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Aiyoh, how could i forget last chapter. THANK YOU SO MUCH TO chris316512 for helping me with this story!
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Xim-no-writerX- haha i'm excited about my own story too. xD well, a lot happens to mikan so be prepared! muahahhaha
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starrynight3800- 5 reviews, well i just said that to start it out. thx for thinking the storyline is really interesting, i think so too! i'm addicted to writing this xD u'll see in this chappie why hotaru suddenly said that
mangaluver123- thank you. they do have alices in this story, but i don't think it's going to be much of a story where she goes on missions and stuff. I'm going to focus more on her feelings and all this drama bo rama.
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Last Chapter--
"Hotaru, Hotaru, Hotaru! Look what I got!" Mikan squealed while jumping up and down, holding some shiny thing.
Hotaru said nothing.
Within the midst of all Mikan's squealing and saying stuff like best friends, Hotaru replied in the iciest voice ever.
"What do you mean, best friends? Did I ever say we were? Don't ever speak to me again. I don't want to hear your annoying voice in my face again, and I don't have the time to baka-gun you all the time. You hear me? You're annoying. Go away. "
Mikan's confidence was fully dropped. She slowly walked away, immediately crashing on her bed when she got to her room.
"Why would she do something like that? I really, really, thought we were best friends. As it turns out, I'm a fool. I'm so naïve and always assume. Look where that got me. Well I'm not going to be fooled any longer. I'll stay away from her. I'm going to become strong, and cold so no one can hurt me anymore.
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The wind billowed all around making noises on this dark night, making her white bedroom curtains swish and swash. Mikan trembled in the cold, huddling under her blankets. The night was dark with the full moon being its only illumination. Life was cruel; it was evil; it was horrible; yet there were some good things, she knew. But no one cared. No one cared what she thought. No one cared about her troubles. No one really knew her. No one. No one. No one. She had no family left. Ojii-san had died; she had received a letter in the mail yesterday. Her friends-well all they knew was the bubbly and happy Mikan. That was the only kind of Mikan they liked. And due to certain circumstances, she just couldn't be that Mikan anymore.
Hotaru's POV
I didn't really mean to hurt Mikan in that way. That day, I was just having a bad day, and I sorta snapped. I can tell she's hurt inside, and suffering. She's not the same anymore. But yet I can't bring myself to apologize. It's rarely that I do so; it's very hard for me.
Flashback –
Imai Hotaru was having the worst day of her life. First, she saw Mochu and Koko kissing ( A/N: ugh sick I know ) She was grossed, repulsed, disgusted, and every other word in the world that described this feeling. That was just…wrong!
"I'm not against gayness, but you know, that…kind of pairing…is just…WRONG!" she thought. "Eww, this day just couldn't get any worse."
That just seemed to jinx it. It did exactly the opposite. Next, she got chased around by rabid crazy red-eyed squirrels who wrecked her inventions and ate all her batteries. (o.O squirrels eating batteries, yes I know) Then, there was a power failure.
Power failures are fatal for inventors. It means that they are stuck with no electricity, and no opportunity for invention. For them, life is miserable without electricity. That was the last straw for her. Whatever was she to do? She was. Very. Very. Annoyed.
"Curse this stupid world!" she yelled.
Her doorbell rang and she opened the door.
"Hotaru, Hotaru, Hotaru! Look what I got!" Mikan squealed while jumping up and down, holding some shiny thing.
"Hm. The baka has come to me for some idiotic thing. Whatever."
Within the midst of all Mikan's squealing and saying stuff like best friends, Hotaru replied in the iciest voice ever.
"What do you mean, best friends? Did I ever say we were? Don't ever speak to me again. I don't want to hear your annoying voice in my face again, and I don't have the time to baka-gun you all the time. You hear me? You're annoying. Go away."
End Flashback -
She never meant to say any of that. She was just annoyed because Mikan kept saying stuff like 'best friends' all the time. Deep inside though, she knew they were best friends; it was just that she never said anything about it, so she wanted to correct her. Unfortunately, Mikan took it the wrong way.
The truth was, she missed Mikan. But she found no opportunities to speak to her since Mikan kept avoiding her.
"I have to try," she thought.
Mikan's POV
I wake up early, cold and emotionless; a blank face. I hop out of my window, going on my daily morning run. I think while I run.
I'm really a much different person than everyone thinks. They don't understand. They'll never understand. They don't care. They'll never care. Hotaru's words sting like rock hard, pointy icicles, bitten into me like swarms of bees. I can't seem to get over it. I trusted her so much and what did I get in the end? I feel so naïve and helpless. I can't go on. Not like this.
I hop back through the window and get ready for school. Time for another day of 'bubbly Mikan'. Everyone loves 'bubbly Mikan'. I happen to hate her myself. Even though, she is myself. Well, a part of what I once was. Can I take it longer? How long will I last like this?
"Ohayo Mikan-san, Sakura-san, Mikan-chan, etc." everyone choruses joyously.
"OHAYO MINNA-SAN!" I yell cheerfully (not!)
Well, almost everyone. The one exclusion is Natsume. I used to like him, you know. But that was before I realized how stupid and hopeless it was. He'd never like me back, I know that. Who would like an utterly stupid baka like me?
"Oi, Stripes," he calls.
I wait a few seconds before yelling, "NATSUME NO HENTAI!" slightly softer than usual.
It's part of my everyday routine. What makes 'bubbly Mikan' 'bubbly Mikan'.
I really don't care. There's really no point. The only reason why he does it is to annoy me. Well I don't let it get to me. It's just a waste of time.
Strangely, Hotaru goes up to me.
"Mikan! Come here, I want to speak to you!" she yells.
I walk away. She probably only has more bad things to say to me.
-End Mikan's POV-
Hotaru's POV-
She walks away, yet again. She keeps ignoring it like this. All I did was say those fatal words to her, and look where that's got me.
DAMN THOSE STUPID SQUIRRELS!
I can't stand it any longer. It's as if a piece of me is gone without her. She doesn't see that it was all a mistake; that I didn't mean to do it. I feel terrible for saying those words. But no, she keeps avoiding me. How am I ever supposed to apologize to her if I can't talk to her at all?
-End Hotaru's POV-
Mikan's POV
The day ends. I manage to slip through another day as 'bubbly Mikan', barely slipping. Thankfully.
Hotaru tried to confront me today. I wonder why. I avoid her anyways. She's probably going to say more mean stuff to me and make me feel even worse. I can't get hurt again. It hurts too much.
( A/N: Listen to My Immortal by Evanescence here. )
Unitalicized- Mikan's thoughts
Italics- the song
I'm so tired of being here
I can't take this any longer
Suppressed by all my childish fears
how much longer can I take this?
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
I keep thinking of you, Hotaru. Why don't you just leave me alone? Just leave, so I can forget about you. It hurts too much...
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Where have all those years of friendship gone? Down the drain? Was I ever considered your friend?
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
just go, please. We have too much history.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
I. Am. Alone.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I. Am. Alone.
I. Am. Alone.
I AM ALONE!!
Ok how was that my lovely readers? I wrote a longer chapter this time : I'm sorta sad that I only got 5 reviews, but I guess that's what I get for only 1 day. Oh well, I just couldn't wait to update and so, you guys get to read quicker xD Maybe more reviewers this time?
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