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It started off being fuzzy, almost blurred and all the voices around me were slurred. I felt almost groggy, sick to the stomach. It took me awhile to remember what had happened, and when I did I wished I didn't.
I coughed a few times after I took in too much oxygen and my eyes pulled their way upwards. Jasper was hovering worriedly over me, offering me a smile when he noticed I was awake. I frowned back in confusion. I looked around and saw Rosalie sitting beside me, petting my hair as she stared off behind me almost smugly, Alice was sitting on Jasper's lap but was laying gently on me- her weight felt like nothing- eyes smiling apologetically up at me as she snuggled deeper in my stomach. Emmett was by my feet scowling up at the ceiling, when he felt my stare he looked down at me and gave me a soft smile before scowling behind me, just like Rosalie was doing.. What was behind me?
"Edward.... Edward" I called out in question but ended up coughing hoarsely because of my dry throat. I looked everywhere that my eyes could take me, but he wasn't anywhere to see. "Edward" I croaked out in a distressed cry, looking at someone for answers. No one would meet my eyes they all were staring behind my now, eyes trained on the same thing.
I tried to move my limbs but they were soar for no apparent reason, I tried to look up but it agitated my eyes trying to do so. My wings started twitching inside my back, probably disapproving of my weight being put on it.
"Alice… back" I tried to explain and watched as her eyes darted to me in worry but then her eyes turned knowing. She slowly lifted herself from me and helped me sit up, my wings settled down. I tried to turn around but Rosalie shook her head, Jasper's hand lightly grasped my shoulder and both Emmett and Alice sighed sadly. Their eyes showed how hungry they were, all had a darker tent of circles under their eyes.
"Come, Bella, you need to go to Carlisle's study so he can check on you" Jasper said softly and stood up, glancing back behind me for a minute before smiling tightly at me. "I don't want anything to be wrong with you" he stated offering me his hand. I eagerly took it.
"Edward?" I asked as I was put on my shaky legs. I looked behind me and almost ran to the sight I saw. Edward was all the way on the other side of the room with his arms loosely crossed looking at me with regret. "Edward, I need you" I stated taking a step towards him but ended up twisting my legs with one another and fell. I faintly saw Edward take a step towards me, but heard disapproving growls and Jasper's arms went around me to keep me from meeting the floor.
"Jasper.. Please" Edward pleaded taking a step back and raising his hands up in defense. "I just want to make sure she's okay". Why can't he come to me?
"That's Carlisle's job, Edward" Jasper spat his name out in disgust. What happened when I fell unconscious? "Just stay put, your just lucky Carlisle came when he did or you wouldn't be here to even look at her". That last comment was unnecessary and it made anger boil up to the pit of my stomach. I swear he better not be threatening Edward after what just happened.
"Jasper, please don't-" Alice warned as my fists clenched when I saw Edward take a seat on the cold floor and hang his head down into his hands. It looked as if he was the one getting bullied, how can his family do this to him? How could Jasper?
"Bells', no need to feel edgy, he won't hurt you" Jasper assured me, "he's not going to come near you again, not as long as I am around". What gives him the right to tell me who I can and cannot be with? If I am going to get hurt, it's going to be my decision not his.
"Edward" I called out turning to him, he lifted his head in answer and I flinched at his expression, it was filled with pain and longing. I started to walk towards him but Jasper quickly grabbed my arm, "Jasper let go" I said as my legs started shaking even more.
"I don't want you near him, he will hurt you" Jasper stated his jaw clenched, the way he said it made me think he was trying to make it a statement out of an opinion. That upset me to no end, I threw a glance at Edward to see if he would defend himself but all he did was hang his head once more. My anger flared and Jasper looked at me startled.
"I want you to stop that" I grounded out with gritted teeth, "Just stop with the unnecessary remarks, and let me do what ever the hell I want to do- I will pay for my actions, not you." His face was a mask of shock, but that didn't stop my rant. "I'm 162 years old, I'm not sick, so you have no reason to baby me, Jasper".
Everyone stayed completely silent, giving me the edge that I needed. I stared at Jasper waiting for him to soak up the information and when he did he shook his head with a scowl.
"You're still my little sister, Isabella" Jasper stated, "It is my duty to protect you, and right now Edward is the danger and I will not allow you to see him, ever" his voice held so much authority, like pa's. Like he was still in the army as a general.
"You have no right" I spat out stepping away from him and towards Edward, "I have been alone for over 147 years of my life, I. Do. Not. Need. You".
"Don't say that" Jasper hissed his face tightening in displeasure.
"You can't always have your way, Jasper, you aren't pa-" Was all I could argue out before he busted out.
"I know I'm not pa', don't bring him into this, this is between Edward and me- just stay out of it Isabella!".
I don't know what drove me to do what I just did but I slapped him, hard. It stung my hand a bit but I managed to turn his face a good 90 degrees. He stumbled backwards, his hand caressing his cheek where I had hit him.
"What the heck?" Jasper muttered looking at me with bewilderment.
"This is about me right!" I screeched at him my breaths coming out quicker. I heard gentle sobbing and looked over to see Esme sobbing into Carlisle's chest who was looking at me with a pained expression. "Just leave me alone, Jasper" I muttered shaking my hand before walking over to Edward who had lifted his head and saw the whole scene unfold. I stopped a foot away from him and looked down at him, my body trembling a bit from all the soreness.
"Love?" Edward asked cautiously standing up. I sobbed lightly and stumbled into his chest, encircling my arms around his waist. "It's okay" he hushed in my ear his arms immediately hugging me close.
"Can we be alone, please" I whispered after a few minutes of silence. I felt him nod against my hair and he stepped back a little to take my hand once again and lead me to the door, no one interfered with our leaving.
"You know I love you, Bella, I would never hurt you- or take advantage of you" Edward murmured his grip tightening on my hand. I looked up at him and smiled sweetly realizing he was staring at me with the softest expression I have ever seen on him. "I love you more than my life, never forget that" with that said he raised my hand to his lips and lightly kissed the palm of it.
"Does it pain you to be with me, Edward?" I asked lacing my fingers with his and looked forward giving him time to answer honestly. "My blood, I mean, you never told me that my blood was alluring to you".
"I.. I didn't want you to feel the need to stay a distance from me" Edward admitted with a sigh leading me further into the forest, into a familiar path. "I swear to you , Bella, I have control with you… it was that time when Emmett brought you home all bloody" he shuddered a bit "all the blood the came from you it was like over bearing and I had to leave- it won't happen again".
"I know you would never intentionally hurt me, Edward" I said pressing myself into his side and kissed his forearm. "Even if you did, I would hope that you would at least enjoy yourself while drinking my blood".
Edward stiffened as I said that and his eyes darted to mine. "How could you say that?" he asked bringing his arm around my waist and pulling me closer to him while stepping over an uprooted root.
"It's my life, and I'm glad that something about me pleases you" I stated with a sigh smiling up at him.
"I wish you could see this from my point of view, Love, I wouldn't enjoy one bit of it" Edward started squeezing me affectionately closer to him. "Besides you please me more than your blood".
I blinked up at him in confusion, what was that supposed to mean?
"Love, one of these days I'm going to show you how to see yourself properly, it pains me to know that you think so lowly of yourself" Edward sighed kissing my temple.
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