XD I'm alive! Sorry this one took longer than expected, shout out to Le and Kakabel- great supporters who can save me thinking process sometimes... READ ON~
My head hurt, more than it should be for a vampire like myself. It was all fuzzy and.. Different
I opened my eyes cautiously and was met with a blinding, well for humans, bright white light. But It wasn't just that, I wasn't alone, there was this soft humming, a sweet tune in my ears that I had heard from when I was a child.
But my Mother was the only one who knew this tune, it was passed down from family generations and I was supposed to learn it to pass it down.. But I couldn't carry it on now that I can't have children. But, Mother's lullaby continued on until it came to an end and I just continued to lay there, enjoying the silence but felt as though I was missing something… some thing important. How did I get here again?
"You have finally awakened, my little boy".
I shot up at this full in defense mode but stilled at what I saw in front of me. It was Mother, she looked beautiful, I barely could remember her from my human days but I could presume she looked just the same but without the Spanish influenza eating away at her life.
"Mother?" I asked in confusion. Was I dead, did I fail- BELLA! I looked at my Mother in shock as I remembered all the happened to land me here in this predicament. Have I failed Bella, my Bella, and died? "Lord, No" I cried thinking I have passed on. This can't be happening, I had to get forgiveness from Bella, I had to show her that everything's alright and nothing is her fault. Thank her for showing love to a monster like me…
"Edward, dear, what is troubling you?" My Mother asked as I faintly watched her walk her way over to me and kneeling down next to my fallen form, "nothing is wrong, why cry, my son?".
"I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't be with you- I've messed up Bella's life, I don't deserve to be in heaven" I cried out holding my head in anguish. I am a monster, a selfish one..
"What in heaven's name are you talking about, Edward? You haven't done anything wrong" My Mother giggled lightly as she stroked my hair, and kissed my forehead.
"What are you saying? I am a monster, I did every thing possible that could be wrong to the one I have loved!" I stated bending my head down to my knees and sobbing. I looked so pathetic right now and that's what I am, pathetic.
"You are not in the afterlife, Edward" My Mother stated still stroking my hair soothingly.
Not in heaven? "Then where am I?" I asked out loud to her, bringing my head up to look up at my Mother in question. If my Mother is here it has to be the afterlife, she was dead, died of the Spanish Influenza, I saw it myself! "What is this white room then? Why can't I read your mind like I can every other being?". All these questions swam in my head and made me want to just go and take my anger out on something, but there was nothing but thin air and my mother- and she wasn't a target I was willing to go at.
"My Dearest Edward" My Mother cooed wrapping her arms around my form and leaned me against her warm body in a soft embrace. Home, my earlier home.. But not mine now, mine was with Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmett, Jasper Alice.. Bella… Bella…
"We love you so very much, when your time comes we will be waiting for you" My Mother whispered in my ear, "waiting even if it takes all eternity".
"We?" I asked catching her plural words, who else would she be talking about unless-
"Forgot about me already?" My Father's voice called out from behind me.
My eyes widened and I spun around in my Mother's embrace to see my Father leaning against the white wall with his arms crossed, eyes looking down at my Mother and me in warmth. "Father" I whispered gratefully smiling up at him. How I missed them so much, so, so, very much.
"Nice to see you remembered me, getting worried for a minute there" he chuckled pushing himself off the wall to come closer to us and right when he disconnected from the wall.. It wasn't a wall anymore, but thin air. "Glad to see you're doing well, Son" he muttered kneeling down to our level and placed his hand on my forehead and placed a fatherly kiss on it.
"How is this possible?" I gasped out trying to keep myself from sobbing all over again.
"Anything is possible, my Dear" my Mother said smiling, placing a hand on Father's shoulder and squeezed it affectionately, "we love you and want to make sure you get the best out of your life".
"But I'm dead, a monster" I stated glumly looking at the ground in shame. They gave birth to a monster. That's what I'll always be..
"Petty talk" My Father snorted whacking my head slightly and I actually felt the sting that came with it. I was a vampire and they were… spiritual beings. How could they hurt me? "I don't want to hear my son speaking such fowl language about himself, you're Mother and I have raised a much better man then that".
"I killed human beings, sucked their life out of them" I replied shaking my head while closing my eyes to keep away the images of those that I had killed in my earlier days.
"We know, Son" Father stated putting a hand under my chin and lifted it up, "open your eyes" he commanded sternly. I obeyed. "you are forgiven, you have done so much good, overriding all those bad things. You are forgiven, I want you to accept that".
How can I? I haven't done anything good at all. I have ruined Bella's life just when she was opening up to us, let her guard down and then I just had to loose my control..
"Edward" My Mother called out hugging me from the back and rubbing my arms motherly, giving me warmth I have turned down for so long now. "it is our wish that you have the strength to forgive yourself, we have watched you suffer so long while you have made a life for everyone around you- give yourself the forgiveness".
"It was a catastrophe and all my doing" I told them slumping out of my Mother's grasp but she wasn't willing to let me go and her arms tightened around me. "I made her runaway.. Bella".
"You are forgiven" My Father repeated grabbing my face with his worn down hands and kept them there, "Isabella has already forgiven you and is already on her way to you… she wants this family you have created for her, it's up to you to forgive yourself and embrace this life without regrets to lug you down".
"What?" I asked snapping my head up straight and stared at him in shock, "Bella's coming back? She's alright?". Relief and eagerness to see hr flooded through my body, the want to hold her was the biggest urge I needed to satisfy. "I have to go, apologize, right now before-" I suppose I had started rambling because my Father rolled his eyes and covered my mouth. I immediately stopped.
"Have you forgiven yourself? Are you willing to leave all this behind you?" My Father asked looking me straight in the eyes.
I looked back into his bright green eyes that if I hadn't known better I would think they were sparkling with life that had been taken from him about a hundred years ago. Could I give myself the forgiveness that he was talking about. Bella was everything to me, and I had ruined everything for her. But now I have a chance to give it all back to her and make it up to her.
I nodded saying, "I can; I have".
They both smiled, Mother kissed my cheek and Father kissed my forehead then both embraced me, hard.
"We love you" Mother cried letting go of me and she disappeared, but just as I was about to shout for her to come back my Father took my hand in his.
"Never forget that you are never alone" he said squeezing my hand before he also disappeared…
"EDWARD!" Esme's voice came to me from the sudden darkness that had consumed me.
**The END**
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(Just joking, I wouldn't do that *cackles under breath*)
My eyes jumped open at the urgency of her voice and to my surprise I was gasping for air that I knew I didn't need. My eyes darted everywhere, Esme in front of me with a worried gaze on her face, Carlisle kneeling down beside her with a look of utter relief in his eyes, Alice and Jasper were sitting as close as possible hugging each other close, and Emmett was next to a sobbing Rosalie who hid her face in his shoulder.
"Are you okay?" Esme asked sighing as she stroked me cheek and smiled.
"I… was that all just a d-dream?" I asked stone shocked to the core. Was Mother and Father just an illusion to distract me, to emotionally hurt me? "were my parents fake?". I clenched my eyes shut in agony and bared my teeth. They seemed so real to me, I could feel their warmth still lingering around me with their images stuck in my head.
"We don't know, son" Carlisle sighed in letting out his anguish. My eyebrows furrowed and instead of asking I read his mind for the answers.
Carlisle was thinking about the dream he had, did that mean everyone of us had a similar dre-illusion?
"Keep up the miraculous work, Carlisle, I'm proud of you and from you I have come to understand the vampires I once hated. I don't hate you, Son" My Father told me as we stood feet apart, his hand on my shoulders and he smiled with tears in his eyes. He looked exactly the same as he did, priest robe and all.
My eyes widened as I exited his mind and looked at him straight in the eyes. Hey were filled with sadness but relief, not for me, but for himself, he seemed less serious, more free. My eyes darted to Esme and I quickly defiled her mind to see if something similar had happened to her.
"I'm sincerely happy for you, Esme, don't think otherwise, your husband of today is taking such great care of you much more than I could ever give you.." My ex-husband whispered caressing my cheek and let his hand linger there until he pulled away, "our children would have been extravagant, our first and only child would have grown up perfectly, just like you".
"I do have extravagant children" I sobbed happily as I corrected him, "six to be exact, they are all I could ask for".
He smiled at that, not mad just happy. "I'm happy. Just remember nothing was your fault and I will always respect your wishes.. Thank you".
I left her mind quickly, making sure I didn't pry too deeply into her privacy. It was just like mine and Carlisle's… does that mean every one of us had similar ones, of our loved ones? I glanced over at the sobbing Rosalie and entered her mind, hoping she wasn't shouting in anger with her thoughts.
"I didn't mean to do all that to them- they raped me! What else was I supposed to do so they didn't harm any other harmless girl? Please forgive me.. P-please" I cried into my mothers shoulder as I held her closely. She was stroking my hair and murmuring reassuring words in my ear while my Father held us both in his long arms.
"You did what anyone would have done, my sweet Rose" Mother hushed kissing my forehead with love and care.
"I would have done it myself if I could have, but alas you beat me to it my perfect little girl" Father laughed gruffly into my hair making me cry harder into them.
I pulled away from Rosalie's mind with a dazed expression, it had been the same for her too. How could this be happening? I went to Emmett's head quickly.
"Look at yeah, all grown and buff!" My Father boomed out laughing grabbing me in a head lock and messing up my short hair with his gruff hands. It was just like before, I barely could remember but it fit in perfectly to the forgotten moments.
"Watch it you old fart! I can beat you up in no time flat!" I laughed punching his shoulder lightly but all I got back was a full blown punch to my chest- what the heck!? "THAT HURT!" I growled crossing my arms and stuck my tongue out at him.
"Well of course it hurt, yeah big baby!" he barked out laughing again swiftly grabbing my ear and pulled- HARD.
"OW! Are you trying to kill me a second time?" I complained swatting at his hand that still held my soar and helpless ear, "yeah big meanie!".
"You two are such big idiots" My Mum's singing voice laughed and I felt warm arms circle me from behind.
"Mum decided to join us! SWEET!" I shouted turning and lifted my Mum off the ground and swung her in circles laughing, "god I missed you guys both!".
Emmett was more innocent than any of us had noticed, we knew he acted like a pestering child but he enjoyed the moment with his parents without thinking of the impossible- savoring the moment. I scowled at myself, I didn't do that, I offered them my problems and let them listen to my whining.
I sighed and went to Alice, mildly interested in the person or people that would come to her. She didn't remember much so I wanted to know who remembered her.
"You might not remember me, but I'm Will, your twin brother" It was this man in front of me that I couldn't believe. He looked.. Strange. I scrunched my eyebrows together and looked, and looked. Nothing came back. He had raven locks but they were straight on his head- he was tall, way taller than me with bright brown eyes.
"Twin?" I asked cocking my head to the side huffing a bit. It was so frustrating not knowing who your past family was, if this man was telling the truth.
"You're older than me though- I was changed a year before you, I was the one who saved you from that tracker and turned you" he explained to me with a smile that I stared at for awhile. That smile seemed familiar, it range bells so he must be telling the truth.
"Well howdy do!" I laughed running up and embraced him with all my might, I didn't want to go into that boring details about this and that, I wanted to get to know this man- well boy, as much as possible!
"Good to have you back" Will laughed picking up my small body and hugged me to his chest, "though you're not staying yeah hear?".
"Psch! I have a family that has very poor style and are going to die if I'm not there for support" I scoffed lightening the mood, hugging him back as tightly as possible.
It was a miracle for Alice I supposed, she had a memory keep sake that wasn't just of us. I felt a smile go on my lips for a second or two before my eyes landed on Jasper, he must be affected my all the emotions greatly, along with his own.
It got me wondering for a second of who came to him, it had to be someone related to Bella, someone who knew her- possibly knowing where she was.
I focused on Jasper before letting my thoughts drift into his own.
"What's happening?" I asked the my parents that stood right before me, time no longer changing them. I was happy, ecstatic, to see them but it was impossible for them to be here, they were dead.
They both smiled at me but it was Maw who stepped forward and embraced me silently. I was hesitant but eventually I found myself hugging her back, tightly.
"You need to find your sister, Jasper" Pa' said making my head snap up and meet his knowing eyes. Pain ran through my body at the remembrance of what I had done to destroy her life. I felt so guilty and now I have let down not only Isabella but now I have let down Maw and Pa'.. I couldn't protect Isabella for them.
"She left… it was all my fault, I'm so sorry Maw, Pa', it was my fault" I told them as sobs started to build up in my chest. Maw hugged me tighter but then she let go and held my face in her petite hands.
"You did nothing wrong, you were protecting her- though you overreacted, but that is understanding" Maw told me rubbing her thumb on my cheek making me relax a bit. "You have to forgive yourself, sweety, you did what any older brother would do".
"But I made her breakdown and possibly lose the only true family she could have since you two are gone" I stated closing my eyes and mentally beating myself for being so foolish. Isabella was so hurt when she left, she was broken, all my fault. I knew Edward would never Rape my sister but it.. I don't know, I was just jumping to conclusions. To think I used to be a general…
"She has done the same thing you are about to do" Pa' stated winking at me fatherly.
"What do you mean? Is she here? You talked to her? Is she okay? What about that man that took her away?" I asked all of a sudden. I had to know if Isabella was okay, if she was somewhere safe away from that ridiculous man that probably the one who put us here.
"Slow down, Jasper" Maw giggled patting my cheek before she stepped back to stand next to Pa'. "Bells' is fine, your Pa' talked to her and told her everything, she's on her way to you right now, that's why you have to get back home to her".
"How? How do I get out of here to her?" I asked in a rush, I wanted to go to her and apologize, hug her.
"We don't know, you were sent here by that bad man" Maw sighed sadly, "but we had enough strength to get to you before he could have a chance to do more damage than he has already done".
"Don't trust him, you hear me Son?" Pa' asked sternly, a command.
I nodded.
"Good" Maw said smiling happily and squeezed my Pa's hand, "you have to realize this isn't your fault, you hear?".
I thought about it. I'm sure it would have gone down sooner or later because of that man that showed up.
"Yes I can" I stated honestly.
I pulled back from his mind. Bella was okay? She was okay and coming back to us?
We had to get back now before we miss her.
"How do we get out?" I asked finally, breaking the silence making all my family stop in their current break down and look up at me. "we have to get back home".
"How do we know that wasn't just a trap to get our hopes up?" Alice asked sniffling a bit as she hugged Jasper's arm to her chest.
"That's true, we have to think of the possibilities" Carlisle stated rubbing his eyes with a sigh, "it was real to us, but then again that man did something to us that we never would have thought possible. He wanted us to forget but instead we end up here, apparently in a sleep of some sort… it is confusing, going against all I know".
I never feel this vulnerable, it doesn't feel right.. But my Father seemed so real and there's something in my stomach that's telling me it was all true.
I listened to Carlisle's thoughts and had to agree with him on both, I too felt helpless not knowing what to do and it was all true to me, my parents were as real as everyone around me..
"Then let's get out" Jasper stated standing up pulling Alice up with him, "Isabella is coming home and we have to be sure we're the ones there not that man…".
"Right" Emmett agreed pulling Rosalie into his arms and stood tall and proud.
"How do we get out though? There is nothing here, just pure brightness" Esme stated leaning against Carlisle in confusion.
"We all had our visits from the one's that we held dearest to us, they wanted us to forgive and move on with our lives, right?" I asked trying to come up with any conclusion. We had gotten that, they each were here to help, but just telling us to forgive ourselves wasn't the only thing they were pushing at. Jasper and Bella's parents had said that they themselves don't know how we got here but they wanted to stop him…
"They stopped that man, right before he could completely erase our minds, so in a way we're.. stuck in between" Jasper mumbled looking around at all of us before examining the room we were currently in.
"Stuck in between, it is reasonable, the process was stopped before our minds were wiped" Carlisle pointed out, "could he have said anything that might have hinted to how he did this" he waved around us.
"He had lifted his hand up" Rosalie noted, "and seemed to concentrate, but I have no clue what he could have possibly be doing besides making a scene.."
"This is his domain, his place because this was apart of the process, so it is apart of him- apart of his race meaning this is also connected to Bella" Emmett suddenly spoke up simply and laying down on the white ground and stretched out.
I stared at Emmett in shock, how did he come up with that? It was bloody brilliant!
"Emmett, you confuse me but I love you" Rosalie sighed kicking his leg lightly making him look up at her in a twisted look, "what?".
"I love you too and everything but that hurt!" Emmett complained making Rosalie roll her eyes dramatically.
I cracked a smile despite myself and shook my head in disbelief. Emmett came up with the most simplest thing that we all over looked and he was just a child by heart.
Wait.
Hurt.
Some of us felt physical pain when it came upon us, it was like we felt the pain a human would have felt. I glanced at everyone again. We all still looked like we were still vampire, so this might mean that this room has altered our physical structures.
"Do that again" I said out of the blue and quickly stood up from my spot on the floor, staring at Rosalie and Emmett, waiting for her to hit him.
"What?" Emmett asked confused as he sat up and looked up at Rosalie for answers but she shrugged, she too not understanding me.
I sighed, irritated a bit and went over to Emmet myself and raised my foot over his hand that lay at his side and before he could understand what was going to happen I slammed my foot down on it.
"YOUCH!" Emmett barked forcing his hand out from under my foot and held it to his chest, "why'd you do that, Eddie?".
"My name is not Eddie and I wanted to prove something" I grumbled adding a apology to him and turned to my family who was staring at me strangely, "we feel pain here".
It went quiet then as everyone soaked up the information.
"Yes this is true" Carlisle noted crossing his arms and leaned back against his heels, "but what can that do for us? It is only stating that we are vulnerable here".
"Bells' could get hurt" Emmett grumbled still rubbing his hand that I had stomped on.
"She said that all her kind's skin could be penetrated" I stated running a hand through my hair in irritation, how was this getting us closer to getting out? "We figured that out the hard way..".
"What else did Bella have that was different from us? Maybe this is a rest place, maybe this is where she went in the first place" Alice asked her hands busy playing with Jasper's sleeve
"She would probably 'jump' or whatever it's called" Rosalie mumbled shrugging.
"Problem- we can't jump" Emmett stated the obvious making us all glare at him before he raised his hands up in defense.
"So we need someone that can jump" Alice said happily jumping in her spot slightly, "Bella can do that!".
"We can't get a hold of Bella though, Alice" I sighed in exasperation.
"We can try" Alice said sticking her tongue out at me.
"We have nothing to try on" I said back to her in irritation.
Trust me, Bella is my sister, remember what I saw.
I looked at Alice for a while before, trying to look through her to see what she was so desperate about but she wouldn't tell.
Please.
I sighed and gave in, waving to Alice to do whatever she pleased.
Alice breathed in and screamed out making us all cringe at the shrill tone of her voice, "BELLA!?". Her voice echoed for awhile down the nothingness. How was this supposed to help?
"Alice?"
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