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A/N: First off, to all my reviewers thank you, and much love! Second off, I want to apologize that this chapter took so long, I got distracted by other fanfic ideas and I got a terrible case of writers block for this one so it kinda fell by the wayside… This chapter is an untold story of what happened to Inuyasha's mom, kind of the anniversary of her death if you will, also what happened to Inuyasha as a child, that got him to be, you know, how he is… I hope you enjoy it! Btw this is a really long chapter…I'm sorry I couldn't help it, it just happened that way, lol!

Chapter 4: Anniversary

Inuyasha watched as the sun began to rise, allowing the beams of light to warm him as he sat there. He sighed heavily, knowing that the others would be waking up soon and then Kagome would come looking for him.

To be honest he just wanted to be left alone today. Today was just one of those days that you didn't want anyone bothering you. Unfortunately for HIM, he knew of several people that would be bothering him a lot today.

Snapping out of his reverie, he heard a familiar voice calling from a slight distance. "Inuyasha" it called again, "where are you?" It was Kagome, she was looking for him. She always knew where to find him.

Kagome reached the old tree and looked up to find her favorite half-demon sitting in one of the tall branches, "Hey Inuyasha" she said cheerfully, obviously well rested, unlike him who had barely slept a wink, "Why'd you leave last night?"

He looked down at Kagome, "I left last night 'cause I still had stuff on my mind and I didn't feel like sleeping anymore" he said with a slight edge to his tone as he spoke.

"Oh" Kagome said mood falling slightly at his harsh words, "I see, you just had things to think about, that's why you came to your favorite tree, right?"

"Right," Inuyasha said tensely, "now if you don't mind, I still have things to think about that requires my attention"

"Anything you want to talk about?" she asked curiously.

"NO!" Inuyasha snapped, "Now please just leave me ALONE."

"FINE!" Kagome snapped back, "I hope that you enjoy solitude, because you're going to be getting a whole lot of it!"

"Fine! See if I care!" Inuyasha spat the works venomously at her.

Kagome's eyes began to well up from the power of his words, anger, frustration and sadness all showed on her face in that one second before she screamed, "SIT!!!"

Tumbling from the branch he was sitting on, Inuyasha made a crater in the ground from the force of her yell. He lifted his head to watch as Kagome ran back into the direction of the village. He knew that she was crying, as the wind picked up he could smell the salt and moisture in the air from her tears.

His own eyes began to mist over as he realized that he was the cause of her tears, "I'm sorry Kagome," he whispered to the empty air. He let his face fall back into the dirt, feeling miserable, he let the tears flow, not really caring if anyone heard him. He felt like he'd rather die right there in that very spot. When the tears subsided, he brushed himself off and leaped back onto the branch and let his previous thoughts take him over once more.

~Back in the village~

Kagome slowed her running; she came to a halt and looked back in the direction she had just run from, wiping the tears from her eyes and face, why is he being such a jerk today? She thought to herself angrily. She slowly walked through the village until she arrived at Kaede's hut, still miffed at Inuyasha for what he had said to her.

Kagome emerged through the doorway, Sango smiled at her as Kagome sat down next to her, "So, did you find Inuyasha?" she asked seeing through her best friend's attempt at a smile.

"Don't even mention that jerk!" Kagome said on the verge of yelling, "I can't believe him, who does he think he is, talking to me like that!"

Here we go again, Sango thought to herself as Kagome ranted pretty much to herself, I say the wrong thing and it sets her off; I haven't seen her this mad since her and Inuyasha last argument...

"Okay Kagome," Sango said stopping Kagome in the middle of her angry tirade to no one in particular, "I'm sorry that I even said anything, geez."

"Oh, it's okay Sango, it's not your fault," Kagome said feeling better after her rant, "Inuyasha is just being a real jerk today, he says that he wants to be 'alone' today."

"Hmmm," Sango said thinking it over, "I wonder why?"

"I hate to interrupt" Kaede spoke from behind them emerging through the back door, "did he not tell ye that today is the anniversary of his mother's death?"

"No he didn't" Kagome said turning around to look at the old priestess, feeling guilty now for what she was saying about him, "I had no idea, he didn't tell me anything about it."

The old priestess nodded as she saw the realization in her young protégé's eyes, "Now I see why he wanted to be alone," Kagome said, "he didn't want to show anyone that he was feeling sad, he didn't want to look vulnerable, show his emotions."

"Exactly" Kaede said in confirmation.

"What happened Kaede?" Kagome asked inquisitively, "to Inuyasha's mother, I mean. Do you know?"

"I do know, but I think that this is a story you need to hear from Inuyasha" Kaede said with a light smile.

"You're right Kaede, I'll ask him" Kagome said with a smile. She walked out of the hut in the direction of the forest. She knew that Inuyasha wouldn't have moved from his favorite tree.

~Back in the forest~

I should go apologize to her he thought to himself for the fifteenth time I shouldn't have yelled at her like that she didn't do anything to deserve that and I took my bad mood out on her… but what if she's still mad at me? It's worth a shot though, right?

Inuyasha leaped from the branch, landing lithely on his feet. He made his way toward the village when he saw Kagome on the outskirts of town heading in the direction he had just come from.

She ran the rest of the way to stand in front of him; they looked at each other and said at the same time, "I have something I want to tell you."

They laughed "you first" they said at the same time again.

Inuyasha gently put his finger to Kagome's lips and said "I'll go first."

He put his hand down, "I wanted to say that I'm sorry," he said remorsefully looking into her eyes "I should have never have yelled at you and treated you like I did, acted like such a jerk… can you ever forgive me?"

"Of course I forgive you," Kagome said lovingly "can you forgive me? Kaede told me about today and how it's the anniversary of your mother's..."

"Death…yeah… it is" Inuyasha said looking at the ground.

"I had no idea" Kagome said, "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because… I didn't want this to become your problem too," Inuyasha said still looking at the ground.

"Inuyasha please look at me" Kagome said putting her hand under his chin. He looked into her eyes, seeing nothing but love in her eyes.

"Grief is not meant to be dealt with alone, I'm here for you, if you need some one to talk to" Kagome said.

"Thank you Kagome" Inuyasha said pulling her into an embrace and kissing the top of her head. He rested his head against hers and smiled a little.

"You still really miss your mom don't you?" Kagome asked still in Inuyasha's embrace.

"Yeah… I do… she was the only one when I was a child who didn't treat me like dirt," he said sadly ears lowering " on the day that she died, because she was no longer there to protect me, I was run out of the village that I called my home."

"What about Sesshomaru?" Kagome asked curiously. The two of them walked back to the tree hand in hand.

"What about him?" Inuyasha asked bitterly, "he hated me from the beginning, after our father died; he became the ruler of the Western Lands and wanted nothing to do with me or my mother."

"Oh Inuyasha, I'm sorry… I didn't know" Kagome said.

"It's alright" he said "you didn't know that's why I'm telling you."

"So what happened after Sesshomaru became the ruler of the Western Lands?" Kagome asked as the two of them sat down on the grass underneath the tree.

"Well" Inuyasha said "he came to my mother one night and told her that she and I weren't welcome in the western lands anymore. My mother questioned him and he struck her across the face. After she got up off the floor, my mother asked him where she and I were supposed to live and Sesshomaru said he didn't know and he didn't care. "

"Inuyasha that's awful" Kagome said putting a hand on his shoulder.

"Now do you see why I hate him so much?" Inuyasha asked. Kagome nodded and Inuyasha went back to the story.

"All I really remember was my mother coming into my room when I was still sleeping and waking me up. I remember waking up and looking at her, her expression was so sad; the light in her eyes wasn't there. She wiped away the tears from her eyes and put on a smile for me. She hugged me and I asked her why she was crying, she told me not to worry about it as she embraced me. She whispered in my ear that she loved me and that I was her little prince and that I always would be.

Then she started to cry again, and I asked her again, 'Mama, why are you crying?'

She said, 'don't worry my darling, mama will be just fine.' Then she let go of me and looked at me with a smile and I backed up a little and bent down to my level and said, 'now Inuyasha, I need you to gather your things.'

I had a questioning look on my face, but I did what I was told. I gathered some of my favorite toys while my mother gathered my clothes and a blanket that I had had since I was a baby. She packed them in a straw basket and closed the lid and one of the servants took the basket out of the room.

Curious about what was happening, I asked her "mama, what's going on?"

She smiled and then said to me, "we're going away for a while, now mama needs to pack her things.'"

Kagome looked at Inuyasha with concern in her eyes, "So, you had no idea what was going on?"

"Not a clue," Inuyasha said shaking his head.

"So where did you guys end up living?" Kagome asked.

"After we left the castle, we moved into a village not too far away. Because she had been born a noble, we still maintained a luxurious life-style. They all loved my mother, from the looks I got from the village adults they hated me; I was nothing. Whenever I would find someone to play with, their mom or dad would pull them away telling them to stay away from me. I couldn't understand why everyone hated me so much. There would be times when I would ask to play, the kids that were bigger than me would call me half-breed and push me down to the ground and beat me up. I was always taught to never get in fights, so I never fought back, even though I now know that I could have easily broken their noses. I would usually come home with bruises and cuts, most likely in tears. My mother would pick me up and take me into her arms and just hold me tightly, whisper loving things into my ears until I stopped crying. I asked her what a half-breed was and she began to cry… she knew how tough my life was going to be."

"Oh Inuyasha, you really had it rough, that's so… sad" Kagome said.

"yeah but that's just the way that life was for me," Inuyasha said with a shrug, "Eventually I got sick and tired of them treating me like dirt, one day I was looking for something to do and I was passing by a group of older kids, and the oldest kid walked up to me and said, 'what do you want, you stupid half-breed?' he tried to knock me over.

Before he could even touch me, I grabbed his wrist and squeezed it telling him to never call me that again and I told him that next time I would break his wrist and then I let go. He staggered away from me with a look shock, surprise and fear all in his eyes and from then on they left me alone."

"So you ended up scaring those boys into leaving you alone?" Kagome asked curiously.

"Yeah" Inuyasha said, "and I thought that everything was going to be fine after that… then my mother got sick." Tears began to well up in his eyes, hands balled into fisted and his whole body tensed up and he started trembling. Kagome tried to rest her hand on Inuyasha's shoulder, but he caught her hand and said coolly, "Kagome, I appreciate that you're trying to make me feel better, but I really don't want to be touched right now." He wiped his eyes with his sleeve.

"Sorry Inuyasha," Kagome said looking at her feet, tears beginning to drop on the dirt ground.

"Kagome please don't cry," he said turning around to face Kagome, tears welled up in her eyes and streaking her face. He lifted her chin with his finger so he could look into her eyes, "it's alright, please don't feel bad Kagome… you crying… it rips me apart to see you upset" he pulled her close, embracing her, he could smell the salt in her tears as he held her close. Tears began to well up in his own eyes, he laughed lightly, wiping the tears from his eyes, "now you've got me crying."

"I'm s-sorry Inu-ya-yasha" Kagome said in a broken sentence. Her whole body was trembling and her knees suddenly gave out on her, but Inuyasha grabbed the top of her shoulders before she could even fall.

He looked down her and put his face close to hers, so that she would look into his eyes, "look at me, he said softly "none of this is your fault."

Kagome looked at him, caught in his amber gaze. Kagome wiped the tears from her eyes, and Inuyasha still held her arms as Kagome straightened her legs.

Inuyasha let go of Kagome's shoulders, and picked her up as if she were a child, and cradled her in his arms, stroking her hair. He smiled to himself and said looking down at Kagome, "This is the way that my mother used to comfort me when I was little. If I ever felt sad or was upset she would hold me like this."

"Thank you Inuyasha," Kagome said with a smile, "I feel much better now."

"Well I'm glad that I could help" Inuyasha said putting Kagome down to her feet gently.

"I know this is probably hard for you, I just want to know… how your mother died." Kagome asked cautiously.

Inuyasha looked at the ground and said "it just started out as a little cough; she didn't call the doctor because she thought that it would go away. Then one night, she came down with a fever and one of the servants called for a doctor. The doctor arrived a little bit later and gave her a medicine that would help, and it did… for a little while. She took the medicine and within a few hours her fever went down, but she still had the cough.

Just when we started thinking that she was getting better, her fever came back. One of my mother's servants came into my room and told me that my mother wanted to see me. So I went into her room and she was laying there in bed with a cool washcloth on her forehead. Her face was pale covered in sweat, her breathing labored and her cough had gotten even worse. She smiled at me, as I knelt by her bed; she had a slightly pained expression on her face. She looked at me with her deep brown eyes and took my hand. Her hands were hot from the fever, but her grip was gentle and loving.

'I need you to listen to me dear one,' she spoke a little louder than a whisper and I nodded intently and she continued 'mama is not doing too well right now, so my little prince, I want you to know… that I love you.'

I told her that I loved her too and asked her what was happening and she stroked my hair and pet my ears and said, 'mama's sick right now, but I'll get better soon, I promise.'

Then she handed me a bundle of red wrapped in string and she told me to open it. I asked her what it was and she told me, 'it's the robe of the fire rat; it's stronger than any suit of armor, so it will keep you safe from harm.

She grabbed hold of my hand, smiled weakly and said softly, 'I love you so much Inuyasha… my little prince' then her eyes closed, her grip loosened on my hand and dropped in my lap.

I grabbed her lifeless hand and cried, 'mama… mama! Wake up… please… wake up.' It was then that I realized that she wasn't going to wake up, it was too late… she was gone.

I lay my head on my mother's chest and wept until I couldn't cry anymore. I lay there for I don't even know how long, numb. I wanted to cry, but my eyes refused to make anymore tears.

A few days after my mother's death, a rumor floated around the village that I had killed her. So that night, they came to the house and broke the windows with rocks; they broke down the door and ransacked the house, killing any servants that got in their way. They finally found me in my room, huddled in a corner, wrapped in the robe that my mother gave me. The village men came into the room with swords, spears and pitchforks. They were screaming things at me like, 'we know that you killed her half-breed!' and did you like the taste of her blood?'

I kept telling them that I didn't kill her, but they only got closer to me with their weapons, still hurling insults as I was backed into a corner. I got so angry at them that I started seeing red and that's the last thing that I remember. I don't really know what happened, I guess my demon blood took over and I killed most, if not all, of those men that were accusing me. When I finally woke up the smell of human blood was everywhere. I was terrified, so I packed the robe that my mother gave me and some food and looked for someplace to hide. The villagers spotted me and chased me out of the village. That was how I lived, being chased from village to village in hopes of finding a home. I was constantly ridiculed because I was half-demon, I didn't fit in anywhere… not human… not demon… I was nothing."

Kagome looked over at Inuyasha, who was staring at the ground, he collapsed to his knees, entire body shaking as he began to cry. Kagome sat on her knees and wrapped her arms around him.

"Thank you, Kagome" Inuyasha said through waves of sorrow.

"You're welcome Inuyasha, it's going to be okay" Kagome said holding him tightly.

"All these years of burying my emotions really built up until it finally just burst," Inuyasha said.

"It's okay to let your sadness out Inuyasha" Kagome said.

"I used to think that emotion was a sign of weakness, but now I know that it's ok to let your feelings out," Inuyasha said wiping the tears from his eyes, "thank you Kagome, I'm glad that I could tell you about my mother, it helps a lot."

Kagome smiled warmly and said getting to her feet, "well I'm glad that I could help."

Inuyasha got to his feet and smiled, as they walked back to the village, I'm glad that I have someone that I can finally talk to. I'm glad that I'm not alone… not anymore.

A/N: So what did you think? I hope that the story of his mother sounded believable and made sense. I also wanted to say I'm so sorry that this chapter took so long to post… I hope that you guys haven't given up on me  Well I really hope that you enjoyed this chapter! Please review… any questions you may have… concerns… constructive criticism. Thanks very much

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