Soundtrack Of My Life...

My life can be explained through my talent... Sometimes it doesn't turn out as I want it to. But since I met her... I can't help but break out into song.

So here we go everyone...Chapter 16 as promised. I don't mean to be ungrateful, but my story traffic says that this story gets lots of views...so where are my reviews? Thank you to all my lovely people for reviewing. This chapter is dedicated to HughLaurieLover once again...Your reviews are truly amazing...You have turned into my inspiration. I think that I have 1 or 2 more chapters left until the end...

DISCLAIMER: I do not own House, David Shore does. I would love to own House, I would stop House and Cuddy pussyfooting around each other and get them together. I also do not own the lyrics to Goodbye My Lover, James Blunt does. I am simply playing with them, I get no profit.

This chapter is based on Cuddy's death. Sorry, but it was inevitable.

Chapter 16 – Goodbye My Lover

House POV

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

I did disappoint you.

I couldn't cure you.

I save hundred's of people every year, but when my wife, the love of my life gets ill, I cannot save her.


It may be over but it won't stop there.

You may be gone from this world, but I have a feeling I'll be joining you soon.

Because I can't live without you.

Our love will last, even after death.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.

You changed my life Lisa.

I was a drug addict when we got together.

I was selfish, rude, arrogant.

You changed me for the better.

You made me into a husband, a father, a human being.


And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

Ever since we met in college, there's been no one else I've truly loved.

My hearts always belonged to you, Lisa Anne Marie Cuddy.


I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

We both wanted so much the same.

Every night, cuddled up to you, that is my heaven.

Kissing your lips was something I never took for granted.


I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Your smell is unique.

Your smell is Cuddy.

My favourite smell in the world.

A mixture of Lavender and sweet vanilla.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
You were my soulmate Lisa.

And I can't stop the tears from falling.

Soon, they're be no more left to cry.

You know me, I never cry.

But this is the worst thing that had ever happened to me.


And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

Meaning don't find a new bloke in heaven to amuse yourself with.

Remember all our good times, and hold onto them until we're reunited again.


I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

It kills me to see you cry.

We're so emotionally connected that I feel your pain.

Your smile lights up a room.

Even if I've had a bad day, pain wise, you smile at me and the pain disappears.


I've watched you sleeping for a while.

You look so cute when you sleep.

Like an angel.

My angel.


I've been the father of your child.

4 beautiful children.

They're fabulous.

Between them, they all have our best qualities.

Your looks, my brains.


I've spent a lifetime with you.

My life started when we first met in Michigan, then ended the day you slipped away.

It was a long time coming, and there always was a chance of you getting Alzheimers.

But why you?

Why my beautiful wife?


I know your fears and you know mine.
I was the only one you ever told that you have a really bad fear of confined spaces, but lifts somehow don't apply.

You were the only one I told that I still have nightmares about what my father did to me.


And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

It's so hard to breathe without you.

It was like you were my oxygen.

I promise you, soon I'll be with you.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

You're in my dreams at night.

I dream that I have my Lisa back.

Then I wake up, and grieve for you all over again.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

It feels like my heart has been ripped out.

Lisa Cuddy, you were my soul mate, the love of my life, my best friend, my lover, my wife and the mother of my children.

Life is incomplete without you.

I miss you.