Edward arrived at my house sooner than I thought he would. When he got there I was sitting in a chair at the dining room table with tears streaming down my cheeks.

"My goodness Bella, what did Jasper do to you?" was the first thing Edward said when he walked in the door.

I didn't say anything I just pointed at the box in the center of the table that was still there from earlier. He sighed and asked me to explain. Once I did explain, Edward's normally pale white skin turned fiery red and he started mumbling to himself. I didn't know what to say, or do, so I did what I usually do when something terrible happens and Edward is with me. I wrapped my arms around his body and he pressed me into his chest. These hugs normally last for minutes at a time, but tonight I was feeling especially horrible so I held on longer, and tighter. After a while Edward pulled away.

"Bells, I'm so sorry, I don't know why he would do this t-" Edward was interrupted by a small buzzing noise.

It was my phone. I ran over to it to see who it was and the screen read "Jasper." I had no idea what to do, so I hit send.

"What?" I snapped into the phone, making my fury noticeable.

"Look Bella, I'm really sorry about everything and I just wanted to let you know... well I feel horrible about it and... well I was just wondering... if we can still be friends?" He asked in a hopefull tone.

I had nothing to say to him, so I hit end and set the phone back on the table. I looked up and Edward was staring at the present with deep hatred for it.
"Take it outside if you want, it means nothing to me but a lie. Six months of lies."

Later on after I made dinner for Charlie and put it in the fridge, we decided that I needed to get some sleep, and Edward would stay the night, like always. While I took a nice, relaxing shower and put on my pajamas Edward went downstairs to pick out a movie for us to watch. As we were watching the movie I began to think more and more about Jasper. Even though I am furious with him and his actions, I miss him so much. I must have thought out loud because Edward responded.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"I just miss him so much. I don't know what to do. How can I be so furious with him but yet still want him back? It just doesn't make any sense," my voice trembled.

"Bella, does anything every truly make sense? That's just how the world is. Your feelings for him are mixed yes, but in the end, he cheated. That's not right. I think you should have some dignity and walk away from it all. You do not deserve to be treated like that."

Without saying another word I grabbed my phone and dailed Jaspers number. He picked up after two rings.

"Bella?!"

"Come over. We need to talk."

"Be right over"

I snapped the phone shut without saying goodbye. This talk could make or break this relationship. Edward decided that he would just hide in the closet until Jasper left. The whole time I waited for Jasper my stomach was tieing itself into giant knots. The worst part about the whole thing was, if me and Jasper were to get back together, I would have to give in to his pressure to move foward in our relationship. Or he would cheat again. I have very defined beliefs on sex, I believe you should only do it if you are absolutely positive that you love the person. Sure I love him, but do I love him that much? Is this really what I wanted?

Just then I heard a car door slam shut and raced down the stairs, opening the door before he even got up to it. Here goes nothing, or everything.

"Hey" was the first thing I could get myself to say. It was so strange talking to him, after what happened the last time we talked. He didn't say anything, but he pulled me into his chest and wrapped his arms around me. He was warm, and this hug felt more like a friendship hug than a hug that is shared between two lovers. I pulled away as fast as I could.

"You are here because we need to talk," I said with a harsh tone.

"Ok. What did you want to talk about?"

"I think you know that one. I just want to know why, what did I do to you to possibly deserve all this."

"Nothing, nothing at all. I just couldn't control myself, I'm so sorry. It was just you wouldn't do it and I went so long without it that I just had to! My body wouldn't let me say no... This is the reason why I think we should just strictly be friends. I don't want you to have to go through all this anymore, Bella. You have to admit that over the past few months we've been growing apart, I just don't know how we could ever get it back to how it used to be. I do love you Bella, I'm just not in love with you." he spoke, trying desperatly to convince me.

"Jasper, I can't do that. Not after all that we have been through, it just seems so awkward," I said, my bottom lip forming a pout. What has gotten into me, I'm like begging for him back.

There was a long pause as I thought about everything. I want him back, but he just wants to be friends. I felt like I was dying inside. The saying is true, "A girl wants what she can't have."

The room was still completely silent, I was waiting on him to speak before I did.
"Jasper! I love you! You cannot do this to me," I said as tears started pouring down my face, taking my eye makeup with.

I didn't speak, all I could do was press myself into his chest and inhale. His smell, how badly I had missed that smell. I suddenly felt that everything I had ever wanted was right in front of my eyes, I was touching it, smelling it and taking it all in, and I could no longer have it. I loved him and he loved me -- as a friend. Without taking even another second to think I pulled away slightly and tilted my head up to meet his. I gazed at him for a long minute and crashed my lips to his. I kissed him, but he didn't return the kiss, he just stood there waiting for me to pull away and stop making myself look like a complete idiot. I pulled away and looked into his eyes, I could tell that the passion and lust that used to be in them was suddenly gone, I had lost his love. And there was nothing I could do about it, nothing but run to my room, dive under the blankets, and cry.