Title: I'll Always Be Right There
Author: AbayJ aka Ashley Marie
Rating: M
Disclaimer: I own nada, First Time belongs to the Lifehouse.
Genre: Drama/Angst/AU/Romance/Songfic
Fandom: Journey
Summery: Nothing could bring her back, at least that was she believed but that was before she read the headline.
Author's Note: The next chapter in this. This chapter is rated M! Journey lovin ahead, along with some shit hitting the fan!
Author's Note Two: I would like everyone to check out my homepage, I still have the poll going and it is kinda tied at the moment, so keep voting! Will keep it up for another week!
Author's Note Three: I would like to give a big thanks to AJ for editing this chapter! Means the world to me.

Part Five: First Time

We're both looking for something

We've been afraid to find

It's easier to be broken

It's easier to hide

As soon as I breathe his name, his lips were on mine and I thought I was right back to where I was this afternoon; in love with him. Then his lips were gone and suddenly I was cold as if a strong winter wind that Port Charles was known for had swiped into the room and tried to freeze me. My dazed and glazed eyes looked up to meet the man who had once again set my world on fire. "Jason?" I asked breathlessly.

"Inside, Carly owns the hotel after her and Jax's divorce and the maids like the gossip." His voice had a bit of humor in it and I couldn't help but nod with a smile. I walked backwards allowing him enough room to walk in and then watched as he closed the door. "It was hell being there without you."

His voice shocked me a bit. I had no idea he'd want me around Jake. The child I still wished was his and mine instead of Elizabeth's. "How is he? Marky is always at the hospital so I know how hard it can be." My teeth reached out and I pulled my swollen bottom lip between my teeth.

Thankfully the local clinic was not far from our penthouse and the doctor was always available to see Marky. Having a son who enjoyed risk taking had nearly caused a heart attack for her more than once, but she loved that her son had no fear, had no fear of trying new things. Just scared her shitless most of the time.

"Just a little bump on the head." He said glanced towards Marky's door. "He's asleep?"

I only nodded and took a deep breath. "I'm glad. I'm sure Elizabeth was happy to have you there."

"It's not like that Courtney. Not at all." I knew that. To everyone else, Jake was Lucky's son. Only a few knew that Jake was Jason's, it was safer that way. I was torn because part of me understood Elizabeth's need to protect his son but if I had a man like Jason, who would choose his child over petty differences, wouldn't I? If Marky had been Jason's, would I have fled? No. I would have had a reason to stay then.

"I'm sorry, Carly told me about the situation." he nodded and took a step closer to me.

"This reminds of me of how we began, hiding out like this."

I couldn't help but smile and nod because I felt the same way. It had been such a long time since we had done something like this, since I had been happy like this and it was all thanks to him. "I know, before everything got so messed up."

Looking at you, holding my breath,

For once in my life, I'm scared to death,

I'm taking a chance, letting you inside.

"We have sorta like a second chance," he took a step closer as he said the words and I slowly looked up at him and then his lips were on mine again and I knew he was right, we did have a second chance. A second chance neither of us believed we could ever have. At the end, we had been so torn apart by our pain and our lies, but now we were back in each other's arms.

The kiss took on a more passionate pace and I couldn't help but run my hands through his thick hair as his hands found my hips. Locking them to his so I could feel his swell of passion for me and I instantly became damp. He held this power over me like no man had before. Just one kiss and I was ready to go to bed, to make love. To know his body once again. No man had ever made me feel like that, before or after Jason.

"God, I need you." I whispered and he only moaned in response, reaching his hand down, he hooked my leg over his hip and pulled me up. Grinding me into him. "Oh...." I gasped.

"Bed, now, please." He whispered against my lips and I nodded. "I know the way." Jerking me up, so my legs wrapped around his waist and my arms around his neck, I balanced against him as he half carried me towards the bedroom. His lips finding mine as we topple to the bed. Our hips still locked together as we made love with our mouths. our hips making the same motions as our tongues were. "I wish I could feel how soft your skin is..."

"You can with your lips." I murmur against his lips feeling him groan against them with the suggestion.

Feeling alive all over again,

As deep as the sky, under my skin

Like being in love, she says

For the first time

Maybe I'm wrong,

But I'm feeling right where I belong

With you tonight

Max waited by the door dutifully, but he knew he couldn't stand like this much longer. Milo would be here in a few hours, but it felt like forever. Sighing, he took a breath and went to get a stool that was in the hall closet. Grabbing the stool, he turned around only to let out a yelp,"Mrs. C!"

"Max, hiya. Whatcha doin here? Diane?" she asked with a smile and the large man began to panic a bit. If she knew Jason was here, in a room, she'd want to know with who and he could never lie to Mrs. C. He may love Diane, but Mrs. C was his dream woman. He would give his left arm to be with her like Mr. C was.

"Uh, um, yeah." he said lamely and Carly's eyes only twinkled a bit more.

"Why do you need a stool then Max? From what I heard, you're uh quite limber as it is." he could tell she was barely holding back from giggling.

"Uh, no, not for anything like that...."

Before he could add anymore though or come up with a better excuse, she gave him a lethal smile. "Wanna know what I think it's for?" Max shook his head but Carly just smiled again. "I think it's because you're tired of standing guard at door 223 where Jason is. Margulita said she saw Mr. Morgan kissing a blond."

Like being in love

To feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you

Waiting to come to life

Waking me up to dreaming

Reality in your eyes

I jerked my sweater over my head as he shoved down his jeans without unsnapping them. I reached up to push his shirt up as my lips found his stomach. Slowly letting my mouth run down the smooth ripples before finding the V where his boxers hanged low. Running my tongue along the firm V, his own hands worked at my pants. If he had full feeling, it would have only taken a matter of seconds, but instead it took two minutes.

His hard manhood jerked against me as he saw that I was wearing just a brief black thong and I nipped at his hips. His moans and groans were like music to my ears. "I can't wait," he said on a groan and I just smiled falling back against the bed.

"Then don't." I said with a smirk and watched as he pulled off his t-shirt and pushed down his boxers. Letting my eyes see the raging desire he felt for me and I nearly reached the peak by just looking at him. He was by far the most gorgeous man I had ever laid eyes on. Strong and big, everywhere. He came forward reaching out to run his finger up my slit to test if I was ready or not. He smiled as he felt my wetness.

Looking at you,

Holding my breath,

For once in my life

I'm scared to death,

I'm taking a chance,

Letting you inside.

"All for you." I whispered and he smiled once more and pushed the thong to the side to allow his entrance and he began to slowly slide forward bracing himself on his elbows as he did.

"And this is all for you..." he whispered as his lips found mine and I moaned into his mouth as I found my way back home again.

I'm feeling alive all over again

As deep as the sky that's under my skin

Like being in love, she says, for the first time

Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right

"Whose the blond, Max? And don't tell me you don't know." Carly said to the bodyguard who looked like he'd seen a ghost. Carly wouldn't be interrogating the man if she had known who the woman was, but she didn't. Well she knew the name, Charity Mason, but she had no idea who that was. Jason did though, very well it seemed. She should be happy just knowing it wasn't one of the sluts that panted after Jason, IE Elizabeth, Sam, or Robin. But that wasn't enough for her. She had to know who it was.

"I can't tell you Mrs. C, Jason would never forgive me!"

"Well then how about this, go to the bathroom for your alibi, because I'm going to go see who is in there." Pulling out the slim card, she waved it in his face. "The master key."

"You can't do that!"

"I'm the owner and his best friend." Smirking at the bodyguard who now looked green, she turned on her heel and headed to the room. Jason should have known he couldn't keep something like this from her, especially in her own hotel.

Where I belong with you tonight

Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing

Into the unknown

Our pace was as old as time, keeping rhythm with each other until the only sounds were our breaths and the room smelled like our desire. "Oh Jason!" I moaned, my back arching against him as he shifted and began to hit a deeper spot within me.

"God!" he moaned in return, my wet heat clamping tighter around him until I felt myself reach the edge. My eyes closing tightly.

"I can't....I can't hold back...." I gasped out.

"Look at me, let me see you, let me watch as I take you." He said, his voice deep and husky and I could only give in. Blue met blue as I lost control. Spiraling down into the white abyss where only pleasure lied. I felt him loose control but didn't hear as I was to gone in my own moans and screams of pleasure.

We're lost in this

But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again

Opening the door, Carly looked around. "Hello?" She said in a low voice. "Management?" she added after a few minutes. When she got nothing, she walked further into the room.

"YES!" she heard and jumped. She knew that sound, it was Jason. In pleasure. Eyes going wide, she walked towards the door hearing muffling sounds and smiled. Jason was making love to some woman she didn't know. She knew every woman he made love with because he never took such a step without thinking about it first.

Going back to the front door, she shut it before sitting down on the couch. She would wait until they were done and then she would talk to Jason and probably the woman too. Whoever came out first. Pulling out a nail file, she began to file her nails as she waited.

As deep as the sky that's under my skin

Like being in love, she says, for the first time

Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right

Cuddled next to Jason, I felt as if I was in another world. It had been so long since we had done something this and it had felt so right. This was my home. By his side. Looking up at him, he looked down and smiled. "Wow." I whispered with a smirk.

"Wow," he said back and we both laughed.

"I need a drink and to check on Marky." I didn't want to leave his arms, but I knew I needed to check on Marky in case I screamed.

"I'll come with you then we can take a shower. Together if you want." the small blush that fanned his cheeks made me smile and knowing he wasn't planning on leaving made me feel relieved.

"I'd like that." Grabbing his shirt and a fresh thong, I put them on as he slid on his boxers. Grabbing my hand, he led us out of the bedroom and when he stopped suddenly, I ran into his back. Standing on my tiptoes, I looked over his shoulder seeing my former sister in law on the couch.

"Carly!" I said, surprised.

"Courtney!" she said, sounding just as shocked. "I should have known when Margulita said it was a blond!"

Where I belong with you tonight

Like being in love to feel for the first time