Love You, Hate You
Disclaimer - Dark Angel is not mine, nor do i claim to own it
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The bell rang then a mass of children descended from the school building all eager to get home and to see their parents.
About 5 minutes after most of the kids were gone Jamie finally appeared carrying his school back.
Max and Alec were standing at the gates Alec was beginning to get impatient "Where is he?" he said when he couldn't stand it anymore "calm down Alec" Max said in a calming voice trying to calm his nerves.
"There he is" Max said suddenly pointing at a the school, Alec stood up straight "where?" he said looking around then he heard his voice before he saw him.
"Alec" Jamie squealed happily running as fast as his feet could take him jumping into Alec's arms.
"Hey buddy" Alec said his smile as wide as Jamie's "I missed you" Jamie said with a serious look on his face "why didn't you come see me?" he asked tilting his head to the side as he studied Alec.
He looked at Max who turned away not willing to meet his eyes, rolling his eyes he answered "sorry little man but I'm all yours now"
Jamie nodded his head and as if just noticing her he squeals "Mummy" he leapt forward almost falling out of Alec's arms.
"Hey baby" she said taking him from Alec's arms hugging him tight "missed you" she kissed his cheek and settled him on her hip.
"Let's go to the park" Max said placing him on the ground and gave Alec a look telling him to follow her.
Together they walked to the park. Max found an empty table and sat down on it. Jamie sat beside her and Alec stood at the side of them.
"What we doing here?" Jamie asked confused looking between the two of them.
Max looked at Alec expecting him to say something but he just looked at her with a blank expression and Max sighed "We have something to tell you honey"
Jamie's brows knitted together, he was getting very confused "Alec sit" Max ordered and Alec slid down onto the seat opposite them.
"Guess you want me to do this?" Max said glaring at him his only response was to smirk.
'Dick' she mouthed and his smirk grew into a grin.
"So Jamie remember how you asked me where your dad was?"
Jamie looked at his mother and nodded.
"And I told you he loved you very much but lived in another country?"
"Is he back? Can I meet him?" he asked in an excited voice, Max closed her eyes Jamie had always asked about his dad and wanted one, he'd never took to Logan
"You like Alec right?" Max asked with a small smile. Jamie started nodding his head "can I still see Alec if I've got a dad?" he checked not wanting to lose his friend.
"Alec is your dad honey" she said in a soft voice.
Alec swallowed the lump in his throat and Max stared at her son. He turned to Alec a shocked look on his face "Your…You're my dad?" he asked cautiously
Max kicked Alec under the table after he still hadn't answered him a few minutes later "Yeah, I'm your dad" Alec answered finally before he knew what was happening Jamie jumped over the table and fell into his arms luckily Alec was able to catch him.
Alec had never been hugged as tight in his life or felt as much love for one tiny person as he did in that minute.
Tears started to stream down from Max's eyes as she watched the scene in front of her. Jamie was so happy, happier than she had ever seen him.
A few minutes later Jamie pulled back and looked Alec dead in the eye "your not going to leave again are you?" Jamie asked his eyes turning a little sad.
Alec was stunned "Never" he promised pulling him towards him again. Standing up with him in his arms he walked round to where Max was and pulled her into his arms too.
She cried into his shoulder. They stood there in their own little world, as the family they should have been.
Max's pulled back and composed herself but not before Jamie noticed "why are you crying mummy?"
She ran her hand through her hair "because I'm happy" she said
"I'll leave you two alone for a little while" she went to walk away but was stopped by Alec's hand on her shoulder "stay?" he asked
"Can I go play at the park?" Jamie asked looking up between his mum and dad.
Alec looked at Max waiting on her giving permission, she laughed "ask your dad" she smiled and Alec's head whipped around and he smiled back "on you go" he said and with that Jamie took off to play with the other kids in the park.
"I've never felt this good in my life" he admitted.
"I can see how happy you are"
"You always did know me better than anyone else" he looked at her and she felt as if he was reading her mind. Especially the way he smirked he took a step towards her.
"I really want to kiss you right now" he moved his head towards hers but she stopped him "she's pregnant" He stopped and looked at her "right" with that he turned away and headed in the direction of the park.
Leaving Max alone with her thoughts 'how does he do this to me after all this time?' she asked herself but she never did get an answer.
Alec joined Jamie who was playing ball with a couple kids she loved to watch Alec. He always could fit in with anybody, he just took to people and people took to him like he was a magnet.
"Come on little man we better go" Alec said scooping him up into his arms "I think your mum is getting bored"
20 minutes later he dropped them off at home "Are you going to the party?" he asked
"I'll think about it" she got out the car with Jamie "Dad?" Jamie said into the car it was the first time he'd called him dad and Alec couldn't help the smile that appeared on his face.
"Yeah?"
"When you coming again?" Jamie asked, wanting to know when he'd get to see his dad again.
"When do you want me?" Alec asked
"TOMORROW!" Jamie demanded. "Tomorrow it is" he promised.
Friday came and it was the day of the charity ball, Max was adamant she wasn't going but Sam informed her this morning that she and Ben would be attending.
Alec dropped Jamie off at 2.30
Jamie came home and he wasn't his usual talkative self
"What's up Jamie?" Max asked her son from the kitchen when she noticed him sitting watching TV after his dad left.
"I don't want to go to daddy's house anymore" he said sadly.
That sparked Max's attention; half the time she couldn't get him away she was beginning to miss her son.
"Why not?" she sat down beside him
He shrugged his shoulders "I don't like Rachel"
"What did she do?" Max asked trying to keep her voice calm
He shook his head "I don't think she likes me"
"Everyone likes you" she informed her son, kissing his head. Leaving Jamie sitting on the sofa she went in search of her sister.
"I'm in" she announced with a small tight smile on her face
"You're coming to the party?" Sam said excitedly "Yep" Was all Max said as she walked away to try and find someone to look after Jamie for the night.
Later that night Ben had arrived to take Sam and Max to the party. Logan couldn't go because he had to work plus Max didn't really want him to go.
"Thanks Cindy"
"Not a problem boo, I love watching him" Cindy said hugging Max "just go and have a good time and don't worry" Cindy pushed her out the door with Ben and Sam.
Max laughed "Ok, ok I'm going" with that she walked out the door.
Walking into the party all eyes seemed to turn to Max and Sam who were both wearing figure hugging dresses.
"Thought you'd only do a dress for my wedding?" Max asked her sister with a raised eyebrow.
"It looks good on me" Sam smirked Max rolled her eyes "Anyway I'm only here to support you"
"How do you figure? I wasn't going to come" Max reminded her, Sam stopped turning around she just gave her sister a look "Ok, maybe I was" Max finally admitted.
"There's your man" Sam said tilting her head to the left, Max turned around and noticed Alec.
He waltzed up to her "No suit?" she asked noticing he was wearing jeans.
He shrugged "someone told me they did nothing for me"
"Smart girl" Sam sad eyeing him appreciatively "I'm Alec"
Sam's brows knitted together "I know who you are and I can look all I want!" she defended herself.
Ben walked up behind Sam and whispered in her ear two seconds later they walked off together.
A slow song started to play and Alec spoke "Dance with me" it wasn't a question, Max opened her mouth to speak but he cut her off "don't say no" with that he took her hand and led her onto the dance floor.
Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together
Alec pulled her into his body wrapping one arm around her waist the other holding her hand in his. They looked into each others eyes a small smile on both of their lips.
Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other
"I never got to dance with you at school" Alec said quietly in her ear "You look amazing" he added. Max closed her eyes, the feel of his hand on her back was driving her crazy, and she knew his fiancée was around somewhere but she just couldn't seem to care.
Must be strong,
And we must let go
Cannot say
What our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
"Look" Ben said to Sam, Sam turned around and smiled "They've got it bad" she said nodding her head "Life just seems to always screw them up"
At the same time Ben and Sam were noticing them on the dance floor so did Rachel.
"Isn't that Alec?" one of her friends asked Rachel turned around and her mouth fell open, the way he was holding Max was a way in which he had never held her and the look he had in his eye was one she had never seen before.
"Yeah" she said to her friend, anger flashing through her eyes.
How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
"What are we doing?" Max asked her voice barely above a whisper.
"Dancing" Alec answered simply he watched as she licked her lips "want to stop?" he asked praying that she would say no.
"Song isn't over yet" she answered but she wasn't brave enough to look at him, she didn't want to see the look she knew was in his eyes.
Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments
Max wished she could stop thinking as much as she was, she really wanted to get lost in his arms and forget about the world but she couldn't.
"We can't do this" she said staring him in the eye. "Why not?" he asked genuinely confused.
"Your getting married" she reminded him "So are you" he countered
"But I'm not pregnant" she added, still dancing slowly to the music.
"Not anymore" he said with a hurt look "I didn't get to be there for that"
"Just dance with me" he begged, she felt his hand tighten around her back and pull her closer into his body.
Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over
"Oh no" Sam said, elbowing Ben in the side "if she bothers my sister it'll be the last thing she ever does" Sam said as she watched Rachel move away from the bar and head towards Alec and Max.
"I really want to kiss you" Alec admitted.
Must be brave,
And we must go on
Must not say,
What we've known all along
"Rachel wouldn't like that" she said, she scolded herself why did she always have to think about other people, she had the man she loved in her arms and she couldn't forget about the rest of the world.
"I wish she wasn't pregnant" he admitted, looking away slightly ashamed with himself
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..
From the corner of her eye Max noticed Rachel making her way towards them, she also noticed Sam not far behind and Sam looked pissed off.
"Rachel is on her way over" she informed Alec but if he heard her he didn't let on, he continued moving her around the dance floor "I'm dancing with you"
Must be brave,
And we must be strong
Cannot say,
What we've known all along.
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..
When you are you gone.....
"Having fun?" Rachel asked when she reached them.
Max broke away from Alec, which wasn't easy because he wasn't for letting go.
"Hi Rachel"
"We were just dancing" Alec stated, daring her to ask more "Did you tell her?" Rachel asked indicating Max.
"Tell me what?" Max asked looking up at Alec who shrugged her shoulder "Tell her what?" he asked, he really had no idea what she was talking about.
"That we want a DNA test"
"WHAT!?" Max practically screamed "Just to make sure Jamie really is Alec's"
"You want a DNA test?" Max asked not really believing it, Alec began shaking his head violently "No, NO!" turning to Rachel he demanded to know what she was talking about "What the hell are you talking about? I know Jamie is mine"
She plastered a fake smile on her face "Oh I'm so sorry" Alec glared at her and Max spoke up "Maybe you're the one that needs the DNA test" Max smirked pushing past Rachel she walked to her table with Sam and Ben following.
"How dare you say that to her" Alec said pulling Rachel into a quiet area
"How can you be so sure he's yours?" Rachel asked crossing her arms over her chest "I just wanna make sure our baby really has a brother" she tried to explain why.
Alec shook his head "You need to apologise" he walked away headed for his table which just happened to be the same table as Max and the others the down side was it was also Rachel's table.
The atmosphere at the table was tense Max really wanted to slap the smile right off Rachel's face but she wasn't about to hit a pregnant woman.
Half way through the charity auction a woman approached the table "Max Guevera?"
"That's me" Max said raising her hand "I have a message for you, you need to go home something happened at your house with you son" the waitress explained.
"What's wrong with Jamie?" Alec demanded to know standing up from the table at the same time as Max.
"I've got to get home" Max said as she took off running out of the hotel Alec, Ben and Sam hot on her heels.
"Max wait up, I'll drive us" he grabbed hold of her and took her in the direction of his car.
"Can't you go any faster?" Max demanded to know, her heart was beating so fast she that's all she could hear
"I'm going as fast as I can, try and stay calm" Alec said taking her hand in his but she snatched it back
"If something has happened to him I'm killing your girlfriend" Max stated, Alec didn't say anything.
"God why isn't she picking up!" she said after trying to call Cindy for the 100th time and still wasn't getting an answer.
They were 1 block from Max's apartment and could see smoke.
"Alec" Max said in a panicked voice
"I see it"
Stopping the car they both jumped out, not bothered to turn the engine off, Alec was past caring someone could steal it if they want.
It was Max's building it was on fire.
They shared a look then went running towards the building.
Max screaming for her son and Alec looking around everywhere for him. Max spotted Cindy standing with a police officer she pushed past all the other people to get to her
"Cindy, where's Jamie?"
A/N - Tell me what you think!