I KNOW, it took me like forever to post this, but I don't break my promise to not abandon this story, do I? I actually have finished writing this chapter by the day after I posted the second chapter. It was just those finals, graduation, farewell party or whatever you call it, and many more. It's hard to be in the last year of school, it really is. Anyway, I need to make sure I haven't lost my loyal readers (you're the best!), and more importantly, my loyal reviewers (you're, like, the bestest!!). So, please review after you've finished reading it!

This chapter is dedicated to Yugiohfanfic26 since she seems want me to write longer chapters. Thanks for the reviews, sis! And, I'd like to make a dedication chapter for PrincessAnime08 as well, so I hopefully will make Jaden and Jesse spend more time in the next chapter. Hope you're still reading this story, since the chapter will be dedicated to you next time.

Like what I've told you, it's a …err dedication chapter, so this chapter actually wasn't planned before. So, I'm really sorry if it sucks and probably the time does stop here, I mean I'm focusing to how Jaden really felt, since I guess I can write more when I go deep down to the characters' emotion.

WARNING: Yaoi and little bit of angst…

Happy reading!

Chapter 3: Time Doesn't Stop

"Although I'm thinking about you so much, time doesn't stop for me"

Being gay isn't an easy thing. That's what Jaden had learned from his recent days. He really enjoyed the time he could spend with the older teen. But at the same time, it felt so wrong to be a great enjoyment. It's like feeling something's not right when you feel everything's really alright. Well, it can't be said alright if not all's right, can it?

You know, maybe it's what they called …

Guilty pleasure…?

He had heard the phrases of 'You'll never know till you try' and 'the heaven smiles for any kind of love', but he had also heard phrases like 'Falling in love with a member of same sex is a sin' many times before. It made him really uneasy all the time. Everything around him became blurry and unfriendly, pushing the brunette to keep questioning 'Should I just tell him everything?' or the 'Have I just taken more steps closer to the hell?' to himself. And even though he found that the repetition did nothing but worsened his aching chest, he couldn't stop thinking about those things. He really wanted to stop, but he couldn't. It crossed his mind whether the

'Is this something that bad?' He thought to himself. It really was an awkward, complicated thing for that naïve boy. Too much he hadn't understood yet too much he had felt. The only thing he knew at that point was that he had no idea at all about what actually was going on. Got trapped in the uncertainty without knowing how to get out from that situation, without even knowing what kind of situation it was. "I mean… it just… err… well, it just feels too good to be bad.'

"Brother…? Hello? Earth to Jaden Yuki. Anyone's there?"

Jaden snapped out from his thought. Right in front of him, the blue-haired Syrus Truesdale was there, standing and staring in wonder.

Apparently Syrus'd been watching the other for a fairly long time. "Is something wrong, bro? You act really strange lately." And he for sure had noticed that the older boy had something in his mind at that moment. "Or are you sick or something?"

"Really? Do I look that miserable?" The brunette said, trying not to sound troubled. He knew what all of the things he'd been daydreaming about was not what the blunette would understand. "Well, I'm actually sure I'm really fine. No need to worry, Sy!"

It really wasn't true. Everyone knows it. Though, it was probably pretty convincing for Jaden himself.

Syrus was probably younger than Jaden. But he surely didn't get fooled by the other's 'I'm fine, don't worry'. He knew that his class-brother was hiding something. Something big for him. However, the younger boy chose to just let out a sigh and pretended he really didn't know anything. "Well, okay then."

'Am I that easy to be read?' Jaden thought to himself. 'I mean, jeez, it's like Syrus actually saw me debating with myself.'

Syrus actually did. He knew the brunette too well to not see that he'd been less loud, less outgoing, and less cheerful. Still happy and childish as always, but not as alive and talkative as usual. The toy maniac also saw Jaden's pacing out more frequently. Now it seemed that the whole recess time was his daydream-session. Today wasn't different. It was still nine in the morning, and even a lesson hadn't started yet. But the dark-haired boy looked pretty tired or absentminded.

"Morning, Syrus! Hi, Jaden!" It was Alexis greeting both of the boys.

"Morning, Alexis" was the younger boy's reply. None can be heard from the other boy, though. He wasn't even looking at the taller girl. Got swept by his daydream again, apparently.

"Helloooo~? Earth to Jaden Yuki? Are you there?"

"Huh…?" was the only, lame response that came from Jaden's mouth. Lame enough to create an awkward silence for seconds.

"What happened to you? You usually are so full of sugar?" The obelisk blue girl asked. Though, it was more like a statement –or maybe a joke- than a question.

"Well… I'm just… Uhh, I just don't feel like talking a lot." He bluntly lied without thinking.

The 'huh…?' response was lame, but this answer was even lamer. Jaden Yuki didn't feel like talking was like a tiger didn't feel like eating meat. And even Jaden now realized how bad he was as a liar.

"What…? What makes you don't feel like talking …and even to us?" the long-haired girl questioned with a pretty surprised scowl. She felt like asking herself about how could a tiger didn't feeling like eating meat. "I mean, seriously, Jaden… You're acting weird, really weird."

"It was just …Ms. Fontaine told me that I'll possibly fail the written text again this time, if I don't study hard. And I… well, I'm just kinda worried, since I guess I don't know how to study hard…" Jaden certainly said it uncertainly. He managed to smile a bit just to make it more convincing, though. "That's all."

"Wait, that does not make much sense. It seems that-"

"Oh look. It's Ms. Fontaine on the door. Let's quit chattering for now, Alexis." Jaden cut Alexis' sentence swiftly, trying to end the conversation. The brunette knew that Alexis and Syrus will even get more curious if it lasted longer.

The brunette then sat, leaning against the wall. Trying to concentrate on what the teacher had been saying. Unfortunately, his mind just kept pointing out some other things.

'Aargh! No good, Sy and Alexis are already suspecting me for being weird.' The brunette thought, trying to focus on what the teacher was writing on the board. It failed badly, though. He just kept worrying about his crush on Jesse leaked. 'Sy won't be such a bug, but Alexis' dangerous. She'll be investigating me by the recess time. She should never find out that I'm a gay!'

'I have to avoid talking with them!' he was saying that in his mind loudly when suddenly another thought struck into his head.

'Wait… Why do I have to run? They're my friends, aren't they? Wouldn't friends understand each other's problem?'

'NO! It's definitely not a good idea, Jaden! What are you thinking?! They are your friends but they will no longer be your friends when they know it, will they?!" He changed his mind all of sudden, not wanting to lose his friend (1). He couldn't think straight that time, he really could not. It was just a secret crush, why would he be panicking for it, anyway? He should have thought of it, but once again, he couldn't think straight at that moment.

'God, what am I gotta do now?!'

(1) I know. That IS a really cheesy cliché. I just get confused how to make things work out after that. Sorry!

I originally tried to make it looks like a cliffhanger, though I think it's not so hanging. I'm afraid I really am a failed writer. *sniff* I can't even think of a good cliffhanger! God, this is why I appreciate reviews so much, they give me lots of motivation and idea and correction. Without them, I probably had written this chapter with even more cheesy-ness and an even more 'not-so-hanging' cliffhanger at the end.

I also tried to put a little bit of humor there, but then once again, humor's not my specialty. Bet none of you even knows what I mean by the humor I write. lol

Also, should I put Syrus in Slifer Red or Ra Yellow? This is kinda annoying for me to think about a not-so-important-yet-I-want-it-in-my-story thing. Yeah, he was originally in SR with Jaden. But then later he decided to move to RY, didn't he? I need to know readers, this is my very first fic and I still really don't know the dos and don'ts in writing a fanfic. So please, help me out a little bit.

Anyway, I'll post the fourth chapter after I've received and read some review. Just to make sure once more that there are still some people reading this.