Chapter 12- Spock
I've not been able to spend time with my sons because that would mean seeing her and in my current state it would be dangerous. I'm sure that by now McCoy has told Jim of my earlier threat.
"Spock it's time for you annual physical. I noticed that you have not been eating lately either."
"Dr. McCoy if you don't cease to pry into my personal life I will surely break your neck." I responded to his prying.
The door to my quarters opened and I saw a blue uniform. I screamed at Nurse Chapel and threw the soup she'd made out the door redecorating the wall outside my quarters. There was only one woman I need now.
"If I want something from you I'll ask for it!" I shouted at the nurse.
Jim and McCoy were outside my quarters watching me.
"Captain I would like to request a leave of absence to my planet." I requested.
Jim and McCoy looked at me with questions in their eyes. Questions I was in no mood to answer.
"Spock what is going on?" Jim questioned.
"I have made my request on the present course we will be there in 2.9 light days. All I require from you is an answer." I yelled.
Jim was taken back with my tone and stared at me. I backed into my room and the door shut in his face. I heard him put in the override code to my quarters and I wanted to kill him for invading my privacy.
"Ok Spock lets have it." he said standing at the other side of the desk.
"It is undignified for a woman to play servant to a man that is not hers." I answered with my hands behind my back.
"Spock I'm not talking about that. Uhura had to force you to take two weeks to visit the kids next month now you want to go early. Why?"
"Surely I have accumulated enough time that I should be granted this leave Captain why does there need to be a reason. Lt. Uhura will need leave as well." I answered and his eyes opened wide in shock.
"Spock you've never asked for leave time and now you want me to grant you and Uhura early leave. Is there an illness in the family are the kids ok?" he rambled and I sat down in the chair.
I made sure that the knife I had been holding in my hand behind my back remained invisible to him.
"No Captain nothing of the sort." I answered.
Jim went to walk out the door. I stood and held my hands behind my back once more clutching the knife tightly as my hand trembled.
"Does Uhura know of this request you're making on her behalf?" Jim questioned. "Because we're in route to Altair 6 and the shore facilities there are great." He rambled on with a smile on his face.
"Captain I need rest. I need to take my leave on Vulcan."
He leaned over my desk and pressed the com.
"Kirk to navigation."
"Yes captain."
"Plot a course to Vulcan warp four."
I was sure now since he was behind me that he saw the knife that I clutched. He walked back over to the door and turned with a smile.
"I suppose we forget that not even Vulcan's are indestructible." With that he smiled and left.
I know had to convince Nyota to leave with me. After what happened three nights ago I was sure she would decline if I asked but she will come willingly or unwillingly.
Through intense meditation I manage to gain some control enough to return to my duties on the bridge and McCoy had me under medical surveillance. Being this close to her taking in her scent was not helping the battle I was loosing with my control.
"Captain a message coming in as urgent." She said in her melodic voice.
I closed my eyes in an attempt to not look at her. She played the message.
"Starfleet command sectors nine to Enterprise. Inguaration on Altair 6 has been advanced seven solar days you are here by ordered to alter your flight plan and proceed to Altair 6 immediately."
The message stopped and Jim walked over to me.
"Sorry old friend seems like you'll have to put shore leave on hold for a few days."
I nodded in agreement. While Jim took rest in his quarters I ordered the ship at maximum speed to Vulcan. When Jim came back to the bridge he stood at the lift doors.
"Mr. Spock." He called as if he were talking to one of my children scolding them.
I turned to meet his gaze and Nyota's.
"Come with me please." He said in the same gentle scolding voice with both hands on his hips.
It was the same face Nyota would give the kids when they disobeyed.
"Spock you changed the course for Vulcan. Why?" He questioned as the lift made its way to deck five as he ordered.
"Changed the course Captain?" I questioned in return.
"Do you deny it?"
"No captain it is quiet possible. I simply do not remember."
"You not remember Spock?"
"Captain lock me away I do not wish to be seen this way."
"Spock tell me what is going on!" He ordered.
"I can not no Vulcan could explain further."
"Spock I'm trying to help you."
"Ask me no further questions I will not answer." I yelled anger flowed through me with red hot heat.
"Mr. Spock I order you to sickbay."
"Sickbay?"
"Dr. McCoy is waiting for you. A full exam." Jim said staring at me.
I took a deep breath and exited the lift. I stepped into sickbay and was greeted by McCoy.
"My orders were to report to sickbay. I have done so now I will go to my quarters." I said weakly.
McCoy stood in front of me.
"Oh no you don't my orders were to perform a complete physical and that's what I'm going to do. In case you hadn't noticed I report to the same commanding officer you do."
I stared at McCoy for a few moments.
"Come on Spock yield to the logic of the situation."
"Fine doctor exam me for all the good it will do either of us." I answered lying on the exam table with my fingers tapping along the side of the table.
The door to my quarters opened again.
"Spock. Why does McCoy think you will die in eight days if I don't get you to Vulcan?" Jim questioned.
I did not reply.
"Spock." He said again as he grabbed my wrist.
He stared at me as my hand shook uncontrollably.
"You've been called the best first officer in the fleet that's a great asset to me and if I have to lose you I want to know why." He shouted.
I grasped my hands together to stop the shaking and stood walking into the sleeping area of the quarters.
"It is a thing no outsider may know except the few who have been involved." I answered. "Every Vulcan understands but even we do not speak of it among ourselves it is a deeply personal thing." I continued.
"Spock explain and consider that an order." He countered.
"Captain there are some things that transcend even the discipline of the service." I answered.
He slowly walked over to where I was standing.
"Would it help if I promise to keep this confidential?" He questioned.
I walked away from him.
"It has to do with biology." I answered.
"With what?"
"With biology."
"Spock what kind of biology?"
"Physical." I answered.
Shock appeared on his features.
"Spock you need to…" He paused.
"Yes Captain."
"So what's the problem you already have four children. I'm sure Nyota is not that mad that she would see you die rather than…"
"She will refuse. She already has."
"Spock have you explained to her?"
"No. Going through Pon Farr and being rejected by my mate is making this harder than it should be. I must return to Vulcan and pick a new mate. Or die." I answered.
He said nothing as he stood beside me.
"I'll grant Uhura the extra leave time. You should take a shuttle craft leave the boys on board we'll drop them off when we leave Altair 6."
"Thank you Captain." I half whispered.
"Sure. Anything for my favorite couple. I'll prepare my Godfather suit again I just know she's going to come back pregnant from this." He laughed softly as he walked to the door.
I raised my eyebrow at him as he walked out of the door. I was being driven by a force I could not control. One would say that my body's timing was horrible. I would agree. These urges I feel make the human ones feel like nothing. If I do not have her I will die. If she rejects me again I may kill her. Pon Farr is a violent ritual I was not sure her body could take such abuse. I am almost to the point of Plak Tau (blood lust) I will become dangerous to others if I do not reach Vulcan soon.
I reserved the shuttle and Diane as always agreed to watch the boys. Now I had to convince my mate to save my life.