Chapter 6

I Really Miss Your Hair In My Face

1 Year later

"I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I wouldn't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)"

Tommy looked up at Kwest, Liam, and Sadie.

"How was it?"

"Um….sad?..."

"I just…." He turned his head to the side as someone stepped in with a baby.

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Flashback

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Jeff walked into the hospital, and into Jen's room.

"How is sh-"

"Get out of here!!!" Tommy pointed to the door, tear streaks visible on his face.

"What did I do?"

"Would you like to explain to me how exactly my daughter became 2 months pregnant!?"

"I….I…." He turned and ran out the door, but Tommy shoved him against the wall.

"You're not going anywhere! What'd you do to her!"

"I didn't to anything!!! She came to me after your sl-"

"Don't you dare!!!!" He punched the 16 year old, who fell to the ground.

Jen rolled her head to the side in the room, and opened her eyes to see Tommy hit Jeff.

"DAD! No!" She jumped off the bed and doubled over.

"JEN! NO!!!" She fell forward and smashed her throat on a scalpel before dropping the floor.

"ARE YOU HAPPY!!!"

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Flashback Ends

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Sadie, Kwest, and Liam walked out. Jude walked into the sound booth, laying the baby in the car seat.

She grabbed a stool and sat in front of him. He kept his head to the side, but she turned it to face him.

"Jude, don't…"

"Baby, please…" Several of his tears fell on to her crimson scarred arm.

"Jude…I…"

"Tom…You couldn't have stopped it…You were being her father…"

"But…She's…" He sniffed as more tears fell. He turned her arm, looking at the scars.

"This, this is my fault." He held her arm out to her.

"Tommy…someone once told me that people don't always see who you really are…But I need you to try…I need you to see who YOU are…the Tom Quincy I married…The guy I fell in love with..."

He sniffed again, running his thumb over each of the cuts. The baby whimpered and then quieted again.

"Is…is there anyway that I can get you to see that this isn't your fault…"

"Tell me why it happened?! Because-"

"Don't say it…I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me…"

"I can't…I don't…YOU deserve better…"

"No, Tom...I don't…No one deserves better than me than you…after all you've seen and been through…"

"Jude…" He turned his head to the side again, staring at the ring on her finger.

"Tommy…I can't make this work without you…WE can't…"

"Well…maybe I don't want to anymore…Maybe I can't…"

"Why?"

"Because, Jude…I'm SO afraid that the second I let my guard down, everything's going to break, and I'm gonna lose you…"

"I promise it won't…" She shrugged, hopping he'd look up.

He chuckled, letting another tear drop onto her arm.

"Can't we…Can't we ever be those people we were years ago?"

"I wish we could…"

"You know…in the car, driving home last year, I was so afraid to tell you who I was…"

"why?"

"I was afraid you'd turn me away…"

"Never…never, baby…"

"And when I wrote Chemicals React…It was because I wanted to put those feelings away, to stay safe…And I guess I left them there…" He looked up.

"Well, can you bring 'em back out?"

"Not with you staring at me like that…" He smiled and even giggled a little.

"Tom…" He looked up at her again.

"What?"

"I'm afraid of not being with you…"

"Oh, baby, that'll never happen!" He kissed her hard, allowing their tears to mix…

(A Walk To Remember, anyone!?)

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Alright guys, so that's all for now…I would like to state that "Better Than Me" belongs to Hinder and their writers (Who I believe is their lead singer….Brenden? Something like that…) Anyway, I'll have more up later…But I'd like to state that I write for you beggars who couldn't "WAIT" for the sequel, and then turnout hasn't been well, so if I don't get at least 5 reviews, I might not update…