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When Crows Become White

With the burden of carrying a dying light, a hope for co-existence with a being who is stained of darkness shall never be granted, unless a certain crow turns white.

I glanced at my fan, the fan I had carried ever since I started this journey of mine. Some say it is a useless weapon, you can never serve a fatal blow with this, but that is exactly the point. Never deal a fatal blow, just knock them off. This puny fan is what keeps me alive, it is one of the few remnant of what used to be the Gaonite civilization.

Along with the sacred talismans, these are the only things I brought when I started my journey to the City of magic, in order to permanently seal these vile beings in my body. Torment me if they want but I would rather sacrifice my own body than the world. It is what I have learned through the years, my sacrifice will never be in vain. But upon witnessing how I am still living today, how my fellow priestesses died to help me stay alive, how many of them have tried protecting the village only for it to be destroyed in the end, I learned that not every sacrifice pays off.

So in the coming days I am sure not every thing I will do will benefit me, not everything will be pure, but I will keep on fighting till I see the day when I will be free of this task of protect this delicate seal. I will fight till the day when I can finally touch other people, to be with them and get closer to them. To know more about this intricate cycle called life. I know one day it will come… even if it is the day when a crows turn white.

I will ….

"Rin... Rin! ...RIN!"

I snapped out of my reverie, I saw Lire, the elven archer I met in the ruins of the ancient civilization. From her I learned that the city I was looking for was already torn apart, centuries ago actually. To think that Gaon was this isolated from the world, maybe that is also my fate, to be as isolated as I…

"Rin!"

I broke out of another trance, it really bothers me a lot now. Wait, wait now stop thinking and start listening Rin! You started daydreaming again.

"What is it?"

"We have noticed that you bouts of staring to space are not getting any better. In fact, it may even be getting worse."

"I am sorry to bother every one of you."

"Nah, it is not everyone actually. You know of a certain Highlander and the Demons, they did not say anything at all but before we get sidetracked... Rin, as much as we want you to think over and over again you must snap out of it. Counat is long gone and the only one who can help you now is Mari, who is still missing. We don't want anyone else missing from the group right from our noses, so can you please just keep those reveries during the time we are not engaged in battle?"

"Sorry."

"I understand but try to focus a little longer. We are nearing our headquarters now, so just a few more hours and you can think over and over again. Just promise me to wait until we reach Serdin, okay?"

"Of course. Thank you for understanding."

"And one more thing, once we get home I suppose you need to spend more time with everyone. You need to know what it is to be part of the Grand Chase don't you? That is why I am telling you this, don't go near Asin. He is a rather erratic, I mean his behavior is quite odd, even crazed if you asked me."

"Why?"

"You'll probably learn soon enough. Behind you!"

I sent a whirlwind behind me. It knocked a harpy that tried to pounce on me while Lire and I were still talking. Lire shot an arrow while the beast was dizzy and it punctured right through. I cringed at the thought of killing a living thing, but I just looked away and saw a multitude of them coming towards us.

After battling the swarm of foul breathing bird beast, I saw their dead bodies piled up into a heap. The Chase said these are remnants of the forces that once had overtaken Bermesiah, a continent where we are now, a few months back. The fauna of Bermesiah used to be tame and lovable, at least that's what Arme told me, but a force of Evil from the now dead "Queen of Darkness" Kaze'Aze changed them into monsters. That was the reason why the Grand Chase was formed, to take down that evil queen, but now they had gone up to places far off to hunt down the cause of her corruption and journey through new continents. I pitied these monsters, the once gracious animals now savage beasts. I had the urge to purify them but I stopped myself from doing so. The Chase have yet to see my full capacity and I still haven't or actually can't tell them the forces grappling inside me.

It didn't take long for us to arrive at the Castle, a peculiar looking building where a ruler dwells. In our village, our chiefs dwelt among us, in an ordinary house save for a special room.

During my stay with the Chase, by talking to them one chaser a day, I've learned the vast culture unknown to Gaon, the formation of a group who are trained for actual battle, was it called an Army? I learned that the spiritual connection was researched and was called Magic, and so on. I've learned that they had a different set of Gods, or should we say Watchmen for the Gods, beings blessed with high spirituality in a continent called Xenia, to govern the world, their origins still unknown. I've learned that humans had war with each other, usually for power, a topic that I almost fainted listening to. Life was so different in Gaon, when everyone is just so peaceful and loving and ….

I have talked to almost everyone now. The demons just let me watch them train, a certain Highlander has let me watch him sleep, and Jin had let me see him meditate, although this was short-lived because Amy decided to paint his face while meditating.

Amy let me peer and "play" with her weapons, weapons more bizarre than my fan, Elesis and Ronan talked about a war. Lass told me more about that war, Lire just told me stories of their journey. Ryan led me into their home-grown forest, and Lime babbled about the Ancient Gods, I asked her about Agnesia, she just tilted her head and told me that what she knows that the Goddess just suddenly disappeared. The only person I haven't talked to yet was Asin.

A tried approaching him but he always runs off to who knows where, always finding a place to hide. When I tried approaching him in his meditation, He usually ignored my antics, something I respect him for, now that is true meditation. He is not tough guy to talk to. Usually he is just an eyesore for the rest of the chase, popping out of nowhere, saying sarcastic stuff then popping out again. Sometimes, he just smiles for no reason, laughing all the way when beating a poor monster down. I admit this guy might need to tighten his mind's screws.

One time though, I saw him by a bamboo grove, there with a sad expression and closed eyes. I silently tried going near him, but being the klutz that I am, I tripped and fell over him. He seems to be asleep though and when I tried getting Up, I felt myself being pushed down along with my breath being taken away.

I saw Asin, straddling me with a face I have never seen before. Was it because I woke him up? Was it because of something else? Could it be because of hidden lust? My mind stared dimming, but I could remember his face suddenly changing, from bloodlust to a shocked one. He ran and he ran deeper.

I felt his pain, I saw it in his eyes. Only if I could get closer to him, maybe I'll see someone who can understand by demise. I pondered on Him, he looked so irritating back then, but after seeing his rather shocked expression I felt pity for him. I don't know why, certainly it was not love, but I felt that I built an unknown connection with him, as if somebody close died in his arms. But how can I be sure? How can I be so confident that he can share with me at least a part of my burden to know more about the war of light and darkness in me and outside me?

Can it be because I saw through his façade? That I saw him not a cool flowing river, but a torrential stream, going through internal chaos. I wish I knew why, but I felt I must first answer a question.

When can a crow turn white?

A/N: Okay minor changes thanks to Mr. Folk for fixing it.