Cammie POV

I opened my eyes sharply and the sun was streaming through the window to my right. And to my left…well, almost under me, was Zach. I was lying next to him again and somehow we had both gotten wrapped together again. I sighed and decided to wait for him to wake up and move.

Last night I had gotten the slight suspicion that Zach was keeping something from me, based on the way he answered and dodged my questions and suggestions about our next plan for the mission. But today, no matter what he said, I was going to try to get us to go somewhere and do something productive. Because while this might feel like just another mission for him, it's my first CIA mission, and I didn't want to sit around and wait for things to happen and just have it be average.

I breathed out in relief as Zach's eyes fluttered open and then widened when he saw the position. "Wow, you've got to get better control over yourself," he commented, smirking at me. Not like I didn't expect a cheeky remark like that, I had been hearing them every single morning this trip.

"Wow, you've got to stop acting like I actually like you and can control how I move when I'm asleep," I said in the same tone, pushing the covers off of me.

He raised his eyebrows and pushed the covers off himself as well, standing up to stretch. For a moment I stared at his abs (again he wasn't wearing a shirt) but shook my head and went downstairs to fix myself some breakfast.

He followed me into the kitchen. "Can you make me some cereal?"

"Nope," I said and he hesitated for a moment and nodded his head and then began making it himself.

"So how did you sleep last night?" he asked conversationally.

I looked at him with suspicion. "Fine, why?"

"I don't know," he answered, shrugging.

"Did you do something last night that I should know about?"

"No," he said, struggling to hold back a grin.

"Zach," I said flatly. "What did you do?"

"Nothing! Why do you have to doubt everything I say to you?" He raised his eyebrows at me.

"Because you're Zach Goode," I answered. My mind tried to replay everything about last night.

I had come home late afternoon after shopping and he had been on the laptop (based on the sound of it slamming shut as soon as I opened the door). So my best guess was that he had been doing something on it that he didn't want me to know about. The only issue was finding out what that particular thing was. The problems with trying to get that information were 1) Zach Goode is very good at keeping secrets, 2) He obviously wasn't going to tell me anyways, and 3) Maybe it would be something that I wouldn't want to end up knowing.

Zach made himself a cup of coffee and went to sit down on the chairs overlooking our nice window view.

"I thought London was supposed to have bad weather," he called, turning to glance at me and then turning away.

"Not all the time," I answered, "obviously." I went over to join him in watching the window outside.

"Do you ever wonder if there are other people out there in London on a mission just like us?" he asked me.

I nodded. "I wonder if all these missions are closely monitored by out of action CIA agents to make sure nothing goes wrong."

"Like our every move outside of this hotel is being watched," he agreed.

"I realized that when we got the tickets to the ball earlier," I told him. "When someone came to the door and called us by our agent names. It was like they all just have everything set up perfectly for every part of the mission."

"But that can't be right," he countered. "People go MIA, people die."

"But are all of those really by accident?" I said sharply. Zach looked over at me with confusion but I could tell that beyond that confusion was some understanding.

"What do you mean?"

"My dad was a great spy, Zach," I said. "I can't imagine anyone capturing him and killing him because he knew so much. He knew every single secret on how to do anything. Sometimes I wonder if he actually knew too much that the CIA began to feel worried, not the enemy…"

"So you're saying you think the CIA offs everyone who doesn't play along with their games?"

"Maybe," I said. "I'm sure that there are actual missions out there that need to be done but I don't think they want us to know more than we need to."

He laughed. "Then don't go around saying that."

I rolled my eyes. "Way to go, Zach. Are you ever serious about anything?"

"That would make everything so much less fun," he replied. "You've got to loosen up, haven't you?"

"No!" I said indignantly. "I'm fine."

"How about we go out somewhere today then? We don't have anything better to do, Cammie," he pointed out. His eyes looked bright and eager.

"But we could go searching for clues," I said weakly.

"You won't find clues unless you know where to look," he said simply. "And if we go somewhere there might be clues there anyways."

"Where did you want to go?"

For a moment his eyes darkened a little as if he were thinking really hard. I could almost see him trying to decide on something and I leaned forward, as if that could make me understand his thoughts. It had just seemed a couple moments ago as if he had someplace right in mind but now it was as if he didn't really want to go there right now and was trying to decide what to do.

"Let's just…let's just go walk around the city," he said finally, cocking his head to the side as if still debating over something.

"That's a bit anti-climactic," I said, raising my eyebrows.

"Well what did you want?"

"I wanted you to say the first place you thought of," I said flatly.

He smirked. "I didn't really have a place in mind." But he made it obvious that he did have a place in mind with his I-know-something-you-don't expression. He was clearly saying to me, without speaking, that he was lying to my face and I couldn't do anything about it.

"Then you're a very good liar," I countered.

"Maybe I'm not lying," he told me. "Maybe I never was."

And then suddenly I got the feeling we weren't talking about fun places we could visit.

"Maybe a trained spy like myself can tell when someone's lying," I said carefully.

"Maybe a trained spy like yourself can make mistakes," he said quickly as if he had all of his lines in this conversation pre-planned.

"Or maybe a trained spy like yourself can, too," I said. "Except that it wasn't actually a real mistake because you knew what you were doing the whole time and still did it," I added bitterly.

"Or maybe you're wrong," he said simply but his eyes had a hard look.

"Or maybe I'm just sick of shit," I said in the same tone with the same look.

We both just glared at each other until I took a sip of coffee. "Ow – god that's hot!" I cried out as my tongue burned. Zach's face relaxed a bit and he even let himself laugh a little bit and I could feel the tension lessen.

"Alright, let's go somewhere outside, shall we?" Zach said after I had gotten over the coffee scalding my mouth.

"Sounds good," I said with a laugh.

...You know what I'm going to say. Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry a billion times plus another billion times! I'm so so so so so so SO sorry I'm the worst person in the whole world! When was the last time I updated, like over five months ago? I don't know, I just know it's been a REALLY long time and I feel SO bad about it.

This is probably going to be a really long author's note again so if you hate stuff like this, just ignore it and thanks for reading and I'm going to try to update ASAP because I felt so bad for letting it go so long!

But if you are going to read the whole thing, thanksss!

Okay so first of all. Sorry sorry sorry. Okay I'm going to stop saying that because if I were you right now I'd be like "Shut up we get it you're sorry." So I'll stop. Just know that I'm honestly so sorry. I would log into my email and there would be like "So and so has favorited your story! So and so has written a review! So and so has subscribed to your story! So and so has subscribed to you as an author!" and while I'd be like "Aww, thanks so and so!" I'd also be like, "I'm being a terrible person by not updating" and even today I got a few emails like the ones I just mentioned which really made me be like "It's summer now. I've got to get my game face on and write for these lovely readers!" So I did.

BUT before you're like "Umm, we get she's sorry, but that doesn't explain WHY she didn't write at all!" I'm going to tell you. A lot has happened since I last updated. I mean, mostly I didn't update because I still had 0 ideas (even though all of you sent in lovely useful ideas, I just couldn't figure out how to use them yet), but there were other reasons. I had 0 ideas because I wasn't really thinking about the story and how to progress with it. I just went through some really tough times this year. My dog that I grew up with is probably going to die in a year. My grandmother has Alzheimer's. And I've just felt really alone lately because I feel like my family hasn't really been supportive about me. But don't worry, don't be like "Aww no!" because I found ways to cope by myself and I like being independent now. So I'm okay with it now, I'm getting through it. Okay, that little "story" isn't as impressive as I thought it would be and it doesn't really make up for anything. In my head it sounded more dramatic so that it would be understandable. But just please take my word that I've been really stressed and worried lately, and please don't be like "That's all it takes for her to feel like her life is in a dark spot? I have way more struggles," just please understand that for me it's been tough and that I just sort of brushed over the surface of what it's been like lately. I never expected anything in my life to actually go away one day so all this and more has had quite a blow. I honestly do feel really bad for not updating though.

And this chapter was really short. Sorry. I've broken like every promise I made in the beginning (my Author's Note, if you read it). Ah, no, maybe not all, but pretty much all. Just kidding I don't know what I just said. But I've broken a lot of those things that I was like "I hate when authors do that!" But I did it anyways. This chapter was SO short and I'm sorry but it's the best I could come up with! And I feel like it's sort of opened a few new doors for ways to move on with the story. I've just got to create new things for them to do so I can build their relationship more and get on with the mission/story. And I'll tell you now that I've thought of some pretty insane ideas for the story (there might have been a little foreshadowing here) but when I say insane I dont mean like crazy good ideas, I mean ideas that are a bit of a stretch and actually, frankly, unrealistic. So I'm trying to decide if I should use it or not. When I get desperate again I'll pull it out. I have to say, if it weren't so unrealistic, it would actually be quite the plot twist. But I might have some ideas that I can use to make it more believable, so please bear with me! BUT STILL ALL IDEAS WOULD BE REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY (I'll stop because you get the idea) APPRECIATED.

Anyways talk about this chapter now. Oooooo some possible drama at the end? Will Zach ever get the chance to explain himself and have Cammie believe the story? (I partly haven't had him explain it yet because I don't even know what the reason would be myself, I just know that he actually was telling the truth that he didn't cheat haha but I'm thinking of ideas. If you've got one on what could've happened please share :). * Oh and when Zach was like "deciding" whether or not to tell Cammie something (in this very chapter) I think we all know what he was deciding to go to ;) Remember he just found out an address in England to go to! But by bringing her there he would have to admit that he looked up John, so would he really be willing to put his pride aside and tell Cammie for the sake of the mission? Read on to find out! Just kidding you can't read on because I haven't written anything more and am still figuring out answers myself. Sorry that's really unprofessional, I'm like "I don't even know the end of my story myself lawlzzzz" but just know I do have some slight like outlines in my head. Anyways... and is Cammie doubting the CIA? Where did this all come from? Are her theories true? Hmmmmmm! We'll just have to find out. But I shouldn't say that because you can't find out until I write the next chapter which will hopefully be soon. But not until like 10 days from now because I'm going to Hawaii in 2 days! But I'm bringing my laptop because my dad wants to be able to have Google (I'm the only one with a laptop in the family) so I'll possibly be able to write it! But maybe not because it'd be awkward if anyone in my family saw me writing it because they'd be like "Umm Allie what" because no one knows I write except you and me! I don't want my family reading any of it. So this story is just between you and me. But I will honestly try to write ASAP. Serious this time. The guilt was like killing me every day. I felt so bad. I was like "Why am I such a terrible person!" Haha Sorry I'm acting really conceited like "All these people need me to write, I'm their God because I'm sure all they do at home is wait for my next chapter all day because it really means that much." But just know it's not like that, it's just that I feel really bad for putting it off so long especially with all the encouraging reviews and brilliant ideas.

Speaking of great reviews...Here comes the thanking portion! First I'd like to say that every single review made me feel so much better about my review. Something I've had issues with my whole life for whatever reason is self-confidence. No matter what anyone says I always put myself down but it really did help me when you guys gave me lovely reviews and made me feel like you actually cared what I was writing. Plus it was cool that some of you actually read the author's note because in most stories I skip it like "This stuff doesn't matter" but now that I actually write Author's Notes that are practically longer than the chapter I realized that I feel like it does matter and it's nice that you read it. Seriously guys this is like longer then the chapter. Anyways... *please note that all these thank-you's are not in order of favorite to least favorite, it's just in the order my email got them! Everyone is so appreciated * And oh a new twist! I underlined your usernames that reviewed so if you don't really care about what I say to other people you can just see your name right there! Haha thankssssss

Thank you XxCandyygirlxX, your reviews are so sweet! I'm pretty sure you reviewed before (sorry it's hard to remember because it's been so long) but I'm almost 99% sure that every other review was just as supportive! Thank you :) And Georgied your review was really great and had lovely insight / great ideas that I will be sure to incorporate at one point! It wouldn't be the same without someone from the gang I agree. Thanks so much :) RoyalCrown29, I loved your review so much! I just smiled stupidly at my computer when I saw that you said I was a great author, it meant so much honestly :) And glad to know you read my Author's Note haha when I wrote it I was like "No one's gonna read this." But you did! So thanks! Haha thanks so much for the lovely review :) mchammer4 thanks so much! I love how a lot of the reviews are like "Oh my gosh" it makes me feel like you really care haha! It was lovely, thanks for the sweet review :) Megatron13 thank youuu! I remember you've consistently had really great comments, it's great to hear the feedback and thoughts on the story! Glad to hear you like Zach's POV, I'll probably throw a bit of that in there later too :) Thanks so much for the reviews, I really appreciate them all! Thank youuuuu love :) PheoNox haha I was like "Awww haha" when I saw your review. Short and sweet! Haha and I think your name is a bit familiar too :) So thank you for the review(s), you're really sweet, glad to hear you liked the previous chapter :) Thanks! Shastafire Oh my gosh your review was really helpful! I appreciate it so much, it's given me loads of good ideas to keep the suspense up. And thanks for the compliments on my writing, dear :) And sorry about the not-updating I'll get better about it :) GenuineQT your review was amazing, I love the long ones! First of all, no I couldn't hate you because you didn't review, I'm just happy you're reading it! And actually I've only reviewed like 2 fanfictions my whole time on here haha so you're fine :) And thanks for your tips on how to get past the writer's block, so helpful to me, honest, so thank you. And it's good to know it's not actually that similar to Mission Of My Life, glad I got that cleared up because I was a bit worried the author of that would be like "Omg she's copying me I've got to start a rally against her." But thank you SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH for the ideas and tips to better my writing, like honestly I can't even say how much I appreciate it. I'm definitely going to use those ideas and save that review in case I get more block. Thank you soooooo much love :) Hungergamesfan654877 thank youuuuu so much! The compliments are so sweet, thanks for the encouragement :) And noooooooo, your ideas were brilliant, I'm definitely using them at one point! Even if you don't think your ideas are helpful, they are! Everything is, I really appreciate it :) Thanks! And thanks to ALL of you who are reading and reviewing or just reading! Just following the story is apprecited :)

I just said appreciated like a million times. Okay sorry that was SUCH a long paragraph but I love you all so much and I'm so glad you're reading :) And sorry if I sound British. I'm actually American haha but I love saying British phrases especially from Harry Potter :) Anyways.

Okay I officially think this Author's Note is longer then the whole chapter. But that's because I had a lot to say! But I don't really know what to say now even though I thought I did, so I'll just stop rambling. I just want to say that Coldplay music is the most brilliant thing ever. And Harry Potter and the Hunger Games are amazing. Sorry that didn't really have to do with anything, please don't think I'm really random! I don't like when people say "I'm so hyper and random hahah please laugh at what I say and do." If you're one of those people don't take it the wrong way, I just don't like when people try too hard to be funny. Like if you're actually random and hyper we can all tell, no need to tell us. But honestly I'm not, I just get to rambling.

Next Chapter: Not really much idea! Possibly Zach and Cammie will get to talk a bit more and hopefully become a little better friends (but no, they won't get together and no, Zach won't get to completely explain himself). Possibly there will be more action. Possibly anything will happen. But the first things I mentioned are actually quite probable.

Fun Fact: Ally Carter has won 11 (or more) awards for here bestselling books which have been published in over 20 countries.

Okay, so to sum it all up, I'm so sorry I didn't review. But I'm really thankful for all of you so much and I would love if you'd give me some ideas and thoughts and feedback! But I'll still update whether you do or not (if I have a chapter written). But ideas are verrrrrrryyyyyyyy welcome. Very. So thanks though. You guys are amazing! Sorry for the wait, I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that I'll update in less than one month! I'll motivate myself not to break that promise because I'd feel even worse lying to you all because at least before I was like "I probably won't update for a while because of lack of ideas." But this time I actually gave myself a deadline so it's serious now.

Oh my it's 12:00 (midnight) right now. I've got to be in bed, I didn't think it was this late! Normally it's not late for me but tomorrow I've got to get up earlier then usual! Pooooooooo

Okay thanks so much everyone! Love you all! :) xxxxxxxxxxxxx