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Jacob POV

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The sky seemed to crash on me. Suddenly I felt this immeasurable force on my shoulders, causing me to crumple to the ground. It was the similar to the feeling I felt when I imprinted on Nessie, I felt the need of her to me but instead the feeling joy, i felt grief and despair. I realized that I wouldn't be near her for a year and I wanted to die. She is my life, the only reason I bear being a wolf. Now I had to leave her because of it.

I realized I was murmuring gibberish, "Entire year…….death…..leaving……...shit……..shit…….shit.

I barely saw Edward walk towards me. Slowly he put his hand on my shoulder and tried to help me up. "Come on Jake. You'll have to leave soon and you need to pack and saw goodbye." I had to lean on him so I wouldn't fall over.

I whimpered as I realized I would have to say goodbye to Renesmee. My knees felt like rubber and I could hardly walk. Seth looked extremely sorry and upset. I guess that's why Sam sent him instead. If anyone else had given me this news I probably would have murdered them.

I hear Edward say, "I know Seth. I know," through my haze.

Out of the blue I see Alice Cullen run a full speed towards me and Edward screaming, "Wait……I just had a vision!......Oh no!" With a look of dismay on her face she realized she was too late. That little pixie came to late. If she had come in time I could have hidden so Seth wouldn't be able to find me. So I wouldn't have to leave. So I wouldn't have this unshakable feeling of impending doom and grief for the next 12 months.

"Now Jacob, you know very well that wouldn't have worked," I hear Edward say to me.

"Yes it would've. Anything to try! Damn Edward, its easy for you….you just get to stay here with her. You get to get up and have her with you. You're gonna be able to see her face everyday, give her a hug everyday, talk to her everyday! You have no idea what I'm going to go through."

Oh hell. The look on his face reminded me he did. I don't know how he was able to leave by choice. I was about to die leaving Ness but I'm forced to leave.

He looked at me and said sharply, "I understand you are upset. But when we go tell Nessie you are going to need to snap out of it. You have to pull it together for her."

But that just reminded me I wouldn't be there to comfort her. Oh shit my life is fucked up.

"Jaaaacob," Edward says to pull me back to reality.

Oh right. Pull it together Jake!!!! Do it for Nessie!!! Whoah. We were at the house. I didn't even know I was running there. That's how screwed up I am. As I walked up to the door I realized I couldn't go in. I can't face that final goodbye. I just can't. I feel as if steel claws clasped around my ankles so I couldn't move.

Edward looked at me and then said, "Look, don't hate me for this but you need it."

And with that he slapped me across the face. For a brief moment, it pulled me out of my mess and I was able to walk inside.

Rosalie had been watching through the window and began laughing, "Haha Jacob got bitch-slapped. Next time its my turn!"

And I was so upset I didn't even respond. I just walked by her and then she knew something was wrong. Edward glares at her and Seth follows us in the house.

He ushers me into the living room where I nearly collapse on the floor. He supports me up and calls out, "Everyone in the living room NOW! ASAP!"

Soon Rosalie and Emmett sit down, Rosalie's legs draped over his lap. Alice sits next to Jasper who runs in after feeling all of my depression. Carlisle and Esme move slowly, his mouth stretched in a grim line. Bella slowly walks in looking distressed. After seeing Edward she relaxes a little until she notices him having to hold me up.

And finally, the most important person in the world to me skips into the room . Her sea-foam green wrap dress floats around her gorgeous body. The room seems to close in around us and for a minute I stare at her. She sits down on the floor and looks up at me with a look purely filled with intense worried.

And right then and there I realize its not about me at all. I have to be the man here and be here for her during the few priceless minutes I have left.

"Oh thank god! Its about time." Edward must have heard my thoughts. I straighten up, not needing his support for now.

Renesmee's eyebrows are knitted, a look inherited from her father. Finally she speaks up, "What's wrong Jacob? Tell us, you're killing me!"

No no no! She's got it backwards. Leaving her is about to kill me, not the only way around. I guess I owe them an explanation now…..

Clearing my throat, I quickly make sure I'm pulled together before starting. Announcing to the entire family but only looking at my beautiful Nessie the entire time I start-

" There is a pack emergency up north. Seth came here to get me and we have to leave immediately. They need me to search for other packs and go to Canada to take down the crazed werewolves up there."

Nessie's face crumples up and I can barely continue, "It's going to be extremely dangerous. We might have some casualties. And I don't know how long I'll be gone. At least a year….."

She is filled with realization and says, "You......are.......leaving........for.......an........entire.........year."

Oh god. I can't do this. "Um, unfortunately yeah," I manage to get out.

Then the tears start running down my best friend's face. She jumps up and throws herself at me. I grab her and hold her tightly to my chest. She is sobbing now, staining my t-shirt with her tears.

And then I can't hold it in any longer. Tears cloud up my eyes and a few slowly run down my face. I put my face in her hair as she continues to weep. Seeing her like this makes me feel about a million times worse. If I weren't holding here I probably would fall down from the grief of it all.

She tries to speak, but her words get consumed by the tears. Finally she manages to get out, "No Jake. You're my best friend. You've been with me forever. I won't just let you go off for a year now, not ever."

"I've tried everything in my mind. I can't stand leaving you guys here but I have no choice in this what so ever."

I may not be IN love with her now, but I definitely love her more than anyone can imagine. This is so painful, its like a million daggers are being stabbed into my heart.

Esme turns to Carlisle and as she puts her head on his shoulder she whispers, "Oh gosh. This is horrible, I can't watch."

Jasper looks like he is about to pass out on the floor. He suddenly gets up and sprints out the door. Alice gets up and explains, "This….its too much for him to handle. He needs to get out for a minute alone where there is no emotion. He'll be back in approximately 3.76 minutes.

I hear Edward move and suddenly he has put his arms around Bella. Her face is that of someone who looks like they are being electrocuted. Renesmee's pain is too much for anyone to handle, especially her mother.

Rosalie says, "I never loved the dog but this isn't cool. I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm sad to see you go."

I turn back to my Ness who is holding on to me with a strength of steel. I just stand there letting her cry for awhile, trying to memorize her arms around me for when I leave. Finally I pull off me, but keep my hands on her small waist. I go down on one knee to get eye level with her and say,

"You don't know how badly this is going to kill me. But I need you to stay strong. I'm sorry but I won't be able to write or call because we can't have them finding out anything about our location. But so you won't forget I want you to take this." I took my wolf necklace off and put it around her neck. It was made of thick brown yarn with several beads and a miniature carving of a wolf on it. It was my pride and joy, I never went anywhere without it. But, I wanted her to take it.

Her big eyes overfilled with more tears. She managed to whisper, "Thank you Jacob. I'm never going to take it off. You are the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I will never forget you, and I will be sitting here waiting for you to come back until you do. I promise."

I engulfed her into another big hug and soon every woman in the room minus the blonde were sobbing their eyes out, minus tears of course. Seth coughed and said, "I'm really sorry Jake but you have to pack so we can leave soon."

It seemed as if I needed the jaws of life to pull myself away from her grip. Edward took her in his arms and I got extremely jealous for a short moment. Wait, its ok….its just her father Jacob. What am I thinking???? She continued to hysterically sob in his arms.

I slowly made my way up the staircase, trying to remember every detail of this house before I left. Seth came and helped me packed. I felt like I was in a nightmare that was impossible for me to wake up from. As I stood outside the house, Bella, Edward, Esme, Carlisle, and my Renesmee were there to see me off.

I gave Bella a hug as she whispered in my ear, "Jacob, you are still my best friend. Please hurry back- I don't know how long Renesmee will last without you."

I just stood in front of Edward and thought, Thanks for everything man. I don't know how I would've been able to say goodbye without your help. Please do everything to protect her while I'm gone. Please promise me that."

With a nod he vowed, "I promise."

Esme grabbed me and pulled me into a motherly embrace. She said, "Be safe Jacob. Don't do anything crazy and come back as soon as you can."

I turned to Carlisle and shook his hand, "Thanks for everything doc. I appreciate everything you've done. Watch out for the ladies will ya?"

With a small laugh he said, "Your very welcome Jacob. I will son."

Finally, the moment I was post-poning the longest. My final goodbye to Nessie. She couldn't stop crying and her face was so pained it made me literally want to shoot myself for doing this to her. Finally I whispered, "I love you Renesmee. Don't forget that. Be strong for me…..oh and kick Emmett's ass in Halo every once in awhile too." She gave out an extremely short giggle at my attempt to cheer her up. But still, the tears streamed down her face.

Seth cleared his throat and I realized my time was up. I had to pull myself away from her as we began to run away with our packs. We were about half a mile out when I looked back at her hudled figure.

Aww hell with it.

I ran back to her and hugged her for a couple moments longer while kissing the top of her head. She whispered, "Love you Jacob. Please come back to me soon." With a final kiss on her curls I turned, ran behind a tree, and phased- the only way to ease my pain.

That was long for me to write and I couldn't leave you with a cliffie for that long.- the next chapter will be Nessie's POV of his departure.

I'm sorry he has to leave but I promise it will get better and will be worth it in the end.

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