Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note, sadly. 

Warnings: SMEX, angst.

Pairings: L/Raito, Raito/L

Summary: L finds a new addiction. Will he be able to break it or will it be his down fall? SMEX. L/Raito, Raito/L

Notes: Thanks for the comments/reviews for this story. I hope you enjoy this part. Some angst in it.

Chapter Four:

After straighten up, L sits in his usually position, biting his thumb while watching Watari pace back and forth. Their talk will not end well. He knows that his caretaker only worries for his wellbeing, but he can't let go of Raito. Why can't he cut the addiction off? It is dangerous being near his main suspect, the one he is positive that is Kira. As he glances upwards, ignoring Yagami throwing a fit about them being together, he ponders over what is going on with him.

"This is WRONG!" Yagami shouts.

Stopping in mid-step, Watari sighs, "L." When he gains his ward's attention, he continues, "Yagami-kun is your suspect. You believe he is a mass-murderer. Please tell me what are you thinking of having this relationship."

Standing up in anger, Raito yells, "How the hell is this anyone else's business!? This concerns us not anyone else." He is tired of hearing both Yagami and Watari preach to them how wrong it is. Yes, it is wrong and he knows that but he doesn't want to stop. Something inside tells him that he wants the relationship more than anything. Besides, he isn't Kira. There is no problem having a relationship with L. Still, there is a part of him trying to speak to him that he should hate the detective.

As he looks at his main suspect, L stands up and mumbles around his thumb, "I agree with Yagami-kun. This is our business."

Finally overcoming the shock, Yagami stands firmly and states, "Raito, if you continue this, do not plan to return home ever." It is a lie but he wants his son away from L. If threatening his son is the only way, then he will do it.

Shocked by his father words Raito stares at him like he lost his mind. To stay with L, he has to forfeit his family. Sitting down, he whispers, "I guess I won't be returning then." L turns to stare at him and Watari looks shocked by his words. His father shows a firm expression and walks out the door. What did he just do? Hiding his face away from the man who could read him well, he curses himself for letting what happened between him and L effect his emotions so easily.

Not moving an inch, L looks at Raito and then looks at his caretaker. He never met to bring this to the young man. He knows how it feels to wake up one morning to have no family to turn to. Hiding his pain behind a mask, he states, "Yagami-kun always has a place with me."

As his head snaps up to stare shocked at L, Raito gives a true smile. It might not be perfect but it is better than nothing. Besides, it would show him detective work. After calming down, he responds, "Thank you."

Looking between the two young men, Watari smiles gently and sighs, "I guess I cannot stop this relationship. I will not try again." With those words, he leaves the room in deep thought. He worries for both of them even if his loyalty is with L. Their relationship could end badly if Raito really does turn out to be Kira.

Later that night, Raito lays in the bed, thinking over what he lost but what he gained. Could it mean L trusts him? That is doubtful even to him. Glancing to find L scanning over reports on his laptop, he asks, "Why did you offer me a place to stay when you think I'm Kira?" That question has been bothering him since L offered him a place to stay.

Stopping in typing, L glances upwards while rubbing his thumb across his lower lip. After a few minutes of weighing the cons and pros of telling his suspect something that no one knows except Watari, he answers, "I know what it feels like to be tossed aside like nothing."

His honey eyes widen to hear such words coming from the older man. He didn't expect L to answer him at all. Sitting up in the bed, he whispers, "It must have been lonely." When the other man turns to look at him, Raito doesn't what comes over him but he doesn't like to see some kind of pain in those deep soulless eyes. In fact, he hates to see such emotions running wild in those deep dark eyes. Leaning forward, he kisses L, softly and gently. His mind keeps reminding him this is dangerous and he could end up hurt. But his heart keeps saying that this is what he has been looking for. When he lands on his back, the kiss becomes more passionate and heated.

Breaking the kiss, L mutters breathless, "You must be lonely too. No one understands you." Without letting the other speak again, he kisses those lips that keep calling out to him. He wants what he can't have. Yes, he knows this relationship will be the downfall of one of them. Their viewpoints on justice are too different to end well. The battle between L and Kira will end one of their lives.

Fighting for control, Raito flips them over and looks down at the man who still has a painful look. It reminds him of his own reflection everyday. Why does L look so lost? Moving his lips across L's chin down to his neck to his ear, he whispers, "You are the only one who understands me. I need you, L." Are his words true or are they just words to make the detective stop looking so sad?

As his hands run under Raito's shirt, L doesn't say a word. What could he say? There is nothing he could say because he doesn't believe one single word coming from his suspect. Even if it true, he isn't sure if he is willing to risk being hurt by another to let them pierce through his heart. The relationship is nothing more than an addiction to him. He refuses to let it cloud his judgment. Feeling a sharp bite around his pulse, he moans and buckles his hips. The younger man is going to slow. Flipping Raito over, he breathes, "You are going to slow."

With a smirk adoring his face, Raito mumbles, "Then show me how it is done, L." He ignores the fact that L never responded back to his declaration. Feeling cold air hit against his chest, he whimpers feeling L's pale fingers pinching his nipples until they are hard.

When Raito arches up to him, L runs his tongue over Raito's skin up to his ear and whispers, "You are so sweet, Raito." Running his hands down the tan well-tone chest to Raito's hips, he groans in bliss to have this man beneath him.

Squirming around, Raito demands, "Get on with it."

Smirking down at the teenager, L proclaims without thinking, "You are mine. Mine to do with as I please. Mine." Before the other can say anything, he kisses those sweet lips, intoxicating him to no return.

When oxygen is needed, Raito breaks the kiss, arching his back up to feel the older man's need against his thigh. What they are doing is heaven but also hell. It hurts but also pleasing. None of it makes sense to his clouded mind. When L pulls his pants off roughly, he moans in pleasure and pain. Feeling the cold air hit his sensation spot, he whimpers. Opening his eyes to be sucked into those soulless dark eyes, he finds L naked and his warmth engulfing him, driving him to the breaking point. Leaning up, he seals those taunting lips into a rough kiss, biting with teeth and battling L's tongue.

Rubbing against the body below him, L hears the small sounds around them; the chain rattling between them, the moans coming from both of them, and the breathless Raito calling his name. Pulling back from Raito, he watches amazed as Raito spreads his legs wider apart. A groan leaves his mouth to be given this site. Taking every part of the younger man, he reaches to the table and grabs the lube.

Feeling a finger circle around his opening, Raito growls, "Do it already!" He has no patience now. Right now, he wants to forget everything; the case and his father. He wants it to be in the back of his mind, letting him live for a little while without figuring out what is right for everyone else. Thrusting his hips down to gain more of L's long fingers inside of him, he tosses and turns his head as the pleasure building inside of him.

After preparing the teenager for something larger, L removes his fingers and rubs lube on his length, moaning at feeling his hand against his sensation spot. Pulling long tan legs over his shoulder, he teases the other by putting his cock right near Raito's opening.

Thrusting forward only to be teased more, Raito screams, "FUCK ME ALREADY!" Like he wants, L thrusts inside of him making him lose his breathe by the burning pain racing through his back. As he relaxes, he groans fulfilled. Meeting L thrusts, he finds himself screaming and panting. His words aren't making sense. Tossing his head back, he feels in heaven and hell. It hurts but also pleases him. When a hand wraps around his cock, he moans even more, making his voice hoarse.

Hearing the sweet moans coming from Raito makes L want even more. Thrusting deep inside the tight warmth, L kisses along Raito's neck. Biting, nipping, and sucking anywhere he can, he whispers, "Cum for me."

Those soft-spoken words send Raito into bliss. As he rides out his orgasm, he feels L reach his peek. Falling against the bed, wet, warm, and sticky, he mumbles, "God."

Pulling out of the younger man, L falls beside Raito thinking that is the right word of what he is feeling. Turning to look at the other, he finds the other fast asleep. As he pushes damp brown hair away from the peaceful youth, he sighs sadly, "Too bad we could not be more. Too bad you really are Kira."

In his sleep, Raito groans, "L, I lo…"

Notes: Hope you enjoyed the chapter. Please tell me what you think.