Hi guys Chi-chan of course

Lots of emotional natsume and mikan love in this chapter(hehe)

Will Hotaru and Mikan make up? Will mikan and natsume make out ?

Read on to find out.

Chapter 4: Love Her when I'm Gone

Natsume.

Why did she think of Natsume?

The sun was setting it was growing dark she didn't care. She didn't know she just had to see him. She wanted him to insult and then be sweet to her like he always did. First worsen the problem then make everything better. She ran until she came to the Sakura tree and there he was leaning against the tree one leg propped up on the tree (bad boy look) and eyes closed.

"Natsume" she whispered, but he heard her. He opened his eyes and saw the girl in front of him. Long hair fallen on her shoulders still in uniform her face was flushed and her eyes were brimmed with tears. He took a step forward.

Mikan.

"Natsume!!" Mikan cried as she ran to him and jumped into him. He didn't know what happened. first they were having a staring contest know she was crying in his chest. He didn't konw what made her cry, but she needed him at that moment and that's all that mattered. He sat down and let Mikan cry in his chest from were she was sitting in between his legs. half an hour later her sniffling and tears came to a stop, but didn't move from her spot she liked it there and he liked her there.

"Oi Mikan are you awake polka-dots?" Natsume asked trying to lighten the mood.

"Hai." she said quietly as she lifted her head off his chest and looked at him in the eyes. Hazel caramel eyes met flaming sea ruby eyes.

"Gomen ne Natsume," Mikan said as she began to stand up he pulled back down and wrapped his arms around her waist. She recovered from the shock she laid her head on his chest and told everything from the book to what happened with Hotaru and why she was there.

I needed you for some reason.

He was blushing at that. He never thought she would say that all he could say was "I'm here Mikan." She smiled and fell asleep and so did he. When he woke up it was dark and the moon loomed overhead casting a lovely shine above them. Natsume looked down at Mikan her skin almost glowed under the light and her peaceful sleeping face looked that of a child along with her slightly closed hands that had made semi fist like a baby. Her hair shone with beautiful elegance it made him blush at the sight. Not wanting to wake her he carried her bridal style she was as light as a feather he made it to her room with no problems.

Until

"MIKAN SAKURA WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!" Ichigo yelled as she was running full force to the door where Natsume was standing. She was holding a rolled up magazine she looked up and saw Natsume she came to a screeching halt. Stopping right in front of him with dust around her feet.

"She fell asleep may i come in," Natsume said regaining his emotionless face.

"Hai" She said moving aside allowing him to come through the door as he came in she shut it.

"Ne Hyuuga-san-"

"Natsume" he said sternly as he put the sleeping girl on the bed and she was whispering Fluff Puffs.

Baka.

"Souka Natsume then what happened to Mikan?" she asked back to her emotionless self(She and Natsume could pass as brother and sister)

He told her everything mikan had told him and about Hotaru. When he finished he looked at the girl who was sitting on the window seat. She was wearing just a long sleep shirt that went to mid-thigh. It was black with 'girl' written in gold letters across the front she looked casually out the window with one leg straight across the long seat one knee propped up she had her hands rested on the raised knee leaning against the cushions that were cutely arranged with some stuffed animals. Natsume sat on the study desk chair.

"Souka" she said quietly.

Natsume was a bit surprised he expected her to be angry. "Were you expecting this?"

"Hmph." she was smiling. "Of course. Why else would I send her there?"

"Why would you ruin their friendship?" Natsume was mad, but he managed to stay calm.

"Friendship," she repeated liked it was that most ridiculous thing she has ever heard." some friendship. Hotaru doesn't appreciate her. Not even you. Look at you completely head over heels with her and won't even admit to yourself or her" she smirked as he fell silent then he spoke up.

"So that's you're plan to make her hate the rest of her friends so you're the only she would love" Natsume said meeting her eyes which gleamed in the moonlight that filled the whole room.

"Don't think so low of me Natsume I know what I'm doing. You just need to face facts she's growing up. Everyone sees you as some kind of god. Handsome, smart, tough and malevolent, but you know what I see? I see a coward. You need to cut the crap and tell her before she gets over you and moves on. She's so naive.That's what keeps her with you guys. You know why Hotaru hates us together because I'm helping Mikan realize that she's a human being with natural feelings and emotions. Not some always smiling punching bag. You all look for comfort in her stupidity. So that she never grasps the real impact of those words you yell at her everyday! Mikan looks to Hotaru for friendship and comfort she mistook harsh words and physical indangerment for this. Hotaru I guess hoped she would never take it that way, but all she needed was a little push. Even you who thinks you're surrounded by darkness. Mikan looks to you for protection, but personally I think it's the other way around you need her."

He gave her his death glare she kept her ground or seat rather. She glared back at him full force now taking a mocking tone.

"Hmph. Tell me Natsume if you destroyed the world who would you want to comfort you and smile like nothings wrong? Hmm?" giving him a smirk "Behold your savior and light Natsume Hyuuga!" pointing at Mikan who was still sleeping soundly(dang that girl can sleep through a hurricane and tornado both happening at once hehe)

"Stop this bullshit about not wanting to take her into the darkness and let her into your heart!" She threw a pillow at him as she said 'heart'. He didn't dodge it he knew it was coming, but he let it hit him.

"You know what she told me once," She said turning back to the window regaining her soft emotionless voice.

flashback

"Mikan-chan?" Ichigo asked they were sitting in Mikan's room.

"Hai onee-sama" Mikan said looking up from the book.

"Do you like someone?" Ichigo asked suddenly.

"I think so" Mikan said with a tint of red in her cheeks.

"Is it Hyuuga-san?" Ichigo asked.

"Hai. How did you know?" Mikan asked.

"I'm your sister I know everything," Ichigo said as-a-matter-of-factly. Mikan's mouth made an 'o'.

"Aren't you afraid of the darkness in his heart,"

"Iie as long as I'm in his heart it doesn't matter. Besides," Mikan said snapping her head around. slow motion hair drop "I'll bring a flashlight. Hehe" Mikan said smiling.

Ichigo smiled too. This was good news.

end flashback

Natsume smiled unconsciously at that then regained his composure. "Souka."

Ichigo caught his smile and smirked. "Ne Natsume?" She stood up then walked over to him. Her tone softened. "Take care of her I don't know how much time we have left together, but promise to love her when I'm gone, only you can," She whispered the last part to him in his ear. She left the room.

Natsume sat in silence for a few minutes then got up to leave when the girl in the bed started to stir.

"Natsume?" she asked sleepily while rubbing her eyes.

Natsume was frozen for moment then walked over to the bed.

"Hai Mikan" stroking her hair.

Mikan turned scarlet "A...Arigatou Natsume"

"Nani"

"Being there when I felt like I was alone," the red draining from her face as he dropped his hand.

"Souka"

Natsume looked at Mikan who was now blushing again as she looked at the floor.

"Demo I do want some sort of payment for you getting snot all over my uniform and nearly giving me a stroke carrying your heavy self all the way up here."

"NATSU-" she was cut off by lips. His lips that were press against hers. She wanted to fight back , but her body wouldn't listen she melted into the kiss.

It started as a soft kiss that soon grew passionate and heavy. Soon Natsume was casually laying back on the pillows at an angle with Mikan on top they were kissing furiously. He managed to slip his tongue into her mouth and explored it's every corner He savored the taste.

Strawberries.

Then they pulled away for breath.

"Natsume let's go to sleep" Natsume gave her a smirk.

"And keep yours hands to yourself pervert," she said with a glare.

Natsume just smiled as he wrapped his arms around her and soon they fell asleep.

Outside the room

Ichigo stood on the other side of the door listening to the noises. She was satistfied she knew Mikan was going to wake up soon so she left them to have some privacy.

'Arigatou Natsume just keep loving her'

Love her when I'm gone

Hoped you like it. So far so good on my exams. Thank Kami-sama! But tomorrow is the dreaded Geometry exam. NOOOOOOOO!!! hehe but I'll do my best thanks for the reviews keep 'em coming

Ja ne minna-san

lots of love Chi-chan