Thanks so much guys for the reviews :D

I'm really sorry that its taken me so long to upload new chapters. I made the mistake of uploading the first chapter as soon as I had typed it up, so I've just been uploading as soon as I finish a chapter. Not sure if that really made sense or not but oh well! I've just not really had time to write much lately but I'm gonna try really hard to get more done. Anyways, on with the story :) Not much is gonna be revealed in this chapter and not much happens, it'll probs be another couple of chapters before the exciting stuff happens so you'll have to bear with me! Yeah and I still don't own any characters, only the storyline :)

Monica lay on her bed, hugging Chandler's pillow to her. She could hear snippets of the conversation drifting in from the other room. She wanted to be angry at Rachel for telling the others, but she couldn't. Because she knew that it was the right thing to do. She needed all the support that she could get.

"She's pregnant?!" Ross's voice cracked as his anger rose. "I swear, if I ever see Chandler again, I'm gonna have to kick his ass." This should have made everyone laugh. But this time it wasn't funny, and they all knew that they would probably do the same.

"Ross, calm down." Rachel sat down on the couch and placed her head in her hands. She was emotionally drained from being Monica's shoulder to cry on for the past two days. She hated to see her best friend suffering so much.

"Caml down?! Calm down?! My ex best friend has knocked up my little sister and just taken off!" Everyone flinched when Ross called Chandler his 'ex' best friend, but they all accepted that this was just the way that Ross was dealing with everything. "So don't you tell me to calm down!"

"Ross, he didn't know!" Rachel had to shout to get his attention. "He didn't know she was pregnant, she found out a couple of days after he left."

"Oh my God. I can't even imagine what she's going through." Phoebe spoke for the first time, her usual bubbly personality gone. For once, she didn't have anything positive to say. Joey sat in silence, unable to speak. He felt so guilty, having talked to Chandler but not being able to tell the others. But he couldn't betray his best friends trust. They heard Monica's bedroom door click open and by the look on her face they could tell she had heard everything they had been saying.

"Guys, I really don't need you arguing right now. Theres enough going on without having to deal with you falling out over this." Rachel came over to comfort Monica but she had already retreated to her room by the time Rachel had come over. They all looked at eachother, silently agreeing that they would try not to get angry about all of this, for Monica's sake.

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Monica walked out of her room, expecting to be alone but jumped when she noticed Ross sitting on the couch, deep in thought. She slowly made her way over and took a seat next to him.

"Hey." Her voice was almost inaudible, her voice croaky from crying so much. Ross looked up, surprised that she had spoken first.

"Hey." There was an awkward silence as they both racked their brains for something to say. Ross spoke first.

"Look, I'm really sorry about earlier Mon."

"Its okay." Tears sprung to her eyes once again. It was impossible now for her to even get through a conversation without bursting into tears. Ross put his arm round her comfortingly.

"No, its not okay. I shouldn't have yelled like that. Its not gonna fix anything, its not gonna bring Cha ..." He stopped abruptly, realising what he was about to say and stopping himself. He looked at Monica worriedly, unsure of what her reaction would be. When the tears started flowing faster he simply pulled her into a hug, the only thing he could think of that would make her feel even a tiny bit better. A few minutes later she spoke into his chest.

"I just hate it that I can's stop thinking about him. And that even at the mention of his name I breakdown. And I hate that I can't stop myself from feeling like this. I'm sorry." Ross hugged her tighter, waiting for her to calm down before he said anything to her.

"Mon, you don't have to be sorry. Its not your fault that you feel like this. And it'll just take time for you to feel better."

"But Ross, I don't know if I'll ever feel better. Its too hard. And I'm gonna have to go for sonograms and shop for the baby and ... and ..."

"Shh, its okay." He gently rocked her back and forth, trying with all that he had in him not to cry along with her. He hated seeing her like this, she was his little sister and he almost felt responsible for her. He felt that it was his job to make her feel better. And it killed him knowing that he couldn't do anything to make her feel better. So he sat in silence, just holding her and praying that she would be able to get over Chandler and go back to being the Monica that they all knew. But as the minutes ticked by and her tears still didn't subside, he was slowly losing hope.

"Mon?" He felt her mumble something against his chest and then look up at him so he took that as a sign to continue. "Would it ... Would it be okay if I came to your first sonogram with you?" As the tears started to cascade down her cheeks again, he regretted asking the question so soon after the conversation they had just had. "Oh my God Mon, I'm sorry. I ... I'm so sorry, that was really too soon."

"No it wasn't too soon Ross, of course you can come. It would mean a lot to me if you were there." A hint of a smile played on her lips, the first that Ross had seen in over a week. He pulled Monica into a hug again, this time for his own sake. He didn't dare let her see him cry, she couldn't see how much this was affecting everyone else. It would break her heart even more.

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Chandler stretched out across the bed, forgetting for a moment that he was in a cold hotel room in Boston, and reached out to pull Monica into a hug just like he did every morning. But then he remembered where he was and the past week came rushing back to him. Once again he felt the warm tears dampen his face. This had to be a record for him, 7AM and he was already crying. He didn't know how much longer he could take this. He couldn't stop thinking about Monica. She filled his thoughts 24/7, every second of every day. He missed her so much. The cute way that she would tuck her hair behind her ear when she was nervous. The special smile that she reserved just for him. How she always laughed at his jokes, even if they weren't funny. He just missed everything about her.

He showered and then trudged down to get a bagel and coffee from the small cafe on the corner. He sat down at a table in the back, where no one would bother him, and flicked through the paper. When he reached the back page and scanned through the jobs he realised that he really should start looking for one. And he should also start looking for an apartment. He figured that if he was going to build a new life here then he really should start soon. He knew it was unlikely, but he hoped that if he kept himself busy then it may keep his mind off Monica and how much he needed her and missed her. He had to stop drowning himself in his own grief. It was time to start trying to put the pieces of his broken heart back together.

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Monica stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around her. She straightened up and looked at herself in the mirror. She looked terrible, her face was almost white and she had dark circles under her eyes. She wasn't surprised though; she hadn't slept properly since Chandler left almost three weeks ago. She hadn't even begun to get over him yet. Sure she had tried, but it was impossible to just forget about him. She looked more closely in the mirror, something else was different but she couldn't figure out what it was. She stood for a few minutes trying to work out what it was, but then she noticed her eyes. They weren't as blue as usual, they looked almost cloudy now. They had lost the sparkle that they once had. She wiped away a tear that slid down her face and slowly made her way to her bedroom to get dressed, praying that one day she would be able to see her eyes shine again. But she knew that there was one person she desperately needed to be in her life to make that happen, and she doubted whether she would ever see him again.

"You okay Mon?" Ross squeezed her hand as they sat in the waiting room. She simply nodded her head, not trusting herself to speak. "Its gonna be okay. Everything gonna be fine." He pulled her into a hug, reassuring her that he was there for her.

"Monica Geller?" Monica jumped at the mention of her name and grabbed Ross's hand as they followed the nurse.

"Hi, I'm Doctor Perry." She smiled warmly at the two of them and shook their hands. "Can I assume you're the father?" She asked Ross as she closed the door.

"I'm her brother, Ross Geller." Doctor Perry looked at him, alarmed. "Oh no, no. I'm not the father. No, I just came along for support." He laughed nervously as a relieved look replaced the worried one on her face.

"Oh okay." She smiled at them again as she turned to Monica. "Make yourself comfortable." She motioned to the couch for Monica to lie on. She awkwardly lay down, never letting go of Ross's hand. As the nurse began to rub the jelly on Monica's stomach, Ross could tell she was close to tears already.

"You're gonna be fine Mon." He leant down to kiss her forehead as the sound of a heartbeat filled the room.

"Is that ... Is that my baby's heartbeat?" Monica whispered as tears began to leak our of her eyes.

"It is indeed, Miss Geller. And that ... " She pointed to a tiny spot on the screen "... is your baby."

"Oh my God." Monica buried her face in Ross's shoulder as she was overcome with tears.

"I'll give you two a moment alone, its an emotional time." Monica attempted to smile at the nurse as she walked out of the room.

"Can you believe it Mon, thats your baby." Ross fought back tears but couldn't help one slipping down his cheek. Monica shook her head, not trusting herself to speak again. She felt so guilty, she knew that she was crying for all the wrong reasons. She should be happy. But she wasn't. She wanted, no she needed Chandler right now. She missed him more than anything at this moment in time, he should be here with her.

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Monica walked out of the building in a daze. Ross had his arm wrapped around her shoulder, neither of them had said a word since they had come out of the doctors office. Ross was relieved more than anything, everything was fine with the pregnancy. Monica was 8 weeks along and both her and the baby were healthy. But he was so worried about her. She hadn't spoken since she had sat down in the waiting room. He couldn't really blame her though, she had so much to deal with right now and she was probably just overwhelmed.

They sat in silence the whole car journey home and Monica went straight to her room when they got in. She pulled Chandlers hoodie on again and hugged his pillow close as she let the tears fall fast once again. She couldn't believe that this was happening to her. What should have been the happiest month of her life had turned out to be the worst. The love of her life, the one person that she couldn't live without, had left her and now she was left pregnant with his baby. This all felt like some horrible nightmare. She wanted so much to wake up and find out that this was all a dream. She wanted to wake up in Chandlers arms, with a wedding ring on her finger and someone to comfort her throughout her pregnancy. Thats what her life should be like. Not this. She shouldn't be waking up everyday on a pillow drenched with tears and an ache in her heart, which hurt more everyday. Everytime she thought of Chandler her shattered heart broke a little more. No, none of this should be happening to her, none of this felt like it was happening to her. She pulled the covers over her head and closed her eyes, trying to forget everything that was going on in her life right now. But she still held onto her broken heart, because sometimes it was the only thing she had that felt real.

Okay, I know that so far this story has mostly been based around Monica, but thats just the way its turned out haha. I've put in small bits about Chandler just to let you know what he's been doing but I though it would be better to kind of base this about how Monica and the rest of them are coping. Tell me if you disagree or anything. There should be more about Chandler in the next few chapters :) I just don't feel theres as much to write about him right now. So please review and tell me what you think :D x