A/N: If I owned the Host I would be jumping around. As you can clearly see, I am not jumping on your monitor screen. Apparently, I don't own the Host...

Wanda's Point Of View

It was cold. It was dark. I was surrounded by bushes and it was raining. I didn't need to turn around to know it was raining; the window I was staring at had rain streaks.

Besides, I didn't want to turn around. I was too fascinated by the scenery past the window.

I could vaguely tell it was a hospital room. The walls were white, as were the tiles on the floor. There was an occupied bed with railings.

Although the windows were rain-streaked, I could tell it was a woman reclining on the bed. She was young, beautiful, and her golden locks belonged to that of an angel. There was a man standing beside her. He was crouching down to get a better view of her face; he was just so tall! There was something I noticed about that man…

Because even through the blurry windows…I knew he was beautiful. I couldn't make him out; all I could see was that pale skin and dark hair.

And the woman…she was holding a child. Oh, I wish I could get past these darkened windows to get a peak.

They looked…happy. I couldn't see their faces, but there was a huge happy aura literally glowing around them. It was a happy aura that kept all sadness away.

It was an aura that kept me out.

The door opening pulled me out of my depressing thoughts. Three people stepped in. The first one in was a boy who was literally bouncing with happiness. He almost looked like a man, but his happiness seemed…childlike.. The next in was a man. He was happy as well but not bouncing like the boy. This man was also beautiful; his hair was streaked gold.

The last one in was a woman. She looked…strong. Her skin was tanned. Her hair was beautiful, long, and the same color as her eyes--dark brown. I wonder why her features were so easier to tell than the others. And then…

She turned to look at me. Well, I thought she looked at me; after all, she could just be looking at the window. The window was quite large so I walked to the far right corner. The woman's eyes followed.

Oh no! I was discovered, I thought. And then the woman smiled. Just with her smile the picture became clear--it was Melanie. The rest of the picture became clearer with details, but it was fading away. Fear compulsed me to take a quick look at everyone. They were easily identifiable. Jared and Jamie were the two who had walked in with Melanie. And the happy new family…

WAS THAT ME!?

I woke up flinging my arms in the empty air while screaming. I was sitting up and gasping for air. The next thing I knew was that I was sobbing.

That was me!! And I was holding my baby and Ian was standing next to me and…and…I whipped my nose with my shoulder sleeve. And I didn't even see them!!

Melanie had left me alone because she needed to help taking out the carrots. That was obviously put aside 'cause I heard her running towards my room. She flung the door open and saw me awake, sniffling.

I was propped up into a loose sitting position, mainly my arms supporting me. She ran to my side and didn't say a word. She just stayed there and finally whispered "You okay?"

That brought the tears all over again. I threw my arms around her and started sobbing. She kept patting my back and said "I'm sorry" over and over again.

"I wonder what would happen to Ian, if he were to lose me…I wonder what would happen to me if I were to lose him…"

It seemed like ages ago when I had thought that when, in reality, it had been only a few days ago. Well, it looks like my wondering is over.

For some reason…, it doesn't really feel bad. It doesn't feel good either. It feels like…hmm, how to explain this…well, it feels like nothing at all. Yeah, I guess nothing is the right word to describe this feeling inside my hollow chest.

This emptiness brings back memories. Memories of all my lifetimes when I'd been a soul--mechanical and repetitive. Always the same; never different. Well, there was one life when I'd been free and full of emotion. It had been my life on--

I hit a wall. My life on…where?

A vivid mental picture of that strange planet I'd kept dreaming of flashed across my mind. Yellow grass and reddish surrounding. It looked like I was about to have that dream again but I'm not…sure? Was I hallucinating or something? I can kind of describe what I'm "hallucinating."

I hear screaming. This place---here, where I am---is on…fire. There's people running around and hiding…but it didn't make sense. These people had bright wings on their back; why didn't they use them?

Because they want to stay hidden, said a voice to me. A voice I did not recognize. It sounded like me, but I would seriously know if it was me thinking. Because they want to hide from those repulsive Seekers, said the voice.

What? What's going on? Who are you? I thought frantically.

Who am I? said the voice. I'm an old friend of yours…Why don't we just continue on with your dream?

No! I've had enough with voices in my mind! I already shared my mind with Melanie and I will not go through that again! Tell me who you are and how you got inside…my head! I thought, desperately trying to act fierce.

The voice stayed quiet as well did the visions.

What was going on?! I've had enough with mysteries; all I want are answers! I shrieked violently in my head.

So, what're you gonna do about it? replied the alien voice.

What am I gonna do about it? I gritted my teeth. First things first, I'm going to deal with the mysteries that don't hurt my head!

But the only mystery that doesn't hurt your head hurts your heart. Doesn't that bother you? replied the smart-aleck voice.

Doesn't matter. Now do you mind shutting up?

I could tell that got to her. She shut her mouth.

I pulled myself away from Mel and started packing my things.

She looked shocked. "Wait, Wanda what're you doing?" I stopped to look at her; she was halfway between standing up and sitting back down. Her mouth hung agape.

I looked at her with determination in my eyes. "I'm leaving."

Her eyes became more and more confused; "What are you talking about?"

I picked up the tote bag. In it, I would be carrying a few essentials--not that I'd be needing much. I looked up and gave her a remote look as I answered, "Off to find Ian. Where else?"

It was hard. I had no idea that it would be that hard to just pronounce his name. I managed to pull it off quite nicely.

She was at a loss to words. But her eyes widening gave enough response.

As I started to walk away, she came back to her senses. She crossed the room quickly and gripped my arm--hard.

I just looked at her with as much distant look I could manage. I didn't want her thinking I was afraid so that she would follow.

Uh oh. I completely forgot.

Melanie has the amazingly annoying power of reading my mind (not really, but it might as well be)

"I'm not letting you leave here."

Before I even opened my mouth she continued, "I don't care how upset you are, there's no chance I'm letting you leave."

Her eyes were blazing and I could tell it would take some hard work to convince her.

I tried to match her look--in total failure. "Melanie, I'm going,"

"And I just said you're not," her eyes showed no pity as she said this, "You do know it will be impossible for you to escape once I've told people this. As a matter of fact…"

She let go of my arm and was about to step out the door.

"Wait!" I held onto her arm.

She raised an eyebrow at me. Do you want to explain why you're doing this first? her eyes said to me.

I sighed. "You know, Melanie, it's partly your fault that I'm leaving."

She blinked twice. "What?" Her voice sounded childlike.

"You're a bad influence," I said with a tiny smile. "When you thought you were never going to see Jared again--when the Seekers found you---you didn't just give up. You kept fighting. It seemed hopeless, but you really did manage to keep them safe. Jared would've done the same…and do you really think I'd have done different than you?"

Her eyes softened. She let out a chuckle and sighed while looking at her feet. She peered under her lashes and told me with a sly look, "I really am a bad influence."

My eyes danced a little; So you believe me?

"No, I don't believe you in the fact that you get that from me," she said with a smile, "But I'm pretty sure you get that stubbornness from me."

I looked at her hopefully.

She studied me warily for a moment. "I'm not gonna shake you on this, am I?"

I shook my head with a smile.

She sighed again. "Okay then, off we go."

I didn't know how long I stood there with my mouth hung open like an idiot. Melanie was already packed when she said "Quit gaping! I'm going with you and you're not budging me on that."

"But Mel--"

"Hey, hey, hey! I said no budging."

I rolled my eyes. When she said no budging, she really meant it.

"Whatever. Just don't bother me too much," I said as I turned around. As soon as I'd remembered my mission, my cold mood had come back. As well, as that annoying voice.

Don't you mean 'just don't bother us too much?' said the voice.

Shut up. I swear, if I keep hearing voices in my head, I'm going to end up on a not-so-comfy recliner with a "doctor" pretending to listen to me.

Ew, I hate therapists! whined the voice.

Hey, I might go to therapy just to hear you suffer. I thought with a smile.

I was so entranced by making my voice suffer that I didn't notice Lily sitting on the floor.

"WAGH!" I screamed as I tripped over her and fell--face first--onto the ground.

"Wanda, is it true?" I heard her whisper. She turned around to face me, but my face was currently still mashed on the ground.

When I didn't answer, she cleared her throat and continued, in a much determined voice, "Is it true that you want to leave!?"

Oh, I hated all this drama.

Plus, my face still hurts.

A/N: Wanda just keeps getting little voices in her head, doesn't she? Poor Wanda. And I'm sorry to make you feel bad Wanda, but you need to listen to your little annoying voice. I'm also sorry for all the drama, but there's plenty more coming.

This is the second time Wanda's tripped over Lily.

I keep giving bits and bits of the strange world Wanda keeps dreaming. And now there are Seekers involved? Hmm, I wonder what's going on…

Well, I'm sure I'll find out some day. Reviews might speed the updates along!