Sorry for the lateness! Okay when your done reading this I want you to guess what happened so I can decide for myself what I want to happen! Please help me! READ ON~
"Please understand me" I begged fidgeting in my spot as my family stared at me in pure shock, "Jasper caught us at a bad time- it was my nerves" I glanced over at Jasper who stood stock still next to a astonished Alice.
I had talked to Edward in his meadow for a good two hours carefully planning out a way to explain her situation to them, they hadn't thought of anything solid so they had decided to confront anything that came up and go with the flow of things. It wasn't working so well.
"You are not leaving us, especially with Edward!" Rosalie hissed banging her hand on Esme's coffee table smashing it into splinters, though it would seem Esme herself wasn't paying attention as she was sobbing tearless cries into Carlisle's chest. "Bella, you need to understand that Edward can hurt you physically!" Rosalie snapped eyes glaring holes at Edward, who was shaking with anger.
"Rose you have to see-" I tried desperately to urge her to understand that I need to leave in a short amount of time and that Edward would be the safest person to bring with me.
"Bella open your eyes!" Rosalie spat yelling out in frustration, "Rape is reality, you don't know Edward down to his-"
"Just shut up! I can't take it anymore!" Jasper cried out cradling his head in his hands as Alice stroked his back reassuringly. I stared at him with a pained expression, all the emotions were overwhelming him.
"But there is another option" Edward spoke up settling his anger and putting a protective arm around my shoulders giving Rosalie a stiff glance, daring her to say anything more. I glanced at him in surprise; he was the one against my option, so why on earth is he the one bringing it up?
"I see that my option isn't helping the family any so why not let our conversation earlier open to them?" Edward answered my unspoken question squeezing my shoulder reassuringly.
"What are you speaking of, Edward?" Carlisle asked while his arms continued to hold the trembling Esme.
"Before any of this" Edward gestured his hand to everyone in the room, "happened, Bella and me came up with two conclusions; the one being what we just explained to you which was my idea, or Bella's idea…" he took a deep steady breath before continuing, "Bella proposed a way where she could stay with us permanently, I went against it being that it would cause her a great deal of pain and discomfort adding to the fact the it may be against her rules".
Alice gasped in surprise, I stiffly saw from the corner of my eyes Edward nodding to her before his eyes rested on mine. Then the most ironic saying came from the back room, where Emmett had left the television on…
"Depression hurts"
Jasper flinched back into his hands, while I cursed at the heavens for their bad timing.
Emmett cleared his throat, clearly uncomfortable with the tension, "Bella's option please".
"Right" I murmured docking my head seeing that the wooden floor most interesting, "I mentioned your turning", Rosalie immediately stiffened, "but seeing that my heart doesn't beat I presented CPR, without the mouth to mouth part- if someone could beat my heart for me while the venom circulated through my system.." as I finished I slowly dunk behind Edwards back seeing Rosalie glaring holes now at me.
"HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT!?" Rosalie screamed, managing to broke a flower vase that was sitting on the mirroring coffee table. "You are fine the way you are! NOW THIS!? You want to ruin your life?".
"Rose please don't say that" I begged clutching Edward's shirt while he stood still, averting his eyes to the ground. I looked at Jasper to see him staring at me with a spark of agreement gleaming in his eyes. "NO!" I yelled sobbing, "just listen to me, I don't want to be the girl that ruins the family, if you guys can't deal with either then fine!".
"Bella, Calm" Edward spoke stepping aside and quickly held me to his side before I could run off; which let me tell you is the easiest way out. "Please, these are the options, if there is any other option we will tell you"
"CALM!?" Rosalie huffed stomping her foot on the floor, making the beautiful mahogany floor crack under the pressure, and ran up the stairs singing out curse words.
"We already know Rosalie is out, but who here agrees to Bella's changing" Carlisle spoke up, being the brave one and breaking the silence.
I hid my head not wanting to watch the outcome. If Alice disagreed then Jasper will probably take her lead, adding to the fact that he refused anything pain related to come to me, Rosalie already expressed her answer and Emmett was bound to stay with her choice. Edward already made the decision even though he has a hard time accepting it meaning that Carlisle will possibly go with his decision while Esme would want to agree with Carlisle but also had to think of her children when some disagreed with it.
What was the answer going to be?
"I for one can't see anything bad about this, but Jasper has a right to express himself.." Alice stated uneasily as she glanced at Jasper who was still hiding his face. At least we have that in common.
"Jasper…" I murmured with a choke. I hesitantly look up to see him staring uncertainly at me. "Please, I want a family again.." I pleaded clutching Edward's shirt.
"I'm so sorry" Jasper cried out, but it sounded as if he was saying this to himself so I waited as rejection started to build up in me along with anguish. "You don't understand the pain.. You would be wishing for death.. I can't let you do that all over again.."
"NO!" I cried out and everything flashed a bright white and Edward gripped me in surprise.. Then it went black.
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