(CHEESE! The ending is PURE CHEESE! :D Look an update! Shocked? I'm just months late! I wanted this out in October! I lost inspiration though. Sorry. Updates will be slow because I'm so much more into One Tree Hill/Supernatural crossovers and Twilight/Supernatural crossovers. Dean Winchester = hottest man on earth! :D Um, I also got converted to team Jacob. Yeah…so writing a PRO Edward story is weird but I still love Edward I just hate Edward in New Moon! :D But I LOVE writing the Jacob scenes. It's fun! After I finish this I'll probably write a AH Jacob/Bella story! Um, yeah this is a rushed chapter. I don't like it but it's an update! That's good right? Reviews = love!)
Disclaimer: I don't own if I did Edward probably would have never come back in New Moon. :D
***BPOV***
It had been about a week since Edward Masen left me to go to some perfect boarding school in Europe. When he left I broke down and just cried and cried and cried. No one could get me to stop crying or just to do something. Because I wouldn't. I either just cried or stared off into space. Not even Alice could get me to be alive again. Only one person could, besides Edward. That person wanted to give me some time to grieve but I guess they got tired of waiting for me to come out of my ravine by myself. I was lying in bed listening to my lullaby on CD when Rosalie sauntered into my room. Pissed as hell.
"Fucking pathetic." She spat out when she looked at me. "You know I had you pegged as a fighter. 'My best friend is so strong!' Is what I always thought! I mean you were strong enough; you are strong enough to deal with getting raped and killing the guy but not a different guy leaving you? You're weak. Hell, you're weaker then weak! PATHETIC! I'm ashamed right now…" She stopped when I broke into tears. No one had made me cry. I started crying on my own accord not because of anything anyone else said. There were some hurtful things said at school too. But Rosalie, I couldn't handle her saying these things. Because I knew they were true. She was the only one with the guts to tell me them.
"Rose." I sobbed, which was another first because I hadn't said a word to anyone since Edward left. Sure, I knew I wasn't alone but it sometimes felt like that. And maybe in a way I wanted to be alone. Like 'I can't have Edward so I don't want anyone!' She was right, I was pathetic. Or I felt that way at the time. Rosalie pulled me into her arms.
"Oh baby." She cooed as I sobbed into her chest. "I know it hurts but everything will work out." I pulled back to look at her face. I saw concern written there.
"But what if he never comes back?" I whimpered.
"Then it wasn't meant to be and you'll find the guy your truly meant to be with." She stated simply.
"You really believe that?" She just smiled in response.
"Of course I do." I smiled a weak broken smile back at her. "Now you need to stop wallowing! Or I'll shoot you and put you out of your misery." She said happily and I took a moment to admire my best friend. I mean sure Alice was my best friend too but sometimes Rosalie too the cake for best friend. Although I did love both equally. Rose was passionate and fiery. You didn't mess with the people she loved or you died. She was crazy and wild and beautiful. She was going to be my sister one day. Without a doubt. Emmett was a retard if he let her go.
"I'm never playing Russian roulette with you." I quibbled and she laughed as she walked over and shut of my CD player.
"Funny but baby you should never play Russian roulette with anybody." That actually got me to laugh back and it was an actual laugh.
"Yeah but you would feel no remorse." I laughed out.
"Damn right now I would fee l remorse if I didn't get a blank." She turned and went into my closet.
"You actually wouldn't feel anything because you would be dead." I said logically and she emerged holding clothes.
"Lets not get technical." She scolded and we both laughed for a minute. Ah, Rosalie. Laughter felt so nice. "Now you need a bath."
"Are you saying I smell?" I cocked my head to the side.
"Yes. Now do as I say." I complied. I took the clothes from her and jumped into the bathroom. "AND MAKE IT A GOOD AND LONG BUBBLE BATH! I'LL TURN ON SOME GOOD MUSIC! UPBEAT!" She yelled through the door and I just laughed. I started running the bath and looked for some shampoo to put into the water to make it a bubble bath. I grabbed my strawberry shampoo and smelled it. I always loved the smell. Now it just brought back memories.
***Flashback***
It was summer and I was lying in bed with Edward, at my house. He just stopped by! I was pleasantly surprised. I had just gotten out of the shower so my hair was wet. I was snuggling up against Edward and he started smelling my hair.
"What are you doing?" I asked amusement evident in my voice.
"Smelling your hair." I rolled my eyes.
"No shit! Why?" I shifted around in the bed so I was looking into his eyes.
"Because you smell like strawberries. I love your smell." He said with a smirk and I just had to kiss it off. So I did.
***End of Flashback***
I threw the shampoo against the wall as tears went streaming down my face. Rosalie came rushing through the door that I left unlocked. She looked at the exploded shampoo on the floor, the splashed pink gel, and my teary eyes. She avoided the shampoo mess and held me.
"Sweetie what is it?" She asked kindly.
"H-he…l-lo-loved the…the s-smell of s-str-straw-strawberry…s-shampoo…" I trailed off after stuttering out through my tears.
"Oh. That explains it." She mumbled and I let out a harsh, bitter laugh.
"Doesn't the fact that I'm a fucking emotional mess explain it? I swear Rose, I must be bi-polar or something!" I ranted like a crazy person.
"You might be." She said thoughtfully and I pulled back to glare at her. She smiled a little bit. "But I would do the same thing. Anger is better than nothing. And if the shampoo reminds you of the good times and your not ready for that maybe you should shake it up a little bit." She suggested.
"What do you mean?" I sniffled.
"Alice Cullen is one of your best friends! You have weird shampoo baskets lying around everywhere. Lets go find one. Or how about I go find one and you find some music you won't kill me for putting on." She cracked a smile but I couldn't return it. I just nodded and she sighed. I picked out some upbeat music and made a long playlist of it and she searched for other shampoo. Rose came back with something hidden behind her back.
"I couldn't find a basket thing, per say. But I found something I think you'll love. At first all I could find was this aromatherapy crap…" she went to go on but I interrupted her.
"Aromatherapy crap?" I asked while raising an eyebrow. I was hooking up my music in the bathroom.
"Yeah."
"For my hair?" Wow.
"Yeah…" She laughed.
"Wow."
"I thought so too."
"So, go on." I encouraged.
"I found Bath and Body Works brand voluminzing shampoo and conditioner in Mango Mandarin. It smells good. I think it'll be a good change." She held out two bottles but still had something behind her back.
"Ok hand em' here. I'll put some of the shampoo in to make bubbles." The water was still running. Oops! I had to adjust it.
"Not happening! I found other goodies!" She cooed and I sighed. "Your going to have a great bath. It'll be better than sex. Not that you would know. Wait, would you?" She asked seriously.
"No. He wanted to…but…I…" I couldn't explain it. What was I thinking? Now he might…no I couldn't think about it.
"I understand." She said softly. "It's your first time since you were raped. You don't want it to be a goodbye you want it to be more special." That really was how I felt.
"Thank you."
"For what?" She asked.
"For being here for me. For not thinking I'm going crazy. For being my best friend." I told Rosalie, heartfelt.
"I'll always be here for you. I do think your going crazy but I excuse it. And I'm glad to be your best friend. Now lets get that bath run! With the yummy bath stuff I have here!" Rose actually pulled out a bag full of stuff. I didn't think it was a bag. She pulled out some Bath and Body Works brand, Warm Vanilla Sugar flavor. Rose said that the Orange flavor would smell good with the sugar flavor. I just wanted anything different from my Strawberry and Freesia scent. She brought some yummy candles too and other goodies but those were for later. I reminded myself to thank Alice for all of this. I was actually enjoying all the smelly goods. Rose left and I hopped into the hot bath. Soon my playlist started playing with Seventeen Forever by Metro Station playing. I smiled and dunked my head under the water.
About an hour later I was done. I dried off and got ready. I used some lotion and other stuff that Rose brought me and then I was done. I put on sweat pants and a t-shirt and was done. I walked, carefully down the stairs, and saw Rose and Alice standing in the kitchen.
"Hey." I said nervously while playing with the towel that was around my head. Rose smirked at me and then Alice and Alice's eyes widened.
"It's alive!" Alice yelled excitedly. She got up and ran towards me, hugging me tightly. "I'm so glad your alive!"
"That makes one of us," I mumbled but both girls heard me.
"Actually two because I'm glad your alive," Rosalie said casually.
"Bella that's horrible!" Alice scolded.
"Hmm, how often is the truth horrible," I contemplated while walking over to the table where Rose was sitting.
"You are turning into a cynic," Rosalie accused with a smile while pointing at me with a banana.
"You are pointing at me with a banana. Why?" I questioned, baffled.
"Because bananas are yummy?" She said it like a question and I had to smile, how ever weak that smile was.
"Look it's a smile!" Alice jumped up and down.
"Is she on drugs?" I asked Rosalie.
"I never know with her," Rosalie admitted with a shrug then started eating her banana.
"Hey!" Alice protested and all three of us laughed. After that we sat in front of the T.V. watching horror movies and binging on ice cream. They wanted to watch romance movies but I just couldn't yet. I didn't have the strength. Some where during the fifth movie Jasper and Emmett walked in the house and froze when they saw me laughing at some really unbelievable part in the movie.
"What?" I snapped when they wouldn't stop starring at me. They put there hands up in the universal surrender motion and started backing up to the stairs.
"Nothing!" Emmett swore and ran up the stairs with Jasper but half way up they stopped.
"But it's good to have you back Bells," Jasper grinned and then they ran the rest of the way up. My two girls and I laughed my laugh weaker then the others.
"Lets go Spartans!" Alice yelled while waving around her pom poms.
"I thought we were the warriors?" I smirked.
"What, no! We're the Spartans!" Alice yelled while still watching the game which was close to over.
"Whatever you say all mighty captain!" I slowly back away while trying to hold in my laughter. We were the Spartans but it was fun getting on Alice's case. I hated cheerleading honestly but Alice and Rose wanted me to do it so I did. Worst idea ever.
"We are the Spartans right?" I heard Alice whisper to some random girl beside her. The girl nodded her head and Alice sent a glare my way. I lost it then and started laughing. Tanya joined in. We started talking after I joined the squad and I was ok with that because she wasn't a wannabe anymore.
"You get her so worked up!" Tanya laughed.
"Her punishment for making me join!" We were both going through the moves on auto-pilot almost.
"You didn't have to join you know," Tanya pointed out.
"I'm a people pleaser I guess,"
"Or a doormat,"
"Ouch that hurts slut,"
"Me? A slut? Never," Tanya denied.
"Sure, if you say so!" We both laughed until Alice glared and right after that Mike Newton scored the winning goal. Oh, yeah did I mention we were at the homecoming game? The fans started running onto the field to congratulate the winners and I joined them. Flinging myself into Jacob's arms as soon as I saw him.
"Oh hey Bella!" Jacob greeted as I wrapped my legs around his waist.
"Congratulations!"
"Thanks! Not that I don't like having you on me but people are starring," Jacob pointed out reluctantly.
"Let em'," we both smiled at each other.
"Have I told you how good you look in that cheerleading outfit?" Jacob asked/flirted.
"No but I'm getting the feeling that I look good?" I said coyly while jumping out of his arms.
"You look amazing,"
"I am amazing!"
"You are," he agreed.
"Bella! Time to pack up!" Alice called and I realized people were heading home.
"Coming!" I yelled back. "So, are you going to the dance tomorrow?"
"Are you?" Jacob countered.
"Yeah you should go!" I started walking away.
"See you tomorrow!" Jacob called after me and I smiled despite myself. I didn't even ketch Alice's glare though. She was glaring at Jacob.
"You can do this Bella. I know you can," Alice encouraged me in front of the school.
"I hope your right,"
"Are you ready girls?" Jasper asked us.
"So ready!" Alice squealed. She had been getting a lot better. I was sure she beat the beast called depression. But at times it seemed like she was overcompensating with her hyperness.
"Yeah, Homecoming, fun," I muttered sarcastically. You heard me right, Homecoming. Rose and Emmett were back at college and time had passed since I came out of my catatonic state. It was then homecoming and I knew being without her brother was hard on her so after excessive begging I finally gave in and decided to go to homecoming. It helped that I knew Jacob was coming. Granted he was probably just coming because I was.
"Do I look alright?" Alice asked me as Jasper handed our tickets to the ticket-collectors.
"You look awesome," I answered honestly. She was wearing a short purple satin dress, black sating evening gloves, black cat earrings, and a purple bracelet over one glove, black short boots, and was carrying a black lips purse. Her normally short spiky black hair was a cute curly mess and her make up was smoaky. She looked very Alice-like.
"Good! You look hot by the way!" Alice complimented me back and I just laughed it off. I did look good though. I was wearing a short but modest silver dress, a red ice cream cone necklace, red silk evening gloves, red earrings, and red converses. My make up was light and hair was scrunched.
"Thanks," we headed into the dance. Some pop song was blaring and Alice dragged Jasper off to dance. "Alone again," I muttered.
"Not exactly," Jacob said from behind me. I turned around quickly and wrapped my arms around his neck.
"You look nice!" I complimented when we pulled back.
"You do too, but what's up with the gloves?" Jake asked with a grin.
"Alice," I sighed and we both laughed. We just talked for the whole dance and I realized none of his other friends were there. "Where are your friends?"
"They didn't have a pretty girl rope them into coming," he teased while hitting my knee.
"Oh, Alice didn't get to them?" I joked and once again we both laughed. I laughed more with Jacob then I did with anyone since Edward left.
"Nope!" He grinned. "Hey, you don't look like your enjoying the dance so how about we get out of here?" Jacob suggested.
"Best idea I've heard in a while!" I grinned. "Let me text Ali."
"Jake and I are leaving. Have Fun! XOXO ~ Bella!" I sent the text and grabbed Jacob's hand. We got in his car and started driving.
"Hey could you stop at my house so I can get out of this?" I asked with a small pout.
"How could I ever say no to that face?" He asked.
"You couldn't," I grinned and he shook his head. We pulled up in front of my house and we both went in. I saw a note from my dad.
"At the Black's." Was all it said. I showed it to Jacob.
"How about you get changed and then we go and hang out at my house. You're dad can take you home," Jacob suggested.
"Deal. I'll hurry," I ran up the stairs and went into my room. I put on a pair of jeans, an ACDC t-shirt, and a hoodie. Pulling off the earrings, necklace, and gloves. I ran back down the stairs. "I'm ready!" I called to Jacob.
"Good," he grinned and we headed for his car.
"…and then she was like 'you must like spinage'!" Jacob laughed and so did I.
"What the hell, Jake!?" I laughed at the story he just told me.
"Cougars are scary!"
"Not to mention you're jail-bait!" We both laughed even harder.
"Hey you're just as old as me!"
"I'm older," I bragged.
"Technically, but not really," he shrugged.
"BS!" I called to him.
"Well, well, well what do we have here?" Embry asked as he walked in the garage. It caused me to have a James flashback but I shook myself out of it quickly. 'Stop it Bella! He's dead! You killed him!' I reminded myself.
"Bells, you okay?" Jacob asked.
"I'm fine," I smiled.
"Yes you are," Quill remarked and Jacob hit him over the head.
"Hey don't kill the messenger!" Embry stood up for his friend.
"BELLA! We're leaving!" Charlie called.
"Hey I gotta go. Ketch ya, later!" I waved and started walking out of the kitchen.
"Bye, Bella!" All three chorused and I laughed. I loved my friends, they would get me through the rough patches in my life.
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