Remembering

Disclaimer: I do not own criminal minds.

'Beware the fury of the patient man.' John Dryden.

JJ looked around the empty offices of the Bau. She had purposely got there early. She hoped the babysitter didn't mind Henry getting to her house a little early as well. She made her way to the round table room and stood in the doorway. 'This is where Henry was conceived'She thought. Of course she didn't know that at the time. She almost had to laugh at the absurdity of it all.

She remembered it all very clearly. For several months her and Will had been taking turns visiting each other, one weekend he would come to Quantico, the next she would go to New Orleans. She had been perfectly content to go on this way. However Will wasn't . He wanted a commitment, something more long term. He wanted them to be together all the time. The very idea had scared the wits out of her. She hadn't even told the team she was dating anyone much less marry or move in with someone. She especially couldn't picture herself quitting her position at the BAU. They had fought about it. JJ told him she wasn't going to see him that weekend. His only reply had been "Good!" and he slammed the phone in her ear. She didn't cry or react but merely threw herself into her work even harder than before.

It was a Friday night, the fight with Will was still fresh in her believed she was the only one left at the BAU offices. She looked at her watch; it was past midnight, she thought she had better go home. She saw some movement in the conference room. It didn't frighten her; she thought maybe it was a member of the cleaning crew or even a team member. She got up to check, as she looked into the darkened office; she was surprised to find him sitting in the dark. The moonlight pouring through the window provided enough light to illuminate his face.

"Hi " she whispered. She didn't know why she whispered, since there was only the two of them there.

She sat down on the small couch beside him. He didn't speak but merely looked at her. She was able to see the sadness in his dark eyes. She felt sad too and reached for his hand.

"What are you still doing here? " she asked.

"I'm afraid to go home." He was unhappy and too tired to make up a lie.

His answer surprised her. She didn't say anything. She laid her hand on top of his and searched his face. She thought he was handsome; though it felt like she was just noticing it for the first time. He turned and looked at her; without any warning; he leaned over and kissed her. For a moment JJ forgot where she was and kissed him back. Taking this as encouragement he kissed a little harder and she felt his tongue touching her lips. She was so surprised, she immediately backed away pushing against his chest with her hands.

"Stop, stop right now!" She ordered breathlessly.

He immediately pushed away from her. He had a horrified look on his face as if even he couldn't believe what he had just done.

"JJ, I'm sorry, please forgive me, I don't know what happened, please I'm so sorry." He was completely flustered. He looked at her helplessly.

He looked so panic stricken and disgusted with himself that JJ began to Laugh. Her laughter to him was even worse than any anger she might have had. She saw his reaction.

"Oh, I'm sorry, it's just been a day of surprises. I wasn't laughing at you." She took his hand and kissed it. He relaxed a little and smiled at her. That sweet smile and the gentleness of him warmed her heart. She leaned forward meaning only to give him a kiss on the cheek, instead her lips found his mouth again. This time he started to back away. JJ didn't want him to. Suddenly she wanted him. Why not ? she reasoned; her and Will were probably over and she needed the comfort of a warm body next to hers. She reached up putting her hand firmly around the back of his neck, pulled him closer and kissed him harder. He responded by turning his body toward her and gently pushing his tongue between her lips. JJ let out a moan;. she parted her lips a little to let him in and taste the sweetness of his mouth. She dropped her hands to his waist and started undoing his belt buckle. This, plus the proximity of her hands near his crotch startled him. He pulled away a bit.

"JJ, what are you doing?" He gasped.

"Undoing your pants" she answered, her voice husky. "Just go with it."

By this time she had the belt undone, the zipper unzipped and she was untucking the shirt. The power of speech temporarily eluded him. He looked at her busy hands undressing him and he set about undoing the buttons on her blouse. JJ wasn't as patient as him. She tried undoing his shirt, She gave a hard pull, sending the buttons spraying in several different directions. She pushed the shirt off his shoulders and threw it on the floor. He barely noticed his own state of undress; as he was transfixed by the sight of JJ taking off her own blouse. She reached her hands up underneath her skirt and pulled off a pair of white lace panties. He couldn't believe what he was seeing. JJ lay back on the couch and roughly pulled him down on top of her. This knocked him out of his trance, He covered her mouth with his, she began to squirm beneath him; sending little volts of electricity through his entire body. His hands began exploring her, he stopped kissing to breathe and then he began to suck on her neck and nibble on her earlobes and she moaned even louder when she felt his warm wet mouth on her breast. Her fingernails raked down the smooth skin of his back until she reached the waistband of his pants; hooking her thumbs underneath the material she tugged the pants and boxers down over his thighs and dug her fingernails into the cheeks of his small firm ass. She drew her knees up on either side of his hips. She wanted him to know she was ready for him. Panting heavily, he looked down into her beautiful blue eyes and searched her face.

"Are you sure." He whispered. He also briefly wondered about security cameras.

She nodded at him "Yes." She breathed.

She reached down to guide him; when her breath was taken away by his sudden thrust inside her. She gave a loud groan that was a mixture of both pleasure and pain. She wasn't used to his size. 'Another surprise for today.' She thought.

"You ok." He asked, his eyes glazed over with lust. She answered him by bringing his face down and deepening the kiss. He began to move slowly, touching and pressing against her in all the right places. She moved in rhythm with him, feeling a slow build up of passion.

JJ hadn't expected it to feel this way, She had expected him to be shy and awkward. His moves clumsly. She hadn't expected to feel such intense pleasure and pure wanton desire. He was breathing harder and his movements became more eratic. She wrapped her legs around his waist as she closed her eyes and met his thrusts. She heard him moan her name over and over. She tenderly stroked his back and whispered that it was ok, he could let go. Instead he moved back a little and reached his hands down underneath her bottom, shifting his own weight, he lifted her hips off the couch, changing the angle of his thrusts. JJ opened her eyes wide in shock at the intense sensation. She wondered where he had learned something like that. Soon she felt like she was all nerve endings and heat and sweat. She clung tightly to his body. She gave a strangled cry and bit down on his shoulder as her entire body convulsed with spasms. He, feeling her incredible pulsating warmth followed her over the edge a moment later.

The only sounds that could be heard in the conference room now was the breathing of the exhausted couple. He kissed her softly on the lips. She motioned to him she wanted to get up. They said nothing to one another as they dressed.

"What did I do?" she said, her voice full of pain

:JJ it's ok I think..."

"Stop. I'm sorry, this shouldn't have happened Oh what did I do?;this was such a mistake!" If tthe lights had been on she would have seen the hurt in his eyes. She turned to him,

"You must never tell anyone about this, never." She ordered.

" No of course not." He said, confused as to why?

"And we wont discuss it with each other, ever."

"Yes I understand." He said ; though he really didn't understand, but if this is what JJ wanted then he would comply.

"Thank you." She looked up into his face. She felt horrible. She couldn't believe what she had done to Will and she had very possibly ruined a friendship with someone she cared about. With one last look at his face she fled from the darkened offices. He stared after her, wondering what the hell had just happened.

Three weeks later her and Will were back together. She pushed the memory of what she had done to the very back of her mind. It was nothing more than an aberation, she loved Will and they were together again. Nothing else mattered.

Nature had other plans.

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JJ stared the the entire BAU office. She had to make a decision.

FIN