Omg, this has taken ages to complete! I really think I should keep going, I know how annoying it is when people abandon their stories and I don't wanna be one of those people. So….here goes.

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5:00

My room (still with Josh)

"How's your dating life been?" Josh asks me.

"Decent," I say, moving an inch closer to him, once again. Now my shoulder is against his, "I've dated a few boys. You?"

He just looks at me and sighs, "Actually, Libby, that's why I wanted to come to yours…"

OMIGOD! HE FEELS THE SAME WAY!!! THIS IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE!

"Oh Josh!" I cry, "I like you too!"

And now it's time for the kiss…

5:10

My bed of pain

Merdi. Double Merdi! Josh does not love me. He never did. Actually, he was pretty "polite" about it. After I tried to kiss him, he informed me that he has a girlfriend (probably little miss Barbie Evens.) and he came over because he wanted some love advice from me-on when to kiss her! How am I supposed to know when to kiss Stacy Evens? And didn't I see him kiss her at the park.

Josh apologised for "putting my hopes up" and hoped we could still be "good friends." So I grabbed Pantalitzer's head and whacked him. He started to run away and I chased him, then I realised I was wearing high heels and fell down the stairs. In front of Josh.

Have put myself to bed now. I hear the door open. Must be Georgia. Mutti and Vati are at yet another Abba night.

5:02

I used to go to those things. And sing dancing bean or whatever you call it. God I have done so many things I regret. Like the "stwipper" show at nursery. And Josh. OH, SHUDDUP BRAIN, SHUDDUP ABOUT STUPID JOSH!

Twenty seconds later

He is sort of cute though.

Ten seconds later.

Okay, okay, very hot, happy now?

5:10

Georgia came in to my room.

"What are you doing in bed at like 5?"

"Dying." I answer, throwing the covers over my head.

Luckily, unlike Mutti, Ginger knows when to leave me alone.

11:00

Mutti and Vati came in, acting drunk and singing some stupid song. How can they sing when their own daughter is dying?

5:00am

I dreamed that it was my funeral. Hardly anyone was there, in the front row were Bex, Sam, Elly and Danz, crying. Angus and Gordy carried my coffin to the front. Stacy Evens and her gang were laughing. Nobody really cared. If I wasn't already dead, I'd have killed myself. Then suddenly Josh rushed forward,

"Libby! Nooooooo!" he shouted, running towards me. Stacy tried to pull him back, but he threw her away and jumped in my coffin with me.

Ahh, that was a nice dream.

6:02

Unfortunately, it was a dream, not reality. And I cant believe I'm saying that.