A/N: I do not own Twilight or the characters and brands mentioned in this story, sadly :P I love you guys who read my story. To: SimpleDazzling that was the sweetest comment I got. Brownie points for you and to Shauna: I love you! Sorry Alyssa got the story first:) don't worry you'll be able to read it next. BTW: I pre wrote this story many times and had my closest friends like Shauna read it, but I'm not at all satisfied. I don't think that this was my best chapter, so criticism is greatly appreciated. And I love sweet comments to, so don't hesitate:)

Recap: "I love you, too, Bella. 'Plus que ma proper vie', more than my own life. And I want to show you by giving you something no one else can ever have…" I raised my eyebrow. "…My virtue."

Chapter Four:

Without Him

BPOV

Three different tests with the same results—positive. How can this happen? Vampires can't have children, can they? What will Edward think? Does he want a child? Will he leave me again? I started hyperventilating at the thought of being alone again. Wait a second, Bella. This is ridiculous. He loves you and he promised he won't ever leave you again, especially with his child. Thank God, he didn't spend the night; I couldn't have hid my nervousness if he was here.

I looked down. I was definitely bigger than I was two months ago. Oh God, here it comes again! I groaned as I made a mad dash for the bathroom. "Bella," Edward called. "Are you alright?" I shook my head. "Bella," he murmured walking towards my position on the floor in front of the toilet. "Baby, tell me what's wrong, so I can make it feel better," he said hugging me.

"Nothing Edward, I'm just sick, that's all." I hid the pregnancy test in my back pocket. "Go ahead, Edward. Go get your car."

"No, Bella. You're sick." As if I didn't know that, I thought sarcastically. "I'm not going anywhere and neither are you," he told me in a firm tone. I pulled back from his embrace to glare at him.

"Edward Cullen. If you don't listen to me and If you are not out of this—" He was gone by then. "Oh, okay then." I heard him chuckle loudly from outside of my window. "Love you…" I screamed to him.

"You too," he said climbing back up my window to give me a peck on the lips. Once he was out of sight again, I sighed and lay back down on my bed, pulling out the pregnancy test from my pocket, looking at the two pink lines. After a few moments of staring at it, I flung it onto my desk by the window with the other tests. I groaned and reached down to pull my shirt up over my stomach. "How am I going to tell your daddy about you?" I asked completely out of it, stroking the slight baby bump.

EPOV

Bella's hiding something from me. I got into my Volvo and quickly backed up, out of my family's garage, eager to get back to my sick Bella. It had taken a few minutes to run home and it would take another five minutes to reach Bella. Ugh, five minutes of anticipation, of anxiety.

"Bella?" I knocked on the door.

"Come in," she barely whispered. I was in before she finished.

"Bella," I was relieved. I took her into my arms, she was crying. "Tell me what's wrong, love. It kills me that I can't so anything for you." She shook her head. "Do you want to go to our meadow, baby?" She nodded. I picked her up into my arms and brought her to our perfect patch of sunshine.

BPOV

The whole trip to our meadow, I was contemplating how I'd tell Edward that I was pregnant. Even when he held my hand in his, I couldn't be calmed. What if Edward didn't want a baby? I have already had my heart set. I have grown attached to this tiny being growing within me. For the hours since I found out, I never thought this baby as a regret or a mistake. I am not murdering this innocent being. But I couldn't possibly let him out of my life either. The tears started to roll down my face. We reached the end of the interstate now. Edward reached over and held my face gently in his. He bent his neck and softly kissed the tears away, hugging me closer to him. He finally carried me to the soft patch of grass and gently set me down. Once he sat, he pulled me onto his lap, wrapping his arms around me. "Bella, love," he began. "Will you please tell me what's going on?" I fidgeted with the cloth of my shirt. His cool hands grasped mine and tucked them over my stomach. Did he know? No, he couldn't possibly— "Bella, breathe!" he demanded. He hugged me closer. "I love you, you know that. Will you please, please tell me?" I began to cry.

"Edward…I don't know how It happened, but…" I turned around to look him in the eye. "…I'm pregnant with our child."

He went into a frozen state and then his mood changed drastically. "Bella, dear you know I can't have children." His eyes were soft and understanding. I can't believe what I was hearing.

"Edward, you know I would NEVER do that to you. I never would…" I was shocked. He actually thought that I'd cheat on him.

"Bella, you know it's not possible. I told you before." He was softly yelling now. His eyes turned to solid topaz as he stared me down.

"Edward, it shocked me too. But I didn't cheat on you, I never would. This…" I took his hand and placed it over my womb. "…This is the product of out love, the seed of our souls—our commitment." I was sobbing quietly trying to smile.

His withdrew his hand harshly. "Bella, stop it! Tell me the truth! Whose child is it?! Is it Jacob's, Mike's, Tyler's?!" He was mad at me. He didn't believe that the child growing within me was…ours.

"It's yours," I barely whispered and with that, he was gone. I sat there clutching the locket he gave me, crying out, and screaming at the sky. Why doesn't he believe me? My hands automatically and involuntarily folded over my stomach cradling the tiny child that was developing right under my skin. "Daddy will be back, soon," I sobbed walking and stroking the spot where his or head should be. I didn't exactly know where I was going, but I kept walking. It seemed like hours that I was walking and I finally reached the clearing to greet his silver Volvo parked waiting for me. He had no doubt left the car here to make sure that I get home safely. I sighed before walking over to his car, his side. Before I sat down, I realized that there was a note and under the note was his tan leather jacket that I recognized from the first date we had together at Port Angeles. I held the jacket closer to my face and inhaled his sweet, addictive scent I finally open the note. To my Bella, it said on the outside in his elegant script. I continued to open the note.

My Bella,

I am so sorry for leaving you especially now that you are carrying a child along with your life, but I need some time to think. I will not be away long. Please forgive me and please, please don't put your life along with your child's life in danger.

P.S. Please forgive me.

With all love,

Edward

And on that note, I put on Edward's jacket, fastened my seat belt and drove towards my home, where Charlie would receive the news.

*****

When I go home, I was shocked to see that Charlie wasn't home yet, so I neglected all of the chores and ran up to my room. I threw myself onto my rocking chair in the corner of my room—the rocking chair that Renee and Charlie rocked me in when I was a baby. I silently prayed that my baby, boy or girl, would share that kind of moment. He or she in my or his or her father's arms being rocked to sleep. That's when I realized Charlie had gotten home.

"Edward, Bella, I'm home…" he yelled, no doubt to warn that there was an armed police official home.

"Don't worry, dad. It's just me here," I informed him before he went nuts that his only daughter was in her room alone with her boyfriend. Don't worry dad, I'm already pregnant. It's not a big deal. Oh yeah and by the way, Edward spends the night almost every night, if you weren't aware. I came down the stairs determined to tell my father about the miracle that Edward and I created. "Umm, dad… I need to tell you something very important."

"Yes, Bells," he responded showing me that he had my attention.

"Dad, I think that you should take a seat," I explained. He looked at me suspiciously, but took his seat.

"What is it, Isabella," my dad never said my full name unless he feels that we were in a situation where he was sure there would need to be discipline. And that wasn't frequently.

I hesitated. "Dad… I'm… p… pr—"

"Bella, spit it out," Charlie demanded.

I exhaled sharply. "Dad, I'm pregnant."

"Excuse me," Charlie said, not seeming to comprehend, or at least trying not to believe me.

"I'm pregnant with Edward's child," I said confidently.

"No, I heard you the first time!" Charlie exploded, his face turning red, then purple, then to an odd shade of blue, before returning to red. He was furious. "I know we haven't exactly had the sex-talk before, but God, Bells how could you be so stupid?!" The vein in his head pulsed as he spit out his words.

"I'm sorry, dad…"

"I am your father, you live under my roof and you will do as I say. And I say you go out and get rid of that baby as soon as possible."

"NO! I won't!" I yelled. I can't believe I was talking to my father like this—the man that brought me into this world. But I had to defend my child. It wasn't his or her fault, so he or she doesn't deserve to be punished. "I will not murder this baby!" I gasped for air.

"What are you going to do, Bella? You're throwing your life out the window. What if Edward leaves you again?" He questioned. The hole in my chest that I've been trying to keep closed tore open. The hole was gapping. It hurt so much.

"He won't," I whispered.

"And how are you sure of that?"

"Because he loves me."

"That didn't stop him from leaving you before," Charlie mumbled. That threw me off the edge, I was furious. "Bella, all I want is for you not to make the same mistakes that your mother and I made…"

"Oh, so now I'm a mistake?!" I frantically gasped for air. All this hurt. The pain was unbearable—I couldn't help but think back to when I was in a catatonic state not too long ago. The pain was excruciating, like it was dragging me to unconsciousness. Edward left me again; my father was completely against me. It became too much and I succumbed to the darkness.

A/N: Like I said, not at all my best chapter, but I hope you all enjoyed it. I will post the next chapter as soon as possible, hope tomorrows pep rally will pep me up enough to get the next chapter up by Saturday. And come on press the review button, you know you want to :P Love all you guys reading out there :) Thanks again!

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Felicia