Thanks for waiting...and here's the finale...or is it?
Enjoy and comment please!
Warnings: reference to sexual things, cursing and a writer who B.S-ed the ending
If I Were A Guy, Would You Still Love Me?
2 years later…
The light breeze sweeps through the small neighborhood, rustling the leaves on the palm trees. It continues through each house that has its windows open. It leaves in its path a sweet melody that is played by the wind chimes. The light jingle of a charm breaks the silence between two teenagers that sit on the steps of the blonde's house. The silver-haired man, looking over at the blond who seems to be lost in thought.
"So…" the blond begins, starting up a conversation finally. "What college are you planning on going to, Riku?"
"Dunno," Riku shrugs, placing his chin on his hand. "But definitely not anywhere around here…my mother is getting on my nerves about some crap again. What about you, Roxas?"
"Axel said that Japan might be nice…" Roxas replies, fiddling with the charm on his zipper of his shirt.
"Axel? So you two are going steady now?" Riku asks.
"Yeah…" Roxas blushes a little. "I said 'yes' after the movies last weekend…he started singing "Malchik Gay" by T.a.t.u to me(I'm listening to that right now)…it wasn't mean but cute…he…," Roxas looks up at his friend. "Can you believe he started dancing in the movie lobby? How come you couldn't some that day?"
Roxas tilts his head towards Riku, causing the older teen to look up at him. Cinnamon brown hair. Riku shakes his head, blinking a couple of times. Where did that come from?
"But yanno…" Roxas eyes sadden a bit. "Ahh…nevermind."
"Things came up Roxas," Riku explains. "I didn't mean to not come…next time I'll definitely…"
"It doesn't really matter…nothing, besides Axel dancing, special happened besides the normal Tidus making out with Selphie…Wakka with Naminé (weirdest couple known to me)…Axel attempting to kiss me…everyone else telling us to not do such inappropriate things," Roxas lists, counting with his fingers. "So it doesn't matter that much okay?"
"Hm…"
"Thinkin' about something?"
"What?…just a little pissed at my mom for being such a btch…" Riku states, looking over at the blonde's sudden mixed emotional face.
"Oh…" Roxas turns away. 'He doesn't even listen to me anymore…'
"So did anything special happen at the movies?" Riku asks.
"NO Riku! Nothing, ABSOULUTELY NOTHING HAPPENED EXCEPT FOR EVERYTHING I JUST SAID ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED AT THE GODDAMN MOVIES!" Roxas shouts, standing up, clenching his fists.
"What is your problem Roxas? I merely ask you and you go all Btchy on me!" Riku stands up yelling back at the teen.
"Forget it! Just forget everything I said…but I know that won't be easy because you haven't ever forgotten about Sora!" Roxas shouts, stamping his foot to the ground.
"What the hell did you just say?"
"Stop dwelling on the past for God's sake! It's bringing you down, along with everyone who cares about you!" Roxas is on the verge of tears. "It's hurting me too!"
"You wouldn't know anything about how much it feels to lose someone you love!"
"Goddamn it Riku, yes I DO!"
"No you F-ing don't!"
"I loved him too!
"…" Riku mentally stumbles over the sudden words that escaped Roxas' mouth.
"You heard me…I loved him like you did Riku…" Roxas stares at the patio floor tears slowly falling leaving stains of his sin. "So, yes I do know how it feels to lose him…"
Riku's eyes are covered by his bangs making Roxas realize that he was lost. He begins to walk over to the door to his house when he feels two arms shove him into a chest. Riku holds Roxas tightly, close to him, weeping onto his shoulder. Roxas sadly smiles holding the older teen in his broken state. Roxas was the parent and Riku was the child.
"Ri-"
"I can't! I can't do this Roxas!!! It hurts so much!"
"Shh…Riku its okay…don't let him down…stay strong for Sora…"
"I can't…"
"Yes you can…just give it time…he may even be looking for you…" Roxas strokes Riku's hair and back tenderly. "Shhh…"
"But-But I fell in love with the Sora…the girl Sora, not him," Riku cries. "Nothing makes sense anymore…"
"Riku," Roxas starts. "Does it matter what gender the one you love is? I care for you and I don't want you to get hurt just because Sora isn't a girl. I love Axel because him, it doesn't matter his gender…"
"I'm not-not gay…and if anyone ever found out-"
"Which is more important? The people you are trying to impress or him?"
"He is…"
"So go find him, be happy again, Riku!"
"Thank you Roxas."
"Sora…"
A blurry image of a boy appears from the darkness, lighting the way. "Hey Riku…How've you been?"
"I've been okay…what about you?"
"I'm surviving…so what brings you here?" the soft angelic voice speaks, as the boy sits down on a rock that suddenly appears.
"I'm sorry."
"For what?" the teen, smiles.
"Because…I want to be forgiven, more than anything."
"From who?"
"From you Sora…" the young man walks up to the boy, kneeling down to his height.
"Why?"
"…I…I…"
Sora leans forward, getting close to the silver-haired teen's face. "You can tell me Riku…I can keep a secret."
'Because I love you.' "Because I want to see you again, Sora. I don't want to be alone."
Sora stands up from the rock and climbs up it making Riku stand up. "I here, silly."
"Not in a dream…I want to see you again, really."
"I'm right here, so you're not alone."
"Where?"
Sora giggles, placing a slender finger on Riku's chest. "Right here…where you keep me in your heart. And you will see me again, Ri. So don't worry, kay?"
"When?"
"…" Sora takes away his hand but Riku takes hold of it, stilling him.
"Please Sora, when will I see you again?"
"When you wake up, silly!!"
"When I-"
"Wake up!" Sora holds Riku's hands and jumps off the rock. The land suddenly becomes water as they splash into the small lake. "Wake Up Riku!"
Riku opens his eyes, finding himself on the couch with the T.V. on softly. He looks for the remote on the floor and suddenly touches a hard surface. Continuing to try to place what the item is, Riku feels a soft ribbon and picks up the box. All the memories flooded back into his head.
"It would be good to have some company, again."
"I love you…"
"GET THAT GIRL OUT OF MY HOUSE!"
"Don't worry Riku, I'm kinda confused too."
"There is no truth…leave me and her the hell alone!"
"Riku, I wanted to tell you…I really did! But then…when you…I didn't want it to end…"
"I don't think…I can see you anymore."
He places the box and ribbon down on the table and looks at it intently.
"You gotta open it silly."
"It's a box, I love it!"
"Riku…"
Riku suddenly hears the door slam open and glances over his shoulder to find his mother, stumbling in drenched in rain. When had it begun raining?
"I'm taking a nap, don't disturb me."
That's nice.
"A-hole."
W.
And that was the conversation of the day from the two. Riku puts the box underneath the couch and get up off the couch. He looks through the refrigerator to find absolutely no food. After looking through the cupboards he sighs deeply and grabs the car keys from the counter.
"I'm going out!"
"Shut up!"
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Riku's POV
As I drive through the neighborhood I see Axel and Roxas sitting out on Roxas' porch. I slow my car down and look behind the seat to find a box of condoms lying on the floor. Hey, ya never know when you'll need them…I'd rather have them and not need them than not have them and need it…especially me…alright now I'm just getting cocky. I drive up to the driveway as Axel and Roxas come up to the car. Axel holds the umbrella over him and Roxas as Roxas bends down to see me.
"Here, you guys might need these," I wink, devilishly. Roxas catches the box and fumes as I pull out of the driveway.
"That's not funny Riku!" Roxas cries. Axel drops the umbrella and snatches the box and smirks.
"Why Roxas, it's not even our one month anniversary!" Axel grabs Roxas in a glomp. Roxas struggles under the pyro.
"Ahk! I'm getting wet!" Roxas yells, trying to break the embrace. "I'll get you Rikuuuuuuuuu!!"
I chuckle as I see Axel pick Roxas up, bridal style and carry him into the house. I continue to drive into town and put on my sunglasses. Protection from the rabid fangirls who worship the ground I walk on. I turn into a small diner and glance up at the name.
'Starlite Diner' I open the door to take in a fresh scent of food and the coziness in the room. (What?) I find a couple of people staring at me oddly, but then go back to their conversations and meals. The sunglasses, of course.
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3rd POV
"Ooo…come take a look at this cutie, Sora!" a cinnamon haired girl swoons, grabbing her friend's arm. "Isn't he a handsome fellow?"
"Oh!" the boy named Sora stares at the young man with silver hair and sunglasses.
'Now we can always keep in contact.'
"Riku?" Sora says out loud. The girl looks over at Sora with big eyes.
"You know him?"
"No…" Sora shakes his head. "I've never seen him before."
"But you said a name? And were staring at him as if you knew hi-"
"I didn't mean to say a name…just thought…he reminded me of someone, yanno?"
"You're sure?" the girl continues, trying to get information out of him.
"I've never seen him before Olette," Sora looks away from the young man. "Why don't you go say 'hi' to him?"
"I'm too embarrassed! Besides, I think you guys would make a better couple anyway, so you go!"
"But…I-we don't even know if he swings that way," Sora exclaims loudly causing his partner workers to stare at him.
"Shh!" a young blonde haired man scolds Sora.
"Oops…Sorry, Hayner…" he blushes, turning to Olette. "Besides, I don't want to get involved with anyone right now…"
"Hey, we need service at table 4," the black haired man shouts. Olette sees this as an opportunity and begins to push Sora out of the kitchen.
"Sora's on it, Pence!" Olette giggles as Sora cries out for her to stop.
"Hey, no fair!" Sora pouts, straightening his clothes. He begins to walk over to the young man with glasses on, casually.
"Good afternoon sir, what would you care to drink?" Sora asks cheerfully, bending down to the man's level. He whips out a pad of paper and a pen behind his ear.
"Coffee…black, cream and sugar on the side," the teen says in monotone. (I don't have any idea on how to order coffee because usually my dad orders me a drink and I don't like coffee so I usually get yummy strawberry and crème Frappuccino® from Starbucks.)
"Okay!" Sora smiles, leaving the boy. He gives the order to Hayner and sits down on a stool in the back waiting for the coffee. Olette comes up to him, smiling softly.
"So how'd it go?" she asks. "You get his number?"
"Olette…" he sighs. "No, I didn't get his number…you go ask him."
"Coffee!"
"I got it!" Sora yells, waving 'bye' to Olette. He grabs the drink off the counter and begins to walk over to table 4. "Here you go, sir."
"Thanks…"
"Sora! You're on break!" Olette shouts in a sing-song voice.
Sora glares softly at the girl, pouting. "Thanks Olette!"
Sora? Riku looks up at the waiter and his mouth drops open a bit. Was it really the Sora he knew 2 years ago?
"Hey? Do you mind if I sit here? Unless you're waiting for someone?" the boy asks.
"Whatever," Riku sips his coffee. Sora looks at him oddly then sits down happily.
"So, your name is Sora? Pretty girly name if you ask me."
"I like it," this Sora says, defending his name. "So, what's your name?"
"Riku."
"Riku?" Sora tilts his head. "That's a nice name."
"…" Riku doesn't reply as he watches the boy play with his fingers.
"So, why do you wear sunglasses? Are you blind or your eyes are sensitive to light?"
"To hide my identity…"
"You sound like one of those secret agents or spies in movies," Sora laughs, making Riku roll his eyes a little at the boy's naïveté.
"What color are your eyes?" Riku asks out of the blue.
"Um…brown…why?"
Sora's eyes were blue…not brown. Riku sighs in defeat. "No reason."
"Oh, okay."
"Well, I'll see you around," Riku stands up, giving Sora a five dollar bill. "Keep the change."
"May I see your eyes?" Sora asks, politely, blushing a little. "I won't tell anyone…"
"…" Riku gives a good look at the boy and sighs in defeat. "Have it your way."
Riku takes the young man's hand, pulling him into the bathroom. Sora blushes as Olette and Hayner give him the thumbs-up sign. Pence merely rolls his eyes and continues typing someone's order into the cash register. Riku pulls him into the men's room making everyone stare at the door they had gone through. Olette notices the sudden silence and laughs.
"They had to go…um…to the bathroom!" Olette smiles, asking Hayner for help. "Continue with your lives please."
A murmur starts then conversation begins again.
"You're so lucky I saved your sorry little butt, Sora," Olette sighs to herself, continuing with her work.
Riku checks each stall, opening each door quickly. As he goes down the line, Sora hops up on the sink counter, leaning his back against the large mirror. He giggles as he hears Riku sigh in relief.
"Jeez, you are extremely weird, ya know that?" Sora smiles, swinging his legs back and forth. "There's no one here, silly."
"Okay," Riku touches his glasses for a second then puts his hand back. "Why do you want to see my eyes anyway? Are you some sort of cop?"
"No…I guess…well, I guess I'm just curious, that's all," Sora shrugs, thinking nothing of it. "It's not bad right? I mean your eyes aren't going to kill me-heh-are they?"
"Well, curiosity killed the cat," Riku says, crossing his arms over his chest.
"And satisfaction brought him back," Sora says leaning towards Riku, as if egging him on. "I bet your eyes are really pretty, though."
"You won't give up will you?" Sora shakes his head.
"Nope!"
"Fine," Riku touches the rim of his glasses and takes them off. Sora meets his eyelids.
"No fair, Riku!" Sora pouts, huffing in defeat. "Open your eyes."
"Okay," Riku opens his eyes to find Sora staring with wide eyes. Sora's mouth opens a little as he gazes into those familiar eyes. Emerald.
'GET THAT GIRL OUT OF MY HOUSE!'
'Don't You Dare Start Crying! Riku Would Have Had His Way With You And Then Kicked You Out Like Nothing Ever Happened!!'
'Home? I have no home…'
'Sora, we're gonna put on a little show…trust me,' Riku lowers his face and kisses Sora.
'So if you get in my way of my goal, I'll tell Riku you're a guy and personally see to it that the rest of your life is a living hell…'
'KAIRI! Did she make you cry?'
Kairi…Kairi…
'Leave me-!" Sora suddenly loses his footing, falling down the steep hill. At the bottom is a ravine with rocks and broken sticks emerging out of it like spikes.
'ROXAS!" he yells, desperately trying to grab a branch or vine.
Roxas?...
'I'm here.'
'There is no truth…leave me and her the hell alone!'
'I don't think…I can see you anymore.'
See you anymore…don't—you—see…anymore…don't see you anymore…I—I don't see you—I don't-anymore—think I can see you?—see—I don't…don't think—anymore…I—don't see anymore…see—you…Sora…Sora?...Sora!?
"Sora?" Riku waves a hand in front of his face, trying to get the boy's attention. He stares at it, like he's in a trance, and slowly leans forward.
'Riku!!'
"Riku…" Sora speaks suddenly in monotone, startling the silver haired man.
"Sora what's-"
'I wanted to tell you…!'
"I really did…" Sora continues as if rehearsing it for a play. The same scene playing over and over again in his head.
"What, Sora? What did you-"
'But then…when you…I didn't want it to end…'
"Riku…"
'I didn't mean for this-'
"To happen…"
"What to happen?" Riku holds Sora's shoulders, asking for answers. "Sora, what are you talking about?"
"Hm…" Sora suddenly slumps fainting from the haunting memories of his past.
. /··/ .
'Mommy! Please stop hitting me! Please! I didn't mean to get dirty! I didn't mean to knock over that bottle! Please don't hurt me mommy! I won't do it again!'
'I'm sorry! Don't hit me, please, mommy! I love you, mommy!! Mommy! Don't you care?!'
'I'm sorry for talking back, please don't put me in there! I won't do it again!!'
'Mommy…why did you put me in the closet?! Don't you love me!!?? I know I'm not good, but I love you!! Please don't lock me in here! With no light on!! Please Mommy!'
'AAAAAHHHHHHH! MOMMY DON'T LEAVE ME IN HERE!!!'
Don't you love me anymore? Doesn't anyone love me?
I do…
. /··/ .
"Na…" a cry comes from Sora, as Riku picks him bridal style. "No…"
Sora lies in Riku's arms, lifelessly; his head rolled back, limbs dangling. As Riku comes out of the bathroom he puts his glasses back on quickly. Gasps and whispers flow through the diner, as Riku approaches all the customers with Sora in his hands. A cinnamon haired girl runs up to Riku and puts her hands to her mouth, covering a gasp.
"What have you done to Sora?" the girl cries, attracting the blond to begin to walk over to the commotion.
"Listen I didn-"
"Get your hands off him!" the blond shouts, jumping over the counter angrily. "What did he do, Olette?!"
"What did you do to him!?" the girl Olette was in tears, voice trembling.
"I didn't do-" Riku tries to explain himself, but is interrupted.
"I said get your hands off him!" the blond screams, fists balled. The black-haired man grabs the blonde's arms.
"Hayner! Calm down!" he struggles to keep hold of Hayner's limbs.
"That-Pence let me go!"
"N…na," a small faint voice comes from Sora. Everyone looks at the teen whose eyes flicker open and close again. The world stills for him, allowing him to talk. "R…Riku…"
"Riku?" Olette freezes. That was the name Sora had said earlier. "How do you know Sora? Why did he mention your name if you didn't know each other?"
"I-I don't know," Riku snaps back, causing Olette to whimper.
"Riku…I-I'm sorry," he whispers. Riku goes into a state of shock by Sora's sudden apology. Why would he something like that? Riku shakes his head and places Sora in Hayner's arms. He rushes out of the diner, mind spinning.
Hayner looks down at Sora who continues to mumble out random words. He takes him into the back, with everyone staring at him.
"Olette…call Siefer. We need some help around here," Pence states, giving her the phone.
Why would he be sorry if he hadn't done anything? Riku's mind races with possible reasons as to why Sora apologized. This couldn't be the Sora he knew two years ago, could it? He would never forget those beautiful cerulean blue eyes…Riku suddenly stopped the car in a random driveway. Maybe it was him and he never did have blue eyes. Riku backs up and drives back to the diner for some answers.
--
"Sora?" Olette calls for him as he comes to. "Hey, are you feeling better?"
"…Ri…"
"What that bstard do?" Hayner snarls, seriously pissed. "Did he touch you when you didn't want to be?"
"Hayner! Please don't say that!" Olette hugs onto Sora, rocking him back and forth. "Let Sora tell us what happened."
"Where's Riku?" Sora says, sitting up with the help of Olette. "Olette?"
"Gone."
"No! I have to find him!" Sora starts to get up when Olette and Hayner block off the doorway. "Lemme go! I need to talk to him!"
"Why?!" Hayner shouts.
"You guys wouldn't understand…just let me go!"
Hayner and Olette look at each other for a moment and their expressions soften. "Just, be careful Sora."
--
"Riku!"
"Riku, where are you?" Sora screams, but is drowned out by the pounding rain. "Riku…" He falls to his knees on the sidewalk, bangs slicked down onto his face. His hand slides down the mailbox that had kept him up. A car stops across from where he cries. Sora looks up to see a long lost face. Blue eyes full of worry stare into his brown ones. Another set of eyes stand next to the stranger.
"Ro…"
'I'll take you home…'
"Roxas…"
'Home…? I have no home…'
"Sora?"
He falls into the blonde's arms, whispering unheard words. "…find…help…Riku…"
--
Riku barges into the diner to find the girl named Olette and the pissy one Hayner cleaning up the tables and putting away the chair.
"Where's Sora?" Olette asks, hope in her voice.
"I was gonna ask you the same thing," Riku looks around the diner for any sign of him. He comes face to face with Hayner's café colored eyes.
"Don't look around here ya idiot, he isn't here!" Hayner angrily replies. "You better find him or I'll-"
"Riku…that's your name right?" Olette cuts Hayner off. Riku nods curtly, awaiting the girl's question.
"You will take good care of Sora, won't you?" she calmly asks. Riku begins to leave the diner, grabbing the door handle. He casts a quick glance over his shoulder, and nods.
"Yes, I will."
--+
"Mmn…" Sora opens his eyes, feeling a bit dizzy and sick. He focuses on the face next to his and notices two black triangles under the man's neon green eyes.
"He's a cutie, Roxas," a deep male voice starts, looking up from staring at the chestnut-haired boy. "You dated him? Nice choices…cute and innocent to ruggedly handsome and sexy," the man continues, praise in his voice.
"Shut Up Axel!" Roxas yells, making the teen open his eyes wider. He hears the rustling of clothes to hear Roxas squeak and the so-called Axel purr in amusement.
"Axel, this is a NO-molesting zone!" Roxas yells.
"You can't molest the willing, Roxy-chan," Axel smirks, kissing Roxas' neck. Roxas groan and pushes Axel away harshly. "Hey! This is what I get for being honest!?"
"…Roxas…" Sora stirs and takes Roxas' hand, clutching it tightly. "…hm…"
"Sora!? You're okay!" Roxas picks him up in his arms and hugs him, burying his face into Sora's neck. (BTW: Axel is extremely pissed off with this sudden loving embrace) Axel grabs Roxas from Sora and growls 'Mine'.
"Goddamn it Axel! Let go of me!"
"So I see how it is…you don't have your pretty lover boy so you date me. Lover boy comes back, you dump me…" Axel sighs sadly. Roxas rolls his eyes and hits Axel over the head.
"Axel do you have short-term memory lose or are you just stupid?" Roxas crosses his arms over his chest. "In case you forgot, you did something to me and I let you…do you know what I am talking about?"
Axel smirks evilly, licking his lips provocatively. "Oh yes, Roxas I do remember…" (Yep…they did IT…XP Don't really like writing about that yet)(1)
"Anyway, why are you here Sora? How have you been? Why are your eyes brown?"
"I'm here because I have a job in downtown Destiny Islands…I've been fine with some new friends and my eyes are brown because…I'm hiding from my mom," Sora sighs, getting that last part out. "I'm just glad you don't need to have to need glasses in order to get contacts…" (Eye color changing contacts are cool…my friend's eyes are brown but she has blue eye contacts that are the same shade as Sora's eyes)
"It's good to see you again Sora, Riku will be so-"
"Riku! Where is he? I have to tell him I'm sorry!" Sora suddenly begins to whimper, tears seeping through his eyes
"Why?"
"…for falling in love with him…"
--
Maybe Roxas would know where he could find the Sora look alike and even help him. He pulls into Roxas' driveway and runs up to the porch with a hand to cover himself from the rain. He opens the door to find Axel pouting in the kitchen on a stool.
"What's-"
"Get your lover away from mine and leave!" Axel huffs, twirling a tendril of red hair around his finger. Riku walks into the living room to hear soft cries coming from a chestnut-haired teen on Roxas' chest. They sit on the ground in the room, hugging each other. Roxas cradles the boy, looking down sadly at the depressed boy. Riku takes a step towards them then hears someone call his name.
"I'm here…" he says softly, crouching down to their height. The teen stops crying and looks from Roxas to Riku, tears spilling down his face.
"R-Riku?" Sora trembles, letting go of Roxas. He wraps his arms around Riku's neck, crying softly. "Is-Is it really you?"
"Yes it is…" Riku holds Sora tightly against his body. "This isn't a dream is it?"
"No…this feels so real," Sora whispers, body trembling. "I missed you so much Riku."
"I did too, Sora…I did too."
()+FIN+()
I forgot that I might see
So many beautiful things
I forgot that I might need
To find out what life could bring
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(1) I didn't originally have that in the rough draft but i added it because I'm a loser and everyone loves Akuroku (still don't know what that means either)
Should I end it here? Or would you like for me to make another chapter? You decide…