Chapter 2- Nyota
I stood and talked with the Andorian Ambassador. Spock caught my eye. Damn him for being so sexy. Our sex life has been suffering lately because of the kids. We've been reduced to getting in quickies whenever we can like yesterday. He would never admit it to me but he had been hurt when after the boys were born I told him I wanted to hold out on more children for the time being.
I know that it can be assumed that I am being selfish. I love my children and my husband. I want as many children that we'll be blessed with but I want to enjoy my time out here in space as we explore new planets and cultures. When I went into labor with the boys I was horrified. I never wanted that to happen again. We did come to an agreement that as the mission came to an end I would stop taking the birth control shot.
I tried to appear interested in what the Ambassador was saying but truthfully I checked out on him minuets ago when I locked eyes with Spock. He began to walk over to us and my heart skipped a beat. I loved that he still had that affect on me. A smile crossed lips and my eyes became heavy with desire.
"Lieutenant Ambassador Sarek would like to speak with you." He said with almost a smile.
"If you would excuse me Ambassador." I said politely.
Spock tilted his head at the Andorian ambassador and followed me to his father. Our hands touched briefly and it sent electricity through me.
To my surprise Sarek hugged me. Spock watched in shock.
"Spock might I have a moment alone with your wife?" He questioned.
Spock tilted his head and walked away.
"Sarek." I said happily as I stood in front of him.
"Uhura I must express what I have come to know as gratitude." He said in his normal Vulcan tone.
"Thanks? Sarek what would you thank me for?"
"Spock. My wife always said he was a tortured soul. At war with himself trying to choose one half of himself over the other. I could not see when he was a child that I was responsible for his internal war." Sarek said with sadness in his voice.
"Sarek you don't have to thank me for loving Spock. It's effortless to love him." I answered truthfully.
"I want you to know I will take good care of Amanda and Grayson. I will not instill in them the need to be Human or Vulcan." He continued.
"I know Sarek. I am not worried about that. I'm just an emotional illogical woman and I'll miss my babies that's all." I said with a smile.
I noticed Spock coming towards us with a rather strange look on his face. He placed his hand on my back and bent down to whisper in my ear.
"Lieutenant come with me please." He said in my ear. "Father I request your presence as well." He added.
I followed him and noticed that we were on our way to sickbay.
"Spock what's going on?" I questioned worried.
"Grayson is in sickbay he has burned himself." Spock answered in a rushed pace.
I ran through the hall to get to my baby. When the sickbay doors opened I saw McCoy standing over Gray.
"Dr. McCoy what happened?" I questioned rushed.
Dr. McCoy looked at my son who lowered his eyes in sadness. Grayson's eyes shifted to Spock and he bit his bottom lip. I looked at Spock and he stood in front of Grayson. I looked at the side of Grayson's hair and I knew what happened.
"You know that you can tell me anything." Spock said softly.
Grayson's mouth twitched as he looked at his father sadly.
"I wanted to look like you and grandfather. I wanted my hair to be straight too. So I used mommy's heating device for her hair and it fell on my ear and burned me." Grayson said in tears.
I closed my eyes trying to prevent tears from coming down my face. I went to speak but Spock stopped me.
"Why would you want to straighten your hair?" Spock questioned softly.
"Skylar, Soren, grandfather, you and all other Vulcan's have straight hair." He paused and my heart continued to break for my son.
I wondered if this is the internal agony that Amanda went through as she watched Spock torment himself.
"You did it to fit in?" Spock questioned his voice and tone soft.
"Yes daddy." He answered softly.
Tears began to fall from my sons eyes and I wanted to run to him and hold him in my arms. Spock opened his arms to Grayson. My son fell right into his father's arms. Spock wrapped him in his powerful arms tightly. He kissed Grayson's cheek softly and looked him in the eyes.
"Grayson I want you to do something for me." Spock said placing Grayson on his hip.
"Yes daddy."
"I want you to remember that no matter what anyone tells you. You already do fit in somewhere. You fit in the puzzle that is your family. Your mother and I love you very much. You are Human and Vulcan but you're also your own person and no matter what you look like we will always love you." Spock said tenderly with a smile.
Everyone in sickbay was watching and I could swear I heard sighs and snivels.
"Grayson you don't have to choose to be Human or Vulcan you're both. When you go to Vulcan with your grandfather you do not need to make changes to your appearance. You are already beautiful." Spock continued with a softness he only shared with his family.
He walked over to a mirror with Grayson still latched onto his hip.
"Grayson look at us in the mirror. You already resemble me." Spock smiled.
He was right though I don't know what I have to do to get a child that looks like me everyone I give birth to with Spock's DNA look like him. Grayson wasn't an exact replica of Spock like Soren and Skylar but he defiantly didn't resemble me.
"Daddy your eyes are brown and mine are green."
"Yes. Yours and Amanda's eyes are a very pale green. Something that you picked up from your other grandfather. He is a piece in the puzzle of your family."
"My eyebrows are human." He pouted.
"Yes they are. They are your mother's eyebrows."
"My hair is curly and yours is straight." Grayson pouted still.
"Yes." Spock coached.
"My ears are pointed that's it." Grayson said tugging at his ears.
"Grayson you must understand that you, Amanda, Soren and Skylar are all unique. You are each different. You have different personalities, likes and dislikes. When I was a child I was the only half human half Vulcan that made me unique. The four of you are more unique than I was. It will be hard for you on Vulcan and if at any point you don't want to be there anymore. Uncle Jim will turn the ship around and come and get you." Spock said with a smile.
His statement was true the five of them my husband and my children were indeed unique. And if they said they didn't want to be on Vulcan anymore Jim would defiantly turn the ship around and go get his 'littlest crew members'. Grayson looked in the mirror for a few more seconds and turned to Spock. My tears fell from my eyes minutes ago. Grayson wrapped his arms around his father's neck and squeezed tightly.
"I love you daddy." He said happily.
Spock kissed Grayson's nose and smiled.
"I love you too Grayson." He replied.
Spock walked them back over to where Sarek and I were standing. Grayson slid into my arms and hugged me. I kissed his forehead and held him close.
"Mommy can we go home?" he questioned.
"Sure how about we pick up your sister and brothers and go home ok?" I questioned and a large smile graced my son's face
When we reached our quarters we placed Soren and Sky in their cribs. I was grateful to Diane for already having them ready for bed. Amanda and Grayson climbed into our bed. Spock got in on one side and me on the other. He wouldn't wind up on the floor tonight unless Sore and Sky came in the bed with us. Grayson curled into me and Amanda curled into Spock and they were asleep quickly. Spock had even fallen asleep which usually only happened once the rest of us were asleep. I had been watching the three of them so intently that when Spock's eyes opened it caught me off guard.
"Nyota you should be asleep." he said in a whisper.
"I know I was just thinking about how I'm going to miss these moments with them." I said sadly.
"I will miss them too. We are making the right choice Nyota." He reassured me.
"I know. By the way you were great with him tonight." I added and my arm tightened around Grayson.
"I only spoke the truth to him." He replied.
"Yeah I know. Still it was a lovely moment. If we were alone I would give you a prize," I smiled.
His eyebrow peaked and he smiled.
"Well lieutenant make it something I can unwrap." He said with a sexy smile.
"Noted commander." I smiled and we watched each other until I fell asleep.