A/N: So it seems there is quite a number of Draco Hermione fans out there since the last installment of the visual form of Harry Potter came out into theaters. Apparently since Tom Felton's sudden and extreme burst of sexiness since the last movie and Emma Watson is still adorable they have suddenly seen the light….(some of them) and have joined the club and support the pairing. All I have to say is welcome aboard and Dramione pins, stickers, and pictures can be found and bought at the end of every chapter for a mere 2 knuts. ^_^
As for the long wait, I'll be honest with you all I hit a wall of writers block. Due to my muse going on vacation to the lovely island of Procrastination and Working35hoursaweek. Yes I know don't you all wish you were there ? . I didn't think so either. Well she's back now and I'm being hit over the head with a bag of sugar quills for being distracted by Fuffy (Faith&Buffy) stories and finally getting my collector set of seasons 1-7 of BtVs. Anyhow…on to Kill Me or Kiss Me.
The song(s) for this chapter:
1)Tracy Bonham "Whether you fall"
2)Keri Hilson "Energy"
Disclaimer: I obviously don't own Harry Potter or anything pertaining to it. It all belongs to JK Rowling and Warner Brothers.
Previously in Kill me or Kiss me:
His stormy grey eyes met hers and she couldn't help the shiver that went down her back as he slowly smiled at her, it was a smile that could only be described as the way a hungry wolf would look at a lamb before he pounced and devoured it whole. Breaking the gaze a few seconds afterwards she fought the blush that crept into her cheeks and tucked her hair behind her ear. The only thing that she could think of was that even if he was up to no good, she couldn't help the feeling that if she wasn't going to escape her feelings for him she might as well throw caution to the wind and enjoy the ride.
It was cold and her enchanted hot butterbeer was doing nothing to keep her warm as she sat next to Luna in the stands watching the first Quidditch game of the season before winter break. It was Gryffindor vs. Slytherin and at the moment the score was tied 75 all. So far she had to admit Slytherin was playing fair compared to past games with Gryffindor being their arch enemies in not only Quidditch but in general. She was sporting her Gryffindor red with pride but if one looked closely they would also see another color gracing her petite form; gracing her ear lobes was a pair of emerald green studs her mother had given her for her return back to school gift and she hadn't worn them until seeing them in her jewelry box that morning. A small grin had graced her lips as she heard his name in the back of her mind the minute she touched them.
They seemed to scream for everyone's attention as she wore them, making her slightly self-conscious as to who could actually see them behind her chocolate brown hair. The earrings were slightly heavier than she was used to simply because they were real emeralds even small as they were; about a centimeter and a half in diameter they sparkled in the winter sun beautifully. It had been about two weeks since her encounter with Draco and to say it hadn't affected her would have been a lie. She had done everything in her power to avoid him and yet it seemed the most she was able to do was to simply stay in places she would never be alone in. Places like the Library, dining hall, and the Perfects Lounge between last classes of the day and dinner time.
The sound of Gryffindor's yelling their disapproval of something that had happened drew Hermione back into real time and had her asking Luna what happened. "Crabbe sent a bludger at one of the new players on our team and sent him off his broom. Thank god they were only fifteen feet or so off the ground, and I think the Neebles softened his blow. They seem to be keeping an eye on Gryffindor lately." Looking down at the floor of the Quidditch Pitch she watched as someone was carried off the Pitch and the players suddenly begin playing again. Not having leaned back from the edge of the railing Hermione was sent back with a slight scream when a flash of green zoomed past her face nearly hitting her and then was up in the air a moment later followed by laughter from the Slytherins around them. Pushing her hair from her face and being helped up by Luna, Hermione looked around for the culprit. High up in the sky she made out the form of Goyle rejoining Crabbe giving him a high five as they both looked down at her and waved mockingly.
Scowling at their actions she sat back down next to Luna and was happy when Madam Hooch started the game again. It was a blur of Red and Green and it vaguely reminded Hermione of Christmas causing her to smile as she watched Blaise zooming full speed at Ron with the quaffle ready to be thrown, standing up with Luna to watch the next play two figures zoomed past them diving head first towards the pitch floor. Not sure which to follow it became a fury of whip lash as the fight between Draco and Harry in pursuit of the snitch and Blaise charging Ron with the quaffle took place. Part of her wanted Draco to catch the snitch and for Blaise to score giving Slytherin the win, but the Gryffindor inside of her roared to life as she watched the quaffle sore at Ron as her attention was ripped from Draco and Harry. It was blur of red and she wasn't sure what she had seen was real until the screams of the crowd met her ears, Ronald had knocked the quaffle not only away from the goal but had sent it with such speed and power across the field that it scored another point with the help of Katie Bell at the same time Harry caught the snitch. The stands were in an up roar with the cheers of Go Go Gryffindor and the fury of the students waving their red and gold fags. Luna turned to Hermione and hugged her as both girls cheered and rejoiced along with the crowd in the first Quidditch victory for Gryffindor house of the season.
After they had left the Pitch and had made their way back to Gryffindor Common Room it was obvious that not only was a party being held but everyone was congratulating not only Harry for catching the snitch but Ron for making an amazing gold even if it was assisted by Katie. Standing and laughing with Ginny & Luna enjoying the warm and pleasant atmosphere Hermione was making her way over to Ron to give him a congratulatory hug and kiss with Ginny's urgings when she stopped in her tracks. In front of her standing on one of the common room side tables was Ron locked in a passionate kiss with Lavender Brown, oblivious to the fact that not only was he kissing her back but his girlfriend was in the room and standing right in front of him. Every fiber in her body screamed in fury, screamed in pain, and yet the one thing she felt more than anything was guilt. No more than two weeks before she had been in the same position, admittedly she hadn't kissed Draco or even kissed back but it had happened. Immediately the sound of her name reached her ears and soon all she wanted to do was turn around and walk from the room with some dignity.
Two people tried to stop her exit as she ignored the whoops and hollering at the kiss that was the object of everyone's attention at the moment. Harry reached her first and touched her shoulder to stop her as Ginny stepped in front of her instantly apologizing to her for her brothers daft and stupid mistake of not only publicly doing this but not even realizing what he had done or would until someone made him see. Shaking her head she shrugged out of their holds refusing to break down in front of anyone in that room especially Ron. "He made his choice…publically, and in turn he's made mine for me." Hermione said as she walked away from Ginny through the tightly packed bodies, out of the room and into the slightly cold corridor.
To say Ginny wasn't mad would have been wrong, to say she was angry would have been taking it lightly, but to say she was anything less than downright homicidal would have been right on point as she made her way through the crowd with Harry in toe towards her older brother. Tapping him on the shoulder she waited for him to fully face her before she reared back and punched him square in the face, and then went to hit him again but was held back by Harry and Fred with George glaring down at Ron. "You stupid, pig headed idiotic, waste of space and energy. Do you have any idea what you just did?"Ginny yelled at him as the common room got quite. "Do you have any concern for anyone but yourself and your stupid Quidditch?" She said as she fought against Harry and Fred's hold. "And you….ohhh….you…you trollop cant you go find someone who doesn't already have a girlfriend? Or are you just that pathetic that no one else wants you?"She fired at Lavender as she stopped trying to get to Ron. She hated what her brother had done to Hermione but what she hated even more was he wasn't able to control himself now that Hermione wasn't the only one paying him attention. "You don't deserve her, and she's too good for you, but when you finally realize what you've lost its going to be too late." Throwing the boys hands off of her she turned and walked away from the group and out of the common room and up into the girl's dormitories not having seen where Hermione had walked off to. Fred and George both turned and fought the urge to hex Ron as he mumbled something along the lines of "What the bloody hell's got her all wacked out."
The corridors were quiet and thankfully empty as she walked along unsure as to where she was going but understanding the need to simply be away from the common room. Too many things were going through her mind, to many things tearing at her resolve to not cry because of him and what had happened. Her actions had simply been thoughts not acted upon, yet why did her mind scream hypocrite at her. Did the fact that she hadn't put a stop to Draco and his advances make her guilty along with Ron, or did she want to feel guilty to having enjoyed his attentions even if they hadn't come from her boyfriend. She was so used to making excuses for Ron that she wasn't sure of what she wanted anymore, wasn't sure if for so long she had simply made herself think she was happy to keep everyone else happy.
That's what she was, she was the glue that kept them safe, kept them happy, and most of all made everything easier and less work for them. She wondered what she had become to Ron; a means to making things easier without having to expect much in return. It had always been expected for her to help them with their studies, help figure out what shape of the boogey man Voldemort and his followers were coming after them in this time, and never say anything about it because that was her role in the trio. But not anymore, she refused to be anything less than what she was and she was Hermione Granger one third of the Golden Trio and entirely her own person from now on.
Her footsteps were quiet as she all but ran down the halls the need to walk, move, do anything was pushing her along blindly and when she finally couldn't run anymore she sat down at the bottom up one of the smaller staircases. Tears streamed down her face and despite her resolve to not let him make her cry it was inevitable. She wasn't sure how long she had sat there or how long she had cried when finally it seemed she didn't have any more tears left in her and she simply sat there debating on going back to the common room and giving Ron a piece of her mind or to simply just let it be. The sound of fast approaching footsteps caused her to look up and she couldn't help but smile as two people rounded the corner and came down the staircase she was sitting on and sat on both sides of her. Ginny, and Harry with his cloak and map in hand smiled at her and simply sat there waiting for her to talk if she wanted to. Shaking her head she looked at both of them and sighed with a small smile on her face. "Can't a girl sulk in peace anymore?" She asked as she conjured a tissue and wiped her nose.
"Not when your best friends with the likes of us you can't, plus after Ginny punched Ron in the face I got nauseous watching Brown moping around and hearing Ron complaining about his nose might being broken." Harry said with a small smile as he nudged her softly. Looking over at Ginny with shock evident on her face she wasn't prepared for the fresh onslaught of tears that hit her and it was made even worse when Ginny grabbed her and hugged her letting her cry on her. "Whyareyouguyssogoodtome?"She said mumbled against Ginny's shoulder. Looking at Harry, Ginny gave him a confused look as to what she had said and Harry simply smiled and shook his head. "She asked why we were such good friends. And the answer to that is cause…well I'm not sure why really because you are a bit strange but nonetheless we care about you like family and I assume that's why. Cause with family we have to love the strange ones no matter what."
Looking up she smiled at her friends and wiped her eyes as she leaned into the group hug that she noticed they had put her in. Laughing softly she shook her head and just let it happen. "You realize how corny you guys are being right now right? Cause I mean I feel like it's a Saturday day morning family special with this hug right now." Hearing or rather feeling Harry laughing she smiled and shook her head until Ginny's words sent them both laughing. "Is that like a potion or something? Saturday morning special?"
It had started as a rumor, a simple flutter along the upperclassmen's gossip chain; apparently Hogwarts Golden Trio was no longer a trio. One rumor was Harry, Ginny and Hermione had been caught have a much less platonic study session and Ron had walked in on them. That one was one of the funnier ones Draco had heard, the others were slightly more convincing but false as he soon found out. The defeat against Gryffindor was disappointing but Draco wasn't upset completely it had been a test run to see their strategy and to try and figure out their weak points since sitting in on a practice had been banned after a Hufflepuff mysteriously fallen off their broom during one practice. His walk to potions was one that was occupied with thoughts on Potters flying style and if it could be used against him in future matches. Thinking of Potter his mind seemingly of its own free will traveled to the cute brunette that seemed to never be more than a thought away in his mind. He hadn't gotten a chance to simply talk to her alone since he had kissed her and he was starting to think he would never get the chance unless he kidnapped her. Sure it was a very good and Slytherin plan but he didn't think Professor McGonagall would agree in his good intentions of simply talking to her once he was found out. He wasn't sure why he had kissed her that day but it just seemed to be the right thing to do at that moment.
She was so frustrating and so maddening that all he wanted to do sometimes was grab her and shake her hoping to get something in response from her besides witty comebacks and insults. He knew there was something deep inside of her just fighting to get out and he wanted to be the one to help her even if it was his fault she suddenly exploded. Whenever he heard a whisper of her name he found himself listening to anything that would hint to making her more understandable yet all he got was the usual bullshit. She's always right, she always raises her hand, and does she even like the guys who happen to be watching her now days. But most recently it was she looks so sad, or I wonder if she even cares that he did that to her, she always did seem cold to the opposite sex. Maybe that's why he cheated on her. Shaking his head Draco sighed so the prat finally got caught, he had expected it to happen a lot sooner but he would have given the git props if it hadn't been Hermione he had cheated on. All he seemed to want to do was beat the shit out of him and make him pay for hurting her. Shaking his head Draco cleared those thoughts as he walked through the library in between classes, the sound of muffled voices and then the rough voice of a guy's voice raised and slightly angry met his ears. "Why can't you bloody listen to me Herms, it was only a kiss nothing to get your knickers in a bunch. If I wanted her I'd be off snogging her right now and not standing here with you trying to get you to just kiss and forgive me." Ron said as Draco kept his distance and watched from the darkened stacks near the couple.
"Seems kissing got you in trouble the last time Ronald…..thought you would have learned that by now. I didn't know you were that daft."Hermione said glaring up at him.
"Why are you being such a bloody…..pain in my arse Hermes. I'm trying to apologize and all I'm getting in return is grief."
"Because you're being an asshole Ronald, and what you did was wrong, and nothing with you is ever that simple…even if you are." Hermione mumbled the last bit and then winced when Ron's hand slammed into the stone wall beside her head. Glaring up at him she kept her ground and didn't back down when he leaned in close to her and began whispering harshly to her.
"You maybe my girl and my best friend but keep insulting my intelligence and you'll regret it." Ron said all but seething at her.
"What are you gonna do Ron…hit me? I dare you to touch me, I'd have you on your ass before you know what hit you and I wouldn't even have to say a word. And I'm no longer your girl; you made that one official two nights ago." She responded as she stood up taller challenging him. Draco wasn't sure Ron would stoop as low as to hit a girl but Draco didn't want to find out, knowing Hermione could and would take care of herself he settled for causing a distraction if she needed it. Ron was about to respond when he heard a few books falling to the floor in the row behind them, stepping back from Hermione Ron looked around and then walked away after glaring at her one last time. Watching her take a deep breath and then let it out slowly she sank down into her seat and placed her head in her hand and simply sat at the table she had been working at earlier.
Stepping out of the darkened stack Draco made his way over to her slowly unsure how to act so he went for the most comfortable. "Trouble in paradise?" He asked and instantly regretted it when she looked up and tear stained eyes met his. Anger, rage, and most of all the urge to protect her swelled up inside of him. He knew she was strong but he had never seen her cry over a boy or anyone before, but it seemed his mouth wasn't getting the signal to stop despite how his mind screamed for him to shut up. "What the honey moon period over? So soon, I thought it would have at least lasted another week or so." He said as he walked further it to the study alcove of the Library.
"Is that all you know how to do? Make people believe your one thing and then come back and contradict everything you did to try and change their minds? Cause honestly I'm done with trying to guess who's gonna shed the sheep's skin and become the wolf again." She said as she looked at him with teary eyes. "I understand if the only reason you kissed me was just to mock me with it later but can you at least give me a few minutes before you resume torturing me again." Closing her eyes she turned away from him and ran her fingers over her forehead as if wiping away the head ache that was beginning to form behind her eyes. Walking closer to the table she was seated at he sat down and leaned back seemingly uninterested as he watched her take deep breaths as if trying to calm down.
"Don't cry, don't let him win. He's not worth your tears, and if you cry your showing the hold he has on you." Draco said as he crossed his arms over his chest. The movement was quick as she looked up at him.
"Fuck you Draco. Fuck you and your attitude; fuck your sudden interest in me. Fuck you and your devious plans and whatever game you're playing with me and my emotions and thinking you know anything about me, but most of all fuck you." She said as she stood fuming and wanting to punch him with everything she had. Standing in one quick and swift fluid movement he grabbed her and kissed her with everything he had. It wasn't meant to be soft and gentle; it was supposed to show her his passion where she was concerned, to control and dominate her and make her submit for just a moment if possible. Feeling her kissing back after a few seconds he deepened the kiss and tangled his fingers into her hair and tilted her head back slightly as he pressed his body closer to hers. His hands roamed over her curves through her clothes as their embrace continued and soon they were panting and gasping for air. "Not tonight love" He whispered against her lips. "If I fucked you, you'd be screaming. And since were in a library…"He said trailing off as he kissed her again silencing any response she may have had.
The kissing continued for a few more minutes until the burning in his chest forced him to break it and move back slightly from her yet still keeping a close distance. Looking into her eyes he wondered what she was thinking and soon it became apparent when her hand suddenly flew up to smack him. Grabbing her wrist he stopped it inches away from his cheek and scowled. "Why must your first reaction always be violence?" He asked as she struggled to wrench her hand out of his grasp.
"Why must you always assume I want you to kiss me?" She responded as she finally gave up trying.
"Because you kissed back, and that's the universal sign you wanted me too. I knew you had to be daft in something Granger but real—" His response was cut short as she stomped on his foot causing him to not only let go of her hand but take a few steps away from her. After a few moments and a few mumbles curses he looked up at her as she stood there arms crossed and a scowl planted on her face. "Again….Violence….is it necessary?" He said massaging his foot through his shoe.
"No its only necessary when you insult my intelligence, I'm not daft Malfoy and I'd appreciate it if you didn't insult my intelligence even more by assuming that I'm going to fall for the little game that you're playing."
"I'm not playing a game Granger."He said as he watched her huff at him "Just because you're still upset about Weasel and you maybe still having feelings for that wanker don't take it out on me." He said feeling himself getting annoyed.
"I don't have feelings for Ronald." She responded and when he quirked his eyebrow at her giving her his bullshit look she continued. "I've always to be something I wasn't; always tried to be the perfect girlfriend for him. Do everything he wanted me to, laugh at his jokes and ignore his disregard for normal intelligent conversation. But it was never enough for him……and for a few seconds before I still felt like trying to be something he wanted me to be and forgive him and let him pretend everything was alright. I don't have feelings for Ronald Weasley anymore but one thing I do know is what I feel for you is scaring me more than anything I've ever felt before in my life."
A/N: Ok so first I want to say think you to everyone you reviewed, Favorites, and story alerted. It means so much to me and I'm thankful!! =) Also I'm looking for a Beta so if anyone is interested in beta-ing for me let me know in a PM and we get things settled. On that note I just want to remind everyone I'm writing this and going to University, and working so that's why things are a little slow. I'm trying to update as fast as I can without having the chapter be shitty so bare with me.
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