Chapter 5

Elisha's POV

It had been a grueling weekend full of nothing more than housework and studying. After the session with Edward on Friday I was more optimistic about A+P today. Last night had been nightmare free so I felt more energized when I awoke at the usual time of 7:30am. Without the nervousness I found I was ready by 8.15, a total of 45minutes before I had to be at college. Laura had been in Port Angeles since Saturday and wont be back until tomorrow. So I grabbed my things and decided to just leave, I would sit and read abit more in my car when I was there. I really needed to ace this test today with Mr. Green, if not I'm sure Edward would be disappointed. In me, his tutoring skills and infuriated about me being transferred in to all his classes.

When I got in to college I took my usual seat and looked over at Edward, he was staring straight in front of him, although I didn't expect anything more. I was pleased that when Mr. Green began I knew what he was talking about, I felt like I had my head finally out of water where as before I was in too deep. The new knowledge I accomplished just gave me more a buzz because I understood how it had occurred. When it finally came to the test I was done after 20 minutes. When I'd placed my pen down I looked over at Edward to see he had already finished, but that didn't surprise me, he knew his stuff, I admired the high standard of intelligence he had for his college work.

I looked up to notice everyone walking to the front to give their papers to the lecturer and confidently, I did the same.

I'd been sat waiting for I don't know how long, but it seemed long enough, my leg was bouncing in anticipation with my hands clasped together in my lap. Again everyone started to disappear until it was only me and Edward left. Mr. Green curled his finger at the two of us indicating for us to approach the front of the room.

"well done Elisha, 92%" he congratulated when we reached him. I couldn't keep the big grin off my face, I must have looked stupid but I didn't care, it was the first score over 50% I'd had since coming here.

"thank you Mr. Green, but it's all due to Edward, he was so helpful at the session on Friday" I said still smiling and looking in his direction. It looked like he forced a smile back at me, I hoped using a little butt-kissing would convince Mr. Green a little bit more but what he said next made everything crash down.

"well yes, he is the best, so I want to give you two another study session slot so he can help you with other subjects other than just mine" he stated like it was a good thing. Of course I had no objection, although I did have slight worries for my well being, because when I looked at Edward, he was looking furious.

"how about today and right now, you both have a 2 hour gap between your classes, it's perfect, Edward you can help her with her next class, health & safety" it seemed more like a demand, before we had chance to say anything he walked away back to his desk to look at the test papers again. I just stood there with my mouth hanging in shock.

"Edward, 100%, well done" he said cheerfully. Edward looked like he was about to lunge himself at the lecturer but instead he marched out the room, and hesitantly, I followed.

Edwards POV

I stormed off to the library certain she as following because I could hear her footsteps, I love vampire hearing. I agreed to do the session on Fridays to help her and so I wouldn't have to be around her as often as needed and now MR. Green decides to give us another study session? This is just my luck, I didn't want to become involved with a girl, not as a friend not as anything, especially someone who reminded me so much of the one person in this world I had loved most. It still hurts me, every time I caught a taste of her smell, it twisted my gut, she was something I wanted and something I needed but still at the same time something I was repelled by and something I wanted to avoid. I had no intention of having a repeat of what happened five years ago.

I threw my bag on the same table as I'd chosen Friday and unloaded my bag before dropping it at my feet and sitting in the same chair. Within seconds she was standing next to me.

"it's not your fault, you did what I wanted you to do, you aced the test" I looked at her not wanting her to blame herself but I could see it all over her face, she knew this isn't what I wanted to do with my free time. We sat in our seats for a few minutes in silence, she was sorting out something in her notebook, turning pages, looking in her bag for a pen, stuff like that. I sat there, next to Elisha, still smelling just like she looked, sweet and luscious. Every time I see her it takes all I have not to get too close, not wanting to feel the closeness of another girl, especially someone who smelt so delectable.

She nodded, I knew I didn't want us getting close but this shy stuff is just getting irritating.

"health & safety? You think you have it bad, this is the subject I hate most" I spat out with a look of disgust. In that second I heard her squeak with laugher, keeping her hand over her mouth trying to muffle the sounds.

"shh, this is a library, you wanna get us kicked out?" I snapped, but my face softened and I felt my lips twitch again. I shook my head and turned my attention to the books, picking up the one I always dread reading.

"this is exactly what we need" I said and flipped it open.

After an excruciating hour of health & safety it was time for lunch so we packed out bags and instead of me rushing I walked beside her to talk more about her work.

"I finish my basic medicine class 15 minutes before you leave class. I will be waiting for you after class so you can show me the results of your test" I informed her. She looked up at me and nodded, okay that's it!

"look I know we don't get on that well but could you please reply without using head movements? It's getting irritating" I said firmly. She looked at me with bulging eyes and her jaw drooping low.

"I'm sorry" she murmured, the rest of the walk to the lunch work was silent. Without looking back I sat at my table praying for the time alone on pulled out a book along with a can of soda, just for decoration.

It was the end of the day and I was waiting expectantly outside the health & safety lecture room. Again I could smell her, reminding me of what I'd lost and what I wanted more than anything else in this world. I pushed those feelings to the back of my mind along with the urge to pull her close and relish in her, the way I had done years ago with the one that broke my heart. Finally she came out and snapped me from my thoughts, staring at the paper in her hand, almost engrossed in it.

"hey" I said catching her attention. She bit her lip and handed me the test paper, I felt worried. I took it from her and looked at the score in the top corner.

"80%, not bad. I'll see you Friday" I said handing it back to her and turned without looking at her.

Later that night I drove to her house, well, her fathers, Charlie's house, ironically it was only a small 5 minutes away from Elisha's. I didn't know what I was doing here but I needed something to happen, something to finally help me get a grip, I couldn't be in the presence of Elisha without her infecting my thoughts. I must have been there for hours because I stared to see the sunrise. I looked at the clock in my car, it glowed 4:45am. Sitting here was no longer doing anything for me, it was pointless, she wasn't coming back. And there was somewhere else I desired to be.

I started the engine and drove those silent 5 minutes until I'd arrived at the little white house, with it's beautiful green grass, white picket fence and a shiny, black Ford Focus.

However sitting in the drive didn't satisfy me. I got out the car and made my way up the lattice and pulled myself up onto the entrance way rooftop. I stood looking directly into her window and disappointed because her curtains were shut. As quietly as I could I lifted the window and pulled the curtains open. Careful not to wake her I stepped inside, the good thing about being a vampire is I could vanish in second.

I knelt down at the edge of her purple covered double bed and gazed. She was so peaceful and I sat there for what felt like only a short while before it started.

She began making a frustrating squeaking sound, her face crunching up into a pained and desperate frown. What is she dreaming about? But this wasn't a dream, it was a nightmare.

She began jerking under her sheets, kicking her legs slightly as her sounds became more intense. I had never seen anything like it. I noticed a glistening cover of sweat coat her face as she began panting. Her hands were clutching the duvet and some of her body parts started quivering.

I felt helpless, I remained rooted by the side of her bed, staring at her once so beautiful face, now flooded with anguish. I bit my lip, concerned, I didn't know what to do, and there was no possibility of my leaving her in this state.

She lay on her side and her hair had fallen in her face as she shook, it began to annoy me as it flicked side to side with every wrench of her head. I placed my thumb nail between my teeth, I was never one for biting my nails, but this was frustrating, to say the least.

I sat for a while watching the scene in front of me unravel, the glisten of her forehead had spread to her entire body. With every jerk of her gentle body I felt my fingertips twitch. The feeling was unfamiliar to me, well, at least of recent. I was baffled by my own body's reaction to Elisha's state, but after a while it clicked in my mind. Her body trembled as she continued to yelp, almost as if she were in pain, and with each yelp she released, I grimaced in return.

I bit down harder on my thumb nail, it didn't know who was in more agony, her or me. I resisted the urge to touch her, ignoring the hair that dangled over her face. That same piece of hair that covered her eyes had become damp. I stared at it intently, distracting myself from her quivering form, but the more I monitored it, the stronger the urge was to move it. I sighed, I couldn't take it anymore, I gave in.

I reached out to delicately brush the soft and moist hair away from her face, stroking it behind her ear. Suddenly I noticed her moans had stopped, I kept my hand completely still and continued to observe.

Her jerks dissolved into tiny shakes and slight twitching, her breathing became more steady. After a short time she was completely back to normal. Looking content in her dreams, with no evidence of the recent event other than the slight glittering of her skin in the moon light.

From that moment I realized, it felt like something had hit me in the chest. The warmth and softness, it reminded me so much of her. Although I enjoyed the sensation in a new way, because it was a new person. I didn't want to move my hand away. I kept it there, stroking those strands of hair that I'd pushed back from her eyes. I really shouldn't be doing this were the only words circling around inside my mind.

If I had a beating heart, it's beating would be increasing dangerously fast. I licked my lips, I felt the urge to get closer, to feel it again, the comfort I used to get. Hoping she would fell it in return, which I was sure she would have, evidently because I strangely managed to calm her in her nightmare. I stared at her more, she seemed so serene as she slept, no snoring or talking in her sleep, just heavy breathing. Her face was soft and peaceful and I couldn't help but feel captivated by her. The fact I couldn't read her thoughts, irritated me, even more, I wished I could read her dreams. Always it has been that I could read anyone's mind I wanted, but with Elisha I'd have to ask the questions, there was no way of cheating-avoiding the awkwardness that came with those questions-and reading her mind.

Again, I had the feeling of déjà vu.

I remembered when I couldn't read her thoughts either, I was frustrated by it so much but now I just smile at it. How ironic that I've found another girl who's mind I can't read. The frustration this time round was welcome, I liked the familiar feelings I'd once had. I had to admit to myself that my attitude towards Elisha was very ride and uncalled for. I know I'm the one with the problem but I shouldn't be taking it out on her, infact my behavior towards Elisha had been completely unacceptable.

I came to the conclusion that maybe I should cut all the jerk behavior out. Maybe even become friends. The only thing left was for her to forgive me and hopefully we could turn over a new leaf. But I still couldn't ignore the nagging in my gut, telling me to keep away from Elisha, it's gonna cause trouble all over again. I thought about it for a while and decided, I just didn't care what happened, I'm not going to die anytime soon, so what ever bad happens, I have an eternity to get over it.

I stroked my thumb over her warm soft cheek, feeling buzzing in the tip of my thumb and palm as it brushed over her warm supple skin. I saw the dawn peeking into her room, morning was imminent. I had to leave now or her room will begin to glow with glitter and I really didn't want to risk waking her, or explaining why I shimmer like a charismas decoration. I stood gently and left as quietly as I came, taking a glance back at Elisha as I went. Still fast asleep, and still beautiful, her skin as golden as her hair, her smell tasting just like sugar. I became aware of the fact my conscience was screaming at me to stay with her. I knew it was a bad sign that I was reluctant to leave, a part of me would miss her.