How long has it been since I last awoke, I honestly can't say. I don't care in the least so it wasn't much of a loss.

"What's your name, child" the voice echoed in the corner of my mind. The voice seemed familiar but familiarity is something I feel a lot now these days.

I thought about it for a moment. "What's yours?" was the only thing I could think of at the moment. I wasn't sure to give her my name or not. I didn't really have a motive to not give it to her because its hard to hide something you don't know but that's besides the point.

After a long pause the voice finally spoke again. This time she spoke clearer and more relaxed. "–such a curious little being, I see. I am called Marius in this form. I speak to you as a Silver Blood."

What do you mean in this form and what are Silver Bloods?

Silver Bloods. The word rung in my ear echoed in my mind and tore at my skull as if needles were embedded in it. I don't know what it is, but I've heard of something else like it I think.

"I have two forms. You've spoken to me before but under my other name. Suaro Ketsuki. When I fuse with my other form I become one with them and create that woman. We share memories and thoughts alike so long as we are one."

"Makes sense" I mutter out loud to myself.

"Silver bloods however is a different story. Perhaps another day we'll speak of this."

"Wait."

The nurse turned and looked at me. Great, it's this woman again. This nurse in particular, tended to show up when I had accidently said something out loud to Marius and she looked at me as if she thought I were insane. Of course she did though. I was dead, I woke up breathing, I had no memories, no parents or relatives to claim me and yet I still spoke to myself as if I had a best friend. What did I expect congratulations on proving I'm insane? Perhaps, it could be something I should look into.

Insanity awards, it has a nice ring to it.

"What is it?" she asked in that damned angelic voice, but it wasn't that much of an angel if it still had the tune of death upon it.

"Fine, I'm insane. Are you happy? I was talking with a woman in my mind."

She almost dropped the tray.

Almost.

"I was in a coma state for 3 months; I have no memories or friends and trauma. What did you except alright? She's my alter ego, relax. I'm aware of my mental condition. Please just leave me alone alright. It doesn't matter anyways, as soon as I'm healed to your standards and I'm discharged, you won't ever remember my being here. For once go against your job and let me be as I am."

She smiled as if that would answer everything and left.

"I do wonder about you, you know."

It Wasn't Marius. It was a man. But it was the reply that frightened me.

"Do you think I can become human?"

The answer…was by me.

My sight flickered colours, I reached for something; anything would do. My head burned to the intensity of screaming in pain but my voice did not come. No sound escaped my lips as I tried to warn someone. I grabbed the table but my sight had left me and my body tumbled over. I bashed my head off the table, a sure promise I would not wake for several hours.

I was losing blood. I was dying and then I woke up screaming.

There was a black liquid on my hands and the table. I instinctively rubbed it on my dress but it didn't even smudge. My eyes stung and there was no sound.

"Do you ever think I'll be human?"

A chuckled rang in my mind as if a serial killer stood behind me.

"It doesn't matter what you do, I will always make sure you're safe. No matter what I have to do. "

I was in tears when the nurses and doctors came, my hands clutched in my hair. My voice came in wild screams. It would give the doctors nightmares for sure; it would give me nightmares too. I wanted to stop this, it was stupid, unsanitary and ridiculous but I found myself clinging to my head as if someone drove a nail through it and then…my tears turned black and I was unconscious once more.

I'm beginning to get used to these 'attacks'. Unfortunately, they said it may never stop. It seems they've been worsening but they think I don't know what's going on. I can sense their thoughts. They flow into my mind sometimes; mostly accidently but still. They're planning to move me to another ward. Basically, they think I'm going insane and plan to put me with other, more insane people.

The nurse entered the room, tray of food in hand with the same smile as always.

"What's your name?"

"What?"

"What's your name?" I repeated. "I mean you always walk in when I hear that voice and you already know my name, so what do you want to be called then? Oh-So-convient-nurse-who-just-so-happens-to-walk-in-to-prove-I'm-insane?"

"your name is not Kaos."

"-then what is it?"

She fell silent.

"My name is Kaos. My real name is still unknown but when I know it, I'll be sure to tell you. " She grunted and walked past me, put down the tray and stormed across over to me . "I hate people like you" I said looking into her eyes. "You think you got it bad and think I'm such a weak person that I don't know what's going on. Sure prove I'm insane you get rid of me but it won't escape your memories. You can't get rid of your guilt and I don't know why you feel it but you know something I don't, that's for sure. You knew me from before didn't you?"

The needle in her hand dropped to the floor. "I know nothing of a person like you! You people should just die! It's ridiculous that I have to take care of a woman who's fine clearly! You have no idea how lucky you are to be alive and yet you stumble when someone asks your damn name and you're troubled you have no reply!"

"Do you know how it feels…when someone tells you they love you…and you don't even know they're name? Do you know how it feels to be abandoned by family and not know why? Do you know what its like to live on…and not know what to taste because you may not like it or you're afraid to go to school because you'll be alone?" I looked at my palm and stared at her again. "Stop Complaining and leave me the hell alone. I don't want to look at stained people like you."

–A set of hands reached out to me. They reached for my eyes as I screamed and the room faded white.

I was hot sweaty and suddenly tired all at once. My head felt as if it was titled. I was probably hit in the head with a bat or something; but after hands coming out of no where I don't really know what to think anymore.

"Wake up."

I squinted and looked around. I lay in a bed with a dresser to my left and cabinet to my right with an alarm clock beeping. A rug lay across the room which was pretty large I must say. A miniature table with a Japanese tea set under a bamboo mat. The room was painted a light green, faint but still noticeable.

"Jesus, you're going to be late Kaos."

"You know my name?"

The orange haired girl rolled her eyes at me "I'm only your best friend now move it; before we get in trouble again for being late again!"

"I don't remember getting here." I looked around. Clearly I was in the hospital last and the hand had grabbed me. I remembered that much but everything else had disappeared. Nothing was going on like I'd planned and hell, who would plan this stuff?

"Did you forget everything again?" She laughed "Okay well then, my name is Shotan and we're friends at school, your favourite colour seems to change every time you lose some memories. You also have a minor character change too. Your first period is Math." She said grabbing a shirt from my closest, "then English, Science and then Art". She added grabbing a textbook, a pencil case, a ring, a binder and a backpack that I felt as if I lost for a long time.

"Shotan is a boys name isn't it?"

She smirked as if it was some inside joke.

"Yeah but then again isn't Kaos spelled Chaos?"