Chapter 6- Nyota
I woke up wrapped in his arms I had been crying all night that I had cried myself to sleep. I had been scared on the planet the way my children reacted. All four of them they are so powerful I fear that they will never be truly under control. I don't want them to be considered monsters but people who don't understand will defiantly call them that.
It's hard for me to figure out which set of my twins are more dangerous. Soren and Skylar are dangerous because it seemed they were doing it for fun. Grayson and Amanda were clearly driven by emotion. They need logic because their emotion is dangerous and can kill.
What do we do with Soren and Sky if they think its fun to toss people around rooms? I could only hope that Spock and I could get them to understand how not to abuse their power. I realize that they are toddlers and they don't fully understand I just hope the situation doesn't get worse.
I wondered if Sky and Soren had the ability and thought process to know to keep secrets from us. Twins have a special bond that can never be broken but Gray and Mandy's abilities manifested themselves in the womb. How long have my baby boys had this ability? Why didn't we know until now?
I didn't even realize I was sitting up until Spock woke up and kissed the back of my shoulder. I smiled over my shoulder at him and turned my neck to kiss him.
"Are you ok?" He questioned.
"Yeah I'm just thinking about what happened with the kids." I replied.
"I am perplexed as well. I was unaware that Soren and Sky had such abilities." He answered.
"Spock everything is going to be ok right?" I questioned softly.
"Grayson and Amanda will learn to control their emotions. They will find logic and it will help them." He answered with a smile.
I turned to face him.
"Spock they're just like you."
"Explain." He said softly.
"When you're really upset your emotions control you. They're the same way."
"Indeed I have been known to have quite violent emotional out burst. However I am confident that our children will find the logic they need to counter their emotions so that they can control that enormous power they have." He stated with his hand on my face.
"I can't help but feel like we abandoned them there." I cried.
"They are aware that we have not abandoned them." He said trying to comfort me running his hand against my skin.
He brought his lips down on mine softly.
"Now lieutenant I believe you said that I am owed a prize. I wish to collect now. The boys are asleep and I wanted a little chocolate for breakfast." He whispered against my lips with a smile.
"Funny, commander I don't remember saying that." I joked.
He threw that sexy eyebrow up at me and I bit my bottom lip in anticipation.
"You promised that I could unwrap it as well." He said against my ear as he continued his mouth's exploration of my face.
I exhaled deeply as his hot lips on my cool skin sent shivers through my body. I shook my head in disagreement.
"I don't remember that either commander. You should refresh my memory." I said my voice now thick with lust.
His hand slid down my body until he reached my stomach where he untied my robe. My back arched in response to him. It amazed me how six years and four kids later he still made me feel like it was the first time. A low growl erupted from his chest and he tore my night gown and I pouted.
"I will purchase a new one on the next shore leave." I whispered against my breast.
My leg wrapped around his waist. His hands gripped my butt and he lifted us off of the bed. He slid himself into me slowly he tortured me with his rhythm. My walls clenched around him and he winced at the sensation my orgasm caused.
"Sp…" his name choked in my throat and was replaced with a loud moan.
He held me tightly as I convulsed on him. He's learned a lot since the first time we were together then again he's had six years to perfect his technique. He always tortured me causing me to orgasm multiple times before he would allow his own release. My pace became wilder as I craved more of him. He slammed himself against the window for balance. The stars were the only light in the room and they bounced off his face beautifully.
Sweat poured from both of us as he gripped my butt again I felt him tense inside of me his strokes became more desperate as release clawed its way to the surface. He pulled my hair tugging my neck back. He sunk his teeth into my neck and he threw me again into passions completion. He poured his seed into me filling me.
I laid my head on his shoulder as we attempted to catch our breath.
"I love you." He panted.
"I know." I replied and he smiled.
"Do you wish to shower?" He questioned breathing heavily.
I looked at clock at our bedside 0500 hours he goes to the bridge in an hour and I go on at 0700. I sighed heavily.
"Doesn't look like we really have a choice." I said with a devious smile.
"No we do not." He answered in a whisper.
After our shower I prepared breakfast for the boys. I pulled six bowls down. He wrapped his arms around me from behind and kissed my neck.
"I can't believe I'm crying again."
"Nyota we have never been separated from them outside of when we went on our honeymoon. It is the first morning without them it will get easier." He said softly.
"I miss them so much. I'm ready to steal a shuttle and go get them." I cried.
He gently turned me to face him and I gave him a soft tearful smile.
"When we get back later we will send them a message as a family." He said as he ran the back of his hand across my cheek.
"That sounds great." I replied with a bigger smile.
"I have to go. I have to go over some things in the lab. I will see you on the bridge lieutenant." He said with a wink.
"I will see you on the bridge commander." I countered with a kiss against his lips.
He glanced back into our quarters when he saw Soren standing up in his crib. He came back inside and picked Soren up bringing him to me. He placed Soren in the highchair and kissed my cheek. He kissed Soren's forehead and walked back out.
"Bye daddy." Soren called.
I know he never got tired of hearing that word. Whenever looking at Sky and Soren it's like Spock never really left the room. I waited for their breakfast to cool. Soren loved apple and cinnamon oatmeal so instead of milk I used apple juice to thin it slightly. Sky loved strawberry and banana oatmeal.
"Mommy." Skylar called from his crib.
"I'll be right back." I said to Soren as I kissed the top of his head and retrieved his brother.
"Hey monkey."I said as I pulled him out of the crib.
I call him that because he loves to climb. Jim says that when he gets old enough he's going to take him for a space jump. I'll make sure that he's never old enough.
I place him on my hip and kissed his cheek. I placed him in the highchair across from Soren and they talked to each other in their own secret language that only they could understand. I laughed because Grayson and Amanda have a secret language too.
I had news for my kids I'm the best communications officer in the fleet I will decode their language. I laughed to myself knowing that wasn't true I didn't want to decode their languages it was unique to them. As unique and special as the four of them are.
I sat down and ate breakfast with my boys and I managed to get through it without tears. Good start for day one. I got some wonderful lovemaking upon waking up and so far made it through breakfast without a flood of tears looking at Mandy and Gray's empty seats.
I can do this I think.