Disclaimer: All characters and quotes belong to Stephanie Meyer not me!!!

Previously: I now accept that I don't remember anything from my past life. I know that i never will. I just wish that I never was alone,that i had someone to be with to share my worries......my pain........and my heart. I need somebody to love, and in the middle of stalking a human I had a premonition and saw him. He was standing alone in a forest looking around. He looked like he was lost like he didn't know what was going on, like this was his first time on his own that he didn't know the ways of survival in this world. He was tall with blond hair, he had this look about him that calmed me down and made me feel happy inside for the first time that i can remember. I knew from right then that he was the one, the one that I wanted to love and to be with forever and ever.

I broke free from the premonition, continuing to hunt but careful not to lose that feeling of hope and happiness that I have never felt before. I needed to find him the one that would make me happy forever.

Another Premonition overcomes me I was sitting in a diner when he comes in looking for help, I was in there because it was a rainy day and I wasn't quite comfortable out yet during the day even if the sun was covered. He walked in and looked at me and our eyes met as soon as that happened I ran and jumped into his arms. I needed to make this all come true, it had to, we were meant to be, we were soul mates i needed to find him to go to that diner, but where was it??

I'm confused looking through my mind trying to find any clue that will lead me to the diner that holds the happiness to my lonely life. I'm tired of being alone, i will do anything to find him, no matter how dangourous he IS the only happy thing in my life now.

I look around continuing to stalk the human around the corner into a dark alley, when i realize that he is nowhere to be seen. I can't believe i lost him, until i have more clues that will lead me to my love i need to continue with my life to survive. As of now i need to realize that i am the only one here for me in this world and i need to count on only myself because this is the only way for me to survive until i have someone to help me. Thats when i hear something coming around the corner, i back into the shadows waiting for it to come next to me, i see a man in about his early thirties checking the time on his cell phone, he drops it, bends down, and thats when i make my attack. This........... is my life.

JPOV:

"Jasper!" Maria calls looking for me.

"Over here!!" I shout toward the direction where her voice came from. At that moment she comes throught the bushes, looking anxious and angry. She comes over and takes my arm and pulls me towards the town.

"What are you doing Maria??" I ask her with confusion written all over my face.

"Our army is dying down, you need to go blood some more people if we are going to take over and conquer more cities and towns" she says pushing me forward.

"and don't come back until you have 5 more newborns for me!!!" she adds with a stern look on her face.

I sigh and continue down the road looking for new victims to continue this life with me as a vampire. I figured I am and always will be the slave of Maria, Nettie, and Lucy and will have to do whatever they say for the rest of eternity. I spot a group of lone travelers walking down the road. They were lost here in Mexico, not understanding the street signs, they were clearly American. I ruch forward and introduce myself and my service.

"Hello, my name is Jasper Whitlock" I say with a smile. "May i be of any service to you this lovely evening??" I asked them.

"Yes we were wondering if you knew any place where we all could stay the night?" A young lady asks me while batting her eyelashes in a flirtatious manner at me.

"Well I do know of one place, if you are willing to follow me of coarse?" I ask the travelers while i flash the young lady a dazzling smile as sge stifles a small laugh and looks down.

They of course agree, and follow me down the road towards where Maria and I have set up our camp and training area. By this time tomorrow our venom will be flowing through their veins and will become apart of Maria's army.