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Chapter 2: Beautiful
...I was always blinded by your beauty… that I failed to see how the title of "L" changed you….I was too late to save you….Perhaps even…too late to even save myself…
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When L-kun turned sixteen, Watari-sama came up with this twisted idea to create replacements for L-kun if he were ever to cease to exist. Thinking back on it now, what kind of person assigns a six year old girl to risk her life for another? I loved Watari-sama with all my heart. He was the closes thing to family I had left, but his idea of "L" was getting too out of hand.
When A and B arrived at the orphanage, it was my job to fill them in on what their roles were in Wammy's House. But instead, they became my friends and as my friends, I loathed the idea of them as nothing more than just an "alternative" and the "back-up plan".
A was the quiet type - a bit shy and emotional. He brought out my more girly side. To the other orphans, I was scary and rude. They cheered whenever my more kind and hyper side came out, but I could always see fear behind their eyes. It amused me, to be honest, but it also saddened me to see that was what others truly only saw me as. A never did. He saw me as a girl - not just any ordinary girl, though. It was fun being around him and I always felt normal.
B was a different case. Although "B" was his name at Wammy's House, he always preferred "BB" in respect to his real name: Beyond Birthday. At first sight, he frightened me. His eyes, although I was certain no one else saw their true color - red, were what instantly pushed me away from him. He was always the one trying to start a conversation with me, regardless of how many times I ran away from him. I figured, the moment he took a glance above my head, he was drawn to me. I was nothing more than just a mystery to him. He was curious about the non-existent numbers and name above my head and I was afraid of his eyes.
Strangely enough, I became drawn to him too. Perhaps it was because he was A's best friend. Perhaps because I loved the way his lips curled up into a twisted smirk whenever he saw me. Perhaps it was because, just like me, everyone else feared him too.
The day A killed himself, I had completely destroyed all ties with L. To me, he was no longer "L-kun" but "L", the man he was raised to become. It wasn't that I hated him or blamed him for A's death but that I hated how he saw it coming but did nothing to stop it.
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"Shadow-chan," I twirled around at the mention of my name, not really paying much mind to who called it or where I was going. All I knew was, I had to get out of there. The look on BB's face was too much to bear after the loss of A and his missing presence was like a stab at the heart.
When I looked back, L stood there, his hands stuffed inside his pockets, his dark eyes observing me, calculating me. Oh how I hated that look.
"What?" I spat back at him, wincing at how angry I sounded.
"You're leaving." He wasn't asking. He already knew what I was planning on doing.
"Obviously. You of all people should know me. But then again, I'm no longer talking to 'L-kun', am I?" He didn't reply, just stared right at me. For a moment, I thought I saw L-kun standing before me once more, but I guess I was wrong.
I looked away with a shake of my head, not sure what else to say to him. What was there to say when I was running away? Goodbye? No. Not to L.
I was about to walk away from him, without another word when the sound of rushing footsteps caught our attention. I looked up to see Roger heading our way, calling out L's name.
"What is it, Roger?" L asked instantly, ready to jump right into another of his endless cases.
"It's B! He-"
"His name is 'BB'," I corrected before he could continue, also paying attention to what he had to say, fearing the worse had happened.
"He's gone! He left!" Roger finished hurriedly, not paying me any mind. I stood there, frozen to the ground, unable to move. Gone?…
"What do you mean 'gone', Roger?" Watari questioned as he walked up to us, his expression worried.
"He's taken some of his clothes and just left! He's gone! He's no longer in Wammy's House! He left!" I took a few steps away, trying to catch my breath at this sudden news. I felt betrayed but wasn't I prepared to do the same only moments ago?
"Shadow-chan, do you know anything about this?" Watari questioned me, already knowing the answer from my reaction but still feeling the need to ask me. I shook my head, unable to speak. His gaze lowered, unsure of what to do next.
"Inform the police that there is a missing teenager on the streets. We'll begin our search tomorrow, when the sun is up," I looked up at L as he gave his orders. I bit back the tears that threatened to fall. He sensed my gaze on him and turned to look at me.
"You…you just don't care do you? This is all just a game to you! Well, I refuse to continue to be one of your guinea pigs anymore!"
"Shadow-chan!" Watari exclaimed, surprised by my outburst. I turned to look at him and it was all it took for the tears to fall.
"I'm sorry Watari…I love you but…this is not the way to create a peaceful world!" I ran, masking myself in the shadows, refusing to reveal my location to anyone.
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My search for BB began the day after I ran away from Wammy's House, breaking all ties I had left with L and Watari. I never expected to run into either ever again. I was unsure of what to do after I found BB but I doubted I would be able to do so anytime soon. Still, I felt the need to locate him. It was his eyes that made me fear what he would do next.
Although I was unsure of how he obtained those eyes - eyes I wished I never had to see again - I knew what they were capable of, or at least what they meant. BB showed no signs of a notebook anywhere. He too was a mystery to me, but unlike his thoughts towards me, I didn't wish to solve this mystery.
Regardless of his eyes, he became my friend. As my friend, I feared for his life and for the lives of others around him.
BB once asked me if he was like L. My response was: No.
What I wanted to say was: L is not beautiful like L-kun was.
But what BB wanted to hear was: that he was better than L.
If only I had known his true purpose for that question…
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This chapter felt a bit rushed to me but I still liked it. I hope you guys enjoyed it as well! Please remember to R&R!!! Ja ne!