Always

I wish you'd let me hold you,

The way I want to.

I wish you'd let me love you,

The way I dream of loving you.

I wish you wouldn't pull away,

And let me worry about my heart.

But most of all,

I wish you would love me the way that I love you.

You're every star in my sky, my moon and sun.

You're the smile on my face when I'm blue.

You're my knight in shining armor, even when it's dull.

Ur the voice I hear inside my head, telling me to keep moving.

The breath I take after every fall.

You pick up the pieces of my heart,

Even if they break for you.

You're my every thought and dream,

Yet you don't know it.

I wish I could tell you in words what you do to me,

But words wouldn't come close to what I feel for you.

I love you with my heart and soul,

But you'll never know it.

I won't tell you cause to do so will hurt you,

So I'll keep it inside.

But I know my feelings,

And I will treasure my love for you always, no matter what.

You're my everything,

Yet nothing.

I can call you my friend,

But not my love.

We shall always be together,

But forever apart.

You don't think your good enough for me,

That I deserve better,

Yet all I want is you.

You don't want to hurt our friendship if something goes wrong,

But loving you from a distance isn't enough.

How do you tell your best friend you love him?

You can't just say it because it makes things weird,

But I can't keep it bottled up inside either.

How do you fix something that will forever be broken?

If you can't speak it out loud?

I love him and I always will,

Will that be enough to make him love me?

He is my air,

My reason for getting up in the morning.

How do I go on without him by my side or in my arms?

I can't,

But I do.

Because no matter what I will forever love him.

To tell him that would hurt him because he doesn't love me.

I'll never speak a word about my love,

To do so would only make it worse.

So how do I get him to love me?

I don't.

I just love him unconditionally.

Maybe he'll get the picture someday,

I can only hope.

But until then I'll be in the background,

Making sure no one hurts him.

I'll let him find love where ever it maybe.

It won't be me but as long as he's happy,

I'm happy.

No matter what happens I'll love him till the day I die.

He's the other half of my soul,

And the holder of my heart.

I would if I could give it to him a thousand times,

Just to have him break it a thousand more,

If that meant I could love him.

Loving him is my anchor, my safety net.

A net that has wholes big enough to swallow me whole,

But it's love.

He cannot love me,

But I will forever love him,

Always.