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Alice and Rosalie stayed pretty mad at me the next few days in school. Edward stayed very distant from me the entire rest of the week at school, and I didn't ride with the Cullens in the mornings anymore. I drove my truck now. It wasn't that they decided to abandon me, I just told Edward on Tuesday afternoon that I would drive myself from now on... He didn't even reply verbally. He just nodded. It broke my heart.

Edward still dominates all my thoughts, but something was just off about our relationship, that much was very obvious to the both of us. I don't know why everything is happening between the two of us this way, but it is. My heart still belongs to Edward, and I no longer have a hold on his... That's fine, I guess. I only wish I could rewind my life back to summertime when Edward and I were happy.

I longed to embrace Edward. I longed to talk to Edward. Hell, I longed to just be able to look at Edward and him gaze back at me. Any time we did lock eyes, his were always dead. There was no light in them; only sadness, regret, and betrayal.

That's what I am now to everyone I suppose... A traitor. Everyone was mad at me for the whole Jacob thing, and I was pretty mad at myself, too. But something about Jacob made me not want to cancel the date. He really is a nice guy, and what's one little date? Afterward I can just tell him we can just be friends. Beside, what was Edward's problem with Jacob anyway. I bet they don't even remember what the issue was. A fight in Kindergarten over who stole whose cookies? One was having a bad day and looked at the other wrong? Probably something immature and shallow like that. No big deal.

Of all my problems throughout the day, one class was the hardest. I could talk to everyone at lunch normally--if that's what you want to call it because it had only been two days after all--for the most part. I could deal with seeing the Volvo in the morning across the lot and see Edward scowling at the ground and Alice giving me a questioning look every morning. I could even deal with my jealousy with Lauren... But I could not deal with biology.

Wednesday was very hard.

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I walked into the biology room after a very awkward lunch with Emmett, Alice, Rosalie, and Jasper. No one really talked; everyone just sat around and ate until the bell rang and everyone left for class. I had taken my time in the hallway, and was one of the last ones in the room.

The first person I noticed was Jacob. He was smiling the smile that didn't touch his eyes, and I kind of grimaced back... I hadn't smiled at all yet today.

The second person I noticed was really the only person in the world who matters. Do I even need to say his name? Edward. He had his head on his desk, and he didn't look up when I sat down next to him. I just watched him while he laid his head on his half of the desk. I felt terrible. He must hate me.

I tapped him on the shoulder. I just needed to see his eyes. I needed to see his face.

He looked up at me with an expression I knew would haunt me at night whenever I thought about him. His eyes were completely vulnerable as he looked up. He looked a little scared that I would hurt him or something. I studied his face. His eyebrows were tugging upward in the middle, giving him an irresistible basset hound-like look. I whimpered a little. His eyes were red like he hadn't slept last night or he had been crying a little, possibly both. What have I done?!

"Edward..." I didn't know what to say. I reached out to his hand and tried to take it in mine, but he moved his arm away before I could grab it, and just laid his head back down.

"I can't, Bella." he whispered. "I can't talk to you right now..."

My heart felt ice cold. He just gave it back to me, but instead of just handing it to me, he threw it and it fell in a bucket of dry ice. My heart felt numb and dead. What have I done?

* * * * *

That was the last time Edward has spoken to me. Today is Saturday. I've been awake for about an hour now, but I can't get out of bed yet. Tears have been streaming relentlessly down my face before I even had the chance to open my eyes. It probably started during my dream.

My dream was beautiful and perfect in the beginning. Edward and I were in our meadow, just holding each other. The sun was in the sky high above us and it was shining for Edward and I. It was summertime again, and we were both carefree and in love. I didn't have to pretend in the dream, I could just love him and he could just love me.

The dream Edward was different from the real Edward though. His skin sparkled in the sunlight. Rainbows cast off his skin in beautiful rays of the light. He held me to his chest, and we didn't do anything but talk. I was so blissfully happy.

The ruining factor of my dream? Suddenly, Edward and I weren't alone anymore. We noticed it at the same time because a tall figure with tanned skin was standing above us. He had no face. Where his eyes, nose, and mouth should be was completely blank. Only the dark skin covered it like the rest of his body. He was obviously Native American though, from his skin tone and his hair.

The faceless man began striding toward Edward and I, and Edward stood up quickly, pulling me up behind him. I would stay with Edward all day, and he knew that. Or so I thought.

The man walked right past Edward and dragged me off with him, and at the corner of the meadow, he kicked me and beat me. I screamed for Edward to help, but Edward walked away.

"Edward!" I screamed. "Don't leave me! Don't leave me with this man! I don't know him! Help me!" The night was becoming blacker and blacker, or maybe it was the fact that this man was not showing me any mercy, I wonder if he even heard my pleas and cries for help or my thrashing body trying to collide with anything to get this man away from me for any period of time. Edward was at the edge of the meadow. "Edward!" I called again through the blood that was beginning to pool in my mouth.

Edward glanced back at me with the same pathetic look on his face as the one from biology. "I can't help you, Bella." One single tear ran down his face before he turned away once more and continued walking away.

I woke up screaming and five words rang in my ears and I tried to block them out of my ears with my hands, but they still echoed.

The sky outside my window was light grey, the only color it seemed that I would be seeing for a while. Today is Saturday. Today is the mysterious date with Jacob. I shuddered. I don't really want to go on a date with Jacob, I want to be with Edward. Why am I an idiot? I asked myself hoping some greater power would reply to my question. I sighed and walked over to my bathroom and took a nice warm shower, letting the hot streams soak all over my skin and calming my muscles from being stiff from the intensity of the dream.

I took a lot of time; lathering, rinsing, and repeating the process with my strawberry shampoo through my hair about five times. I washed my body three times, then shaved my legs twice. The look on Edward's face from my dream kept replaying in my head like a PowerPoint slide on repeat. I tried to literally shake my head violently a lot, but the image remained behind my closed eyelids.

I stepped out of the shower slowly and dried off my body before slipping into a new pair of underwear and a bra. I dried my hair like that, watching my reflection in the mirror with disgust. Maybe Jacob will be worth it? Maybe I am supposed to be with him instead of Edward. Edward was just a summer fling, right? It wasn't really like Edward had made it a point to even be my friend lately, so maybe this is fate trying to tell me to wake up from the summer romance, and just move on with my life.

The steam from my shower had caused my mirror to fog, and there was only a little steam left over on the very top of my mirror. EDWARD. I wrote the word with my finger very slowly so I could watch the letters make their shape. I drew a heart around his name.

I lost track of time, standing there in the bathroom clad in only my undergarments and staring at the steam on the mirror until it faded and I could faintly see the outline of his name. I gave you my heart. I love you so much, Edward. I want you to be happy, even if it means not being with me. I love you. I love you enough to stay away from you and be with Jacob. I can do this... For you. I breathed in deeply and stared at my face again in the mirror.

So plain. Nothing to captivate Edward for more than just a summer. Eyes that lack interest. What I wouldn't give to have lighter eyes. Any other color... Just not brown. Lauren has blue eyes. Maybe he likes blue eyes. I frowned at myself. So plain. I started looking down at the rest of my body. My breasts were small. Lauren didn't necessarily have large breasts, but she wore only push-up bras and low cut shirts so she could show off her chest. That might be it, too. Lauren is curvier than I am. I have about as many curves as a soda can.

What am I thinking? Edward loved me for the way I was. He didn't care about what color my eyes were or how curvy my body was or what cup size I wore. I'm being stupid. Again. Maybe Lauren is a smart person after all. I can't do anything to try to hurt Lauren again. If Edward wants her, I won't cut in between their relationship. I can show him we can be friends... Just. Friends.

I sighed and walked to my room. Charlie was already gone for the day, so I wasn't worried about him seeing me wearing almost zero clothes. I glanced at my phone and saw the light was flashing, indicating a text message.

My heart prayed it would be Edward. Edward was the one I wanted right now. Please be Edward. Please. I opened my phone. It was from Jacob. I scowled slightly and read it.

Pick you up in thirty!

The text was sent about ten minutes ago. Twenty minutes until Jacob arrives... It was only about 11:15.

I went through my closet and decided to wear an electric blue sun dress with a white cami underneath. I slipped on my favorite black gladiator sandals and strapped them on. I looked myself up and down and decided this was as good as it was going to get. A black vest in my closet caught my eye. Actually, I think that vest would look really cute, too. I slipped it on and left it unbuttoned so the front of the dress was visible. (outfit on profile!) I smiled at the outfit. It actually looked pretty good. I dabbed on a little makeup underneath my eyes in an attempt to rid them of the dark circles from my lack of sleep.

I pulled a comb through my already dry hair (the bathroom stare contest must have taken longer than I thought) and walked downstairs and grabbed an apple to munch on while I waited for Jacob.

Only a few minutes later, Jacob pulled into my driveway and came to my porch. He was wearing the smile that didn't reach his eyes. Great. I love a man with absolutely depthless eyes (in the sense that the depth goes on infinitely) which I could stare into for the rest of my life, but Jacob can't allow one little glance of any emotion into his. Complete opposites. Whatever... I'm doing this for Edward.

I opened the door and watched as his eyes actually did let in an emotion as his eyes raked over my body. Lust. His eyes went from my feet up to face and back down again. I noticed how his eyes lingered at my breasts for a few seconds more than necessary, and also where my dress met my thighs. He licked his lips nervously before taking my hand and pulling me to his car. He didn't open my door for me, like a part of me was expecting since I was so used to Edward... I refused to let myself think of him for the rest of the day. Today is to be a better friend with Jacob. Not Edward...

Jacob turned on the stereo and began to drive. There was no conversation the entire ride, but at about 12:00, we arrived at our final location.

I looked up a bit apprehensively at the sign while Jacob paid for our tickets. I was glad to see it was only twenty dollars total for the both of us. We were at a place called "Olympic Game Farm." We were at a zoo. Animals. Animals that smell bad. Great...

Jacob reached for my hand again and began pulling me along behind him. Our first stop was the bathroom.

"I really want to try to see all the animals without stopping, so..." He gestured to the bathroom. "Make it count, Bella." He winked at me.

I smiled a little at him and walked to the bathroom to try and force myself to pee. I walked out and washed my hands quickly before leaving to join Jacob.

"Okay! I love this zoo so much! Let's go! Let's go! Let's go!" He sounded like a little boy and he grabbed my hand and pulled me behind him again.

We started at the far right of the zoo and made our way around, looking at every animal and trying to see something random or interesting that was happening inside each cage.

First were the bird animals. Geese, ducks, and peacocks were the main animals. I giggled furiously when a duck and a peacock began chasing after a poor goose and causing it to trip over its oversized feet. Next, we watched a couple of llamas that were screaming at each other and then bucking their legs into the others face. We laughed as one of the llamas retreated behind a tree, then tried the element of surprise, but ended up only surprising itself by running into their food supply and completely knocking over the water container.

The white rhinos were huge! And even bigger were their massive piles of dung. I scrunched my nose when one of the rhinos turned its back on us and lifted its tail right in my face. Jacob was doubled over pointing at me and laughing. That was when he went to a souvenir shop to buy a disposable camera claiming he didn't want to "miss the priceless look on my face when an animal decides to take a dump right in my face." I rolled my eyes at that comment but laughed anyways at how much he was enjoying himself. His eyes actually had a little bit of life in them. Happiness.

The zebras were beautiful, as were the deer. The yaks were a little boring. All were sleeping except for one baby yak that was prancing around between the snoozing bodies. I smiled at how sweet the image was and got Jacob to take a picture of him.

The bears were really intense. A couple were fighting each other when we walked up, and Jacob of course snapped some shots of them. I hurried away from them as quickly as possible though, I wouldn't admit this to Jacob, but I was really scared.

There were a bunch of ostriches and emus next. We really enjoyed watching those because whenever Jacob made a loud noise, they would duck their heads into the dirt. I clapped for them because it was so humorous to watch. Jacob snapped a picture of me clapping with a huge smile on my face with the birds in the dirt in the background.

The elk were about as boring as the yaks were, and the final animals were bison. The bison were huge, but they reminded me of the wildebeest in Lion King that killed Mufasa. Jacob would not let me live down the fact that I was actually starting to tear up at that. I elbowed him in the stomach and kept walking.

When we were about to approach the exit, Jacob spotted a petting zoo. He grabbed my hand and yanked me over to the gate, and pulled me inside of the pen.

Jacob practically ran to where you could feed the goats and stood over there for a really long time and laughed loudly when the goats' lips would brush against the palm of hand and tickled him. I took a seat on a block of hay and watched Jacob. If he was having fun, that's all that mattered.

I was off in La-La Land up until I felt something brushing against my calves. I looked down and saw a very small lamb wobbling next to my leg. It was obvious that this little tyke was a newborn, and he seemed even smaller than the other lambs in the petting zoo.

"That little fella is Isaac. You want to feed him?" I looked up to see a very tan woman in khaki shorts and a green polo with the zoo's logo on it. I smiled and nodded. I picked up Isaac and held him close to my chest as the woman gave me a bottle to feed him with.

"My name is Emily." The woman smiled at me and sat next to me.

"Bella." I replied with a smile, not taking my eyes off of Isaac. "He is so adorable!"

Emily laughed. "Yeah, he really is. He's about two weeks old, and he's still really scrawny compared to all the other animals... But he seems to get the most affection out of all the animals in the zoo."

I watched as Isaac's eyes fluttered and then closed. I beamed.

"Hey, Emily?" I whispered. "Isaac fell asleep..."

Jacob came up then and asked if I was ready to go. I nodded and gave Isaac back over to Emily before waving at her and leaving with Jacob.

The drive home was quiet. I was pretty tired after the day at the zoo, but I was glad that Jacob seemed to have relaxed around me finally.

When he pulled up to my house and I was about to let myself out, he grabbed my wrist and looked into my eyes. I saw a brief flicker of emotion in there that looked a little bit hostile, but I pushed the thought away when he started talking to me very softly.

"Bella. I want you to be my girlfriend. Will you? I can make you happy and I can take care of you." His eyes were blank of all emotion. I thought back to this morning when I told myself I would leave Edward alone if it made him happy... Jacob was willing to help me with that, and maybe Jacob could really help me to get over Edward...

I nodded and Jacob smiled widely, his teeth glistening off of the setting sun but his eyes still lacked emotion. I sighed internally; I was hoping that maybe I could get some emotion out of him like I had earlier.

Jacob kissed my cheek and I got out of the car quickly. I didn't want to waste any time to regret the decision I had just made with Jacob. Accepting to be his girlfriend meant not being Edward's girlfriend. But Edward wants me to stay away from him. That much is obvious.

This is for Edward. This is for Edward. For Edward... I still love you, Edward.

Edward. I sat on the couch in the living room, unable to walk up the stairs to my room, and sat there to let the numb feeling completely take over my body.

Edward was going to move on without me. And here I sat, trying to make him happy... Trying to make Jacob happy, too. Everyone was happy... Everyone except me.

I felt a tear slide down my cheek involuntarily. I wiped it away and went back to being numb.

I caught sound of the ticking of the grandfather clock, marking each second I spent without Edward. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick.

Edward. Edward. Edward. Edward.

Don't forget me.

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