Just a huge shout out to Kakabell, I loved your choice of songs. and thank you to my fateful readers, never oculd have gotten this far without you :) READ ON~

Leaving definitely wasn't an option at this point. Who in my whole entire existence had accepted me for what I truly am, and still have open arms for me to run into?

Today Alice and Rosalie had convinced the whole family to go shopping, and I immediately cringed away from the idea. I hated the crowds with a lot of displeasure and I didn't like to just walk around with all the gagging scents and loud ruckus- plus I don't have any money, so why bother go shopping when you can't shop?

But they just ignored me and now look where I am, in the back seat of Emmett's jeep on Edward's lap - apparently Alice wanted to be eco-friendly today so she said to take two cars, one being the loading car- with Jasper to our left with a giggling Alice in his lap,Rose in front of us and Emmett in the drivers seat with his psychopathic driving. Sure all the Cullen's loved speed, but Emmett was just… Emmett, the one who's addicted to video games and gets them confused with reality.

"We're here!" Alice sang with a giggled and jumped from Jasper's lap out of the monstrous jeep. How can she be happy about going into a head ache forming place like the mall? Oh, right, because they don't get head aches! They are sooo lucky!

"Bella" Edward whispered gripping my waist and hopped out of the jeep with me straddling his waist. I hope he knows I can get out of a vehicle just fine without his super help.

"Thanks" I sigh looking up ahead of me to the entrance of the mall. "Do we have to go?" I whined putting up at him as Carlisle and Esme stepped out of Carlisle's Mercedes. All three of them chuckled at my childishness. Not very fair now is it?

"Stop whining, Bella" Alice laughed linking arms with Rosalie and skipped off into the mall. She looks like a pixy, acts like a pixy, and has the likings of a pixie - now what does that say?

"I call the arcade!" Both Emmett and Jasper shouted running to another door of the mall and disappeared into the crowd. Is it just me, or are all boys addicted to a challenge?

I glanced up at Edward, he didn't seem to be that type of guy, but then again he was raised to be a gentlemen in front of family and guests- and it's not like I can read his mind. I frowned.

Edward raised his eyebrow at me. Oh, that's right, he can't read my mind either. Am I forgetting things today or what? I shook my head with a smirk and grabbed his hand.

"Where to, Bella?" Edward asked kissing my cheek making me avert my eyes elsewhere, once again if I could blush I would be right now. Now where to go? Didn't want to go anywhere near clothes and I definitely don't want to go near the food court, yuck. The only thing I can think of is a book store, but that can wait till the end of the shopping torture.

I shrug and shrink into his side as we head into bigger crowds that got really pushy. People started eyeing us, and it wasn't in irritation- some even started gawking at us. Really nerve wrecking.

"Where do you usually go to?" I ask softly as I wrapped my arm around his waist so I wouldn't get separated from him and he did the same in return. I did want to know where he went when Alice drags the family here.

"Follow me" Edward chuckled tightening his grip around my waist and started swerving through crowds and about three minutes later we were standing in front of a music store. Of course, how could I have forgotten? Edward was a pianist with a wall length shelf with rows of CD's. "So?" Edward asked grinning at me with a glint in his eyes.

"Let's" I giggled kissing him under his chin and tugged him inside. It was bigger than I had thought it would be, two stories to be precise, no wonder he loves this place- it's huge with only a handful of people in it, and those handful of people are in their own little world wile they listen to different types of music. Amazing.

"My favorite place" Edward informed me, slinging an arm on top of my shoulders and guided me upstairs. Glinting at me are hundreds of CD cases with names I never even heard of. "Have at it" Edward chuckled seeing my amazement and gave me a chaste kiss on the lips before departing and heading off to the piano section.

I ran to a random section and started to scan through all the names, some were awkward some inappropriate, but overall were spectacular. The songs listed on the back signified emotional or just plain name screaming songs. I picked out all of the CD's that had caught my attention and headed off to the nearest audio section and sat down in a comfy chair and popped in the CD's while quickly putting the headphones on.

"Lately,
I'm not quite myself.
Maybe,
I do need some help.
just my confusion,
trust my delusions.

Don't you,
Regret you met me.
go through,
These steps to get me,
Back to where we start,
Before I fall apart.

If I could black out-"

Who, okay, too loud and way too depressed for my likings. I flipped the CD case in my hands and read the title and heading, and read it out loud to myself, "Sum 41, Open Your Eyes", my fault- didn't know such a soft title of a song could be so-so soul depressing. I don't get that at all. I skipped to the next CD I had picked and prayed it would be a bit more soothing than my first one.

"Far away

This ship is taking me far away

Far away from the memories Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight

I will be chasing the starlight

Until the end of my life

I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms

I just wanted to hold

You in my arms

My life You electrify my life

Let's conspire to re-ignite

All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go

If you promised not to fade away

Never fade away"

I blinked back the tears that would never come. That was very emotional, this guy has a lot to say about love- was it about love? I read the back cover, "Muse, Starlight", I love it.

I let my eyes roam while I listened to the ending of it and I caught sight of Edward moving around, looking at some older timed CD's and I suppose he felt me staring at him at turned his head slightly and smiled warmly at me when he realized it was just me.

Edward would care wouldn't he? I mean, I would care if he lived or died- I did, when I was working as a part time nurse at the Chicago hospital, assigned to the Masen family, I staid with them hoping that maybe I could find a way to cure them, but in the end Edward Sr. was the first to die, followed by Elizabeth. I had a raging fit when this happened, screaming it wasn't fair.

But when it was Edward's time, I had a break down. I cared for him. I truly did care about him, I guess I didn't realize how deeply until now, until right now- when I truly knew what love felt like. Part of me is glad I didn't know that I was in love with Edward back then, if I had then I would have committed suicide when he 'died'. I can't bare the thought of losing him now.

"Hold you in my arms

I just wanted to hold

You in my arms

I just wanted to hold"

I knew what I wanted to purchase.

I quietly got up and put the CD back in its case and made my way to Edward, who had continued to look around at some cords, probably for his piano. I tapped him on the shoulder and right when he turned his body to where his chest was facing me and pulled him into a tight hug. Hu, Muse was right, holding him in my arms is the only I want right now, to know that he'll always be there.

"I love you too, my Bella" Edward chuckled lowly into my ear and kissed my lips as his arms pressed me tighter against his chest..

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