Soundtrack of my Life...

My life can be explained through my talent... Sometimes it doesn't turn out as I want it to. But since I met her... I can't help but break out into song.

So here we go everyone...Chapter 4 as promised. Thanks everyone for reviewing!

WickedRENTfan13, you are amazing! Thank you for your lovely review, it really made my day! Just for you, here is I Feel Everything by Idina Menzel. You were right, it is totally them. Let me know if I do it justice, the lyrics really are amazing.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own House, David Shore does. I would love to own House, I would stop House and Cuddy pussyfooting around each other and get them together. I also do not own the lyrics to I Feel Everything, Idina Menzel does. I am simply playing with them, I get no profit.

Un-Beta'd – So All Mistakes Are My Own. Please comment if any details regarding American Life in general are wrong, I am not actually American, I'm British, so I learn rough details from American Shows.

Chapter 3 – I Feel Everything

From The Viewpoint Of Cuddy (Pre-Joy)

Like a prima ballerina
I tip toe, tip toe around you constantly

It's like walking on eggshells around him. One false move can give him ammo against you for life, or fuel another snide sarcastic comment. I've become expert at it. Steer clear of him when he's in a bad mood, make the most of it on the rare occasion he was in a good mood.


I hear the water running
Will it wash your tears or leak through the ceiling?

I know you cry House.

I've seen it happen, not many times, but enough to know you actually feel emotion.

Remember that time in college?

Your mom was in an accident when we were at Michigan, they weren't sure she was gonna make it, so you cried with me holding you. I cried with you too, it hurt me to see you in so much pain. The next week you left to go to New York. Was it really that hard to show someone your emotions?


Make my way up a spiral staircase
Hope to God you had a good day
It seems that whenever I want to talk to you, you're in a bad mood and insult me. What happened to the Greg House I knew? The charming, funny, loving man I always knew? The Greg House that I fell in love with? I know he has trouble showing emotion, and perhaps that he loves me in his own twisted way, but I'm having trouble putting up with what I have to endure with him. I wonder if it's actually worth the sacrifice.


When you're furious
When you start to freeze
When you can't be touched
I feel everything

I was there when you were dealing with your anger about Stacy, I felt your pain and your frustration after the infarction. Hell, I even felt guilt for letting Stacy do that to you. I feel everything you do House, every noticed how you being miserable darkens my day?


And when you despair

Like your mom's accident.


When you cannot breathe

Like all those times you've hurt yourself and nearly died.


When you wouldn't dare

But you do dare, that's what's so frustrating about you.


I feel everything
When you're in ecstasy
But you're not with me
I feel everything

It kills me when you're happy and it's because of something unrelated to me.

Like Stacy, God if you could see through me, you would see how jealous I was of how happy she made you. But hell, you're so good at reading people, I wonder if you noticed.


On a tightrope
On a wire
I'll attempt to jump through a ring of fire

What will make you see that I will do almost anything to be with you House?


I am waiting all the while

It's been 20 years and I'm getting so impatient.


For a glimpse of something to bring us higher

We have our moments of near intimacy, all the times I have wanted to kiss you.


One little foot in front of the other
Don't you know I'm afraid of thunder

I don't need much House, I just need something from you to keep me going. I'm not asking for a grand romantic gesture, because I know that's not you. You don't have to be someone you're not. Just a small step is what I need because a big one will make me wonder if you have an ulterior motive.

There's a fine line between love and hurting

Being around you for so long, arguing with you for so long, it starts to become a daily ritual. And to be honest, it turns me on when we fight. You've been saying for ages that I'm a masochist, in this instance, I think you're right.


And knowing when to walk away
But my problem is that I don't.

I can't walk away from him.

I've loved him since college.


When you can't be touched

You can't stand it when I touch you anymore.

I try to let me touch linger to give you a clue of how I'm feeling.

But you lean away from me, you seize up.

I guess you don't feel the same anymore.


When you can't be loved

Ever since Stacy, you closed yourself off to any hope of love or intimacy.

You thought my feelings were long gone, but you were wrong.


When you fall apart

There's sometimes no choice in the matter. Sometimes it helps to break down then rebuild yourself. You did that the night you heard about your mom's accident. Then you built yourself up and left me because the idea that I saw inside you killed you.


When you have no heart

God, the times when you've been a cold bastard to me, your patients, to Wilson.

Like the time you told me I would suck as a mother, you knew exactly where to poke a stick at.

But even after that incident, I still loved you.


I feel everything

I hope you've realised by now that everything you go through, I go through to.

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