A/N: This chapter was particularly my favorite to write so far, please review.

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer has full ownership of Twilight.

And there was nothing I could do about it, nothing but run to my room, dive under the blankets, and cry.

I darted up the stairs without looking back, looking back would be suicidal. All the memories I had with him over the months drained from my body, hallowing me. I had forgotten that Edward was still here, he might be the one thing that can make this feeling of emptiness disappear and fill me with even a small amount of happiness. The sooner I could get to my bed the better, I needed stability or I would surely collapse on the floor. Knees shaking, heat spinning, lungs begging for air and heart beating fast than what could be normal, I finally got to the bed. I dove into my comforter with tears streaming down my face and basking in the comfort, letting out a weak sob followed by much more powerful, ear-splitting wails. I prayed Jasper wasn't anywhere around here to hear me. My pathetic break down was interrupted by the mattress sinking in the spot next to me and two warm arms wrapping around me, I inhaled the smell of musk and I knew it was Edward. He didn't say anything, there was nothing to say and he knew it, there was no word that could make me feel any better. We lay in my bed, him holding me as I cried, in silence until he rested his chin on my shoulder, put his mouth right next to my ear and whispered, "Just breathe Bella, everything will be okay. I promise."

I took his advice and took a few deep breaths, which seemed to calm me down quite well. After deep breathing for a few minutes I was done weeping. The headache that came afterwards was excruciatingly painful but I was so worn from the days' events and the crying that I was out like a light and enjoying the time in dreamland that I undoubtedly deserved.

EPOV

Bella was a wreck. Whatever happened between her and Jasper down there was enough to push her overboard and cause a breakdown. There was nothing I could say to make anything better, all she needed was sleep. I lay there in her bed with her until she slipped into a deep sleep. I couldn't move, I might wake her and that would be selfish of me. As I was laying there, I began to think back to a time that wasn't too far back.

(Flashback)

I looked up at the pale blue sky as I was walking to the middle of the forest, leaves crunching under my feet, to our spot. The location where everything in our relationship has happened. This forest clearing is my absolute favorite place to be. Once I reached the small oasis, I attempted to make myself comfortable, resting in between two trees on the forest floor while I waited for the person who held my heart completely to arrive. I took the opportunity to get inside my own head, which could be lethal. No matter how hard I tried I could never shake the images of what goes on in this very location from my head. When I thought back to the many scandelous activities we'd had here, I couldn't believe how long we had been going on these little rendevous without being caught by his significant other. The fact that we haven't been found out is exceptionally astonishing, because there is no doubt on this Earth that it cannot be kept a secret. As the minutes passed I became more and more impatient for the arrival of the expected party. My legs started in with their usual act of slightly shaking and I found myself constantly searching the premises nervously. In a matter of minutes I was slowly losing hope and dying inside due to the feeling of being stood up and then I was filled with fury. I was concerned as to why I would be left alone in the crisp autumn air when we never failed to meet up and spend our well deserved time together. Just as I was about to give up and go home I heard the familiar crunching leaves beneath hiking boots and the scent that unceasingly made my body fill with lust.

"Well, well, well. Look who the cat dragged in." I heard someone chuckle behind me. I turned around to see the face that filled my dreams at night. Before I had chance to respond he took fistfulls of my shirt on both sides, backed me up against a tree, and started moving his lips with mine with such a force that I had never felt before. I have to admit that I loved every second of it. After minutes of the most passionate kissing I have ever experienced I felt his tongue dart across my lips requesting enterance to which I willingly complied. With our tongues twirling together in harmony I placed my hands on his hips and we fell to the ground like we always did. After a while both of our lungs were begging for air, forcing us to pull away. From there we just lay on the ground and talk.

"This is beginning to get insane," I stated.

"I know, but it's the only time and place we have. Would you rather we not see each other at all?"

"No, no. It's just.. sometimes.. I miss you more than I can handle," I said, witnessing the pain in my gut as my stomach dropped at the words that express what is going on inside me.

"I know how you feel, but it's the only way. We can't risk being caught. As much as it kills me to say so. Do you know how much I wish we could just be. Like we didn't have to hide anything. But we live in a cold cruel world where that may never be possible, my friend." I could see the pain in his eyes, and I knew that he was going through the same shit that I was.

After a long pause I heard him say, "I'm really sorry but Bella is expecting me to arrive at her house any minute. Same time, same place next week?" He said with a grin. I hestitated before nodding at him. Envy raced through my blood. It's always about Bella, my best friend, his girlfriend. I secretly wish that they will break up soon. Not that I don't love seeing him happy but I guess green just isn't my color. He must notice the look on my face because he places his hand on my jawline and moves my head so I'm looking up, directly into his eyes and says, "I have a plan. A plan to get away from Bella".

Instantly I perk up, "You mean like for a day, or forever?" I ask trying to mask the hope in my voice.

"For a while. I want to spend more time with you, and as much as I honestly love her, I can't do that with her around."

"Let's hear it." I say, trying not to beat around the bush.

"Ok, I'm going to give her a present that will make her think I have cheated and then lie to her about cheating with Jessica Stanley, and then she will be pissed and we will fight. That's my plan. Sound good?" he asks. Before I have the chance to say anything he adds, "and she will probably call her best friend, you, for a shoulder to cry on. So that's your signal that it worked. Just act as her best friend, and pretend that you despise me. I promise that it will all work out and we can have more time together" he said with a big grin on his face. His phone starts to ring so all I can do is nodd that the plan is great while he answers it and promises Bella he will be there shortly. After saying his goodbyes to her and clicking his phone shut he pulls me into another suave kiss on the lips and I whisper in his ear, "I love you Jasper."

Before he turns to walk away, he holds my gaze with a crooked smile playing on his lips and my dick is instantly hard again. "I love you too, Edward."