My Angel Has Returned Chapter 8: Keep Holding On, an instant star fanfic

Chapter 8

Keep Holding On

A/N: Okay, here we go with chapter 8….This is going to be Tommy in the hospital. Just to clear things up, when Jude yelled "Liam", she was yelling that because he had shoved Tommy over the side of G Major, not because he had fallen. Tommy was the one who fell. Also, this chapter will contain violence. Read at your own discretion.

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"You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.."

Jude sang to Tommy through tears. She squeezed his hand, hoping he'd wake…

(Where Tommy Is)

Tommy stood in the street and looked around.

"Tom? Tom Quincy?" He turned and saw…A blonde…A blonde who looked strangely like Jude.

"Hi…Jude?"

"Uh, no, I'm her sister, Jami."

"But Jude,-"

"We were twins…she doesn't even know about me…"

"Oh…Where am I?"

"You're in the space between earth and heaven…"

"So are you saying I'm dead?"

"No…it's your choice to go back or not…"

"Great, lets go then…"

"Tom, I was sent here for a reason…"

"Yeah,…to come get me, right?"

"No…" She began to walk, so he followed. "I was sent here to show you what it would have been like, had you died in that accident 17 years ago…when I'm done, then you tell me what you wanna do…sound fair?"

"Sure…" He followed her to a house…"

"Wait, this is Sadie and Liam's house…"

"No, it's not…" She opened the door and they walked in.

"Jamie, could you-" They heard a loud smack and walked into the kitchen.

"STOP!!!" She cried out, crouching down.

"You are NOT keeping that baby!!!" He shoved her against the wall and hit her again.

"Stop!" She fought to get away from him. He threw her head to the side, knocking her to the ground.

"I don't care how you feel about Tom Quincy! He's gone and you're married to me! You are NOT having his baby!!!"

"What's going on?" Tommy whispered to Jami.

"You and Jude hooked up once before getting together, remember?"

"Yeah?...so?"

"She got pregnant…in the alternate universe of course…that is, the one you died in…"

"But, then why didn't she-"

"Tom, our whole futures are planned out from the moment of conception… But when it comes to the cross roads when you have to choose between life and death, there's always going to be a different side for each one…Say Jude had never tried out for Instant Star-"

"Would we have met?"

"Yes…but not in the way you'd think… Follow me…" She led him out the back door, which turned out to be the outside of the farmhouse.

"Why are we at the farm house?"

"We're not…" They walked over to where two blondes were sitting. The girl was staring down at her arms, which were covered in scars.

"Why do you do that to yourself?" The male looked up and noticed her arms.

"I always thought that music was my way out…you know?" He nodded, fully knowing what she was talking about.

"But then when I told my family that I wanted to try out for this competition, my they totally shot me and my dad down…they said I was too young…"

"How old are you?" He touched her left arm, running his thumbs over her scars.

"16 now…I was 15 then…"

"Okay…And?"

"Well, then my parents started fighting…and my mother started to take it out on me…"

"You mean-"

"I mean she became physically and emotionally abusive…when my parents got divorced, the court didn't believe me when I said it was my mother who did it…they said it was my father who'd done it, and that he'd brain washed me…And now he's in jail…she re-married not long after their divorce."

"Did she continue to hurt you?" He looked into her ocean-blue eyes.

"Yes…unfortunately…"

"And that's why you started cutting?"

"Mmhmm…" She sniffed, clearing her nasal passage. "What about you? Why are you hear…What caused you to start cutting?"

"My parents…My father was always abusive…My mother divorced him, and tried to get me and my sister out of the country for about a year…Not long after she divorced him, he and my sister got into a car accident. It was ruled as an accident, but we all know he was drunk…My sister was killed…After that, my mom tried harder to get out of the country and now she lives in Italy…"

"How old are you?"

"21…" She nodded, staring into his eyes…Something about them gave her hope.

"Time to be your twenty-one…" She whispered.

"What?"

"Um…I don't know…it's something about your eyes…they give me hope…" She shrugged as tears filled her eyes.

"I know what you mean…" He smiled slightly as he wiped her tears. "Would you play for me?"

"Sure…Um, this is Time To Be Your 21…It's something I just thought of…

"Time To Be Your 21"

You never lied to me not once
Its not your fault that I cant trust
Its in my past, its in my path and I can't go there
Making a mess out of this game
To see it all go up in flames
So tired of being ruthless and wreckless

Time to be your only one
To almost be you're way too young
Time to crash into the sun
Time to be your 21
Time to dream that love will last
Time to drive my car too fast
Time to walk before I run
Time to be
Ohh time to be your 21

I don't believe in love and I
I pull it to the wall
I tasted sweetness there to laugh so hard as it falls
And I could push you there if you don't stop me
Push you there if you don't stop me
Please stop me

Its gut wrenching sometimes
Its life threatening sometimes
Seems like nothing can wash it all away

Time to be your 21…"

"Jude, your family is wrong…You are good…and you CAN make it…I should know…"

"Who is he?" Tommy looked at Jami. She walked around the side, and Tommy gasped. "Me? A cutter? With blond hair?"

"Like I said…it's all in the choices we make…the smallest thing could set off the biggest part of us..." She walked over behind Jude and reached down, touching one of the cuts.

"Isn't she going to see you?"

"I'm dead; she can't see me…Get it?"

"Yeah…sure…but what doest this have to do with me?"

"Do you want to know more of what would've happened if you had died?" He shrugged.

"Follow me…" She walked back to the door, and when they stepped through, they were back in Sadie and Liam's house. A little girl ran in the room, straight into a black haired girl.

"Mommy!!!" Jude turned around and smiled, lifting her daughter.

"Hey, sweet girl…" she kissed the little girl.

"When we go see Daddy?"

"Shh…we don't want-"

"What's this I hear about you taking her to see Quincy?" He took the little girl from Jude's arms.

"Jamie, don't …she's only 4…" He began to walk away, but she grabbed his arm.

"Jude, let go of my arm, or so help me God!"

"It's one thing for you to hit me, but it's completely another thing for you beat on MY daughter!!!" He set the little girl and shoved Jude against the wall.

"Mommy!!!!" She ran into the kitchen behind them. "Stop hurting mommy!!!" She cried out.

"Greta, go into your-" Jude attempted to tell her to go to her room when Jamie hit her again. "STOP!!!" She fought him, but he shoved her to the ground.

"GET OUTA HERE YOU LITTLE BRAT!!!" Jamie screamed into her face. She ran as fast as her 4 year old legs could carry her out of the house.

Tommy looked back and forth, not knowing whether he should follow Greta, or whether he should stay and watch. He turned, but Jami grabbed his arm.

"No…we're here for you to see this…She'll be fine…"

Tommy watched, letting tears fill his eyes as Jamie forced himself upon Jude. She struggled to fight, but he continued to hurt her.

"STOP!" Tommy screamed at him, but he couldn't hear.

Jamie lead him out of the house, and then they were in a park near a cemetery. They walked over to the swings and Tommy sat down.

"You can go back you know…it can be as if you never survived that accident…"

"No…I survived that accident, and I'm not going back so that THAT can happen."

"Then…you can still choose not to go back…and things will start from today…but you have that to live with…" They looked up, and Tommy saw a woman with a man in his late 20's with a girl about the same age.

"Who are they? Does Jude die? Are they friends of hers?"

"They…They all knew Jude well…But not as well as they knew you…" Tommy watched as they all morphed into what they looked like today. He watched Jude sink to the ground in tears, and the other two stood, seeming as if they were in denial.

"Now you make your choice…You don't go back, and this happens…Or you do go back, and live your life to the fullest. Fight like HELL to get Liam and Jude to trust you again…And you've got to realize that you don't love Sadie as anything more than a sister…As much as you might think you do, Sadie's just the person who was there while Jude was gone…and that wasn't her fault that she was gone…But you-"

"I'll go back…But about Sadie…I know I don't love her that way…But she's always-"

"She's always been there, I know…but Sadie is JUST your friend, and your sister-in-law….she's nothing more than that, and she's not meant to be…get it?"

"Sure…"

"But…if I don't go back…what happens to her and Liam…"

"If you don't go back, then it will be as if they were never together…I mean they won't be together…And I don't mean for that to scare you, but it's all because of you that Sadie and Liam got together in the first place…When you die, their love goes to…Eventually Jude will forgive Sadie for kissing you, but Sadie won't forgive herself…and Liam won't be able to fight for their marriage without her…" He sighed and walked away…

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Tommy stirred in the bed, and turned his head to the side. Jude awoke as he did.

"Hey, beautiful…" He smiled slightly.

"Oh god, Tom!!!" Jude jumped up and hugged him tightly. Sadie and Liam re-entered the room.

"Thank god…The doctors said you wouldn't wake up!" The two walked in, quickly followed by Jen and Tom.

Jude sat next to Tommy as they all sat around. Jen and Tom had gone to see friends.

"Tom, what happened?"

"Um…I got a glimpse of what things would be like…had I not lived through the last accident…and what would've happened with you and Jamie…and then I saw what would've happened had you not won instant star…and finally, I saw what it would have been like if I didn't come back…And I couldn't do that to you guys…"

"What about earlier today…"

"Let's just say my…guide, showed me that we're not meant to be more than this…family…Because this is all I've ever wanted in life…" He squeezed Jude's shoulder (She's sitting next to him and he's got his arm around her with her head on his chest.) She looked up at him and smiled. He leaned down and kissed her softly. Yep…20 years and they still had sparks in them (!5 the first time they kissed, and now she's 35, kay? Got it? Good! )

"You guys are so cute!!!" Sadie snuggled into Liam who smiled….

A/N: Alright…I gotta go…so I hope you guys enjoyed.