Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note, sadly. 

Warnings: SMEX, angst.

Pairings: L/Raito, Raito/L

Summary: L finds a new addiction. Will he be able to break it or will it be his down fall? SMEX. L/Raito, Raito/L

Notes: Thanks for all the comments/reviews for this story. This chapter will be a little fast paced. I hope you enjoy it and please tell me what you think.

Chapter Five:

Late at night, sitting on the edge of the bed, Raito replays what happened earlier in the day. About the theory that he was once Kira, and whether he gave up the power to kill himself or a higher power doing it. Of course, he said it was him who gave up the power. What if L is right? Would he truly kill off criminals? Did he really believe it would make the world a better place? As he looks back, finding L sitting and typing on the laptop, he asks, "Do you really believe I could be Kira?"

Raising his arm and jiggling the chain that connects them together, L answers simply, "Yes." He looks up from the laptop to stare into honey eyes. They try so hard to convince him that he is wrong. No matter what is said, he knows he is right. Sadly, one of them will pay a heavy price for their justice. Glancing back at his computer, he goes off topic, "Yagami-kun should get some rest."

"I'm not Kira." Raito repeats again. He isn't sure if he is trying to convince L or himself anymore. What would happen if L does gain proof of him being Kira? Staring at the emotionless detective, he knows his answer. He would be sent to jail or worse to his death. Lying down, ignoring the typing, he sighs, "I know I'm innocent and I'll prove it when we catch the real Kira." With that said, he closes his eyes. Tomorrow will be a new day and once they catch Higuchi, he will prove his innocence.

Leaning over his suspect, watching the other breath deeply, L brushes a stain of brown hair to the side. It hurts to know the other will return to being his nemesis. This addiction has finally caught up to him. It is more than just wanting the other; he now needs the younger man in his life. When he looks down once again, he is shocked to find honey eyes staring back at him. Their time is short and he wants to make the most of it. Leaning down, he kisses those teasing lips, gaining a response quickly.

Breaking the gentle kiss, Raito whispers, "Before we leave to catch Higuchi, I'm telling Misa." Silence greets him and he wonders if he did the right thing by telling L. When his feels hand slide under his shirt, he asks breathless, "What do you think?" For some reason, he wants reassurance for telling Misa.

Kissing the side of Raito's lip, L mumbles, "Whatever you wish to do is fine with me." He sees the look of wanting someone to understand. Oh, he understands much more than Raito believes. But right now he wants to forget the investigating. When arms wrap around his neck, he thinks, "My downfall will be here soon. I wonder if you will mourn my death, Kira-kun."

Pushing L off of him, Raito climbs on top of the older man, pleading with the other to believe him as he speaks, "I love you."

Caressing Raito's face, L retorts, "Raito-kun should not lie about those things." When lips crash against his, he prays for those words to be true until the end. Never in his life did he have someone say they loved him. When his shirt is pulled over his head, staying on the chain, he breathes, "You can never have control over me, Raito."

"I don't want control. I want you." Raito mutters, hoping the detective will at least believe his words. But he can see the doubt within dark eyes. He knows that L doesn't believe a word he is saying. Why couldn't he forget his emotions and let things be just an addiction? Why did he have to fall for an emotionless man?

Flipping the other man over, L unbuttons Raito's shirt, all the while running his fingers over every curve, memorizing it to memory. This will be their last time to enjoy each other's company. Tonight will mark the final time spent together. He knows this but he doesn't want to believe it. He wants to believe in the beautiful lie staring at him. Kissing those sweet lips that tease and taunt him every single day, he shoves his tongue inside, using his teeth to tease Raito's lower lip.

As the kiss becomes even fiercer, Raito breaks the kiss, wondering why the detective is acting this way. It is almost like the other man believes this is their last time. Before any word can escape his mouth, a moan leaves it when light kisses run down his chest and L's talented tongue sweeps across his nipples, making them harder. Only one word is racing through his mind; why?

Kissing every rib, teasing Raito's belly button, and listening to every hitch of breathe, moans, and whimpers, L works Raito's pants off. Staring down at the treat begging to be touch, he lets his hand glide over Raito's cock, enjoying the loud voice echoing in the room.

"Ngggh! L!" Raito screams out frustrated by L going so slow with him.

Standing up, L strips out of his clothes, showing the younger man everything, no walls around him. Climbing on top of the younger man, he rubs his naked body against Raito's.

Clawing L's back, trying to gain more of the older man, Raito cries out, "L, please." Feeling greasy fingers rubbing against his opening, he spreads his legs, waiting for the wonderful feeling ready to hit him. He doesn't care anymore about anything as long as L is with him.

Pushing in two fingers, gaining a loud whimper, L kisses Raito, fighting the battling tongue for control. He will fall but he will die happy to have this kind of emotion. He waited almost twenty-five years for it. Finally, he can take love to his grave. When hips thrust down onto his fingers, he knows the other is ready for him. Teasing Raito with his cock at the entrance, he asks in a husky voice, "Do you want this?"

"Oh GOD YES!" Raito screams out as L thrusts in him in one go, making him see stars from the pain. Digging his fingers into L's skin, he moans, "Move." Pain and pleasure is the same thing to him and he wants all of L. Not the title but the man behind that title. Will he ever gain that?

All L can hear are the loud moans coming from both him and Raito, skin slapping against skin, and the heavy breathing between them. He rocks his hips against the other, trying to make the other go crazy with their love making. This will be the last time they ever have this kind of relationship and he wants to believe the younger man really meant his words. "Will you mourn for my loss?" L thinks once again, almost nearing the edge. Rubbing Raito's cock hard, he moans, "Cum, Raito."

Raito screams out his orgasm, "L!!!!!!!!" He screams again to feel the older man empty inside of him. When L pulls out and falls next to him, he whispers once again, "I love you. Believe me."

What does he say to the other man? What could make this right? With a sad look, hiding it from Raito, L mutters breathless, "I believe you."

Curling closer to L, Raito lays his head on the pale chest, rubbing circles on L's chest, mumbling, "I'm glad you believe me."

Hearing the soft breathing, L whispers, "I wish we would have more time."

The next night, almost time for them to get going to catch Higuchi, Raito takes Misa to the side, seeing her happy face. He wants to run and never look back. How can he hurt someone so gentle like Misa? With a deep breathe, he comes out clean, "I'm gay, Misa."

Blinking her eyes at him, Misa tilts her head and asks, "Huh?"

Rolling his dark eyes, L points to Raito and explains, "Yagami-kun likes guys not girls. He is gay." He doesn't want to rest anymore time trying to tell the young girl that the one she loves will never love her.

"BUT YOU KISSED ME!" Misa yells.

"I'm sorry, Misa." Raito states and continues. "You see I was hiding that I'm gay because I wasn't sure how people would react. That is why I had tons of girlfriends and that they never worked." Kissing her forehead, Raito whispers once again, "I'm truly sorry for leading you on, but I love someone else. I truly love him with all my heart."

Pulling the chain to get Raito's attention, L growls, "We have to leave or our plan will fall apart."

Looking between the detective and Raito, Misa's eyes widen to understand what is going on. Grabbing a hold of Raito's arm, she cries out, "You can't go after Higuchi!"

With a kind smile, Raito mutters, "We will be fine, Misa. I hope we can still be friends after this is over." It was the only thing he could do to appease and make it up to Misa.

As Raito walks ahead a little, L wants to stop the younger man, lock him up somewhere, but he can't. There is no reason to give but to send his lover to his death. Giving a small smile toward Misa, he realizes what she was trying to do. Walking away to meet his fate, he thinks, "Maybe my death will stop you being Kira, Raito."

Two hours later, L sits there, hearing everyone talk about the rules. It hurts to see the look of hatred run across Raito's face. It would like his death will not stop anything. Waving at everyone, he states, "Everyone should take a break. Come back in thirty minutes." Everyone agrees and leaves. He wants to talk to Raito, try to make him stop being Kira. The third Kira is dead. Looking behind him to find Raito standing there, he speaks, "Yagami-kun is free. He could leave anytime he pleases."

Not moving an inch, Raito retorts, "If you forgotten, I don't have anywhere to go." His father refuses to let him return home while Misa isn't someone he wants to go to. He could ask her to get the second death note and end this game, but his heart keeps hurting for thinking such things. As he glances at Rem who looks back at him, he turns his head away quickly.

"I have not forgotten." L answers and looks back at the death note. He feels his end approaching quickly. How could he let this happen? Why didn't he make sure the other man had nothing on him? Standing up, he walks toward the teenager who begins to back away. Trapping Raito between him and the wall, he whispers, "I was hoping I was wrong this time around but I always knew."

"What are you talking about?"

"You are Kira."

"I'm not Kira!"

As his hand caress Raito's face, L mutters, "I know you are and still I cannot do a thing to you." He leans forward and kisses the lips of a betrayer. When he slips his tongue inside, he makes sure to memorize every part, fighting against the other tongue, ensuring everything that is Raito is his. It tastes like dirt now. It doesn't have the sweet taste it did before and it hurts.

Breaking the kiss, L pulls away and whispers, "Such a foul taste. The taste of a murderer." Without waiting for Raito to argue, he exits the room to find his own peace.

Sliding down the wall, hiding his face, Raito whispers, "Yet, you taste so sweet and pure." His pain for failing rises inside of him. Why did he have to touch the death note again? No, he had to regain possess to make the world a better place. Why does he have to feel so conflicted? Standing up, he glances at Rem quickly. He wants to tell the shinigami to kill L off but his chest hurts so much when thinking about the other's death.

In another room, L stares at the monitors that show Raito. Looking back, he mutters, "Make sure the team knows my choice of who is the next L."

Touching his ward's shoulder, squeezing it, Watari asks, "Are you sure you wish to do this?"

Turning to look back at the monitors, L sighs, "It is the only way to stop Kira." Shaking the caring hand off, he moves to exit the room and sadly states, "It was nice while it lasted. But all things end."

Before L could leave, Watari asks, "Where are you going?"

"To have one last night with my lover." L answers while he walks out the door. Tomorrow will be the end of his life. L will simple die. As he walks down the hall, he feels a shadow following him. Without showing his emotions, he asks, "Will you do this for me?"

"I will as long as you keep your end of the deal."

"Do not worry. I keep my word."

"Why do you wish to save him? He is cruel and evil."

"Because… Because…" L starts to say and turns around to face the creature. Staring at the shinigami, he whispers, "Because my emotions got in the way."

In the main room, Raito paces back and forth. Part of him wants to have L's death and the other part hurts to think such things. Stopping in mid-step, he thinks, "This is to better the world. Sacrifices are needed." Sitting in a chair, leaning his head back and covering his eyes, he images L's death to only let a sob escape his lips.

"I see you will at least mourn my death."

Snapping his head up to stare straight into soulless eyes, Raito whispers, "Of course I would mourn for you. You are my friend and…"

"Shut up, Yagami-kun. I hate to hear your lies."

"I'm not lying!" Raito yells, jumping from his seat. For the first time, he is telling the truth. He would mourn the loss of L. How did everything become so complicate? Before he could say anything else, the others walk in.

Yagami asks, "What is going on?" He hopes they didn't walk in on them trying to have private time. As he looks between his son and L, he knows something is wrong.

"I still believe Yagami-kun is Kira. Yagami-kun and I was arguing about it." L answers.

"How the hell can you still believe that after reading the rules!?" Aizawa yells. The others nod their heads to agree with him.

Turning to look at all the members, L states, "Easy. I do not believe all the rules are true." As he turns to look at Raito, he asks, "Am I correct?"

"I wouldn't know." Raito sneers out with hatred lacing his voice. How could he be in love with this man? Before he knows what he is doing, he throws a punch at the detective and yells, "I HATE YOU!"

Wiping the blood away from his lip, L remarks, "Yet, you proclaim love to me."

Placing his hand on top of his son's shoulder, Yagami whispers for only his son to hear, "Raito, I think he is just upset about the case. Give him some time." He sees the hurt within his son and he wants to tell L off but he doesn't. Their relationship has to be worked out between them.

Lightening flashes and all the computers go dead; L sits there staring at the screens. It is almost time. When everyone asks what is going on, he sits there silent and mumbles, "The Shinigami…" He falls to the ground.

Catching the detective, Raito eyes widen. It couldn't happen so soon. He didn't tell Rem to kill off L now. What is going on? Staring down at the detective, he shakes the other man and begs, "Get a hold of yourself, L! Please."

Seeing the tears rolling down the perfect face, L wants to say a word but his breathe is caught. His eyes are tired and they begin to close. The only thing he sees is Raito's face in agony and hears Raito's voice screaming for him.

Shaking the detective harder, Raito screams, "L! L! L!"

Pulling his distressed son away from L's body, Yagami holds Raito tight and orders, "Check his pulse and someone get Watari."

Watari stands there and whispers, "He is dead. He knew he was going to die."

Raito shakes his head and yells, "NO!"

Checking their leader's pulse, Aizawa shakes his head and sighs sadly, "He's dead."

Without giving the team any time to think, Watari proclaims, "L named Yagami-kun to be the next L."

Notes: Please tell me what you think.