Gasp it the next chapter, sorry I haven't written a lot lately I've had to study for finals.

There this week so I've had a lot of studying to do.

Anyway here's the next chapter, don't forget to review

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Edward's Pov

My fingers lingered over the ivory keys of my piano.

I inhaled deeply, letting my fingers run gently over the keys.

The ivory was dusty from lack of use, the wooden piano bench I sat on creaked every time I shifted for it hadn't been cared for properly.

I pressed one of the keys.

It rang out beautifully; well at least it didn't need tuning.

I pressed another and soon I was playing a melody.

At first the melody was foreign, lost in the mess that was my mind.

I knew the tune, I hummed it all the time, but the name was forgotten, lost, misplaced.

Then it hit me.

It was My Bella's lullaby.

Bella

Her name was so alien to my tongue; no one in my family uttered, or thought of that name in my presence afraid it would cause some childish melt down on my behalf.

A pang of guilt rang through me, making me wince.

It always seemed my fault in the end.

I got close to Bella when I knew better.

I led Bella on, making her fall in love with me.

I got her hurt in Phoenix when that arrogant James decided it would be 'fun' to chase the little human that fell in love with the overprotective vampire.

I almost cost her, her life when I forced her to come to the birthday party.

I left her.

I almost got her killed by the Volturi.

I made her get close to a mutt.

I….

I……

I almost killed, after our wedding.

I remembered it clearly.

Flashback

"Even thought Alice went WAY over the top for the wedding I enjoyed it, I'm sure Charlie, and Renee did too" Bella sighed snuggling into my chest.

"Yes and the dress was perfect you looked beautiful" I mused playing with a lock of her brown tresses.

"Really, it wasn't over the top" she asked, her cheeks turning a lovely shade of pink.

I ran my finger tips lightly over her pink cheeks.

"Yes, Really" I whispered, making her blush deeper.

She leaned up, and pecked me on the lips.

"I'm glad Mr. Cullen" she sighed, climbing off our bed.

Using vampiric speed I was behind her in seconds wrapping my hands around her little waist.

"And where do you think your going Mrs. Cullen" I whispered in her ear, making her heart skip beats erratically.

"To change, Why? Do you want me to stay in this all night?" she asked, raising an eyebrow, as she motioned to the undergarments of her wedding dress.

"Well if you're not objecting…" I replied, smiling.

She rolled her eyes.

"I'm objecting, now let me change, these aren't as comfortable as they look" she giggled.

I let go of her waist as she disappeared into our closet.

I chuckled quietly climbing back onto our bed.

"I'm going to have to go out with Alice and Jasper tomorrow before your change" I called after her, well I more like spat the last part but you know.

"What? Why?" she called back, there was a thump, as she probably fell over.

"Ow, I'm okay" Bella laughed nervously.

I smiled, in spite of myself, before replying.

"Hunting, your father and mother cutting themselves on the broken glass today wasn't good for me, for I haven't hunted in awhile" I sighed.

"Oh sorry about that, I tried to get them to stop you know" Bella laughed nervously.

"That and I want to take every precaution before your change tomorrow night" I growled.

"I trust you, so don't fret" she whispered, walking out of the closet.

She climbed onto the bed, fashioning a lovely blue silk top and shorts.

"My don't we look lovely" I teased lightly.

She blushed again.

I laughed, and from there it all went wrong.

She lost her balance and fell backwards off the bed. I reached over and caught her.

"Ow" she exclaimed, as I sat her back on the bed.

She examined her elbow, red liquid dripped slowly from a scrape.

She'd earned that, when she tried to catch herself from falling, only to cut her elbow on the corner of the bedside table.

I made the huge mistake of inhaling.

The aroma that radiated from the wound was stunning, a very floral scent.

It was intoxicating.

The next thing I knew I was at Bella's side.

"I need to go bandage this, sorry about this Edward" Bella said, starting to crawl to the edge of the bed, nursing her wounded elbow.

I quickly grabbed her forearm and pulled her back to me.

"Ow Edward that hurts let go" Bella cried, attempting to pull away from me.

But I only wrapped my arm around her neck holding her in place.

I could feel the sour tasting venom on my tongue as I leaned toward the bleeding elbow.

"Ed…ward you're cho….cho… choking me" Bella gasped, squirming around trying to break free.

But I paid no attention to her; the monster had already taken over.

Just as I opened my mouth the door was flung open and in flew Alice, Carlisle and Emmett.

"Get him away from Bella" Alice cried.

I growled holding my food closer to me, it was mine, they needed to go find there own.

"Edward look at what your doing your hurting Bella, you're killing her Edward" Emmett cried pointing at Bella.

Me… killing... Bella…Me… Hurting…Bella?

At first the words didn't register, then they slowly sunk in, and as I looked at the prey in my arms.

It wasn't prey at all it was my Bella.

A large purple and black bruises had formed on her fore arm the shape of the bruise was the shape of a hand, my hand..

And her usually beautiful blushing face.

Was now slightly blue and she was now unconscious.

"That's right Edward its Bella, now let her go…. Yes that's right just set her down" Carlisle soothed, slowly edging toward me.

I slowly set Bella on the bed and moved back very slowly.

Bella gasped for breath, some color returning to her bluish face.

I made a move to go to her but Alice was in front of her crouched protectively.

I opened my mouth to protest but I was tackled by Emmett.

Who started to pumble me with his fist.

"What the hell were you thinking, you could have killed Bella, your own wife" Emmett yelled, throwing punch after punch.

I didn't care, I didn't even stop him, I let him throw the punches, and insults I deserved them all.

I turned my face to Bella.

Carlisle was examining her, but her face was turned to me.

Tears poured down her face, and she whispered something to me, that I couldn't hear.

"Alright Emmett that's enough, Alice take Bella to Charlie's" Carlisle said.

Emmett stopped, but I had already made up my mind we were leaving, once Alice got back we were leaving never again would we threaten Bella's life like this, never ever, ever again.

And that was final.

End of flash back

"Edward" Esme called, dancing into the room, breaking me from thought.

"Yes Mother" I asked, turning toward her.

"Your father has called a family meeting, come on now chop, chop" Esme said smiling lightly, although it didn't reach her eyes.

At least he played a little today, its progress…. She thought sadly.

I sighed standing from the piano, slowly following behind Esme.

Once we reached the foyer, I was met by a swell of thoughts.

All, of course, about me.

'I heard him play the piano today, at least he's starting to get better today" – Jasper.

'Maybe if Bella was here he wouldn't be this way' – Emmett.

'Stupid Edward, always killing the family like this, stupid, stupid, stupid' – Alice.

'He did this to himself falling in love with a stupid human' – Rosalie.

'Hello Edward, how are we feeling today?' – Carlisle.

I grunted in response, taking a seat in the only empty spot, a recliner, and the one closes to Emmett.

They usually only sat me next to Emmet, if it involved something that was going to make me run or throw something.

"Okay seriously what the hell is going on here?" I growled, glaring at all of them.

"Well Edward, we've been invited by the Volturi to attend one of there guards birthday parties…" Carlisle started sheepishly.

"No" was all I said, glowering at them.

"But why?" Carlisle asked astonished.

"Because, the Volturi guards just a bunch of mass murdering vampires, that are cruel and have no hearts, there despicable fowl beings they shouldn't even be considered vampire, much less a being of this earth" I spat, standing.

"Edward, Aro's invited us lets not be rude" Esme soothed.

"I'm still not going" I replied, starting to walk to the door.

Were I was tackled.

"We're going, we're all going, whether you like it or not, because, I've had enough of you deciding for this family, all we've ever done is follow you, and look were it's got us, so we're going, suck it up" Alice growled, before standing up and stomping up the stairs.

"I guess this means we need to pack our bags?" Emmett asked.

"Yes I guess this means we pack our bags" I murmured, sitting up slowly.

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Yeah go Alice kick his ass!!!!

If your confused about why the Cullen's left just tell me and I'll rewrite it so the meanings clear.

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