Oh, this dream. I have seen the memory a million times in my sleep, but only once in real life. I guess with the slight reminder of Axel, my heart is trying to remind me of him. Him and his green eyes…

It was raining, and I was soaked because I had left my only jacket at home. Stupid me, never thinking. But turning down a deserted road, a short cut that removed eight minutes from my walk home, I had signed my death letter. But my brain hadn't known that at the time, so I kept on walking. I thought I was so smart, getting home quicker, that I never understood the dangers of this world.

He was chasing a girl down, I remember it well. Her brown hair was wet and knotted and she screamed and cried. I knew her, she was my best friend. Olette. She saw me and screamed for me to run. The shriek made me look up and see her, and the attacker.

I pulled out the utility knife that my brother had given me for 'just in case'. Cloud always did think about my safety. Running up to Olette, I shouted and questioned. My mental state was 'Is she okay?' and nothing more about my safety. If the attacker had been someone else, I would have been dead.

"Roxas! Run! He will be here any moment, save yourself! That cold hearted bastard will KILL you without a second thought", was all she could say before a strong hand gripped around her neck and tightened. I shouted out her name and pulled at the man's fingers to let go, all of it went in vain.

I looked up into his jade green eyes. They scared me how pure and clean they looked for a bloody murderer. Hair like flames, how it stuck out and stayed. But the interesting thing was his style. From the Pure black leather chest tight shirt to the skinny pants. I must have done something right, because his grip loosened and Olette fell to the ground and gasped for air.

"Olette!" I shouted and reached for her, but my hand was grasped by the other guy's. And he pulled me away, by walking. But my desperate shouts didn't reach him. And she sat on the wet ground, gasping for breath. I couldn't help my friend.

But as we walked, I could feel how frightened he was. How every step he took, no matter how graceful he was, seemed quick and precise. Choppy. Finally he looked down at me, and smiled.

It wasn't a normal smile.

It was a maniac's smile.

His voice was perfect and his voice never messed up, but all the while I knew he was trying to get something out of me. Going on about how sorry he was to interrupt me. Or something else. My heart and ears were still mostly focused on Olette.

Then he stopped. His hands were out, feeling for rain that wasn't there. "I have to go"

I know he wasn't worried about the rain; he was worried about the clouds that would clear up soon. And he started to walk away, so I grabbed his shirt (Though that was a hard task since it was leather). Whatever made my mind go mentally insane, I don't know.

"My house is just a few blocks away, you can hide out there."

"Are you sure? You are still holding the utility knife." And I looked into my hand and saw the sharp blade poking out of the plastic. I was so close to cutting myself, but it wouldn't have mattered. My hands were so cold from the rain that I wouldn't have felt it at all. I turned the knob and the blade retracted, and quickly stowed it in my pocket.

And with that, we were off to my house. The walk there was quick, and silent. He just looked ahead, and never blinked. We turned a sharp corner, then full out ran to my home. I never knew if it was me running and him trying to catch me, but it was the largest possibility. Since we are all attracted into his net, but like a bird we get trapped. And like the hunter Axel is, he won't let a single animal escape.

I used the key from above the door frame. That's where my mother thought all of us could reach it, but the truth was that only she and Cloud could reach it fine. I had to reach and stand on my tiptoes. The door opening was silent, but peacefully. Still nice and warm inside, but I was soaked.

"You live alone?"

"My mother is working, twin and older brother are at school"

Axel paused at the family picture hanging on the wall. He had been following me threw my house, as to be expected when entering someone else's home for the first time. He stared at it for a good few minutes while I checked the kitchen for dry towels. Though the place was odd for towels, we put all of our clean laundry in baskets by the fridge. Normally Sora and I would fold them on the weekend, if we didn't have too much homework.

"You don't look much like them" I didn't know what he was talking about. So I just looked at him with a confused look. "Your mother is different from all of you. You and your twin have the same eyes, but your eyes are different from each other as well. And you brother has blue-"

"Cloud was going threw his gothic faze. He had died his hair and wore tons of make-up. But that ended last month…"

"Your mother has different hair though…"

"We are adopted children…" I leapt back into the kitchen in hopes of finding towels. But failing my tears slid down my face.

"Are you okay?"

"No", I looked at him. Pleading mentally for him to leave the subject. Any subject would be better, even the puberty talk that Cloud had tried to give me because my mother was so embarrassed.

"I never caught your name"

"I didn't give it" was how I replied. I am not to good with talking.

"Mine is Axel, A-x-e-l. Got it Memorized?"

"Nope. I'm Roxas"

"Roxie, eh?"

"Roxas"

I lead him up to my bedroom, seeing as there was nothing to do. And then I walked away in search of Towels. Oh how I hated the fact that when I needed one, they all disappeared. I glanced down and say them, in Sora's room. In a basket all nicely folded. Pulling off my shirt I reached for three. And I headed back to what had been my personal heaven; my very own Bedroom. I started whipping myself off when I opened the door. What I saw confused me; my blanket pulled over the window to block out sunlight. Then there was blood on the floor where Axel was sitting. I didn't know why until I saw he had just had a very bloody nose bleed. Holding his hand against his nose and coughing. I rushed up to him, feeling concern for the murderer.

"Are you okay!? Do you need help or something? Axel!" He scoffed and closed his eyes. Then shouted something at me.

"PUT YOUR GOD DAMNED SHIRT BACK ON"

I put my hand on his cheek and laughed. His maniac smile had shown up and somehow I felt a connection the crazy murderer. He looked into my eyes, and I just drowned in his. The green was so shiny, luminescent; perfect. Almost like sculptures of jade. I knew my eyes weren't that perfect. Or anywhere close, so how could he stare at them? I was boring in comparison to him. But we drew closer to each other, and I knew he wasn't lying. He had only lied to me once in our whole relationship. And as our lips touched, I wondered how I could ever kiss a man who had almost killed my best friend. I knew I would never find out why though…

His lips were smooth and silk soft. My eyes were closed, but I could feel his burning into me. Slowly Axel's hand moved up my body and stopped behind my head. Pushing me further into his trap.

"Will you stay?" I asked as we pulled apart. If he left I know I would rarely see him.

"Yes… for a little while" He kissed me one last time that night. It had turned dark out, too quickly for me. I didn't want Axel to leave. That one lie? When our lips met, He promised to me human for me.

My mother came home not to long after that, and Sora followed a few minutes after. She called me down for supper, and I left Axel in my room. Mom commented about how spacey I was that evening, and giggled when she asked Sora if I was seeing someone. I loved her, the way she never cared about what gender I would choose. Even before I realised I was gay she referred to who I was dating as 'Them' 'It' 'Sweet heart'. I finished dinner and cleaned up the dishes, with mom still asking Sora if his twin connection would give her a hint if I had a crush on someone. I laughed and went to my bedroom. To Axel.

And he had stayed, holding me in his arms all night; promising me happiness in every dream. The blankets pulled over us to keep us both warm. But all night he would put soft kisses on the back of my head, like he was trying to always remind me he was there. My dreams turned to nightmares of Olette's scream echoing throughout an empty sidewalk. Her head lying bleeding against a concrete wall, one that if she had just jumped over she would have been safe. And I opened my eyes to the ringing of my alarm clock, flicking it off and getting ready. Axel asleep on my bed. I left a note about going to school.

Then disappeared for the next nine hours.

When I came back he was still here. And didn't leave until later that night. And he was gone; didn't see him for the next week. I was moody and testy for all of it, and people thought it was because summer was too slow on getting here. That was a normal reason for people my age to be upset. But when Friday arrived, I didn't join in with the partying. Sora and Cloud thought that I had just been assigned a large amount of homework for the summer. It was true, but I was also lonely.

I had told Olette about Axel. She said even though she could never approve my relationship with a crazy psychopathic vampire, she was happy for me. Olette comforted me about my lack of my Axel, and even helped me figure out what to say to him if I did see him. A true best friend she is, always caring. I bet Olette would even stand up for me when she knew I was wrong.

Then on the first Monday of summer vacation I was looking out my window after the sun had set. The stars were beautiful, twinkling in the dark sky. Then I heard it.

"Watcha' doing?" I looked down and saw him smiling with a maniac's grin. I ran down the stairs and outside faster than I could have when I was late for school. My mom didn't say a word. And as I ran into his arms, I saw my mother smirking from the window. But it didn't matter to me then. Axel was back.

"Must be a new record; I swear I just went from evil friend murderer to boyfriend in a week."

"Oh shut up."

And he was there, every night. Sometimes he would come through my window and sometimes I would meet him outside. But for all of summer I was the happiest boy alive. And the first week of school that all changed. Axel hadn't shown up for the past week, and I was worried. He was starting to feel sick right before he disappeared. My heart was aching, but I kept on going.

My best friends, Hayner Pence and Olette, wanted me to play soccer with them on Saturday. And I agreed. I needed something to distract me, to keep me busy. Friday had approached, and we were all excited about soccer. We would have the most fun tomorrow, it was guaranteed.

But that Friday night my life changed. Axel came through my window, and I ran up to him. "Axel! I have been so worried about you!" I could feel soft tears of concern falling from my eyes.

"Roxas…"

"Are you okay? Olette told me not to worry… but…"

"Roxas…"

"Maybe some hot chocolate would make you feel better…"

"ROXAS!"

"What?" He hadn't really shouted at me before. Well, he had. But never as if he was angry. So I was scared. And no one else was home, and it wasn't even that late.

"I came to say good-bye" I instantly clung to him then, I never wanted him to leave. But maybe I was forcing him away, "You can't leave! Please don't!"

"Roxas! I can't stay with you! I will die at this rate. Can't you see that?" He paused, "No wait. Maybe there is a way we can be together" his head was leaning towards me. "If you…" Opening his mouth wider "Would die" I could feel his breath on my neck. "For me" His teeth poking at my neck.

"NO!" I tried to push away. But I can't say it went as planned. I tripped over his foot, and I fell backwards as I reached out to grab something to steady myself with. An automatic reaction when falling.

But I grabbed him.

And pulled him down with me.

I hit my head on the metal bar on my bed. We had landed on the soft mattress, and I was the only one injured. He could have bitten me then, turned me so I was with him forever. But he didn't. His thoughts were clouded and he couldn't tell what he wanted. But he put his hand on my stomach. And being dizzy and scared I pulled away while shouting 'No'. His very sharp claws dug in threw the shirt, and cutting into my chest. He was hungry, and I had just had a near fatal injury.

I can remember him tearing off my shirt and using it to tie my arms down. Axel ripping off my clothes, and licking at the pools of blood on my chest. And his continuous thrusting into me. I can remember hearing someone screaming and crying, but since I am the only one here besides Axel, so I guess it was me. And only after I had suffered a large blood loss and completely raped, Axel decided to leave. I do remember someone whispering 'Oh god' though; A little bit before my mother, brothers and best female friend came home.

Olette had wanted to tell me which park they were meeting at and what to bring. Since her phone was down, she was going to tell me in person. I could still hear her telling my mother I must be asleep and that she would wake me up. Then Olette's scream. My mother rushing up and calling the police and an ambulance. Either Sora or Cloud untying my wrists. I felt broken, but more or less numb. And I slipped into that numbness. The pain radiating from my chest, tears flowing freely from my eyes…

It was like I was never going to be me again.

****(^o^)m****

I woke up with tears flowing down my face. My dreams were always about Axel when I was slightly reminded of him. Mostly the bad times, and the raping. I pushed the covers off myself, and looked to Cloud on his bed. He was mumbling something about silver hair when I stood up and stretched. Mana was snuggled in my pillows, looking quite content and asleep. I yawned, it was still dark out. And by looking at the ugly red numbers of my alarm clock, it was only three in the morning. The photo album that my mother had sent me was right beside the window. Teasing me with the memories of the good times.

I decided to look at the picture. And as I slipped it out, I saw his radiant smile glowing on the paper. The little black upside down triangles of his perfect face reminded me of the ugly border on the wall of the cafeteria. But Axel did pull of his look well. Maybe the school cooks saw him and decided to decorate to honour him. That seems like something they would do. Opening the window, I saw the starlit sky. The cold air brushed gently against my tear stained face. And right back to Axel's perfect face my eyes went.

"You put me in the hospital, you stupid freak. Made me fall to pieces and made the numbness fill me. And every time the shadows move I see you there, threatening to come and get me. Why Axel…?" The wind picked and blew the photo out of my hands. I watched it flutter and dance on its way to freedom… And I wished I could go with it.

I didn't feel Cloud's eyes stare at me, his heart filled with worry.

****(^o^)m****

( Axels POV BTW )

I saw the picture fluttering in the wind before it even came near me. Being innocent, I was; Sitting and drinking the blood of a poor girl who I had come across. The piece of film paper landed near the corpse, and I picked it up. Always good to read poems that writers have thrown away, only to be carried off by the wind.

What I saw amused me. The picture that Roxas's friend, Olette I think, had taken; of me holding Roxas. He was asleep, but my eyes stared at the camera. I remember threatening her if she didn't give me a copy…

I felt the start of a tear forming in my eye. I wanted him, whether he knew it or not. Not just as my underdog, but as a friend. The little blond had been a huge part of my life, even if he was only there for two months. In all of my years of life, those months were both the longest time and the shortest time.

"I'm coming to get you Roxie"

Those words would scare him is I said anything. Terrify him to no end. Poor Roxie, I bet he is still upset. I didn't mean to… that night. It just happened. Oh, I wanted it all right, but I could restrain myself from raping my boyfriend.

*****A/N*

Sorry about the lame chapter. I hope I can get better at this ^^;

I'll try to get better. This chapter isn't even over, but I will lose it if I don't put it up. By the way, I need 3 reviews to carry on. Thank you ^^;