Disclaimer: There's so much this jobless teenager would love to own, one of them being Jacob's hot abs :)
So... I'm in absolute pain because of the last 24 hours.
Who knew the process for my visa to get my ass to florida, would be so painful. First I had to get the Gardisal shot, which unlucky me have to be the 6% which get nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, headaches and fever from it. Then I get dragged down to Toronto at 6am to wait in the 'special' doctor's office for 4 hours to have some lady feel up my boobs, then take -painfully- more blood from me.
I hate immigrations.
Anyways I'll put this time to use and write another chapter for you all ;)
Please enjoy and keep reviewing!
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Jacob's POV
SLAM!
The phone clicked violently into the receiver.
Bella pick up the god damn phone.
Jeez- I can't believe I did this to her, it must have been torture. Note to self: Apologize on top of my apology for all the ignored phone calls. I picked up the phone and dialled Bella's digits again rapidly.
"Come on, come on, come on." I chanted to myself persistently. I had called Bella's house repeatedly at least a dozen times in the past 5 minutes- and once again, no answer.
"You can't always get what you want...." blasted from the scratchy radio in the other room. They weren't kidding saying you couldn't always get what you want. It was more like you can never get what you want when, especially when you're the good ol' Jacob Black. No answered phone calls, no amazing cook in the house- no food at that, no Bella, nobody.
"Jake!" Billy called as the most loved scent was detected by my nose-followed by a sour bitter one. I could barely believe what I caught a whiff of. But I knew my hopes could rise as high as I wanted, my nose was as keen as ever; especially since this smell was the most sought after this time of year.
"Be- -" I cut him off, dashing by him almost running him over.
"Bella's here!" I was almost excited as a little school boy. I ran through the front door seeing a shinny Volvo- Edward's shinny Volvo- rolling along my long drive way. That was the cause of the vile scent- his malodorous vehicle. It was only Bella sitting confidently in the front seat. She slammed the parking brake on, jerking the car. She whipped her seat belt off, and I was at her door yanking it open.
Her beautiful face was more than comfort to me. Her lips so full ready to please. I craved more than any point for her to whisper 'I love you Jake' in my ear out of those shy, rose lips.
"Bella...,"I gasped, my heart still not believing in my eyes, "Bella... I'm sorry so, I was trying to call you!" She laughed in response, warm and lucid.
"Jake, it's okay," She leaped forward in a most affectionate embrace, I held her tightly, carefully not to crush her fragile body.
My Bella...
"Why didn't you answer your phone!? I was trying so hard to get a hold of you!" I exclaimed with adrenaline coursing through my body.
I was for sure babbling by now.
God damn my nerves with this girl.
"Jake, calm down." She hushed, her head sinking into my chest. Watching over her head- being so tall- I could see her back inhaling and exhaling. She loved my scent, I could tell she missed it. Warmth coursed through my body, if she only knew what she did to me.
"I missed you, I'm not mad." She finished tilting her head to the side and looking up. She wasn't mad? -
Well of course she wasn't, it was Bella.
But honestly I deserved to be screamed at, stomped on and feel like a piece of shit. I retraced the nasty words in my mind- 'Things haven't and will never change'.
Yes they would- they were changing right now. I couldn't stay away from Bella, she was mine after all. Truthfully even if she married the damn leech, and only wanted me on the side- I'd want her regardless. I still could touch her- feel as happy as I was now. I couldn't be upset around her, I really couldn't. Unless I was holding back on what my body urged to show her.
"What- " I stammered, "How can you still come here after what I said to you, you don't even know how much I own back to you Bella."
"Jake- It's okay. I understand." She said earnestly.
Did I hear that right?
She understood?
That was most wrong she'd ever been- she never would understand how bad it was for me to see my imprint with another man- at that my enemy.
Unless...
She actually did know?
I wouldn't mention it, cause then I could end up hurting her again. I knew now I had to tell her- make her understand the feelings she was experiencing, but I'd wait for the most righteous romantic moment. Not that many moments with me and Bella were romantic, from broken handed kisses, to make out sessions before I had all the bones in my body broken by nasty newborns. I guess bad luck really did follow her- and the people trying to be with her.
I raised my eyebrow inevitably, she noticed and a cocky grin overtook her face, "I know what I am to you." Her mischievous grin grew wider at the shock in my eyes.
What?!
Who the fuck had told her !?- It must've been that bloodsucker Edward. He probably made up some bull shit about me being animalistic and just wanting to fuck the shit of Bella-.... which I completely did. But that wasn't even close to the top of my priority list.
Even if I did erm... do it... with Bella, her pleasure would be my main priority. Her words would be my commands. Just like being alpha or Beta of the pack- I couldn't resist the pleasure of doing anything she wanted. I was truly I whipped dog.
"You know about..." I started not sure if I was willing to spill it out.
"Spring."
"And?"
"The mating season." She continued. I was enjoying not having my tongue tied at the wrong time. The work of explaining was already done.
"And..." I sighed at the last fact to come, she did too. Poor Bella; it must've been hard learning that we were imprints.
My poor beautiful Bells...
"I know what I am to you Jacob; I know what I'm doing to you now." She stated her eyes filling to the brim with tears.
"How?... I'm sorry Bella... I know you want him- I know I keep stubbornly trying."
"I'm too intuitive for my own good. It's my own fault I know. I still don't appreciate you not telling me." Her arms were still wrapped around me, as I stroked her fine hair affectionately.
"Bella..."
"Mhmm?" She perked.
"Let go somewhere to talk- I can almost feel Billy's watchful eyes burning our backs." I snarled a little, causing her to the laugh. A pair of curtains in the kitchen suddenly closed.
She grabbed my hand surprisingly- causing my mind to only think of sweet and gentle thoughts of a pleasant future. I could see a future without loneliness, hurt, or angst dwelling in my heart. My arousal was completely in check, surprisingly, the motive in my body and mind in unison.
"Yea... the beach?" She suggested lightly.
"I have somewhere better," A smile light up on my face, "The cliff." She could immediately see where my reasoning was from as I lifted her up bridal style like the last time we ran in the woods, and I took off.
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I placed Bella down as smooth as possible, before we could see over the edge of the cliff. We walked side by side, holding our breath- and words. How much I wanted to confess so much more than I knew would be appropriate. Truthfully, what in Bella and I's relationship was appropriate? I was a werewolf, she was a human, she was marrying my mortal enemy- a vampire, and at that soon becoming one of them. On top of this all she was my imprint- my love of a lifetime. We were people who couldn't stand being away from each other- yet somehow everything we did was pushing us away from each other.
She sat down dangling her feet of the cliff. I sat protectively behind her, having one of her hands at all times.
A faint sound of chirping birds was heard behind us as the wind as cool as always, brushed against our skin. I only stood in a T-shirt and pants in the cool spring air. My body still was overheated compared to Bella`s wrapped up in jeans and a thick purple hoodie that complimented her pale skin ever so nicely.
She sighed, catching my focus again, "You know... I've never compared you two." Her words seemed to kill her from the inside out.
"I never thought you did. We're really not comparable. Just from the way you are when you're with either of us- I can tell easily we are two completely different people." I replied intelligently. It was unlike me to be so, considerate. But I had had so much time to think about this situation I had almost memorized what Edward did to her.
He was this magical creature in a land of hurt and confusion- who she couldn't resist. His voice to her was as tempting as her blood to him. But so wrong, humans weren't meant to grow old, reproduce and live a happy ever after. But Bella would have the rest of her life filled with angst and sorrow, missing me if she made this choice- and she would only be able to fight it for so long.
"You really are... You have no idea how captivating you are to me. I know, I deny it to your face over and over again. But I'm..."
"Stubborn." I interjected.
"Yea..." She murmured. I wrapped my arm around her and kissed her on the forehead. I gazed out on the beautiful iridescent waters, stretching for miles across the horizon. I had to look over at the girl sitting next to me, the ocean's beauty just didn't compare. I loved my nation, my tribe, my heritage, but nothing more than this girl.
"I'll love you regardless Bella, I want you to be happy. I'm not going to keep pushing you on a choice with me- regardless how much I want you. But you're my imprint- I will have no one else in my life that can or ever will replace you, I can't change that. You have a choice- just with him, I will be in the back of your mind always, and no matter how hard you fight, how hard you try, I'm not going anywhere." I said my voice calm and compassionate.
"Jacob, you already are always on the back of the mind. I gave up fighting. I haven't had a dream without you in it for the past 3 months." She whimpered, a tear tumbling down her velvet cheeks.
I sighed tightening my hold on her.
My curiosity got the best of me, "What are those dreams about....?" My eyes caught the sunlight, my hopes rising.
She smiled to, catching on to my hopeful intentions, "Jake..." She hit me lightly. It could've been with all her strength, but I couldn't tell the difference.
"Hey, you'll never know." I urged laughing playfully.
"Fine I might as well give you a hint." She pouted mischievously.
What was with Bella catching me off guard today?!
Did she just say what I thought you she said?
"Wa..." My mouth was hung open as she turned her body to face me. Bella had the worse mood swings- crying one moment and then teasing me to the extreme the next. I honestly don't know how anyone would handle her pregnant.
"Kiss me Jacob Black." She whispered to my frozen body touching the side of my face. Heat shot like a lightning bolt through my body. My suppressed naughty thoughts were coming to the surface, and to my groin.
"With pleasure..." I responded catching her soft malleable lips in an intimate kiss. I didn't want it to end in any way, as I licked and tasted her sweet mouth. My hand was now unknowingly tangled in her silky brown hair, my body pressed against hers. This was the best day I had in months- whatever happened from this point on, this still made my day, or lifetime.
I pushed her over, onto the soft wet grass, our lips never leaving each other for a second. My hand traced her curves loving every inch of them, gentle yet firm. I pressed my body a little harder into her, hard to resist myself with her arousal being produced and so close to me.
"Jacob..." Bella moaned, my imagination coming to life. I wanted to take her so, so bad. I wanted to pry her clothes off without patience, kiss every square inch of her body without control and make her scream my name, again, and again. I wanted her to beg for more while our body conformed in sweet orgasms together.
"Jac-ob." She said half moaning then cutting herself off from her obvious pleasure with a firm ordering voice. Taking a look at the situation, my rather.... large... boner was digging into her inner thigh.
Oh god...
I rolled off her away from the cliff, gasping for a second to regain thinking with the right head- and not with my enlarged pleading knob. My flushed under my copper skin.
"I am so sorry Bella its-"
She cut me off pleasantly with a laugh, "It's okay Jake honestly." She continued laughing pleasantly then regained her own control.
"I just, it was so nice to say you name- for real and it really be you. It's so nice to kiss you-- argh." Her voice was rung out with frustration by the end of her sentence.
"Believe me... It's nice to hear it too." I smiled feeling truly euphoric.
Bella sighed rolling against my side. I loved the feeling of her body anywhere near mine.
"I don't know anymore... I'm not fighting my head anymore with what I want. I'm just feeling. And I don't know if this if I made the right choice." She seemed so deep in thought, so uneasy.
"Bella, you know what I think, I know, and what I want. I'm not going to push you to make your choice. I'm just going to tell you the truth and keep it that way." I stated plainly.
"Why didn't you tell me before?" She inquired sounding frustrated.
"Bella... I'm not going to lie or hide things from you now. You were still in love with him, and truthfully still are. I'm still kicking myself for telling you now. You're choice should be influenced by what you feel, not but what fate already laid out for me." I explained. It was starting to frustrate me being so serious, and getting nothing in return. I knew I had to though. It was worth it in the end. Then I could be myself and continue to make her laugh.
She smiled a little, despite the tears in her eyes, "I needed to hear fate if that's what you wanted to call it. I don't know what I feel right now."
"Yea, that's why I finally let Edward in my head about this secret. He needed to know what you were going to feel later in life, if not sooner," I smiled, "To my luck, now."
She growled, "Edward."
She was angry with him?
Props to me.
Playing dirty was definitely worth the perks.
I got to have a sweet make out session with the one I love, not to mention she's nowhere close to angry with me.
AND she's angry with her leech boyfriend- er fiancé.
Bonus!
"I like it when you say his name with like that." I laughed with a cocky undertone. She punched me again lightly- or hard I couldn't tell.
"Shut up Jake." Bella growled at me too. I loved it when she was playfully angry, it made her seem ... frisky.
I laughed a little more, "Sorry couldn't help it Bells." She raised her eyebrow wilfully at me.
"I need to talk to him okay? There are things I need to know for sure before anything." She darted fiercely. This probably had to do with Edward keeping his tongue shut, and the definite advantage of being around Bella, I couldn't keep mine shut.
I nodded to agree with her as I helped her to her feet then tossing her in my arms again. She seemed more at ease on our way back. The odd time I'd catch her grasping around my abs surprised by the muscle behind it.
I dropped her down in her car seat. Her body almost seemed to freak without mine to hold on to it. I kissed her on the cheek with innocence.
"I love you Bella, be happy." A tear trickled down her cheek accompanied by a sigh.
"I love you too Jake..." She whimpered, "I'll try, promise." She forced an anxious smile as she turned the keys in the ignition.
I backed off slightly shutting the door, waving as she drove off.
My Bella was closer than she'd ever been and my heart was fuller than ever. Or course, with happiness like this only comes the greater fall. I just prayed that with my heart in Bella's hands, she'd take care of it.
My dear Bella...
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Finally a Jacob Bella moment eh?
Well I hope you like it. :)
I certainly wanted to right a lemon right there and then, but I had to hold off god damnit.
REVIEW! And that damn lemon will come!
Love laurs xo.