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"You…. You found this?" I asked gaping at the sight in front of me. Everything was radiant- heavenly. It was his meadow, everything about it reminded me of him, soft, peaceful and inhumanly beautiful.

"I was out hunting and stumbled upon it.." Edward murmured scratching behind his neck nervously. Edward, nervous? I mentally shrugged, there's a first for everything. "You like it?" he asked after an uncomfortable silence.

"Are you kidding me? I love it Edward!" I squeaked jumping on him and burying my face into the side of his face and hugging him close. How long until I had to leave this, my personal heaven? I had lost track of time long ago, though I'm certain I have at least three months until I can officially panic. I didn't want to think about that right now. All I wanted was Edward. "Thank you" I whispered into his ear and kissed behind it.

"Anything for you, Love" Edward chuckled kissing my collar bone before kissing up to my jugular and dug his nose into it. What was up with him and my neck? To tell you the truth he has been more clingy and .. I couldn't explain it, he seemed to be memorizing my scent.

Like he knew I was leaving soon.

"Are you okay, Edward?" I asked stroking his hair soothingly and pulled his face up so I could see him. He couldn't know, could he? I haven't said or hinted to my leaving to anyone, not even Jasper!

Edward sighed and shook his head murmuring, "I can't place it, it's like something's going to take you away from me at any moment" then he suddenly growled lowly, and my eyes instinctively darted around the meadow but saw no threat. "It's like a feeling, like your going to leave without any notice, like someone is forcing you to leave me, our family". Our family…

Edward was right that I was leaving but he didn't know how true, how much his gut was truly telling him. I smiled warmly down at him and gently kissed his lips. He was my soul mate, I'm sure of it and I guess his bond with me was trying to warn him about of our future separation.

"Are you?" He asked jerking back lightly from the kiss and searched my eyes in panic. I can't lie, especially not to him. But I don't want to hurt him, that was the last thing I ever wanted to do.

I blinked once and gazed in his eyes without really knowing were I was looking at. I thought back, back to all the people I met and left. None of them knew me but they all were well aware of my presence and it seemed like a daily routine, nod to the neighbors, glare at the prankster kids, and help the elderly woman down the street with her groceries… I had gotten used to every lifetime I lived in. This is the only time I have broken habit- I had a family that took notice and touched my heart.

This is different. I know that.

"Bella" Edward cried on in distress making me snap out of my gaze and focus in on his face. "Are you okay?" he asked and I only then noticed that his hands were cupping my face when his thumbs started rubbing soothing circles on my cheeks.

"Sorry, dozed off" I mumbled averting my gaze from him and dunked my head into his shoulder. I didn't want to tell him, but I had to. "I love you, Edward, so very much" I murmured as my hands knotted in his silken hair and pulled him close.

"Bella" Edward bit back a growl and he pulled back just enough to grab my face and make me look at him. "Please, tell me you're not leaving" Edward begged leaning his forehead on my own. Fate must really hate me right now…

"Yes, I am… I have to" I mumbled clenching my eyes closed. I didn't want to see his face. I couldn't.

"No" Edward hissed his arms tightening around me. "You can't. Not now, not ever" he then started going into hysterics saying all these jumbled things that got lost in my mind when his ramble went on for over two minutes.

"I have too, it's what I am.." I mumbled pressing my lips to his to shut him up so I could think. His hands immediately went up to caress the back of my head and is lips moved under mine.

It's what I am… but what if I wasn't? I would have to change. I would have to become something else.

Change. That's the answer to my problem, all I have to do is change what I am. But how? I knew nothing I- wait hold up. Edward's lips parted from my lips and kissed my cheek and down to my neck. Vampire. I could change into a vampire and leave my rules behind me. But how?.. I knew enough about vampires now to know that when bitten their venom goes into the system and is carried throughout the body.

That is where my problem starts up again. I have no beating heart, so that means if I was to be bitten the venom wouldn't be able to travel in my veins… It would only work if I forced my heart to beat…

I snapped my eyes open and in took a large amount of air. I was freakin' brilliant. Edwards lips froze on my jugular and he looked up at me.

"Bella, love?" Edward asked his eyebrows furrowing. "What's wrong, is it time?" he now was panicked as his eyes searched mine.

"How long can any vampire force a heart to beat?" I asked smoothing out his forehead but when his questioning gaze hardened even further I tried to explain, "You know, uh, CPR, without the mouth-to-mouth part.. Just pumping the heart through the chest".

"How is that supposed to help?" Edward hissed pulling my face into his chest and rested his head on top of mine. "Please I don't want to lose you".

"I would have to become one of your kind… I have to become a vampire" I stated looking up to see his reaction.

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