Chapter 3 – Spock
I woke up with a smile. I smiled at the tussled curly light brown hair sprayed across my face. Amanda had fallen asleep on my chest last night and I didn't have the heart to move her. I smiled as I remembered how she always loved to fall asleep on my chest ever since she was a baby. This would be the last morning that we would have like this since today is the day they go to Vulcan. I looked over to the other side of the bed Grayson was tucked under his mother as always. When I watched him with her I sometimes found myself experiencing jealousy.
I am jealous because I wish that I could have allowed myself to have that kind of relationship with my mother. I loved my mother but I never allowed her to comfort me or hold me until I went to sleep. If I could go back I would. I would have run to her when I was tormented and teased. I would have let her wrap her arms around me.
Grayson would try not to have Nyota comfort him but she never allowed him to shut her out. I loved her for that. She would give our children the room they need to be themselves and still not allow them to push her away. She never let me push her away either but at the same time gave me space.
As I watched the three of them sleeping I began to have doubts. Am I really doing the right thing by sending them with my father? They need more training than I can provide they have already surpassed me in their telepathic abilities. The Vulcan ministers are demanding that they be retested. They want to watch them take the test.
Nyota's eyes began to open and I waited patiently.
"Good morning." She whispered her voice still dry from sleep.
"Good morning." I replied with a smile.
"Did she sleep on you all night?" She questioned with a knowing smile.
"Of course she did." I answered with a smile.
"Spock I don't think I can do this." She said tearfully.
"Nyota I am confident you will do what is necessary." I replied in my normal tone.
She sighed heavily kissing the back of Grayson's head and sat up. I gently laid Amanda on her stomach on the bed. Nyota walked into my arms. I wrapped her in my arms and kissed the top of her head as she cried into my shirt. After three minuets she pushed herself away from me.
"I need to shower and get breakfast ready. I figured I'd make their favorite. They won't have anyone there to make banana pancakes." She cried and wiped the tears from her eyes.
I brushed the back of my hand against her cheek and she smiled.
"Want to join me?" She questioned with her held out for me.
I smiled and took her hand allowing her to lead me into the bathroom. The water beat down on us. She wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me into a soft kiss.
"Turn around." I whispered against her lips.
Her reply was only to oblige me. She turned her back to me and I ran the washing cloth against her skin. I continued my slow torture of her body for five minuets before I turned around and she began to wash my back but because she is short she has an advantage I do not. She laid soft kisses against my back under the illusion of washing me.
After drying we changed into our uniforms. We opted for our planet side uniforms my black commander uniform and her red lieutenant uniform. She left her hair out and allowed it to air dry. It curled like Grayson and Amanda's. I loved her that way. Correction I loved her any way.
She began work on breakfast and I regretfully woke up Amanda and Grayson. They dragged themselves into their bathroom to bathe. As I began my walk to the kitchen Skylar began to wail followed seconds later by Soren.
Holding one on each hip I walked into the kitchen and sat them in their highchairs. On cue Nyota handed them each a cracker which always caused them such excitement. I wrapped an arm around her and kissed her cheek. The boys giggled and she shook her head.
"Please give these to them." She said handing me two small bowls.
I sat the two bowls of completely cooled oatmeal in front of them and they began to feed themselves. Nyota put the last pancake on a plate. Grayson and Amanda bounced into the kitchen with their pajamas back on. Nyota had forgotten to pick out clothes for them.
"Mommy you didn't pick anything out for me to wear." Amanda pouted.
"I'm sorry sweetie. Eat breakfast and I'll help you choose something to wear." Nyota answered somberly.
Breakfast was strangely quiet. Nyota didn't eat anything she just watched the kids. I don't remember eating myself. I watched her watching them.
Grayson finished first. He rose from the table and placed his dish in the cleaner. He grasped his mother's hand and she rose from the table as well. She walked with him to his and Amanda's room. After a few minuets Amanda finished and came to sit on my lap.
"Daddy." She said sweetly with her hands on my face.
"Yes princess." I replied. She loved that name.
"Will you miss me?" She questioned with sad eyes.
"Yes I will very much. Who else will I have tea parties with?" I questioned bringing a smile to her face.
"You promise to come and visit right daddy."
"Amanda your mother and I are not leaving you there to never see you again. You and your brother are just going to school. We will come and see you whenever the time allows. However I trust that you and your brother send us messages." I answered with a smile.
"Yes daddy. Daddy mommy is very sad."
"Yes she is. I am sad as well we will miss the two of you greatly." I replied.
"Do you think the other children will like me?"
"I can not say for sure. Many Vulcan's were displeased with me for choosing your mother over a Vulcan mate. They may have passed that onto their own children."
"Mommy says that I shouldn't care what other people think of us. She says that Gray and I have to stick together."
"Mommy is right. You and your brothers are very special. I am the only half Vulcan half Human and as my children you are 1/3 Vulcan for that you will be ridiculed as I was for being only half Vulcan. There are no others in the universe like the four of you." I said as I ran my hand across her face.
"They will tell you that you have no place in the universe. That is untrue." I continued.
"Ok daddy I understand. I will protect Gray." She said with a smile and kissing my cheek.
"Come let's get you dressed. Go to mommy." I said kissing her lips lightly and placing her on her feet. She ran into her room.
I smiled at the thought of her being Grayson's protector. If nothing else she defiantly had her mother's temper. She will be known to have emotional outburst. I released Skylar and Soren from their highchairs and they ran to their room.