finally answered "Rox. Its past lights out. I can't talk babe." He whispered sleepily.
"N-no deuce. I need you. Now." I said shakily.
Hearing the fear in my voice he was on full alert. "Babe. Where are you."
"I-im somewhere in the city. A-at a park... it has a big f-fountain and a forest at the edge of it."
"I know where that is. I'll sneak out and catch the bus. I'll be there in half an hour." I heard him moving, probably getting dressed.
I whispered back in tears "okay."
Literally hearing his heart break he replied "stay on the phone with me. I don't want you being alone."
Once again whispering i said "okay."
I heard him put the phone in his pocket and jump out of the window. After that he grabbed his phone again. "Holy fuck. Its cold out."
I giggled at the shock in his voice.
After that it was just silence, between him on the bus and myself sitting on a bench with tears streaming down my face.
...
I felt someone shaking me. I opened my drowsy eyes and saw Deuce. I accidentally fell asleep on the bench.
He smiled down at me "Hey sleeping beauty."
I smiled at him, for a moment not remembering today. I got up and hugged him. Thats when all the memories of today hit me. I tensed up then sobbed into his shoulder.
He held me and stroked my back. "Babe. What's wrong?"
After a few minutes I calmed down the tears, and answered him "P-Pauline c-committed s-s-suicide."
Deuce had no words. All he did was hold me until I fell asleep crying.
...
In the morning I woke up in a strange room in deuces lap.
He smiled at me. It looked like hed been crying too. I hugged him tightly. "Good morning Beautiful."
I giggled. Then he looked at me in a serious note. "Are you okay baby?"
I nodded. The paused and shook my head.
"Whats wrong?" He held my hand.
"I really have to pee." He smiled and let go of me. I walked towards the bathroom and towards the door. I paused there. Afraid to open the door. Once I did I saw nothing there.
I walked up to the sink, there i saw a familiar object on the sink.
A bloody razor blade.
I stormed out. A tinge of anger rising in me. "Deuce. Why." He gave me a puzzled look "The motherfucking blade." He frowned at me guiltily. "Let me see." I was enraged but I'm not sure why. He rolled up his sleeves and showed me all the cuts, more than Pauline ever had.
I started to cry "Deuce. You can't do this ever again. You can't kill yourself either. You're all I fucking have left. I can't lose anyone else."
"Babe... i'm not going to kill myself. I swear. But its not easy to stop cutting just like that." I saw tears forming in his eyes.
"Okay. Whenever you want to cut grab my arm, look me in the eye and cut my arm as deep and as many times as you would to yourself."
"I couldn't do that to you Roxxii. I love you too much. I couldn't just hurt you like that."
"Now you know a FRACTION of how I just felt finding out about this." I stared at him.
He understood and hugged me.
"Im sorry rox."
"Its okay" I mumbled.
He tilted my chin up and met my lips with his. I pulled away, "Deuce, not to be a killjoy but we have school."
He smiled at me and said "Fuck it."
I giggled and kissed him. He layed me down on the bed. I removed his clothes and removed mine.
...
Feeling our bodies together, the steady movement, the feeling of lust, and of love, it made me really happy. It made me forget about Pauline, just for a while.