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I thought it would be easy to forget, to forget the ones I left behind, to just forget how much I killed them at heart. But it can never be that easy now can it, I have to suffer. I deserve it but I wish it would be easier. Less heart paining.

I had jumped but I guess I was too emotional to really focus on a time. I had ended up in the same place I had left off, that strange white room but this time a person was there that I knew instantly by heart.

"Pa'!" I cried out happily as I ran to him and embraced him as much as my small arms could. He was there, really there, in my arms. He still had his slightly curled stressed out hair with his warm brown doe eyes, tall with his formal attire on- tie and all.

"My sweet, sweet, Isabella" he cooed hugging me closely, warm breath caressing my ear. It was just like home, like old times….

"H-how?" I stuttered rubbing my face into his shirt, "you were-are dead".

"My baby girl was in distress, I wasn't just about to let you go without guidance" Pa' chuckled smoothing out my hair with his rough hand, "everything is new for you since you were out of that couch and into the real world".

"I-I'm over a hundred years old pa', I've been in the real world more than you have" I sobbed soaking up his warmth.

"That's not what I mean, darlin'" Pa' stated his hands appearing on each side of my face and pulled it up so that I was seeing his face up close. He still had tight skin with that unhealthy tan, but he looked healthier than he did when I was human. "With Jasper" He stated smiling knowingly.

"I've hurt him so much, Pa', I didn't mean to but he just-- I don't know, it's just it all fell apart because of me!" I cried out loudly and wanted to hide my face so badly but Pa' just kept a firm but loving grip on my face, " I messed him and his family up so badly!".

"Sh" pa' shushed and smiled again, "you have to know some things about Jasper, honey, you had a one side view of him all your human life, you were immobile on the couch and you didn't see the real big brother you had".

"Wh-what?" I stuttered looking up at him in utter confusion, "I know Jasper, I really do".

"No you don't, you never did" Pa' said and right then and there he wasn't my father, but a real man who knew more than he should in his lifetime, "Jasper loved you, you didn't know how much, outside of the house he worked and worked for a cure for your sickness, he denied so many offers to a better life".

"But he always said that he was out helping you with the farm" I stated truthfully, remembering all those days he came back from a day outside,

"Jasper" I coughed in delight as I saw him come in from outside with sweat coating his tanned skin.

"Isabella" he sang sweetly as he grabbed a glass of water to drink and sat himself on the floor next to my laying form on the old couch Maw and Pa' got for me. How I wanted to get better and be able to repay their gratitude. "How are you today?" he asked kissing my cheek lovingly.

"A pain, doctor said I needed to read more to keep my brain active" I sighed in frustration and turned my head to face him, he was the best brother anyone could ask for, listening to me complain.

"He means the best" Jasper laughed ruffling my hair.

"He seemed so happy, I thought he was enjoying his life" I stated again biting back more sobs that racked my chest.

"Jasper worked so hard, paying for all those doctor visits" Pa' mumbled rubbing my face soothingly, "He is so protective of you because people talked about you, saying that he was wasting his time and money on you, that he should give up hope that would never come- but he never gave up on you, didn't even talk about it".

I processed this through and guilt rose higher in my heart, "I can be independent, he didn't let me make my own choices, I just wanted to live a life that he wouldn't let me make!". I was in hysterics I suppose because I realized all I was saying was stuff to defend myself, I knew now why Jasper over reacted and was cautious over his well known brother.

"Jasper? Why are they yelling?" I asked in a scratchy voice as I watched from my couch as people walked past our house raising signs with a confident posture.

"We're going to war" Jasper's voice came from the room closest to me, I had no clue what he was doing in there but it sounded like he was fighting to get something on, "and going to beat the Soviet Union!" he sang as I heard the door open and he came into my view. He was wearing one of Pa's old suits, though they were a tad to big on him considering his young age.

"Where are you going?" I asked in curiosity as he bean to flex his muscles making me laugh softly, making my chest hurt a bit but I didn't pay it much attention.

"I'm going to fight for the Confederate army" Jasper stated proudly as he winked at me but I had stopped laughing and stared at him in horror.

"You're too young, Jasper" I said desperately, I didn't want him to leave, he kept me company and made Maw and Pa' laugh all the time, he made us family, "please don't leave, please I need you" I started crying, tears falling out of my eyes.

"Sh" Jasper soothed kneeling next to my laying figure, "it's going to be alright, I look older than I really am remember? I'll be fine and send you loads of letters filling you in on the exciting stuff". He was rubbing my cheek trying to calm me down.

"You won't be here though, I'll miss you" I told him my lips trembling, "does Maw and Pa' know?".

"Yes" He stated.

"Why?" I cried sadly. I didn't want him to leave.

"I can't tell you" Jasper sighed running his hand through my hair before standing up and walked to the door.

"No! Jasper, don't leave! JASPER!" I cried and screamed out at him struggling to get up but to no success as I watched him walk out of the door into the crowd, "Jasper…".

"Jasper went to war for you" Pa' muttered breaking me out of my hysterics.

"He left me!" I cried out pounding my fists on his chest. This cannot be happening, not now..

"And you left him" Pa' stated knowingly.

I calmed down at that. It was true, I was leaving him in his time of need like he left me. If it was anything like it was with me when he left than he must be feeling the worst kind of pain right now.. But Danny would've already erased their minds right? They don't remember anything so Jasper wouldn't be feeling the pain.

"You still have time to erase your sin that Jasper never could have done when he left" Pa' said as if he could read my mind.. Edward, like Edward could read others' minds… How I missed him so very much.

"But Danny-" I started saying sadly but was cut of by Pa'.

"That man is bad news for you" Pa' stated with a growl, "don't trust him, Isabella, you still can have the family you left, they haven't forgotten you, Danny may have thought he did but they have loved ones looking over them too".

"They didn't forget me?" I gasped looking up at him quickly.

"Of course not, now go and mend the problem at hand, I myself as your father am going to deal with this man that has deceived you, as well as the others" Pa' chuckled kissing my forehead.

"Others?" I asked confused yet delighted that I still had a chance at a family and love.

"You know the Cullen's' s loved ones- Edward's parents, as well as Rosalie's and Emmett's, Carlisle's father, Esme's husband, they are their for them to have a better life despite what they have become" Pa' explained grinning toothily.

"Thank you so much, I love you, Pa'" I cried hugging him tightly as he laughed and patted my back and slowly disappeared.

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